Many supports I received made me happy. Thank you.

But normality seemed to rule the society, no?

What is defined by normal, I wonder. For me, a normal is something that wouldn't disappoint your parent. A conservative family I had, they never heard the word homo. I bet they'll get a massive heart burn if they heard that statement.

So I opted for hetero.

Well, yeah. Maybe. I don't know. LOL.

Enjoy!


Time passed by like a cotton candy for Tezuka. Fluffy, pink and sweet, the world of dating enveloped him comfortably. But the second he tasted it, the sweetness gone; changed into an emptiness in his mind and he needs more.

Maybe it was because of the exam week; both he, Fuji and the girl were having their mid-exam. As a student, naturally Tezuka chose to study rather than hanging out with the girl. The girl seemed to understand and respected Tezuka's wish, letting their important quality time filled with books and notes. Tezuka felt good. This is the way it supposed to be. I respect you, you respect me, we respect each other. The girl seemed to be like his mother, and this is normal.

Not like when he was with Fuji. Although it was only 5 days, Fuji has bombarded him with so much information and crossed the boundary he had set between him and the world so many times. Fuji had made him felt more in 5 days compare to what he felt with Oishi for 6 months. Not in a romantic way, of course, more like a slap of reality.

Tezuka sometimes, just sometimes, wondered actually what is happening with Fuji. Knowing him just for 5 days only, he already knows that Fuji won't just let him go like that. He must be planning something. Tezuka started to peek at the corner, waiting eagerly (not that he will agree) for a smiling shadow stalking him.

However, he was greeted with disappointment when he found no one was following him. Fuji seemed to be so distant. People reasoned that exam has made changes in people, and they oversee the fact that Fuji has become more reserved.

The girl caught him thinking alone so many times that she started to felt insecure. And to proof her value, she asked for a date in the Sunday after the exam. Which Tezuka felt compelled to say yes. So they are going for a date.

Tezuka looked himself at the mirror, repeating to himself that this is 'normal'. He is a guy and he is dating a woman. This is what it is supposed to be. Adam and eve.

But something felt wrong. He couldn't tell, but it's just something felt so wrong.

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Fuji was restless and every time he saw the girl beside Tezuka, he wanted to slap, kick and hurt the girl until she promised she would never touched the bespectacled boy anymore. The feeling was so great that Fuji started to recognize the pattern. This is similar to what he has for his brother last time.

Jealousy.

And Fuji was scared. Honestly, even with Takashi he never felt this way. And he started to feel guilty. Why he didn't feel like this for Takashi, who has showered him so many love and affection? Why did he felt this sensation with a jerk who ditched him after 5 days?

He started to distant himself from Tezuka's class, Tezuka's locker, and finally, the school. He avoided places that Tezuka might be found. Luckily it was an exam week and he has the reason to be reserved. Blame everything on exam, everyone, because exam burned your brain to its membrane and you are left with nothing except physics formulae.

After successfully avoid the boy and his new girlfriend for 4 days, however, Fuji found them once again in a very awkward time. He overheard that they were going out for a date this weekends. His heart thumped louder while it was still hurting.

Tezuka said yes so easily to the girl. That made Fuji thought something else. Blame it on his young and emotional mind; he just suddenly took the conclusion that Tezuka might actually be someone who never said no to a request. That's why he accepted Fuji last time, just because Fuji asked him straight to his face.

Stupid.

Fuji ran from the place where Tezuka and the girl started kissing. Stupid.

Although he is hurt (and think Tezuka is the biggest nerd, jerk, asshole ever) but he still wanted to kiss Tezuka like that.

Jealousy. Stupid.

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Fuji planned to stay at home that Sunday, refusing to go anywhere with a perfect chace to see a scene that might break his fragile heart once more. He stayed at home, spending the time taking pictures of his own bed.

Pathetic.

"Hi!" Suddenly the door opened, and the famous lady-killer, Fuji's childhood friend, Saeki, comes in. "How'r u doin?"

"…what are you doing here?" Fuji smiled his usual face. Between wary for a newcomer in his room and a happy feeling because he could greet somebody that will positively made him forget Tezuka for some hours, Fuji was torn to either kick him out, or thanked the sudden guest's appearance.

"Hey, don't be that harsh… I am here of course to see you, honey." The boy could read his friend's mind, and blinked friendly.

Fuji laughed. The taller boy was his neighbour; he moved somewhere in 3 years ago. But occasionally, he will barge into Fuji's room like this whenever he was around the area. It just felt natural since he has been doing that since they were kindergarten. And of course, Saeki is as straight as a wood.

