7
The semester moved quickly with Bella and me only passing each other once in awhile. I even began bringing girls home since she was almost never there on weekends. I wondered if her guy stopped complaining about how she gave head and they were moving forward in a relationship. But it did seem odd he never showed up around here.
It was Halloween when she knocked on my bedroom door and Jasper answered instead of me. It wasn't anything we had planned or set up. The makeup he was wearing for his costume was bugging the shit out of him so he went by my place, since it was the closest to the party and took a shower. I wasn't even home at the time and only let him borrow my keys.
He was still wet with a towel wrapped around his waist when Bella knocked on the door. He opened it and she gasped. "Sorry," he said, and when he went to explain she quickly interrupted him.
"No, its fine, really, I just thought Tony was home alone and I was going to….never mind, have a great night," she said and ran back to her room. Jasper was pissed when he returned to the party wearing some of my clothes.
"You better get those dry cleaned," I complained when I saw him in my shirt and jeans.
"Shut up you faggot," he said angrily. "I'm sick of being your lover. Tell the chick or I will."
"You wouldn't talk to me like that if I was really gay, you homophobe," I said angrily.
"So are you trying to tell me something Edward, is that what all of this is about?" he asked with a softer voice.
"No, I'm not, but what if I was? Would it be the end of our friendship?" I asked and honestly wondered if I came out what it would do to my life. I was sure my parents would be able to deal with it, but Emmett and Rose would be a definite loss. Alice and Jasper, well, I wasn't sure.
He took a moment to think about it and finally said, "You've been a great friend over the years, it wouldn't change anything, it would explain a lot, but nothing would change."
I didn't like the way he chuckled and assumed my quirks were because I was gay. I was having a moment of enlightenment and for the first time in my life realized how difficult it must be for gay men. "What in the hell am I doing, Jasper?" I said and downed my beer quickly.
"I think you need to tell the girl you're not gay and deal with the consequences. She seemed kind of freaked when she found me in your room naked."
My eyes shot open wide and I opened my mouth when he said, "Well, I had a towel covering my impressive dick."
"Impressive my ass," I said and laughed.
"Don't say stuff like that because I don't know if it is Edward talking, or Tony," he laughed.
"We've both seen your dick and we're not impressed," I said and Alice walked up to hear the tail end of the comment.
"Who's not impressed by Jasper's dick, I am," she said with a pout.
"Because you're the size of a child, Alice, you should see a real man."
"I've seen plenty of men, and if you recall I've stripped your drunken ass plenty of times, so let's not cast dispersions," she said and Jasper laughed loudly.
I tried to continue on with the party but I couldn't get it out of my mind that Bella was alone on Halloween. It made me angry at her prick of a boyfriend again and I suddenly wondered if maybe the guy was married. Only a married guy would complain about how a girl goes down on him and never show his face around the place. The more I thought about it the more I was certain it was the case.
I headed home and removed my vampire costume and showered before looking to see if her light was on. I knocked softly and she answered the door in just a small tee and panties. "Hi," she said with a big smile.
"I wanted to make sure you were still alive, I don't see you much," I said.
"Yeah, I'm always working on homework," she said with a sigh.
"Alleles and genotypes," I teased and she gave me a confused look so I quickly added, "My father's a doctor, remember?"
"Oh, yeah," she said and looked away nervously as I did the same.
"You didn't do anything for Halloween?" I asked her.
"I just handed out candy to the few kids that came around, it was fun," she said trying to convince me a college age girl would enjoy staying home and answering the door bell.
"Your guy was busy?" I asked and watched her reaction. She wouldn't look me in the eye and I finally just came out with it. "Bella, is he married?"
"What?" she asked with surprise.
"I think the guy is married and that is why he treats you so badly. Hell, I've never seen him and he complains about how you….well, he sounds like a married man to me."
She walked away from the door and shut the computer that was sitting open on her bed. She sat on the edge of the mattress and finally looked back at me. "Don't judge me, Tony."
"Shit," I muttered and walked into her room. "Bella, you don't want to be the other woman, if the guy has kids you need to end this right now."
"I know what I'm doing," she said and I shook my head.
"Is this the life you want? Spending holiday's alone and seeing your gay roommate more than the man you love? No wonder he doesn't care who you fuck, because a guy who is in love would rip the bastard apart regardless of if he was gay or not."
"No other man would want me," she said softly and I gasped at her comment. She was beautiful and fun to be around, but her free spirit in the bed made her priceless.
