Ohk I've seen all the reviews and damn you guys a impatient hahaha sorry I took so long a tragedy happened in my bestfriends family and I had to comfort her. I had the story half way done and I just got back to it yesterday. So here it is hope you enjoy it :)

Disclaimer: I don't own Durarara or the characters. D;

Warning: Yaoi, Shizaya ...


2 months into their relationship.

Shizuo noticed something was wrong with Izaya when he came back from his delivery he had to do. He asked him the night he slept over and just told him not to worry about it, he was just thinking about something. Ever since then Izaya has been acting weird

Shizuo was a bit upset that Izaya won't open up to him but he respected the raven's decision.

"Hey Shizu-chan!" He stopped his typing on the computer cringing a bit from the ridiculous nickname and looked up at a group of his female fellow employees.

"Yes?" He twirled his chair towards them in curiosity.

"Well, we were wondering… you have a lover, right?" Said a natural blonde unlike him. Shizuo hesitated a bit at the accusation and then smiled.

"Yes, how'd you know?" They all gave disappointed mumbles and groans.

The girl sighed, "We see you smiling all the time when you get a message and we see you dazed which is totally out of character"

"The signs of being in love!" a different girl shouted from the group.

Shizuo gave a small chuckle making the women blush.

"Oh, plus we've been able to see a few 'love bites' on your neck" All the girls giggled.

Shizuo was laughing to himself, what they called "love bites" Izaya called "pest repellents"

The girls went on asking more about Shizuo's love life. He didn't give away whom nor did he give details. They soon stopped their conversation after one of their superiors walked in and glared at the women making them sweat and retreat in fear.

Later that day Shizuo and Izaya were cuddled on the couch at Shizuo's house after work not even caring about their work clothes still on.

Izaya was in his lovers lap his face nuzzled perfectly into the crook of his neck. The blond had his arms wrapped lovingly around his waists. They both were tired from their day of work, it seemed almost everyone had to go and see at least 5-10 clients that day, more then usual.

"Shizuo…" Izaya said as he started to get up off of his lover's lap.

"I'm going to go get a shower I'll be back. Oh and is it ok to borrow some clothes?"

He started his way towards the shower hearing a 'yeah' behind him.

Lately the blonde noticed how Izaya never cuddles for long anymore, he doesn't stay over for long either, some days he'd say he wanted to just go home and when he'd ask why he would reply 'I'm tired and need to think for a bit.' He's satisfied with how he gets to see him when he can but he just wishes Izaya would say what's bothering him or what's on his mind.

Shizuo's stops thinking when he hears his phone vibrate.

He picks it up and opens the phone. He reads the message only to find it wasn't his phone and some man named Akabayashi was asking HIS Izaya out for lunch next week.

'Wait, don't just jump to conclusions it could be for any reason, not because he's cheating or anything, right?'

Suddenly he feels the phone get snatched from his hand. He looks up to see in enraged Izaya glaring at him.

"Izaya I-"

"What the hell Shizuo!? Don't just go looking through other people's phones. That's both disrespectful AND an invasion of personal stuff!" He bursts out. He looks at his phone to see the text message Shizuo was looking at.

"Izaya I wasn't snooping I thought it was my phone, please calm down."

The raven didn't say anything he was just typing furiously on his phone.

"Izaya, uh, who is Akabayashi? You never told me he was one of your friends."

"Look he's not a friend nor is he someone I want to associate with, it's really none of your business, so stay out of it please"

"Ok, fine." He starts to get up off the couch. "All I want to know is why you've been acting so moody and distant lately. I want this relationship to work but for that to happen you need to tell me what's going on and how you fe-"

"I'm sorry Shizuo I can't do that." Shizuo was a bit thrown off by the reply.

"Wait, what do you mean you can't?" he was starting to get a bit pissed off.

"I can't Shizuo, I just can't. I want to tell you I really do but…" he looked at the ground, then to Shizuo while fidgeting with his phone.

"I-I need to go." With that said Izaya had grabbed his stuff and walked out the door.

Shizuo was having a whole flood of emotions wash over him.

He was shocked that Izaya just left, confused because he didn't know was just happened, hurt 'cause the one he loves won't open his heart to him or tell him what's wrong.

He slumped back on the couch and sighed. He leaned forward and put his face in his hands.

