Ryan's POV
She was in my arms, she was weak and fragile, she had been hurt by her own kin and she could never trust another man in her life. I was hoping to turn that around. She couldn't be afraid of men if she was going to live forever with three or ten. Something like that.
Anyway. She was still weeping in my arms on my bed. She was hurt having to remember all the bad memories of her pervious life. Her features where shaking and her mind was blank. She hated to remember what had happened and I didn't do anything to stop my family from looking her history up. I should of stopped them, I should of taken her away, I should of stopped all of this...
"Lillian." I whispered lifting her head so it was in line with mine.
Her face was red from crying so much and her eyes had a shade of blue glistening in them. Everything about her made me feel sad, feel like my whole world had ended.
"What?" She managed to chock out between her sobs
I took a deep breath and rose my hand to her soft face. She quickly became stiff and afraid. I felt the wolf within her growing in strength. Was she really that scared of me that she would let her wolf take some control over her...
Ok let me explain. We aren't like normal wolves, we are human, we live forever and we shift when it is winter. Aka too cold. Our spices is different to other werewolves. We can sense each other's thoughts when we are human and we send each other images when we are in wolf form. Our minds change from human, tame and smart, to wolf, wild and dog like. Our minds change to those that a wolf would have so it functions less reliably. Our movement and every other bit of the brain is the same except for talking, solving problems and most of all our human lives. We forget everything when we are wolves. Our family, friends and who we are as a human. It's the same for us who have just turned back to human form. We remember certain bits of our time as a wolf but we really have to concentrate to remember, and the worst bit is that our minds take a couple of hours to fully return to normal so we might not know who we are or where we are...
To become a wolf you have to be bitten by a actual werewolf. The werewolf can be in wolf or human form for the venom to work. The first turn is the most painful, well all of them are painful. Anyway for the first couple of weeks, no matter what the temperature, the shifts are uncontrolled and scary. I hated it when I went through my first shift. I was at school and I had no idea what was wrong with me. I thought I was some kind of freak. See my presents never told me about what I was until it actually happened. All I knew was that they went away every winter to go on a big mission. You know to help the needy and the poor. I wanted to but they always said "it's too cold for you son. We just can't let you come." It was so lonely without them. Luckily my shift was at the beginning of fall so my parents where around for that. Which was very helpful... Anyway, after the shifting has calmed down they can stay human for a while until it gets too cold again. I must admit it was freaking scary.
Our kind live in packs. Every winter we shift one by one. It may take 2 - 3 weeks for all of us to shift. We never minded much cause we could go and wait at the edge of the tree line for the others to change. Our packs are made up of around 10 - 20 wolves. Our kind is on the climb but I don't know if it will stay that way for long...
Humans find it fun to hunt us and kill us. They always think that we are the ones killing the people that go missing but surprisingly every time someone goes missing another wolf comes into the pack so it can't be us. But we can't just shift at gun point and say "wait man, you've got the wrong guy." If I did I would be on the group dead...
It sounds fun to be us but it's not. Around 21 years ago my mum and dad where apart of a pack that they loved most but then the worst happened. A well known hunter of Mercy Falls called a hunting party to kill all wolves in the Boundary Wood. Mum, dad and uncle Cole tried to get the rest of the pack to safety but it never happened. They came in a helicopter and the wolves got confused. One by one they where all shot. Only mum and dad along with a couple of others survived. Cole was seriously injured and my parents where convinced that he was dead. I couldn't blame them. From his many stories I guess you could call them he said he had a blown up thigh. That is revolting. Anyway mum had told me that Beck, the closest thing my dad had to a dad, was killed in the hunt...
She said that dad was just standing there, shaking, hands beside him, silent and staring down at the body at there feet. Something terrible in my dad's face made tear after noiseless tear slide down her cheek.
"Sam." She begged. "Please."
Dad said, "I'm fine."