"Bella, knock that shit off right now. If he convinced you no other man would want you, he's a bigger ass than I thought. God, look at you. I get hard just watching you sit on a mattress," I admitted and she looked at me with wide eyes.
"I turn you on?" she asked and I wasn't sure what to say so I looked down at my fingers as I tried to find the nerve to tell her the truth. She reached over with her hand and pulled my face over to look at her.
"I really need someone to hold me," she said with just a whisper. I was going to kiss her and pull her into the bed, but I was a bit afraid of what she kept in her room, so I took her hand and led her to mine. I was in my boxers and t-shirt and as soon as we got to the bed she pulled my shirt over my head, so I did the same with hers.
I took control this time and rolled onto her as she spread her legs to accommodate me. I could feel her heart beating wildly and the heat coming off of her against my boxers. I wanted it to last so I kissed her softly over and over again without escalating anything. She finally asked, "Will you teach me now?"
Her mind was still on him and I wanted to scream from frustration and disappointment. "Bella, I only know what I like, I can't speak for all men."
"Show me what you like, Tony," she said and licked my ear.
I took a deep breath and could feel her shaking so I rolled off of her and kicked off the covers and removed my boxers. "First of all, I like to watch," I said and she nodded and moved to lay sideways over my thighs as she looked into my eyes.
She trusted me completely and it aroused me further. She was only wearing her panties and her breast was resting on my leg.
"Um…if you place your hand at the base it gives you control of how deep, I mean he can't just…"
"Like this," she said and wrapped her hand around me. I inhaled sharply and had to fight to be able to continue talking.
"Is he circumcised?" I asked.
"Yeah," she said.
"Okay, so you don't have to worry about pushing back the foreskin. Right here," I said and moved her finger to the backside of my head, "is very sensitive. You'll want to move your tongue over that quickly or either let it lay flat against there and then suck gently."
"Like this," she said and licked up the back of my dick before flicking her tongue several times as I cried out with ecstasy. I was gasping for air and holding onto the sheets for dear life when she stopped for further instruction.
My legs tried to pull up naturally but her body kept them tight to the mattress.
"Okay, you can't do that," I gasped. "When you stop like that it actually hurts in the pit of my stomach, like you kicked me in the balls."
"Oh, I didn't know that," she said apologetically.
"A lot of girls forget about the balls and the sensitivity there. When we're aroused they lower into the sack and putting them in your mouth heightens the whole experience." She looked down at me and I quickly covered myself so she wouldn't do anything just yet.
"After we get really going, just think about regular sex and how we pump for the friction we need. You can either suck really hard as you pump with your hand, or move your mouth up and down over the entire cock. It isn't the depth as much as the continuous motion. Do you swallow?"
"I think so, but I usually choke before that part," she said as if we were talking about the weather.
"God, you're an angel," I chuckled and she smiled at me. "That is why you need to keep your hand wrapped around the base. He can trust all he wants but it limits the amount you have to take in."
"Do you swallow?" she asked me and I forced myself to think about going down on a woman and not some man.
"Yeah," I said and she smiled.
"Okay, one last thing. The teeth can be a killer, so you have to situate yourself higher than my dick if you're going to go all the way to the back of your mouth. It is better to concentrate on just the head than go deep and cut the hell out of it. But it is all about the angle."
"Yeah, that I did know," she said.
I looked at her eyes which I could see were bright and inquisitive even in the dark. "Come here," I said wanting, no needing, to kiss her. She crawled up my body to reach my mouth and I kissed her deeply. I loved the feel of her lips on mine and I searched out her mouth with my tongue which would be on me soon, trying to learn everything about the wet darkness so willing to take me in.
When I slowed the kiss she moved to my neck and began making her way down my body. I let my head fall back and enjoy the sensation. When she reached my cock she kissed me lightly and giggled, so I opened my eyes and looked down at her.
She moved back to her original position and wrapped her hand around me. She played with my pre-cum with her finger and then brought it to her mouth and looked right at me as she sucked her finger. I wanted her so badly and watched with fascination as she kept her eyes on mine and stuck out her tongue to lick me.
"Oh God," I moaned.
Her eyes closed and she let her tongue move over me wetly as I moved my hips in time with her motion. She licked her way to my balls and held them gently in her mouth as her tongue continued to work them. She was a pro at this and I couldn't imagine any guy complaining about her.