"I'm just worried about you that's all…"

Through out the next week Izaya ignored Shizuo. As much as Shizuo wanted to talk to the raven he knew that they needed some space. He loved him, he really did. He just didn't want to ruin what they had over such a small argument.

Izaya decided to meet up with his ex only so he could tell him to leave him alone and stop texting him. If he didn't want to do as he was told Izaya would just have to beat the shit out of him like he did 6 years ago this time making sure he doesn't leave just one scar remain.

xxx

The finally day came where he had to met Akabayashi at a bar downtown and set things straight. He was a bit confused because the man asked him to go for lunch not to a bar.

Izaya's phone buzzed. He looked to see it was Shizuo who was messaging him.

'Izaya… I'm sorry that I tried to get into your personal business and I just want us to talk and see each other again. It's been a week and I know this sounds cliché and all but it breaks my heart knowing we're fighting and that you might actually hate me. Again I'm sorry. Will you forgive me?"

Izaya was the one who needed to apologize. He was the one who exploded on him when all the blonde wanted was to talk things out… then he just left without letting him talk. He just wants to cry to his lover and spill his heart out but not till everything's done and dealt with.

He was about to send something back when he got another message this time from Akabayashi.

"Hey, you on your way?" He sighed and replied "yeah" before grabbing his stuff and exiting his house.

xxx

He arrived at the bar skimming through the crowd looking for his ex. He saw a flash of red hair and started walking that direction. His heart was pounding from being nervous because he hasn't seen the man since he graduated and left Izaya another year at the high school. So things might be awkward.

Akabayashi raised his hand and started waving towards the raven. He patted his hand to a seat next to him only to have Izaya sit across from him.

"Ouch" He said with a smile, making Izaya cringe from the sight he hasn't seen in years.

"It's been so long Izzy-kun!" he announced as he put his elbow on the table and rested his head into his hand staring at Izaya.

"Don't call me that" he hissed then turned his head to not look into those eyes he once knew that were hidden behind sunglasses.

"Oh come on, you used to love that nickname I gave you." He gave another smile and then he waved his hand to a passing by waiter.

"What would you like to drink?" He asked the raven. He only glared back before mumbling 'water.'

The waiter came back with both their drinks and Akabayashi slipped the man some money before he walked away. Izaya eyed them both down suspiciously.

"Calm down I was just tipping the man." Smiling nonchalantly.

'Well isn't he throwing smiles around like crazy tonight.' Izaya thought as he took a gulp of his water.

Akabayashi fixed the collar of his red undershirt before speaking.

"Alright Izaya let's get down to business"

"Business? Last time I checked we only came here to talk, and by talk I mean me telling you to leave me the fuck alone. I thought I made that clear when you graduated." He was starting to get annoyed and yet dizzy at the same time.

"Oh Izaya, you don't get it do you. I don't let anyone get the last strike. I'm the one who always gets the last strike." With that said he grinned wickedly and looked as though he was waiting for something and was getting impatient.

"Yeah, like I'm going to l-let that happen. If y-you want to beat m-me up then we can take it out…outside." He was starting to feel his eyelids get heavy and his words were beginning to get harder to get out.

He slowly felt his head hit the table and he stared up at a fading Akabayashi.

"T-the fuc-"

Everything went black.

xxx

Shizuo was disappointed that Izaya didn't text him back. He really just wished he knew what he was thinking and could read him better, and then maybe none of this would happen.

He decided to walk to the store to get some food for his possible night alone. He went down every isle sighing and people staring at him, he ignored their stares and kept shopping. He made his way to the check out counter and paid for his stuff.

When he left the store he started his way home. He heard footsteps behind him then suddenly a hand gripped his shoulder making him turn only to see a small man about Izaya's height with glasses and a doctors' white coat.

"Oh hey Shinra, can you not scare the shit out of me? Thanks." He relaxed his tensed shoulders.

"Oh I'm sorry Shizuo! I was walking around and just seen you walk out of the store and wanted to chat. Do you have time?" He smiled up at the blonde.

"Yeah sure" They headed towards the bespectacled man's house.

xxx

"So, how are things with you and Izaya?" Shinra asked after setting down 2 cups of tea on the coffee table and then sitting down.