"what'ddya doin? Photoing your desk? Nothing to do? Bored? Ha! Let's hang out! I will introduce you to my newest girlfriend!"

"… How much girlfriend do you have this month?" Fuji asked, knowing that the lady killer will have a string of female's names for his changing partners every week.

Saeki opened his hand. And counted. "One, …two… ehm… three… well, this is the fifth this month."

"You still can't count." Fuji mocked him. "after 3 is 4."

"I know, I know." Saeki scowled. "You fu*king tensai!"

Fuji smiled at the rude statement. He was used to it. "Thank you."

Saeki smiled and patted his childhood friend's back. "so; what's for this week? You look pale. You were having the exam, right? So… how's it?"

"…uhm… nothing was interesting…" Fuji started to recount what happened. "Except if you count I broke up an interesting thing."

"You WHAT, sorry?" Saeki widened his eyes. "Broke up?"

"Yeah. With my boyfriend."

"Haha." Saeki laughed so heartily. "Maybe you mean girlfriend. Well, dude, its life! There are so many other women outside there, cheer up!"

"No, I said boyfriend."

"…" Saeki's brain failed to process the information. "You said what? Boy—B-O-Y friend? As in Boy—male?"

"Yeah. I am glad you can spell now, Saeki." Fuji enjoyed the reaction, but he regretted that he confessed the truth the next minute. Saeki was so pale and shocked as id Fuji just told him he has AIDS.

"What… I beg your pardon… You are …GAY?"

The way Saeki pronounced the word made Fuji felt uneasy.

"So?" Fuji challenged the fir haired boy. "You don't like me because I am gay?"

"What happened?" Suddenly Saeki grabbed his childhood friend's frail but muscular shoulder. "Were you attacked by some older woman? Or was it a sempai? Were you traumatized by woman? Oh; poor Syuusuke!"

Fuji was frozen at the reaction. Hey, he didn't mention anything about hating woman in general, didn't he? Fuji hated the girl who dated Tezuka all right, but he didn't say he hated all women. He still likes his sister and his female classmates.

"Poor you! I will show you that not all woman as bad as you thought! Come, I'll introduce you to my girl and her friends! They are good!" Saeki was dead-set at his own misconception and panickly called his girlfriend from his mobile. "hallo? Mitsuki? Can you meet me at the usual place in 2 hours? Can you bring your friends too? I will bring mine. Yeah, uhm. Fine. Ok, see you, honey."

"Wait!" Fuji grabbed Saeki's wrist. But it was too late, and the call has been made. "I never said I hate woman!"

"But you are, if you are Gay. Nobody wants to become gay if they don't have a reason."

Saeki's statement punched Fuji in the gut. Was it the reason he become gay? He always thought that he is a natural; he never questioned why.

And because he was so shocked by the statement, he let himself be dressed up by Saeki and dragged away to the crowd; the places he initially intended to avoid in order to not meeting any creature named Tezuka Kunimitsu.

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Fuji went with Saeki to the 'usual place'. Two girls apparently have been waiting there. One looked like a sexy onee-sama type and the other one looked like the meek, lovely timid little sister. The onee-sama girl smiled at Saeki when she saw him, and when they locked their hands, a 4 minutes kissing session started.

Fuji sighed. His friend is a show-off kind of guy. And he met a showy girl. What a perfect couple. Fuji wouldn't be surprised if they will go to hotel now. But he was greeted by the timid girl. She was wearing lacy stuff, heavy layered and full of PINK ribbon. It hurts Fuji's eyes, but he closed his eyes when he smiled, so he was actually fine.

They introduced themselves to each other. Fuji started to relax. The girl is quite similar to what Tezuka have in his arms right now. And the height is perfect; the girl is smaller than him. He will look masculine if they walked together. So be it.

Fuji noticed the difference between him ad the girl. The girl is softer than him, with hands so breakable that Fuji intended to try and see. She smelled sweet, although Fuji didn't really like the scent. She was ok, but Fuji really hates those girls who wear half bottle of perfume just to impress the other party's olfactory (smelling) senses. She is feminine, and the way she laughed is so reserved and polite but in a way, reminded Fuji of a shrieking dog. He was being sarcastic there. She is pale and milky compared to him, and that was the standard of beauty, wasn't it? She is a beauty by community standard. Fuji should have been contented with the girl.

"see?" Saeki whispered to Fuji. "Woman is always better."

Fuji smiled sarcastically at the taller boy. "Yeah." He whispered back, "If only I prefer mountain rather than bare land."

Saeki laughed heartily. "let's watch something."


TBC

Written at 3 AM in the morning because Fuji and the plot haunted me.

Thank you for reading. Fuji might cross dress next chapt.