4 pm at my apartment

We were sitting beside the fireplace while a storm was hitting outside. kaoru was enjoying the marshmallows with all his senses and I was laughing at the that .he looked so adorable and happy . I bet in the past he was miserable and sad . I wonder what kind og stuff did he face . he is so strong that he had to deal with a man like the one I saw . he had to work under rain and I can tell he doesn't sleep well or even eat well by looking at his face. He has black bags under his eyes and he is thinner than me and once he changed to the clothes I gave him . I noticed some scars on his back and hands , that man must have hit him . I have this strange feeling of going out and killing that man by my hands!

Kaoru was staring sadly at the now empty plate of marshmallows with his fork in his mouth

" here , have more" I refill his plate with a mountain of marshmallows

"woow!thank you "he smiled to me so warmly. I took a step closer and kissed him on the cheek and pulled him beside me under the blanket, his legs on my lap , his head resting on my shoulder "so kaoru.. do you wanna speak first about your life back then or want me to speak first?"

"yeah sure , you go first Hikaru"

"okay . it would sound weird to you a little bet but .. it all started since a very long time . I started having weird visions from time to time , first I didn't care much about it , then it started happening weekly, literally every Sunday . I see rooms with weird paintings, dead flowers ,an piano and a weird smell . the other times I used to hear somebody crying , some other times I used to see weird men gambling , it happened a lot . till that one day I finally decided to see a specialist and after like 15 visit he finally told me that those are somebody's else flashbacks " Kaoru looked up to me , he sighed and put his head again on my shoulder

"those were my flashbacks " he said

"ah..yes.."

" I never knew I have a twin brother , it's just that I believed that I have somebody out there that's gonna save me one day , every time before I go to bed I was sending you messages through my mind. I once read a book that said if you do that it's gonna work and your mind is gonna receives them . and here we are hika .. it worked "

"yes it did . that time the doc told me you need my help and the next thing I know is that I will risk my life to you kaoru" he coughed in surprise and looked at me . taking my hands as he spoke" Hikaru .. whatever happens try to stay alive .and I will do the same . therefore I believe that one day we'll live together a happy life "

"what..? why are you saying that ? I mean I just found you and I'll never let you go again" I captured his shoulders and brought him into a tight hug . he kept silent"what is it kaoru?"

He wrapped his arms around me "I want to" he sounded hopeless "kaoru..?"

"those are a gang hika.. " his eyes got wet with tears

"what !"

"I'll tell you the whole story . I used to live in an orphanage till I became 10 . that man you punched in the face is the one who adopted me . later on I knew he's a gang man , he drove me in with him .. I became a drug dealer. I've been in so much shit because of him , every time the deal doesn't work or every time he lose he hits me badly and doesn't give me food for days . it got worst , he got married a pervert bitch who… did awful things to me..then one day he had a fight with the gang and they killed her and shit got real..then .. he sold me to them .. they made me work all the time on selling newspapers to other gangs so i could sneak and check them out , and so at that man store ,I know most of their secrets so ..I don't think they are going to let me out with them .." he finished wiping his tears away

"DAMMIT! Let's call the police !"

"NO! it won't work Hikaru!..they are part of the police .. that's one of their secrets ..so..that's not gonna work .."

"what to do then ..?" I hugged him so close to me .. I didn't want to lose him again , and I can't imagine kaoru living with those bastards again .

"nothing .. I don't want you to involve yourself with all this hika . look you have a nice life..besides there is no way to stop in their faces .. they'll just finish you . and I don't want you to get hurt at all "

"so now, we'll set here and wait for them to find us .?"

"no.. I'll go back to them before they find you "

"NO! JUST NO!"

I was shivering at that point . I wanted to save him whatever it takes me . I didn't notice the tears that were coming down my eyes, just when i finally found him , i'll lose him again

"Hikaru..calm down , I'll be fine .. they can't kill me , they need me "

"but they will hurt you for hell's sake !"

"I am used to it after all these years… plus . we're gonna meet again right?..hika.." he said to me while moving my tears away and so I nodded , I brought him to a hug as we both lied down to the carpet with the blanket upon us . it felt so warm and saved under it .

"I promise you ..I'll help you go through that all ..I'll help you to come back to me here no matters what .. don't forget me kao "

"Hikaru…you're a crazy dude " he was on top of me now with our noses touching" I believe you're gonna do it , just make sure not to hurt yourself .." he closed the distance between us , pushed his sweet lips to mine .. I tasted them while I closed my eyes . I pushed him down of me so he was under me , I kissed him this time , a real long kiss with all my feelings , I kissed him while my tears were running down to his cheeks , when I finally found him.. I'll lose him again.

"I love you..AAAH DAMMIT KAO…*SNIFFED* DAMMIT …" I hid my face on his shoulder "I love you too hika.." we stayed like this for some minutes ,none of us saying a word , but enjoying our last moments together like that … it tortured me to do it. It's like throwing him to hell when you just saved him from it .

"kaoru…your suggestion is rejected "

"wha.?"

"I won't let you go whatever it costs me "


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