Shizuo looked at the cup of tea, picked it up and made a swirling motion with his hands making the tea swirl lightly in the cup before answering.

"Things aren't going so well. I think he hates me now because I accidentally looked at a message on his phone and he flipped on me." Taking a sip from his tea and setting it down.

"Well Izaya has always been distant from everyone since 6 years ago. He used to be so open and loved everyone… in a crazy insane way. Until he kind of shut himself from the world one day after the senpai's left." He went into his room and brought back a yearbook showing photos of him and Izaya and a man with red hair, sunglasses and a red undershirt who's arm was slithered around Izaya's waist.

"Who's that?" groaning in disapproval while pointing at the man.

"Oh? Oh! That's Akabayashi, Izaya's old boyfriend. They weren't afraid to flaunt their relationship" Going through the book showing Shizuo pictures of them hugging and holding hands. Shizuo felt a vein pop in his forehead. 'So that's the guy he's messaging huh?'

"I remember when they first met each other. The clicked just like that!" Snapping his fingers to emphasize the 'that.'

"They were both crazy and loved to see the suffer of others, so everyone wasn't really surprised when they got together because they were like a perfect match!" Shizuo was starting to get pissed off at how Shinra was making it seem like Izaya being with him will never be the same as him being with his ex.

Shinra took the hint that Shizuo was getting mad when he heard a crack and saw tea spilling from his cup.

"I-I mean he's probably really happy with you know b-because ever since Akabayashi left Izaya locked himself from the world and since he met you he was starting to be himself again." He scratched the back of his head and looked at Shizuo to see if it saved him.

"Yeah I guess so… until I made him mad at me and want to lock himself away again." Shizuo sighed and cleaned up the mess he made.

"Well knowing Akabayashi and Izaya, they probably didn't have your normal break up. Someone probably did something or something happened made Izaya the way he is today."

Shizuo suddenly got a bad feeling in his stomach.

"By any chance did you know anyplace they hung out a lot at?"

"Hmm? Oh, uhm I remember Izaya wouldn't stop going off about his first time with Akabayashi in some abandon building downtown. They used to hang downtown a lot. I believe it used to be a pharmacy..." Shinra was shocked when suddenly Shizuo got up and ran towards the door.

"Thanks Shinra I owe you one!" The door shut behind him while he departed leaving a baffled doctor.

xxxxx

It was either pitch black in the place Izaya was at or he just didn't open his eyes yet. He heard a few mumbled words reach his ears as he shuddered at the cold breeze going across his body.

'Last time I checked I was well clothed so I wouldn't be cold… Am I naked?' He thought tiredly as he tried to get his mind to fully awaken.

"Hey look I think he's coming through," said one voice Izaya couldn't recognize.

"Yeah… I can't believe you actually did this. Did you really search him down after all these years just so you can have your revenge." Another voice joined in with the other throwing in a few words like 'seriously' and 'wow'

'Revenge? Oh right he wanted to give the "last strike." If he wants to hurt me why not do it by yourself and not bring a bunch of goons with you' He was able to open his eyes half-lidded barely able to see anything, simply just blurred figures.

"Well of course, I told you guys years ago I'd let you have your fun with him so here he is. Prettier then ever this time." Yet another voice was added to the other 2. This time the raven knew this voice.

"Akaba…yashi?" He said weakly as he tried to get up only to find his hands were restrained and so were his feet.

"Oh it seems the princess is awake, shouldn't you be woken with a kiss?" Akabayashi leaned forwards and captured his victim's lips.

Izaya wiggled around aggressively trying to get the man off him. 'Fuck this is bad, this is seriously bad'

The red haired man released his lips and gazed down at him wiping a piece of raven lock hair from the smaller man's face.

"Don't touch me!" Izaya said barring his teeth and then spitting at the older man.

"Go to hell!"

He wiped the bit of saliva only to lick it off his fingers. Izaya squirmed in disgust.

"Feisty as ever I see" He walked back to his other friends as they spoke in a huddle. Izaya was beginning to recognize his surroundings.

"T-this place…" He stuttered.

"Yes Izzy-kun, I see you still remember and…" He slowly started to swirl circles around the raven's bare chest. His clothes were on a pile on the ground.

"… I bet your body remembers too" He went down to lick a nipple on his chest making him fidget under the tongue as he tried to hold back a groan.