When she moved her entire mouth over me I stared at her red lips as they relaxed and drug themselves up my head. "You taste so good," she moaned and my entire lower body tried to rise up to meet her mouth as she went back to her motions.
I was breathing in quick shallow breaths which were getting louder when she began pumping her hand. "Oh yeah," I cried out.
Her mouth locked around me and she began the tight sucking motion as her hand pumped quickly. I was ready to explode and trying desperately to hold on as long as possible when she suddenly moved higher and took me deeply into her throat. I held as still as possible when every instinct wanted to thrust upward.
In the very next moment she moved me even deeper and I lost it. I shot as I screamed out loudly and my entire body tensed as the spasms worked their way through me. She back off me just a bit and let her tongue go to the most sensitive spot causing the orgasm to last even longer. She remained connected to me as I softened in her mouth and then kissed my cock after pulling away.
I felt like I ran a marathon and my entire body was covered in a sheen of sweat as I struggled to breath normally. God, I loved her, she was too good for the prick was dating and I vowed to break them up and make her mine.
She suddenly sat up without so much as a deep breath and said, "So, do you think that will make him happy?"
8
I wasn't trying to purposefully hurt Bella; I only wanted to point out what a creep the guy was to her. She viewed me as a safe person to learn from, not a possible substitute for what she had. It wasn't just my ego that was wounded; it hurt my heart that she didn't have any feelings for me.
"I'm sure you'll compare with his wife now," I said hatefully and she let her mouth fall open.
I didn't offer an apology although I really wanted to thank her for what she just did for me, but I kept picturing her doing that to him and it pissed me off. She climbed off the bed and said, "I didn't judge you when you couldn't find the courage to screw the man you love, I helped," she said and slammed my door.
For the first time in my entire life I felt cheap and used. I had hookups all the time and never felt this way. I knew I had to be honest with Bella before I could expect her to consider me as an alternative. I tried to find the right words to admit everything when I heard her dragging something down the hallway. I threw on my boxers and opened the door just in time to see her pull a suitcase out the front door. She was going to him, and it sickened me.
I ran back to my room and pulled on my jeans as I ran from the apartment. I ran down the stairs and waited by the elevator for the doors to open. Bella gasped when she saw me standing there in only my jeans. The lobby was empty so I spoke right up.
"We need to talk," I said and she shook her head and tried to go around me. I grabbed her suitcase angrily and tossed it across the room.
"Go fight with your boyfriend and leave me alone," she screamed.
"I want to talk to you before you go screw another woman's man," I yelled back at her.
"Oh, did I miss part of the lesson, Tony," she said with venom.
"Edward," I said softly.
"What?" she asked and crossed her arms.
"My name is Edward," I said loudly. "I don't have a brother and Jasper is my best friend, not my…you know."
"Edward Anthony Cullen, son of Carlisle and Esme, born June 20th in Chicago, Illinois. Majoring in Pre-med," she said as she looked right into my eyes.
My heart almost exploded in my chest, she knew and let me continue pretending. "How…um…"
"My father is the chief of police, you ass," she said and walked over to get her suitcase. "I want you out of my place by Monday."
"You knew I wasn't gay?" I asked with shock. I began thinking over all the shit she put me through and I grew angry. "What game are you playing?" I yelled at her.
"You confused the hell out of me," she said with a laugh. "I couldn't figure out if you were or weren't. Are you sure you and Jasper don't have a little something on the side?"
"You bitch," I said with venom.
"Ah Edward, you've gotten back in touch with your masculine side, how predictable," she said and walked out the door.
My head was spinning and I couldn't figure out what she had to gain by letting me move in and playing her game. Did she simply want to see how far I would go before admitting I wasn't gay? I got into the elevator and went back to the apartment. I couldn't sleep and wondered why she would sleep with me; it was going a bit far just to prove a point.
Maybe I was leverage to get her guy to leave his wife and commit to her. The longer I thought about things the more certain I felt that was the real issue, but the guy never came around or seemed too concerned about the dude doing his girlfriend.
I got up the next day late in the afternoon, since I had trouble sleeping. I dressed and headed out to Jasper's to get his read on things. I was glad to see Alice was over and she looked concerned when she saw my face.
I sat on the couch and looked at both of them as I tried to find the words to say what I was feeling. "I got played," I finally said.
"By who?" Jasper asked.
"Bella, she knew I wasn't gay and my name wasn't Tony. We had sex," I admitted but left out the more gruesome details. "Last night she blew me and then went off to see her guy. I tried to talk her out of it and we had a huge fight."
"So, you like her?" Alice asked as she tried to make sense of what I was saying.
"The guy she is with is married. I didn't want her leaving my bed and going to his," I tried to explain.
"If he's married how could she go to his bed?" Alice asked and I kicked the coffee table in anger.
"I don't know, Alice, she didn't draw me a fucking map," I yelled and Jasper gave me a warning look, telling me to go easy on Alice or he would be kicking my ass out the door. "She wants me to move out."
Jasper laughed and then shrugged, "You have a lease, make her take you to court and tell a judge she wants you to move because you don't fuck men, see how far that gets her."
"I signed the lease Anthony Cullen," I said and realized it wouldn't be valid.
"She can't give you one day to find a new place. Tell her you'll leave at the end of the semester. It's only six weeks away," Alice said, and I noticed how Jasper winced. Alice would be leaving soon and I knew it was tearing his heart.
"Yeah, you're right; I haven't seen her much this semester anyway," I said.
"Do you have feelings for her?" Alice asked.
I stood and walked toward the door so she couldn't see my face. "No, she just gives good head," I said and left.
Bella was gone most of the week and I wondered how she was passing her classes if she wasn't attending school. I looked for any sign of her coming home while I had been away, but nothing was moved or changed. Maybe, she was with a friend and just waiting for me to move. It was Thursday when I got a call from Alice.
"Edward, get over to my place quick. I have something to tell you," she said with more excitement than she usually had, which was saying a lot. I figured Jasper proposed and she wanted to tell me all about it. I got to her place to find Rosalie and Emmett over too and knew it was the proposal. I sat on the couch and smiled widely.
"Edward, you are going to freak when I tell you this," Alice said.
I smiled and said, "Spill it."
I was going to pretend to be clueless about the entire subject and let her be excited, so her words caught me off guard. "Bella used you for a thesis paper."
I heard her, but I couldn't figure out what she meant. I had no idea the subject was going to be about Bella so I sat with a stupid look on my face.
"She wrote this whole paper about the games guys play and the lengths they will go to in order to get what they want. She's a psychology grad student and kept notes on everything you did and analyzed you."
"Wait, how do you know?" I asked.
"She gave the paper to the TA in one of my classes to edit and that girl told me about it. I asked her who it belonged to and she told me Bella Swan."
It began to filter through the fog I was experiencing and I realized she wrote about the intimate things I let her do to me just to keep up the deceit. I felt like I wanted to vomit and then unbelievable anger set in. I looked at Alice and said, "There isn't a boyfriend, is there?"
"Nope, it was part of her paper. She said men can't resist taking another man's woman. She's some feminist man hater if you ask me," she added to make me feel better.
"Did you read the whole paper?" I asked as my face reddened.
"No, I just heard about it," she said and her demeanor led me to believe she didn't know about the stretchers.
Rose finally spoke up and I expected her to laugh or tell me what a stupid ass I was, but she was supportive and it shocked me. "Edward, you need to get back at her. Turn the tables on her and make it where she won't dare publish the paper."
"She's pissed at me already, she won't listen to a word I say," I pointed out.
"She will if her paper turns out to be wrong. She would never turn in bad data, so we need to convince her it is wrong," Rose said and I didn't get what she meant. "From this moment on, you are gay, Edward. Jasper is your boyfriend and she played the wrong guy," Rose explained.
I looked at Jasper and he swallowed before saying, "I always wanted to do live theater, but you touch my junk I'll kill you."
Alice came over to sit by me and took my hand. "Edward, she wasn't sure you weren't really gay, so it will be easy to convince her."
"I admitted I wasn't," I said and Alice only smiled.
"Yeah, all gay men who aren't out of the closet lie," she said. "You graduate soon and leave for medical school, you'll never see her again, but she'll be stuck trying to come up with a new thesis paper and learn a lesson for doing this."
"Psyche the Psychologist," Emmett added with a laugh.
I thought it over for a second and smiled. "I'm game," I said we all got to work strategizing.
I worried about Bella being around to even catch a glimpse of our act, but Alice assured me she would get the message out through the woman editing her paper. She planned on telling the woman she knew me and Jasper was indeed my lover, and I had lied to Bella to keep her from going out with a married man.
