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I don't own Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicles, Fay D. Flourite or Kurogane all rights go to the creators "Clamp." I don't get any profit from this.
Autors Note.
Ok, a new chapter, yay! First of all I think I need to apologize for not updating soon. I'm really sorry, is just that TRC end was so disappointing I really was frustrated and lost all my inspiration for keep doing this fanfic, but now I'm back and I promise that won't happen again.
Well I hope all of you like once again this new chapter, the development of the story goes well or so I think, but if you don't think the same please send me a message telling me what changes can be done so the story doesn't feel rushed.
Once again Kurogane isn't here yet, but I bet you'll love this chapter, or at least I loved writing it. Please be patient I promise Kurogane will appear. Also this chapter is told from Fay's point of view and the introduction are the father's thoughts in case it isn't clear.
I will really appreciate your comments and reviews about it. Like in the first chapter if you see grammar or spelling "horrors" (because they aren't errors, Lol), typos or anything like that, please inform me and tell me how to correct the mistake. I'll give you a cookie.
Well I'll stop spamming now so you can, or so I hope, read and enjoy this chapter.
Thanks~
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REPLACEMENT.
By Lemoni~
I hate you. You're a monster; you're a monster that kills everything it touches, that doesn't deserve happiness, that doesn't even deserve to be alive. You're a horrendous monster without feelings, without remorse, you use the face of an angel, my angel Fay, but that doesn't blind me to the fact that you're only the reflection of something good. You can't trick me I can see all the ugliness that lies behind that horrible smile, that smile that you put even after your mother died, even after you killed her and saw her last breath.
Did you enjoy her suffering? Did you laugh with glee at her misfortune? Did you see her dead eyes and liked it? I bet you did. Like the lake that enchanted Narcissus you kill with the beauty you reflect and enjoy the fact that they can't see your ugliness until the very end. You killed your mother, the woman that gave you life that feed you, that trusted you. My beautiful wife fell into the lake just like Narcissus and you're trying to make Fay fall to. But that is where your fail lays, no monster, you've already lost, you can't deceive anyone now. I'll kill you before you have even the slightest chance to hurt what is dearest to me. I won't let you take Fay away from me, not the same way I let you take my wife's life.
I knew from the beginning that you were a horrendous monster, but Elda loved you, Elda named you, kept you, she thought that she could live happy forever after keeping a monster but like the old saying says, raise ravens and they will poke out your eyes. I won't let you do the same to Fay. I will kill you before that. I'll put an end to the misery you bring.
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The whole afternoon I've been replaying what happened in the morning, the encounter with my sweet twin brother Yui and the cruel words that my father said to him. Yui doesn't deserve that treatment, but no matter what I said to him it's like he is a monster to him, in his eyes there's only a vermin, a creature without feelings, without hope or the need to be loved just like everyone else.
I know where this come from, since my mother died my father changed drastically, I don't know what broke in him, something snapped after my mother's decease, my father lost his ground and I think that is why he blames everything on Yui, no matter how insignificant or ridiculous the problem is, he just blames him. I've talked to him before and it only infuriates him, I've stopped trying, because in the end the one that suffers is Yui. He thinks my twin has brainwashed me or something, like he is a monster that plays with the people's hearts until he consumes them. He said he's a pest… I hate that, when my father says that I just can help it… I hate him.
If my mother were alive surely she would be so disappointed of this, the way my father treats my twin, the way he beats him, the way he tortures him every chance he has. The torture is of the worst kind, the blows heals, the beatings sometime have to stop, but when he says those horrendous things to Yui, the torture doesn't end, he always is thinking about it… I know it, he may think he can fool me with those empty smiles, but I'm his twin, I know, I feel everything that happens in his soul, his heart, his body. I know when he is hurting… and I can't help him.
This morning was like the old Yui was with me once again, the happy Yui, the one my mother loved, the one that always wore a kind smile, but something in him snapped too, something in him is so hurt that he can't trust no one with his feelings anymore.
What worries me is that he thinks now that my mother's dead was his fault, that if he wasn't there then the things surely would have taken another course, but that is a lie, how can he think that an accident was his fault? Her dead was an unfortunate accident nothing more, anyway if there is someone to blame would be me, she died trying to protect me, and still in the end, he carried all the blame.
