Hey, I wanted to update on 5-5-09 but I had homework and stuff to do. Plus my fave TV show, House was on. Anyways, I am not holding you responsible for reviewing but thank you to nessieness for reviewing for Chapter 1 and 2 and being my first reviewer on this fanfic! Thanks so much nessieness. You will be in my fave authors list, I guarantee it! I would also like to thank my other reviewer, ZeMOMO for giving me a constructive review, so I had to add more detail- I am not mad at any comments I don't get mad unless you say "oh that totally *bleep* stunk like *bleep* you shouldn't write at all" yeah but thanks to my reviewers and my readers. Here is your promised Edward Point Of View, please enjoy….I hope you do but it kinda stinks but I tried, you know? Lyrics may be wrong but oh well. Enjoy!
EPOVOh my god! My head was about to explode.
"Alice! Shut UP!"
"Well, sorry that I am excited to see my best friend! Gosh, you are such a jerk when Bella isn't around!"
Yata, yata, yata….I am nervous about Bella I don't need the pixie spilling her future plans all over my plate. I think Bella will be upset if she hasn't moved on which I am sure I will arrive in Forks and find her in Mike Newton's arms. She probably won't even remember me. I mean who would remember your vampire soul mate who you believe didn't even think existed in the first place.
"Look, I am trying to consider what to say to her, I don't need to know what you plan to do to Bella for the rest of eternity, besides you know she hates shopping!"
"Well, maybe she missed me so much that she changed her mind."
"Fine, just try to be a little quieter. Please."
"Well, only because you said please."
Finally, peace and quiet.
So Bella, I only left to keep you safe, I never meant to hurt you. Will you take me back?
Then, I kept answering my own questions, "No I won't take you back! Never, Edward you broke me beyond repair. Besides I already moved on. Now leave and never come back."
I know that what I did was wrong, and whatever happens, I deserve but I was so nervous. I love her and could never love anyone else like I love her. The question is does she feel the same for me? I wonder if Alice could answer that question.
"No, I can't I am sorry I just can't see her."
"Oh, well thank you anyways. And here we are."
"Wait why is the road to La Push covered with people and police cars."
I saw the vision. Alice and I exchanged a worried glance.
"No, Alice she promised to be safe!"
"Why else would I see it though? I think I should go with you."
" I don't know, fine, wait. Do you hear that? It sounds like Bella."
"Yeah. But why is she singing?"
"I don't know Alice."
Hmm…I didn't know she sang. Well Charlie was here, but Bella's truck wasn't. Maybe it died.
She
never slows down. So stand in the
rain She won't make a
sound So stand in the rain So stand in the rain
She doesn't know why but she knows that when
she's all alone, feels like its all coming down
She won't turn
around
The shadows are long and she fears if she cries that first
tear, the tears will not stop raining down
Stand your ground
Stand up when it's all crashing down
You
stand through the pain
You won't drown
And one day, what's
lost can be found
You stand in the rain
Alone in this fight with herself and the fears whispering if
she stands she'll fall down
She wants to be found
The only way
out is through everything she's running from wants to give up and lie
down.
Stand your ground
Stand up
when it's all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You
won't drown
And one day, what's lost can be found
You stand
in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand
up when it's all crashing down
Stand through the pain
You won't
drown
And one day, what's lost can be found
You
stand in the rain So stand in the rain
Stand your
ground
Stand up when it's all crashing down
Stand through the
pain
You won't drown
And one day, what's lost can be
found
You stand in the rain
So
stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it's all
crashing down
Stand through the pain
You won't drown
And one
day, what's lost can be found
You stand in the rain
Quietly, I knocked on the door as the song came to an end. We had stood at the door listening to the whole song. Did she write that after I left?
"Edward, Alice? You guys already heard the news?"
"What news, Charlie?" Alice said and I added a simple comment to clarify.
"We came to see Bella."
"Oh, you didn't hear the news then, please come in."
Now I was worried, it was Bella, what's is wrong with her?
"Yesterday, Bella was driving to see her friend, Jacob Black. On the way there, her truck exploded, they didn't find her body but they said that the explosion was so horrible that her body could have practically evaporated. Bella was pronounced dead on the scene. But before you go, I need you to listen to something."