He couldn't help that his body was sensitive especially after not being touched in a long while.

"S-stop this now!" He tried to sound intimidating but by the look in his captors face showed it wasn't convincing.

"Ah? AAAAAH!" He screamed when he felt something piercing his chest and gliding down agonizingly slow causing him to scream even more.

He looked down to see the man above him was holding a switch blade knife, the one the raven brought with him just in case anything bad was going to happen.

He felt tears threatening to leave the corners of his eyes as he watched streams of blood start to go down his body.

"W-wait Akabayashi it wouldn't be quite the turn on if there's blood all over him."

One of the guys said behind him and joining him was his friend nodding in agreement.

"You're right…" Akabayashi stopped his actions and stepped back. "Dig in boys after you're done let me have the last bit of him remaining." He announced will licking the blade.

"N-no… please… don't" Izaya felt disgusted and ashamed of himself. He couldn't fight back and he was about to be violated and maybe even severely hurt by his past.

He felt 2 cold shaky hands go up and down his body. He sensed a hot breath breathing deeply by his ear and another added hand down to his lower region stroking him.

He knew no one could save him because no one knew of this place and he never told Shizuo where he was going. Shinra was actually the only person who knew of the place but that was years ago he told him about it and he never talked to Shinra about meeting up with his ex at all.

He started to think about Shizuo and how he regretted never telling him he loved him more often and not being able to apologize to the blonde about all that has happened. He knew he should have at least told him about his past.

"Ah!" He felt something cold and gel like circle around his entrance before it forced it's way through.

"No! Please…stop!" He tugged and struggled at the restraints only to be held in place.

He couldn't help the tears flowing down his cheeks and the wound from earlier making it even worse if he tried to struggle some more.

Akabayashi stood there with his cane in one hand leaning on it as he watched in amusement.

"Honestly Izzy-kun, quit resisting they'll make you feel real good if you're a good boy."

Izaya was ready to throw a whole mass of curse words until they all stopped when they heard a bang coming from the front of the store.

"Who the fuck?" Akabayashi motioned one of the men to look to see what was going on.

The man let go of Izaya's length and walked to the front of the store grabbing a crowbar with him.

It was silent for a while until they heard Akabayashi's followers' voice.

"Hey, I'm sorry you can't be in he-" They all jumped when the man was suddenly hurled into the room they were in… through the wall.

"What the fuck is going on!" Yelled the man who rushed over to his friend's aid.

In the dust from the crumpled wall came a tall figure.

Izaya, Akabayashi and one of the still conscious men stared in shock. The dust started to slowly depart when Izaya's eye grew wide in amazement and gratefulness.

"Shizuo!" He cried as he looked at his savior.

Shizuo was enraged and surprised when he heard his lover's voice. When the dust cleared he saw the raven naked strapped on a table with a gash going across his chest and his eyes puffed up from all the crying.

His rage grew in size when he was looking for the particular man who did this to his lover. He spotted a grinning red headed man and charged towards him.

He punched the wall finding the man disappeared.

"AKABAYASHI!" He roared through out the world practically. Izaya was happy yet terrified because he didn't know Shizuo could be so angry and was amazingly strong.

They all turned their heads to see said man the blond was bellowing for next to Izaya with his knife pulled.

Izaya didn't even know how he got there. He knew he was good but it's been a while so his skills must of improved.

"Shizuo, huh? Are you the one who took my precious Izzy-kun from me?" He smirked pushing the blade closer to the raven's neck.

"S-shizuo…" He shook. He's never been so petrified in his entire life.

Shizuo looked at the pleading look in his lovers' eyes and looked at the man causing his lover to be so terrified.

"Ha! Really threatening his life really makes you think I still wouldn't kill you!? Your just asking for a death wish aren't you!?"

Before Akabayashi could say anything he got smacked incredibly hard with a counter.

"H-how…" He was able to get out before he slipped into a deep sleep.

The room grew silent as Shizuo stood there huffing out huge inhales of air quickly.

"Shizuo p-please untie me!" Izaya snapped the blond to his sense for a bit.

Shizuo was there in seconds untying every restraint and Izaya got up holding his lover in his arms.