And then he just crumbled gently to the ground. He was a curled form, hands up behind his head, pulling his face down to his knees, so far beyond crying she didn't know what to do.
She crouched down beside him and wrapped her arms around him. He shook and shook, but no tears came.
"Grace," he whispered, and in that one word, she heard agony. He was running a hand through his hair again and again, knotting and releasing fistfuls of it in his pal , ceaseless. "Grace, help me. Help me."
But she didn't know what to do...
To this very day I still shed tears for my pop who died my dad's hero. He was the one who turned him but he helped him through it. My dad's parents tried to kill him when they found out what he was. He was only 12 at the most. They pushed him into a bathtub full of boiling hot water to heat him up but when they knew they couldn't do anything they slit his wrists and waited but his death never came. His parents where sent to prison for life for what they did to him and I'm glad. I would of never wanted to meet them. Dad still had troubles getting into a bathtub because of them...
Another downside to being a wolf is that every 10 years or so you have to get the cure. The cure stops you from shifting but before I go into the information about this I must tell you about our life span...
Us wolves we live around 10 years shifting back and forth between human and wolf but then we stop. We shift into a wolf one year and we never shift back. We stay a wolf for the average wolf life span then we die. So 10 years of shifting then around 15 as a full wolf...
Ok so the cure doesn't fully cure us it just stops the shifts. It's hard to explain. My mum was dragged off her tyre swing when she was eleven. My dad stopped the wolves from killing her but she had been bitten. He carried her back and wait for her to turn. Always waiting at twilight each and everyday. But what he didn't know was that my mum's dad had locked her in the car and it was one of the hottest days in history of mercy falls. The heat should of killed her but she survived. Uncle Cole came to the conclusion that the fever must of burned the wolf. It stopped the shifting for 6 years but then she was made to turn. They figured that it stopped the shifting but it didn't stop the ageing. So it was like when the older wolves where stuck being wolves but she was only human. She was beginning to die and they had to turn her.
So every 10ish years they have to have the cure so we don't stay wolf. That is one of the downsides. Major downside.
Ok something's about my family...
My dad is Sam Roth. The one and only. Then my mum is Grace Roth. Uncle Cole know as Cole st. Clair. Love him. We have 17 other pack members... Zero, Becca, Bella, Ander, Edward, Jace, Clary, Yogi, Danielle, Brooks, Luce, Hellen, Lucas, Hector, Stefan, Elena and Kathleen. There all awesome. They live in the mason with us. We have 40 bedrooms, 45 bathrooms and around 30 other rooms. A pool too. Can never live without swimming...
Anyway, liking or not liking what i am I have to deal with it and I have to live through all the loss and pain and grief of loosing a member but that happens way too much. I can't seam to stop it but I must protect Lillian with my life.
"I won't hurt you. Remember what I said earlier. Tell me what I said." I said softly moving my thumb on her cheek. She seamed to calm down a little and relax as she remembered.
"Listen to me. Not the wolf. Me. Calm down. I'm not going to hurt you." She whispered looking down at the bed
I slowly lifted her head up again to look at mine.
"Yes that is it. Know that I will NEVER hurt you. I NEVER want to hurt you." I said cupping her face in my hands
A smiled creeped onto he face she chuckled a little.
"What." I asked confused
"No one has ever said they won't hurt me." She said softly
"Well you better get used to it cause when the others change back you will have everyone to answer to." I laughed
She laughed with that and then she took a deep breath.
"I would like to know what I am. I know I'm a wolf and that you can read minds but nothing else." She said looking me in the eyes.
I took a deep breath and looked her right in the eyes.
"We aren't like normal wolves, we are human, we live forever and we shift when it is winter. Aka..."
I told her everything about my family and myself and what she is. I don't know how she handled it but she didn't scream at all so that's a good thing... I hope...
Chapter three done...
Ok peeps. I need reviews. I would like to know if you like it or if you want me to stop writhing it. I don't want to spend time writing if no one likes it. D: PLEASE R&R...
