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AN: Thank you moonifrui for being supportive. For that, I dedicate this chapter to you.

Dear Journal,

I was following Bella in Port Angeles today. So far she'd managed to not do something extremely bad. In fact, she'd been so uncharacteristically fine that I'd been on edge for hours. Something was bound to happen to her and I was anticipating it. Bella had managed to get away from that selfish Jessica and good-hearted Angela to a book store for several minutes. When she walked out was when disaster struck. At the time, I wasn't paying attention to where she was at and merely thought that she was with them but when I overheard one of the girls mention that they hoped that Bella wouldn't order without them there I began to panic. My Bella was not near her friends which was less safe, and I'm not referring to the fact that she's naturally a klutz.

I was referring to drunken, frat-party boys whose minds I'd overheard when they'd passed the trio of girls when they were looking at dresses. Well, when Jessica and Angela were looking at dresses, Bella was looking at something else in her hands. It was probably a book. But those boys had one thing on their minds when they saw the trio they'd passed and I for one didn't like it.

Like I said, disaster struck when Bella left the book store. I was searching for her and in my search I'd overheard those low lives thinking on what they were going to do to her, imagining her reaction when they'd get their hands on her beautiful body. Then I saw her through their eyes and the look on her face was somewhat confusing to me. She didn't look quite scared, more like she was concentrating on something.

Going as fast as I could I drove to where their location was and saw just as Bella was pushing one of them away from her. It angered me more to witness them touching her with my own eyes than through their eyes. She was mine, that I was sure of by now since I was definitely over protective of her. If she doesn't eventually fall in love with me that will be ok. I can live with that. But she will always be mine to protect.

So, after the very brief rescue and had her in my car I drove her to the restaurant that she was supposed to go to and offered to buy her dinner and take her home, mostly so I could have some alone time with her. That and I needed to know that she was safe, even if it was just from herself. She ate, I watched and she asked me some questions. The more we talked, the more I was realizing why I was in love with her. Her voice, even though was merely human, was enchanting. The sweet aroma of her blood drew me physically near her, yet I was strong enough to resist temptation. Her silent mind to me was a perfect outlet for us to be together. I wouldn't be able to intrude in her thoughts, making her uncomfortable in any case. The way she doesn't see herself clearly is definitely something I get to help her improve on.

As I watch her eat and answer her questions, I reframe from actually telling the truth about my kind. She seems to like me, that's for sure. I must admit, she is practically on the mark about my family being vampires but she's still got that insecure look on her face and yet she seems captivated by me being anything but 'normal'. But still, I was cautious.

Dear Journal,

The drive to her home had finally let her have her answers. I didn't get to mention that in my last entry because I had to go and do something for Esme. But now I have done so. Also, today, the day after the last entry, Bella and I have become public. After last night's drive I finally let her figure it out that we're a bunch of vampires, my family and I. she took it a lot better than I could ever hope for. It turns out she likes me for me, even if I am a monster, which explains a little why she's been having dreams about me that sound nice. Yes, I do admit to myself that I have been watching her sleep, it lets me get inside her head somewhat.

She wants to see me more often and I want to be near her. I think that since tomorrow I'm taking her to school that we should make the relationship we have go a little further. She seems to be as much fascinated with me as I am with her, only she has no clue that I was expecting her for six years now. I don't think we'll tell her that any time soon. But last night was amazing. She actually admitted that she'd rather die than be away from me. I'll keep that in mind, considering that I'm hazardous to her health.

Oh, I do love her. I know this so well now that it makes me want to jump in a time machine and give myself what Alice calls a "bitch-slap" and knock some sense into my head. What was I thinking??? This was inevitable! And to think, she likes me back. What I fool I am for not seeing this clearly as it was displayed before me. I must remember to thank my pixie sister for her persistence in 'getting some sense'. Yes, I must thank her. It would be only polite to do so since she's pushed me in the right direction.

Since I can't possibly write enough thanks to my sister I'm just going to talk a little about Rosalie's personal thoughts. She thinks that it's completely 'bullshit', her words not mine, which a human should get to know about vampires and remain human. Of course we all know that Bella won't be human for long. There is no way around it but I don't want her to change. I like her the way she is. Rosalie is just pissed because she wasn't given a choice, but I don't blame her for that one.

It's at least nice that Rosalie is warming up to the idea of 'future Bella' and looking forward to another one of Alice's visions where she and Bella will be going hunting and leaving Emmet and I alone to sulk without our women beside us. She's the crewel sister if you ask me. Then again, Alice would probably do the same thing and only make herself look innocent about it. Damn, I can't believe it took me this long to realize that my sisters are equally bad in their own way. Well, that's it for now. We'll see what tomorrow brings.

Dear Journal,

Today was great. Bella and I are officially a public couple. The look on Mike Newton's face was priceless and I bask in the feeling it gives me. Nothing is greater than having her to myself and no one else is allowed to have her as anything but a friend. She's so clumsy it's adorable and I can't help but laugh at the little misfortunes she has as I save her from them. She's mine, finally all mine. I've waited so long for someone like her and now I won't let her go. I still refuse to change her because I love her the way she is, yet now she's thinking about becoming one of us, just like in Alice's vision. No, we have not yet told her about the visions but Bella is already looking in that direction.

I'm so happy, alive really, that she's in my life that I can't even keep coherent thoughts together. I feel like I'm writing a bunch of juggled words that just come out of my head. Oh Bella, what have you done to, according to Emmet, stuck-up Edward? You've completely changed my train of thought and now all I can think about is you as I write in this journal. I think a break from this journal would be good. I feel as if that if I keep trying to write constantly it will be just become incoherent eventually. So, until I need you again, I won't write journal.

AN: No, I'm not done with this if that's what you're going to ask me. I just feel that either a cliff hanger or whatever you want to call this is in need of it. Plus, I'm trying to go by the book mostly instead of the movie. Also, I don't know if I should go ahead and continue with this throughout the whole series. Feedback is nice for that.

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