Title: Feelings Never Told
#: Track 03. Wait
Author: Lucifer Rosemaunt
Fandom: Phantom of the Opera
Pairing(s): Erik/Raoul
Summary: Series of ficlets with songs used as inspiration.
Warning(s): slash
Word Count: 296
Rating: K+
A/N: Remember, there is a fanmix attached to this; go to my profile to download. btw, can I just say that apparently most of these songs make me think angsty angsty thoughts of moments where either of them dies or they're pushing the other one away? Really though, that's apparently my headcanon of them.
Story note: Really, four times this time around? :( I'm supposed to be getting better not failing harder at being able to write a ficlet in one go of the song. It's not even that long! I think I need longer songs. ;3
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Alexi Murdoch – Wait
And If I stumble, and if I stall
And if I slip now, and if I should fall
And if I can't be, all that I could be
Will you? Will you wait for me?
"Erik."
Raoul's voice was enough to stop him. There was a confidence in it that had once annoyed him; in fact, it still annoyed him. It had nothing to do with the fact that he had been trying to flee. In that count, he was annoyed at both Raoul and himself.
"You know not what you ask of me."
Raoul pressed his lips together. It was not quite a frown, but close to it – close enough for someone who smiled near constantly, whether it was fake or forced. Hands palms up, he shrugged. "That is a poor choice of words."
Erik sneered in response. It had been a poor choice, but now was not a time to be so perceptive nor so grounded in their past and history. That was exactly the reason why he had been trying to leave. He'd been trying to spare them both of what was certain to be a disaster.
"I can't be what you want me to be." He was annoyed to realize that he couldn't say he didn't want to be.
Raoul had the gall to respond, "I don't want you to be anything other than what you are."
"That is a lie." There were so many things that Raoul wished to change, that Erik, himself, wished to change as well; because as much as he had seen the acts he'd done – lying, stealing, killing – as necessary, he hadn't been able to stop once his life had been free from danger.
Silence was his response and Erik almost wanted another lie.
The younger man nodded once, eyes searching his own. He must've seen what he had been looking for because he finally took a step back, indicating that he would stop pursuing him. "I'm willing to wait for you."
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A/N: Don't forget to R/R (Read and Review)!
Fic Review: Okay, Erik seems totally OOC here. I know, but I see this as the fic wherein Erik found himself pretending to be this better person for the sake of keeping Raoul with him and then realized what he was doing and knew it couldn't last forever. It's Erik wanting to change for Raoul's sake, but really for his own sake because he doesn't want to be the monster any longer – which is a facet of his character that is totally canon… I just didn't portray it so well in this ficlet.