"Shizuo I was so scared. I thought I wasn't going to see you again and… and"

"Sssh, it's ok Izaya, I'm right here no need to worry anymore" He was stroking the raven's head trying to sooth the smaller man before he placed him gently on the ground.

"Shizuo?" The raven looked at him with questioning eyes merely to find the anger in the blonde's eyes was still there.

Shizuo stormed towards the unmoving body of Akabayashi and picked him up by his head. He stared at the face for a bit and then slammed it into the wall earning a small crack from the man's head.

"SHIZUO!" Izaya said struggling to get on his feet.

The blonde kept repeating his actions, his mind and eyes filled with hatred and irritation as the sounds of breaking bones encouraged him to go on.

"SHIZUO STOP PLEASE YOU DON'T HAVE TO GO THAT F-"

Bang!...Bang!

Izaya blinked at the sounds, he looked to the source finding that one of the men that were still unhurt held a gun in his hand.

'When did he?!'

Izaya started shaking violently when he turned towards the direction the gun was pointing.

"Shizuo…" He saw a motionless body of the blonde on the floor. He got up and stumbled to him.

"S-shizuo?" He turned the body over to find 2 bullet holes; one in his upper chest and one in his stomach. The blonde's eyes were still opened. The light colored mocha now turned dark.

"No no no no! Shizuo your ok. E-everything will be ok, th-this can b-be fixed, Shinra can f-fix you… Shizuo?!" He placed shaking hands over the body as the mocha eyes flashed back and forth.

"I-Izaya…" Shizuo was able to get out. He started to violently cough as blood started to stream down his chin.

"Y-y-yes Shizuo yes!? W-what? Tell me p-please anything, j-just stay with m-me!" He felt tears flooding his vision and dripping from his crimson eyes.

"…At l-least cough I die a hero… haha…"

"NO! no Shizuo you w-will not die! D-don't say that I will n-not let you… I won't let you die…" He was now crying and you could hear the strain in his voice as he tried to speak. He hung his head low behind his bangs so Shizuo wouldn't see him cry.

"There…there's still so much… so, so much we need to do Shizuo… you can't leave me like this!" He felt a hand touch his face and he grabbed at it frantically trying to keep it up as it slide through his hand from the blood.

"Yes so much…" Shizuo said weakly. He was fading and fading fast and Izaya knew that. Izaya heard the man who shot Shizuo talking to someone on the phone very loudly and ignored him.

"L-like what Shizuo? Come on stay with me… What is it we still need to do?"

"… I… wanted to ta….take you to the beach…"

"Yes, yes! We can d-do that, what else keep talking… please…"

It was taking Shizuo even longer to answer back.

"…I…" Shizuo eyes were starting to close slowly.

"I what, Shizuo, I what?" He shook the blond to get him to continue.

"I-I'm tired…"

"I know Shizuo, I know your tired but you can't sleep, ok? Helps almost here! Just don't sleep tell me some more things…"

"I… never really fully… apolo….gized…" He sighed out.

"No, no Shizuo I'm the one who needs to apologize I-I yelled at you for no reason I should have just told you the truth. I'm sorry."

Shizuo gave a weak smile and turned his head to the side. They both heard faint sounds of a siren.

"Hear that Shizuo?! They are almost here stay with me."

"…Izaya…"

"Yes Shizuo?" He smiled, looking through a hazy pair of eyes.

"I… I love you… I do… alot" His eyes were almost fully closed and his breathing slowed extremely.

Izaya started crying harder he knew Shizuo was only saying this because he knew he wasn't going to make it.

"Shizuo… I love you too… I love you s-so much, th-that if you leave me… I w-wouldn't know what to do… I'd be lost…. Shizuo."

The hand in Izaya's felt limp and his eyes grew wide.

"Shizuo…" He shuddered in disbelief as his lovers' eyes were closed and he shook him earning nothing in return.

"SHIZUO!" He rocked back in forth with his lover in his arms crying hysterically as paramedics came in seconds after. They pried him away from Shizuo getting a few kicks and screams from the raven as he tried to reach for his lover.

"SHIZUO!"


I'm such a horrible person! GAAAAHH D; I'm sorry I was actually having trouble on how to continue and I'm sorry if it's a bit too rushed… More chapters... or chapter! I probably should of mentioned in the warning... uncontrollable crying D; Review please! (: