A/N: I just got a new laptop and I'm thrilled! It'll take a while to transfer my life over, but... Any ways, I don't want to be a review or i wont write kind of people, but I do want feed back. So review maybe?
The TARDIS isn't stupid. She knows what the Doctor/her Thief/her prized possesion was planning, so she isn't surprized when she starts glowing. She's sad, so, so sad as he used to say, before he regenerated into his current face. Shes alive, but she's not, and she's feeling a mix of human and machine, because House made a mistake by letting her in, and now she has to save the Doctor, because even though he'll never admit it out loud, he always needs someone to help him, and right now she's the only one who can.
She's determined to do anything for her Time Lord, even if she has to give up her newly human body and go back to being his blue box because even though she likes being human, she knows that this body is dying anyways, she can feel it, and if she's going to lose that she can at least save the Doctor, the cute one, and the new girl.
But still, she can't help herself as she looks at the Doctor and finally tells him what she's been trying to this whole time, before she's somehow being both pushed and pulled, and her conciousness is spiraling, and she's going up against House, and she can FEEL bits and pieces of his past meals. Somehow, knowing that she is up against someone who has beaten so many that how can she possibly have a chance makes her just fight harder, because she is strong, and she is the TARDIS that stole a Time Lord, and she refuses to give up without a fight.
Then suddenly she's back in her old body, and he's congradulating her, and the cute one and the new girl look confused, and she has this feeling in her, one where she feels invincible, and she wonders if the Doctor feels this way when he wins, because if he does she finally knows why he's always so eager to maybe die. It's like waking-up, and she wishes she could do it again, and God, what if she has to do it again, because she loves it and hates it, and she doesn't know what to do now. She feels upside down and inside out and she wonders how she ever survived without feeling truly alive.
She can feel that every single one of her rooms and coridors is alive with energy, energy that swoops and dances with joy as they fly through space and time, because she can feel, she could always feel, but this is real feeling, and she can't get enough of it. She feels full to the point of bursting.
She knows that one day she will be empty, because the Doctor will have used up all his regenerations, and River will be gone into Time, and she doesn't know what she'll do then, but now she just has to put the Doctor where he needs to be, even though he might not want to be there.
She's sorry that she can't help him when he gets lost in his mind and he starts to truly hate himself in anyway other than taking him somewhere, sometime new, but as long as it works, she'll travel with him and let him help people in that crazy way of his. She might even be able to fit in a time to help River break out of prision.
