Hey soo I would like to dedicate this chapter to Munroloverx1. She gave me my first review for this story. I have written other stories and I have had other people review those stories, but this is my first story in a while. I am actually so intrigued in this story and writing that I am so excited to get a review on it. Okay so now that I have poured my heart out to you guys I will now present you with the third chapter.

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Breathe Ch.3

Clare's POV

(Flashback)

I was sitting in Morty as Eli quietly drove to his counselor's office. He had asked me to come with him. It was a step for him; I mean it has been a year since he was diagnosed. He would always tell me how one day he would bring me along. In fact he told me that his counselor said that when he is ready that I should attend a session. Eli looked over at me for a split second and smirked. I think he could tell I was nervous.

"Clare you are so nervous." He laughed.

"Don't I have a right to be?" I asked.

"Well yeah, I guess." He smiled.

"How do you guess?" I questioned.

"Well enough with all of this talk, we are here." He said.

Eli parked Morty and then we walked around and opened my door for me. He grabbed my hand and then we walked into the building. I sat down as Eli went and signed himself in. He came and sat next to me and put his arm around me. I reached down and picked up the book 'The Lives I Now Know'. (A/N okay just to tell you guys this: A. That book I made up is an actual novel that I have been writing.) I looked over at Eli and he just laughed.

"Elijah Goldsworthy." The secretary said. We stood up and followed her into a room.

"Dr. Brown will be in a couple minutes." She smiled and then left.

"Clare you can sit down." Eli smiled as he motioned to the couch.

"Oh yeah." I said nervously.

"Clare please don't be nervous." He said coming to sit down next to me.

"I know I shouldn't be but it's just an uncomfortable situation." I said back.

"Remember Clare this is the first step to recovery." He said to me. His green eyes staring into my blue eyes.

"Whose recovery Eli?" I asked him.

"Our recovery together. I had my first step; you have had your first step. Now this is our first step as a couple." He smiled.

"Eli." Dr. Brown smiled as she walked in.

"Oh Dr. Brown this is Clare." Eli said as she held her hand out for me to shake.

"How are you today Eli?" Dr. Brown asked.

"I'm good." He said

"Okay. Have you gone manic at all in the past week?" She questioned.

"No I haven't." He said squeezing my hand.

"Okay Eli if you don't mind I would like to talk to Clare by myself and then we will bring you back in and we can all talk." She smiled.

"Of course." Eli said as he got up and walked out.

"Dr. Brown why do you need to just talk to me?' I asked.

"I need to talk to you because I have some concerns about Elijah." She said.

"Why don't you talk to his parents about it?'' I questioned her.

"Because you know him better than they do. He has told me about how many things you know that his parents don't know. But I know something's that no one knows." She said.

"What do you know?" I asked quickly.

"When he is ready he will tell you. Now please explain how your relationship with Eli has changed since he was diagnosed." She said.

"Well it has gotten stronger, but it has also gotten weaker, and sometimes he scares me but I try to stick through it." I said

"Can you please explain why it has gotten stronger?" she asked.

"Well I understand that he is going to need me. He knows that I will always be there for him. I was with him every step of the way and because of that it has made us stronger. It feels like we could make it through anything if we made it through that." I said.

"How has it gotten weaker?" She asked.

"Well how it is weaker is also why he scares me. I feel that sometimes that when he does have a manic episode he is going to hurt me. So there goes some of my trust issues. I would love to trust him when he says that he would never hurt me but I just can't." I said regretting the words that I have just said.

"Okay thank you Clare. Let me go get Eli." She smiled. They both came back in and Eli sat down beside me.

"I love you." Eli whispered in my ear.

"Okay so after my session with Clare I think I know how I can help you two." She said.

"And what would that be?" Eli asked.

"I think it would be best if you two broke up." She sort of smirked.

"What the hell is that supposed to mean!" Eli yelled as he got up and left the room slamming the door behind him.

"Eli wait!" I yelled after him. I was stopped by Dr. Brown's hand grabbing my wrist.

She handed me her business card. On the back it said 'Call if you need any help.' I didn't want her help she just made Eli go off. I ran outside to see him sitting on the ground next to Morty. It looked like there was some sort of drink or spill or something around him. I walked closer but something made me stop. There was a shiny object in Eli's hand.

"Please don't come any closer Clare." He said his voice shaking.

"This is the secret that you only told Dr. Brown isn't." I said.

"Clare please just go away." He said.

"Eli I can't go away now. I love you too much." I said slowly approaching.

My thoughts were right. He had cut himself. My Eli hurting himself why? I walked over to him and grabbed the pocket knife off of the ground. I helped Eli up and then I wrapped him in a hug. I walked him around to the passenger side and helped him in. He handed me his keys and I walked around to the driver's side.

"Clare if you open up the glove compartment there are Band-Aids and stuff in there." He said.

"Okay." I said as I opened the compartment and grabbed the Band-Aids and a towel.

I cleaned his cuts and then I put the Band-Aids on the cuts. I drove him home and then I called my mom to tell her I was sleeping over Alli's house. I grabbed a bottle of water and then walked up to Eli's room. He was lying on his bed sleeping. The only time when he could truly be innocent looking.

(Present Day)

Alli walked into the counselor's office with me. We sat down and waited for the counselor to walk in. When she did walk in I couldn't believe who I had to talk to. Dr. Brown. Eli hadn't gone to her since she told us that we should break up.

"Clare Edwards, I haven't seen you in a while." She smirked.

"Alli maybe we could just go talk to someone else." I said.

"Why would you want that?" Alli asked.

"Alli why don't you let Clare and I talk." Dr. Brown smiled.

"Yeah sure. Clare I will be out here waiting for you." Alli said.

"Why are you here?" I asked.

"I see Eli got himself killed. No doubt you helped with that." She looked at me.

"Eli and I both knew that it would be better if we stayed together." I said standing up.

"Clare call me if you ever need to talk." She smiled.

"Why would I ever want to talk to you again?" I asked stunned.

"Well let's just say that I have been talking to your boyfriend's murderer lately." She said.

After she said that I just had to get out of there. I could tell she never really liked Eli. I met her once before and she just seemed so different. Eli never really noticed anything but I could tell. I could tell that something was off. I knew what it was now. Fitz had been going to her at the same time as Eli was. But still that doesn't explain why she would tell me about her seeing Fitz.

"Clare, are you okay?" Alli asked.

"Alli, Dr. Brown is related to Fitz somehow. I just know it" I said blankly.

I'm going to get down to the bottom of this somehow. This would be a big step. I had a lot of big steps coming up in my life soon. Eli and mine's 2 year anniversary, and then of course Fitz's trial.

Poor Clare it's like the world just hates her. Well bad news is the world will hate her more in the next chapter. Yes it's the chapter about their 2 year anniversary. Major plot twist oh wait I have said too much already farewell my avid readers love you all!