I knew it worked when two days later Bella showed up back at the apartment. I was in my room and texted Jasper to moment I heard her come in. She went to her room and I waited for the fifteen minutes for Jasper to arrive before coming into the kitchen. We began making dinner when she finally made an appearance.
"I thought you were leaving?" she said hesitantly.
"Why should I leave just because you looked into my life and found I lied about my lifestyle? How many people do you tell about dating a married man?"
"Look," Jasper said to Bella, "We don't want any trouble, just leave us alone and we'll leave you alone."
"You said you weren't gay," she said with an accusatory glare.
"You had your father looking into my life; do you think I want my parents finding out from the town sheriff?"
"So you two are dating?" she asked with a hint of a laugh.
Jasper shocked the hell out of my by posting me against the fridge and whispering into my ear. "You kiss me I'll fucking kill you."
I let my head fall to the side as if he was nibbling on my ear or neck and placed my arms around him. Bella stormed off and we both jumped apart and began wiping imaginary things off of our bodies. Jasper shuddered from head to toe and it actually offended me a bit.
"I could do you better than Alice and you know it," I said.
"Dude, listen to what you're saying," he said and threw a hand towel at me.
"Now what?" I asked as I took a bite of the food we prepared. Jasper thought for a minute and then a big smile came across his face. I knew he was thinking of something good, because he usually kept his emotions pretty level.
"We're going to let her hear us having sex," he said and I stopped chewing and stared at him for more of an explanation. "We're going to play some porn on your computer really loudly," he explained.
"It always has music," I said and he shook his head.
"I have a tape in my email of some pretty loud sex sounds we used for the Halloween party," he said with a grin and I remembered the night with fondness, but for a totally different reason.
"So who's going to scream like a woman, me or you?" I asked and he bit his lip as he tried to work out the scenario.
"We'll edit it," he said and nodded for me to follow him into my room. We spent the next two hours making a believable recording and not once realized how pathetic it made us. When it was ready we moved my laptop to the door and turned it up very loud.
In less than five minutes Bella knocked loudly on the door. We both jumped from surprise and Jasper turned off the computer as I ripped off my clothes. I was about to open the door when he reached out and messed up my hair.
I put one hand in front of my dick and opened the door to see her furious face. "Do you mind?" she said angrily.
"Mind what?" I asked innocently and Jasper covered his mouth so he wouldn't laugh.
"Are you purposefully being loud for my benefit?" she asked and her face reddened.
"You said this was a safe place for us, would you prefer I wrap a gag around our mouths?" I asked and she narrowed her eyes at me. "I mean, we don't mind and it could actually be pretty fun, so whatever you want."
She walked away and yelled over her shoulder, "Did you tell him I was the one to teach you how to take a dick up your ass." She slammed the door with all her might and the wall shook from the force of it.
I turned to see Jasper staring at me in shock and I felt like I wanted to vomit.
9
Jasper left without any explanation from me and I took a shower to make myself feel better. It had been such a long evening and quite traumatic if I stopped to think about it. I climbed into bed and there was another soft knock on my door.
"It's open," I yelled since I was not getting up to answer it just to let Bella give me attitude.
She opened the door and looked at me lying in bed. She leaned against the door frame and said, "I owe you an apology, Edward. I thought you lied just to get the apartment and I was trying to make you admit it. It was disrespectful and I'm glad you didn't move."
"Thanks," I said softly and watched her for a moment before I added, "I was trying to get you to see you deserve better than a married man."
"Yeah, um…about that," she said and I tried not to smile as she prepared to make her big confession. "I'm not really dating anyone. I just didn't want you to think I was some loser nobody wanted."
I sat up and tried to act angry. "So, you gave me a blow job for nothing?" I asked. "Shit Bella, do you know what that would do to my relationship if it got out?"
"I would never tell anyone," she said quickly and I folded my arms harshly as I looked away. She ran up to the bed and sat as she grabbed my face. "I won't tell Jasper, I promise."
"You already told him enough," I said and pulled my face away from her hands. She let her head drop and shook it a couple of times.
"I'm sorry, I didn't think you were really in a relationship and I guess I got a bit jealous."
"Jealous?" I asked. "You knew upfront I was gay."
"God, this is so embarrassing," she said and looked away.
"Why did you have me teach you that?" I asked. "I think you owe me an explanation."
"I thought it would force you into admitting the thing with Jasper was fake, I was wrong and I'm sorry," she said.
"Jesus Bella, we've had sex," I said and pretended to be so disgusted by the memory.