Bella, my Bella, my love was de-de-dead. Dead. Gone. Never to return. Ever again.
Alice was at my side sobbing but I couldn't even talk. Charlie looked numb and that is how I felt. The music started and I started to sob as I heard the sad words coming from my angel's voice. A voice that would never again be heard.
Remember all the things we
wanted Even with our fists held high I
didn't want us to burn out I want you to know that it doesn't matter Looking at you makes it harder Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison
set in I want you to
know that it doesn't matter I'm
already gone, already gone Already gone, already gone,
already gone Remember all the things we wanted I want
you to know that it doesn't matter I'm
already gone, already gone
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always
meant to say goodbye
It never
would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die
I didn't come here to hold you, now I
can't stop
Where
we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you
couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm
already gone
But I know that
you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to
cry
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I
love you so, I love you enough to let you go
Where we take this road someone's
gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me
better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone
You can't make it feel right when you
know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no
moving on so I'm already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone,
yeah
Now all our memories
they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Where we take this road
someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved
me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone
You can't make it feel right when you
know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no
moving on so I'm already gone
As one beautiful, yet painful song ended another began. She really must be an angel. She looks like one, talks like one, kisses like one, sings like one, maybe she walks like one too, she is just more used to using her wings, not her feet. I miss her so much, all the way to my core. But why would an angel fall in love with a vampire? I was in love with an angel.
When I see your smile How this world turns cold I
will never let you fall It's okay, it's okay, it's okay Seasons are
changing and waves are crashing I will never let you fall 'Cause you're my, you're my,
my 'Cause I'm here for you Use me as you will I will never let you fall I will never let you
fall I will
never let you fall
Tears run
down my face
I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've
figured out
And breaks through my
soul
And I know, I'll find deep inside me
I can be the one
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be
there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to
Heaven
And stars are falling all for
us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you,
I'll be the one
I'll stand up
with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if
saving you sends me to Heaven
My true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that
away
Please don't walk away
And
please tell me, you'll stay, stay
Pull
my strings just for a thrill
And I know, I'll be okay
Though my
skies are turning gray
I'll stand
up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even
if saving you sends me to Heaven
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you
through it all
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven
I'll stand up with you forever
So that is what it was like for her when I left her, said I didn't want her. All I could ever want was her. Her beautiful hair, and lips that pressed against mine so eagerly, and her sparkling personality that made happiness spread through every inch of my body. Her love was the best, how she could love a monster like me was a complete mystery that could never be solved. Now, I had to fulfill my own wishes, I had to go to the Volturi.
"Edward, no! You can't! I am sorry Charlie but we have to go, I am so dearly sorry for her death. I really will miss her because she was my best friend."
"I understand, it is very troubling news."
"I would stay but Edward will probably do something horrible if he doesn't have supervision."
"Yeah, Renee has been sobbing on the phone for an hour, I had to hang up before my phone bill went through the roof."
"Yeah, I am sure Bella is at peace, wherever she may be at the moment."
Alice, tell me I am dreaming. Bella. Dead. I. Caused. Her. Pain. I need Bella, need her so desperately. Stupid Edward, she probably said the same thing millions of times but you didn't come back and she can't.
We walked out.
"Alice, please?"
"No. You have to live, Bella would want that, you know she would."
"Yeah, she told me that once."
"Well, how about we all enroll in that big boarding school in Seattle next year. It would help Jasper."
"Yeah, all I need is a constant reminder that Bella is gone."
"Yeah, well suck it up, Bella did and she needs you to prove yourself before you throw your life away."
Thanks for reading, I know lots of songs but it shows you how Bella relates to Edward leaving. But oh well, I really hope you enjoyed it, I would love some reviews but oh well I can't make you! I will update maybe Friday, I havv a b-day party to go 2 and I can't go on fanfiction everyday. =```( But how about I write up a chapter or maybe two, then I type them this weekend and post. NO guarantees but I will try really hard to update asap thanx again to nessieness and ZeMOMO! I hope I added enough details but it is hard because it is a pained emotion.
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Lyrics:
Stand in the rain-Superchick
Already Gone-Kelly Clarkson
Your Guardian Angel-The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
