Ok so i know i took a while for me to update but my mum took my laptop of me cos im grounded so i don't know when i can get i back again. (im ment to be doing homework :])

Anyway i hope you like the chapter it's kinda a filler cos i'm making Jake and Bella friends again. Jake isn't a wolf yet just so you know.

Disclaimer - i do own my awesome ipod speakers but i don't own twilight :( *sobs*

Have fun reading

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BPOV

1 month later

It had been 1 month 3 weeks since he'd left. I still couldn't bring myself to say his name let alone think it. If any little thing I saw reminded me of him the pain would rip through me fresh and new and unbearably strong each time. It burned a deep scar into my heart. A scar so deep it wouldn't heal. And often it was re opened and ripped.

My heart was mangled.

I was broken.

Anyone who saw me would understand that.

It was just a normal day just like any other when it happened.

I had woken screaming as normal shaking and sobbing from the most recent night mare. I'd got up and made breakfast. Charlie had gone out with Harry up to La Push. I stayed in and did homework and laundry.

By early evening Charlie had called and asked if I could pick him up from Billy's as Harry had gone home and he had no ride.

So there I was. Off to La Push. Driving along the road, nearly there when there were some strange noises.

It was my truck.

First there were clunks then a few whirrs finally there were splutters and screeches until there was a deathly groan and it stopped.

I couldn't believe it.

Had it finally given out? It had been rattling for a few days now but I didn't think it would be that final.

I was stuck.

I got out of the cab frustrated. I didn't have a hope in hell at being able to fix it and I knew it.

I wasn't so numb anymore as I had been straight after it happened but still I wasn't up to much.

I lifted up the hood of the truck and just stared at the maze of machinery in there. The puzzle of metal, grease and wires was completely alien to me. I couldn't even tell you where the engine was in there.

After a moment I gave up and pushed the hood back down again. I sighed and thought about what to do.

I knew where the Blacks lived in La Push was and I was a lot closer to the reservation than I was to anywhere else. I started to walk.

I took me about an hour to walk the 1 and ½ miles to La Push. Not only had my brain shut down but so had my body. I seemed to do things even slower than I did before and a lot more clumsily. I fell a few times but eventually I got there.

I remembered Jacob he was Billy's son. The boy who'd told me about Quileute legends the same one who'd built my truck I also remembered liking Jacob very much.

I also remembered that Billy had known what the Cullen's were so I was slightly weary as I walked up to the front door and knocked.

I heard happy, laughing male voices in side and heavy feet clumping to the door. It was opened by a huge boy. He had dark skin and just past shoulder length coal black hair. He was tall with big muscles. He'd been laughing and was still smiling a huge grin with perfect white teeth even his dark eyes were smiling down at me.

This was Jake.

Wow.

That was all my mind could say. The last time I'd seen him he was just a boy but know it seemed that he'd turned into a man.

"Bella?" he asked in a lovely soft voice.

I cleared my throat. "Hi errr my truck broke down while I was on my over here for Charlie" I told him quietly and awkwardly. It seemed strange to just be on his door step like this.

"Ok" he said "you want to come in?" he asked kindly.

"Sure."

I followed him inside the small house I felt a few memories of my child hood come back to me. Running down the halls, laughter, two girls, twins, his sisters, a quick glance out of a window reminded me of mud pies in the back garden.

We walked into a small sitting room where two of the men were sat watching ESPN and shouting at the TV evidently they didn't agree with what was going on in the game. They turned when we entered the room. Charlie and Billy smiled.

"Hey Bella" Charlie smiled. "I guess this my ride home then Billy" he said getting out of the chair and standing up to go.

"Actually Charlie Bella said the truck broke down and she walked to get here." Jacob put in flashing me a smile. Without thinking I smiled back. I didn't realise what I'd done until I turned and saw the shock on Charlie's face. He composed himself very quickly.

I thought about that while the men talked about getting the truck over here to fix it up.

I hadn't smiled a real genuine smile in so long it felt quite strange but still it had been real.

That was something to think about.

Jacob Black made me smile.

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