"I'm so sorry," she offered again.
I turned my head away before setting up the next part of my plan. "You got me so confused and almost ruined my relationship."
"Confused about what?" she asked.
"About my sexuality, I mean, what you did to me was…not as awful as I thought it would be," I said and glanced at her and saw how she smiled to herself. "But Jasper and I are doing really well, so it is a bit confusing to me."
"Maybe you're bisexual," she suggested and I shook my head.
"No, I'm gay, believe me," I said and she furrowed her brow.
"But, you got an erection from me," she said as if her self esteem depended on it.
"Not from you, from imagining you were Jasper," I lied and swallowed down the bile that was rising up inside of me.
"But…you watched me," she said and her voice sounded as if she was going to cry.
I sat quietly as if I was struggling with some deep issue and finally looked up at her and said, "God, Bella, maybe it was you, I don't know."
"I think it is really important for you to know, I mean this could affect your entire life."
"Yeah, maybe," I said and began biting on my lip like I was confused. She waited for me to say something more and finally stood and walked to the door.
"Edward, I owe you, so if you need me for anything let me know."
"Thanks, Bella. Let me think about it a little more and I'll let you know," I said and she nodded and left the room. I had to bury my face in my pillow to keep the laughter from echoing down the hallway. I had her just where I wanted her, willing to do anything I asked sexually. I needed to get the camera set up before inviting her back into my bed. I wanted proof in case she tried to use her thesis paper the way it was.
I found it hysterical that the woman who was going to prove a guy was a player was going to end up being played. I fell asleep with a big smile on my face. The next morning I got up and made sure to leave my shirt in my room as I headed to the kitchen.
"I made pancakes," Bella said and handed me a large plate.
"Thanks, but this is too much food," I said as she moved the syrup close to me.
"Nonsense," she said and reached over to cut up my food as if I was a toddler. She smiled and held up a fork to my mouth.
"What's going on?" I asked her instead of taking the bite of food.
"I'm trying to apologize," she said and sat the fork down and moved to pour me some juice.
"Bella, stop," I said, "You have classes today too and I'm sure nursing is not an easy major."
I gave her the opportunity to come clean but she didn't take the bait. She only nodded and began cleaning up the mess in the kitchen. I ate silently, watching her closely as she seemed to be moving seductively around me. She would lean over, exposing her ass right to me and held up her hair to complain about the heat from the stove.
I never said a word and when I finished eating I put the plate in the dishwasher and headed to my room. I could have sworn I heard her sigh and smiled at how well my plan was working.
I never mentioned to Bella that she seemed to be around so much more. The first half of the semester I rarely saw her, now she was always home. I loved the expression on her face when Jasper would stop by. She tried to be civil to him, but her anger was always just below the surface.
Some of the most convincing moments came completely unintentionally. I bought a new pair of jeans and something was sticking into me from the back pocket. Jasper pulled the waist of my jeans out to see if he could tell what it was just as Bella walked into the room. He quickly let go of my pants and swatted my ass playfully. She just glared at us both.
One evening we were watching a movie in the theater room with Alice, Rose, and Emmett, when Jasper got up to use the restroom. When he came back to sit down I stuck out my foot tripping him and sending him falling onto my lap just as Bella entered the room. She didn't say a word and turned to leave as quickly as she entered.
There was only one week left in the semester when I decided to set up the camera and bring her into my bed. It was obvious she wasn't working on a new thesis and I was going to wait until the last moment to spring the video on her, making sure she didn't have time to write a new one but unable to use the old one.
I set up the camera inside a baseball cap I had on my dresser and began recording on my computer. I walked down the hallway and knocked on Bella's door.
"Yeah," she called out.
"Um…never mind," I said and quickly rushed to my room and got into my bed.
She showed up at my doorway right on cue and looked hopeful. "What did you want?" she asked with a sweet voice.
I took a deep breath and tried to appear tormented. "I'm kind of struggling with something, it's stupid, forget it," I said and waved my hand to dismiss her. She took the bait and came over to sit on the edge of my bed.
"I'll try to help, Edward. Please talk to me."
"I've been trying to sleep, but I… you…well you and me," I shook my head and looked right at her as I blurted out. "I keep thinking about you and I can't sleep."
"Thinking about us together?" she asked.
"Yeah, I'm not saying I don't find my relationship fulfilling, it's just, hell I don't know what it is, but I keep seeing your body in my mind."
