Chapter three
Pickles always had thought,
that the no-caring rule was kind of overdoing their image.
Dethklok had to be brutal, but this was in their private lifes, no one would ever find out, if they cared for each other or not.
At least for himself and Toki, he knew they at least had left some human feelings.
He was sorry for the rythm-guitarist, he always knew, that Skwisgaar would pick on Toki, reject his little attempts to show affection towards the guitar god.
But now, Skwisgaar would nt give Toki the pleasure to even look at him.
The drummer figured, that Skwisgaar showed his affection for Toki by sleeping with him, but actually being confronted with a feeling beside sex, was too much for the Ice King. This guy sure had a problem.
Little heartbroken Toki was now only seen for dinner and rehearsal.
`Fack de no-caring rule the red head thought, as he lifted himself up from the couch, where he tried to read, but couldn t force his mind away from the two.
He went down several hallways before getting in the corridor where the rooms of the guitarists were.
When he knocked on Tokis door, there was no respone.
"Dood, open up! It s me, Pickles!"
"Oh, hi pickle..umm..woulds you mind leavings me?" Tokis voice was very high pitched, even more than normal.
"C mon, i want to talk to ye, kid." He said, opening the door.
The room was dark and only lit by a candle standing next to the bed. Toki was cuddled up in his blanket, holding deddy-bear close to his stomach.
His eyes were red from crying, and a somewhat horrified look came across him, when Pickles entered and made an attempt to sit beside him on the bed.
"Dood, don t wahrry, I won t tell de odders, that you re down."
"Why dids you comes to Tokis den?" the youngest band member asked.
"well I..uuh" Pickles thought of the way, telling Toki that he knew, what happened. He decided not to lie about it.
"Toki I know about what happened b tween Skwisgaar an you."he saw Tokis eyes widen in horror, so he fastly continued.
"it s okay, okay? I m cool with it, i m naht a homophobic like murderface. I jest wanted ta check on ya, kid. Because I heard what you said to Skiwsgaar.
"But whats do you wants now?" Toki seemed more comfortable now, but he still was curious what actually had brought the drummer to his room.
" Ya know, when ye aah...need someone ta talk, ya know, just come to ol Pickles, kay?"
Just when he finished the last words, he was almost knocked down by a hugging Toki, now sobbing like a little child.
Pickles silently padded his back, not really knowing what to do now. He decided to wait for Toki to start talking or at least stop crying.
They were like this for about 10 minutes, when Toki let go of Pickles.
"Takk Pickle, that was kinds of makings me feel better."
"Good. Do ye want to talk about it now? T s okay if yer not ready for it, but -"
"Nos, I wants to talks about it now..Pickle, haves you ever been in loves?"
"Yeah...one time I think, but it didn t work out, unfortunately.."
"Wells I...Is had been in love with Skwisgaar since...maybes some years, more than ones it was...And then dere was dat evening..."
FLASHBACK
It was after their last CD-release. Everyone totally drunk, Pickles passed out on a table.
The two guitarists tried to go down to their rooms, stopping each other from stumbling over their own feet.
For support, Skwisgaar grabbed on Tokis shoulders, shoving him down the corridor.
Toki was too drunk to recognize where he was, so he let skwisgaars hands lead him somewhere. He cursed himself for beeing drunk right now.
He knew Skwisgaar would be so friendly towards him while drunk, he always wanted to treasure those moments.
And then Skwisgaar stopped.
"You ams runnigks likes de trains!" Skwisgaar gasped.
"Oh...sorrys" Toki slurred.
Trying to not fall down, Toki leaned against the nearest wall, giggling, when skwisgaar crushed into him.
They were quiet for a moment when Skwisgaar said "Mhh, dat s nice"
"Ja..."
"You knows Toki...I ms sorries for treating you like de dildoes...Your guitarsplayingks is nots as bads as I always tells you"
Skwisgaars face was hovering only inches apart from Tokis, and it was akwardly silent by now.
"Dis ams ni-" but Toki couldn t talk anymore. His mouth was covered by full, hot lips, tasting like coconut liquor.
He immediatly went limp, but tried best to stay on his feet, when he felt a hot and soft tongue dancing over his lips.
Feeling his pants to already start get uncomfortably tight, he mewled into the kiss, sinking deeper into the wall, his mind racing like mad.
The blonde s hand sneaked into Tokis hair, playing with it just to trail his other one slowly and teasing down on Tokis well toned body.
When his erection bumped into the norwegian wood, Toki let out a loud moan and his face, first very pink, grew dark red now.
Skwisgaar snickered and pulled away from the kiss, leaving a confused looking Toki, his hair totally messy and face still red.
He took hold of his hand and dragged him to his room.
Just as he was about to close the door he was slammed against it, a mop of brown hair flying into his face.
He moaned as he realised that Toki had ripped off his shirt and was working his way down to his nipples now. Skwisgaar was mad first. He was Skwisgaar Skwigelf, he would play but never been played with. But he couldn t stop Toki.
"Whys does he haves to bes so hot" cursing him in his own mind for even thinking that. He had always thought about Toki, but he wasn t gay.
He wouldn t admit his feelings towards another man, he just couldn t...
Well the alcohol helped him to at least get a bit of what he d been missing for so long now.
Toki was now undoing skwisgaars zip with his mouth.
"Ooh you filthies littles norwegian" he managed to breathe. Toki shot a shy, but cheeky smile towards Skwisgaar and turned back to what he had been doing.
When Toki finally pulled Skwisgaars pants down, he could hear a loud"Oh Wowee Skwis" but he was too impatient now, grabbing Toki at his shoulders.
The Swede could tell that Toki had never done such things as cock sucking, but still. Even then thought of toki going down on him, made him want to come.
He couldn t force his mind away from this, the mop of brown hair bobbing up and down his throbbing member, the hot mouth of the man, he always had secretly desired. Skwisgaar could already feel the warmth building up in his belly and grabbing some brown hair.
He closed his eyes, as the electrifying feeling of his climax reached him.
Toki wasn t expecting this, so he left skwisgaars cock, wiping his mouth and sitting back on his heels.
The blonde slipped down to the floor, totally exhausted from the sensation. "That was goods, ja?" Toki asked in his childlike way.
"Ja Toki, dats was goods" he smiled tiredly at him."woulds you likes to sleeps over here in my beds?" there. The drunken idiot ideas were back again.
Toki didn t answer but grabbed Skwisgaar by the hand pulling him to stand and then leading him to the bed.
As they lay down, Skwisgaar cursed himself in his mind. But his hands played with Tokis hair, who was nestled between the long arms of the Swede.
