Meanwhile in the OR

"Scissors!" Bailey said with a stern voice. Derek was bleeding nonstop.

Nelson was trying to stop the bleeding in the brain.

Suddenly he started coding... Flatline.

"Paddels!" Bailey yelled. "Charge to 200, clear" *Flatline* "push another epi and charge to 300! Clear..."

"Sinus Rhythm..." Bailey breathed, clearly relieved.

All of a sudden the OR door opened and Cristina came in.

"It's Derek..." She said.

"Huh?!" Alex asked and looked confused to Cristina.

"Shepherd, Derek Shepherd!" Cristina said in a panicked voice.

Bailey stepped back and went to the head of the patient. And there really was something familiar. His face was stubbly and he aged a bit but you could still recognize the face of Derek Shepherd. The face which she hasn't seen in so many years and the face that she had almost missed a bit.

"You can't let him die. It would kill Meredith as well..." Said Cristina with a trace of panic in her voice.

Bailey looked up to Cristina who couldn't stop rambling.

"And what about Lily?! He didn't even know that she exists-"

"Cristina..." Alex said in a warning voice.

"What do you me- WAIT..." Bailey's eyes widened "Lily Mia Grey is not Lily Mia Grey! Lily Mia Grey is Lily Mia Grey - Shepherd?!

Alex rolled his eyes: "Mer's going to kill us..."

Writer POV

With in two and a half hours Meredith was fully recovered and back in the resident lounge. Her palms were sweaty not just because Derek was here and she hasn't told him about Lily yet but because of his serious injuries and because she hasn't heard from him in hours.

"Grey, I see you're back..." Karev said while putting on new scrubs.

"Alex?! You're back as well??? B-but you were in the OR with...HIM.

"Oh, I guess with HIM you mean Derek?" Alex asked, already knowing the answer...

He looked her straight in the eyes, "Mer, listen Derek is alright... he's in recovery now and he'll probably have to stay here about one and a half Months as his injuries are very serious. We called Addison and she'll be here in about 4 hours. If you want to visit him or tell him anything..." Alex paused for a moment and Mer looked at him exactly knowing what he meant, "then you have to do it now because otherwise it's to late and I know you are scared but he'll find out one day anyway and if he does, he'll probably never forgive you for not telling him..."

Meredith looked to the floor, she couldn't think of anything else than his reaction when he would find out that he had a little daughter and that she never told him. She knew she had to tell him one day but she wasn't ready. Not yet. She just wanted to go home and hide in her bed because that's what she was always doing. If there was a problem she would run away...

"Mer...? Are you listening?"

"What?! I'm sorry..." she mumbled

"It's okay, just find a way to tell him..."

With that he left the room

When Derek woke finally up he found himself laying in a hospital room which he knew just to well.

Seattle Grace Mercy West Hospital

He began to panic.

Why was he here? What happened? He began to kick against the Blanked he laid under. Screaming in pain, he tried to lift himself up. Two nurses came rushing into the room and suddenly everything went black...

The morning before the accident

"No, Derek this is not how it works! You can't just leave."

"Addison, its only for a few days... I'll be back before you know it."

"Derek, what is your problem?! We don't talk anymore, we don't laugh anymore, we don't even argue anymore!"

"I... It's just... Addison, I can't have that conversation now! We already had it a thousand times and I have a plane to catch.

"The last time you went to Seattle-" Addison swallowed, tears welling up in her eyes.

He turned around, "No! No, Addison not again! I won't argue with you over that. This is forbidden territory!

You can't use Meredith as a reason to keep me away from Seattle!

I'll go to Seattle Pres and perform the surgeries I have to perform, when I'm done I'll come back and we continue to live our lifes as usual and forget the whole thing!"

"That's the point Derek! I can't and won't continue to live my life as usual..." Addison said firmly.

Derek looked at Addison with a confused look on his face.

"What do you mean?"

"Derek, we don't work out anymore."

Addison sighted.

"Addison, are you going to breakup?" Derek asked with disbelief.

"No, I-

"Because if you are, I don't get why we even tried, why I left the LOVE of my life to give us a chance!" He yelled.

"Derek!!" Addison cried, "I was saying that I just need a change, that WE need a change. I wasn't going to break up with you..."

Derek looked at her in shock, realizing what HE just said.

All the years he knew he had still feelings for Meredith Grey but he pushed them aside not realizing that the feelings for Meredith were what kept him alive.

"Addie, Im so sorry... " He stepped forward stroking her cheek but she turned away.

I'll be back in a few days." He whispered, looking at Addison one last time. Tears were streaming down her face. He knew he had made a big mistake saying that he still loved Meredith and he just hoped everything would work out well so he could just spend as less time in Seattle as he had to.

With that he went out of the house they shared in New York and to the Airport thinking of what a jerk he was and still is...

Hey y'all! I'm back with a new chap. Still trying to figure out how this here works tho... Anyways thanks for all the support and sweet messages/reviews I've recieved. I love y'all!

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