She sat silently for a few moments and then looked at her fingers as she asked, "Do you want me to leave or get in your bed?"
"I can't ask you that," I said.
"Maybe it would help you settle some questions you're having," she said and I nodded with a pained expression on my face. She moved onto the bed and knelt at my side. "What do you want me to do?" she asked.
"Can you just kiss me?"
"Sure," she said with a smile and leaned in closely. She held my face with her hands and gave me a fierce ravenous kiss. I couldn't keep myself from responding and I moaned and reached out for her when she let her tongue sweep across my lips. She straddled me and I pulled her tightly me. "Oh yes, Edward," she said when she made contact with my erection.
I pulled her shirt over her head and she rose onto her knees, leaning her body into my chest as she bent our heads to continue kissing. I moved my hand between her spread legs and felt how wet she was. I plunged my hand into her panties and began working her clitoris vigorously. I could tell she wasn't going to last long so I let my middle finger enter her deeply.
She gasped and let her head fall back. I held her tightly with one arm as my hand worked her tense body. I could feel her legs shaking and I dropped my head onto her chest to watch the movement of my hand. "Bella, you're so wet," I said without any control of my mouth.
"For you," she said through her heavy breathing.
"Cum for me," I said, "Do it all for me, love."
Her entire body began to shudder and I could feel her vaginal muscles clamp around my fingers. "Oh my God," she cried out and fell forward pinning me to the headboard. I was moving my hips, desperate to be inside her as she tried to gain control.
"I need you, Bella," I said with a voice full of pain. I needed her so badly it made my body ach.
"What do you want?" she asked and I pushed her onto her back. I pulled her soaking panties off of her and pulled my dick from my boxers without taking the time to remove them. I entered quickly and she tightened her legs around me. I was moving in and out of her, grunting loudly, when she grabbed my face and asked, "Who are you thinking about, Edward?"
"You," I said resolutely, "God, Bella, only you."
"Say it again," she begged.
"Your body, Bella, your pussy, it is making me so hard," I said loudly.
She moved her mouth to my nipple and grazed it with her teeth as I exploded into her. She waited for my body to stop its spasms and then pulled my mouth to hers and kissed me as I whimpered against her mouth. I wasn't thinking about the video or the plan, all I could concentrate on was how amazing she felt in my arms.
I moved to her neck and she leaned back so I could kiss all the way to her ear. I kissed her lobe and sucked it into my mouth as she sighed happily. Her hands were running up and down my back with her fingernails and her legs remained around me.
"Bella," I said with a breathy whisper into her ear as I gained control of my mind again.
"Yes," she said with a smile and a soft moan.
"Don't tell Jasper, I would die without him," I whispered loudly and her entire body froze as I smiled against her hair.
"I won't," she said with a really weird voice and pushed me off of her as she grabbed her shirt and panties and ran from my room. I didn't follow her; I simply climbed out of bed and walked over to the computer to shut off the recording.
I heard her shower start so I texted Jasper to come to my place. He rushed right over and when he rang the doorbell I stayed in my room and waited for Bella to answer the door. He had to ring three times before she finally answered.
"Hi, is Edward home, he isn't answering my calls," Jasper said with a worried voice.
"I think he's in his room," she said and turned to leave when Jasper called out to her.
"Bella, do you know if something is going on with him. He's been acting weird."
"We don't really talk," she said with a shaky voice.
"I'm being stupid," he said, "I guess I'm worried about losing him. I would just freak out if I lost him, God, I would lose my mind."
When I heard them coming closer I moved away from the door. Jasper opened it and I stood with a big smile of victory on my face. "I'm guessing you got the video," he said.
"I sure did," I said.
"She's just barely hanging onto her emotions. I bet you anything she is crying right now," Jasper said and I felt my smile fall. I suddenly felt like a jerk and had the urge to go comfort her.
I changed the subject to Alice and asked him what he decided to do. He was talking and giving me details, but I wasn't listening to anything he said. I kept picturing Bella crying and I grew more and more ashamed of myself.
The next day was Saturday and Bella left early. I packed up my stuff and left Bella a note, telling her I was moving and she could find a new roommate. I expected her to at least give me a call, but she didn't. It was the last I saw of her for the next five years.
I got accepted to medical school in Chicago and lived not too far from Jasper and Alice. They married two years ago and Alice was now working in the research department of a major talk show. It was her job which brought Bella and me face to face again.