I was so sick that night; I can barely remember anything from it. I had a high fever and it didn't want to get low no matter what my mother did. It was raining that night, and my parent was stuck in the rice field barn. The rain made it impossible for him to return home that day, so my mother took the initiative to go and fetch the doctor, the story is a know one, the horse she was ridding got scared with a lighting so she fell and suffered a severe injury that caused her an internal bleeding, by the time my father found her and we had the opportunity to found the doctor it was too late… she didn't make it.
She died in our home, in her bed, with Yui holding his hand and crying he even wasn't aware she had died. By the time I recovered from my sickness the funeral of my mother was past story. I cried so much in those days, the fault eating my soul to the core, leaving me empty and without hope. I didn't talk to anyone for almost six months.
That was when Yui took care of everything, from the house chores to helping father in the rice field, he stopped going to school and got a part time jobs whenever he had a chance to help with father with a few bucks. In case you're wondering why… because a funeral is a very expensive thing. He also took care of me; he tried to cheer me and father to the best of his abilities. He visited our mother's grave every weekend and kept the tomb clean, he always made it his job to put a fresh bouquet of white lilies our mother's favorites and he still does that. He always was wearing a sunny smile.
I've to recognize even thought it shames me that at the beginning I hated Yui too. He didn't cried like my father and I did, he didn't mourned or mother, he seemed like nothing had happened. I was angry, how could he be so serene after that? Was he really an unfeeling monster? Didn't he love our mother enough to cry a few tears for her? Didn't she even deserve that little from his part? I treated him like the bastard I thought he was but I couldn't be more wrong.
One day I complained everything to him. I told him he was a monster, how I wish he was the dead one and not my mother, how I hated him. I remember him just looking at me, like he was going to cry, like he wanted to scream, but he just looked at me… without saying anything, without retorting anything and I don't know why I suddenly saw him in the eyes. That was the day I noticed something strange in my twin, I remember seeing his empty eyes and also I remember seeing that horrible first broken smile… that smile, the one that told me that I didn't know my twin anymore, the one that told me I was the monster not him; that horrible smile is marked in my memory, because that was the day I broke his soul. I also keep in mind that was the day I saw the light, I felt horrible after that, I still remember that day and my chest physically hurts, with pent up emotion.
After that I started to notice the little changes in my twin's behavior, the little rope burn marks in his wrists, the limping movements of his body, the multiple hiding bruises, the lost weight, his frazzled nerves, the subdued conduct, the stress marks in his face, the fear that invaded his eyes every time my father returned home. It wasn't long before I discovered why.
It was late that Thursday's night. My father hadn't returned home yet and Yui was working extra hard to keep everything clean and tidy before my father returned home, I wasn't able to sleep, since that day I've been trying to keep an eye in Yui all the time, searching for the moment that I could apologize to him, that I could talk to him. My mother's dead affected him the most and no one had noticed that. When my father returned that night he was drunk and reeking of cigarette, cheap perfume and alcohol. After my mother had died he had changed so much… I almost couldn't recognize him. Suddenly a hard slap put me on alert, I heard Yui's cries as he landed on the floor, hard, and when I entered the living room the scene before my eyes was horrendous.
Yui was covering his little body from my father's hits, his left eye was a black bruise and the right one was barely open, his sleeves leave his arm uncovered and yellow and purple bruises covered them they were alternated with burn marks. I could see blood in his face, in the floor, and I could see my brother trying not to yell. How long has this been happening? Since what day my twin brother was being abused, tortured and beaten by our father? I just remember yelling to my father to stop, trying to make him stop. All of sudden my father turned to me and slapped me hard; I hit the floor because of the strength put into the slap.
I remember that I touched my bruised cheek, looking at his eyes, with fear and hurt. He looked into mine with the same displayed emotions. Suddenly he turned to Yui and started yelling to him to look at me, at the same time he grabbed his head in an iron grip, I could see the hair tearing from his scalp because of this – Look well monster, you hurt Fay, you make me hurt Fay, that's the only thing you can do, hurt, kill, harm, you can't do anything more. As he said that Yui's eyes where wide open, looking my bruised cheek and mumbling something I couldn't hear.
I couldn't let him do this to Yui so I yelled at him – This isn't Yui's fault, is yours, you hurt me, you hurt Yui, you're the one hurting anyone in this room! Abruptly my father let go of Yui and he stumbled to the floor I remember embracing him as I looked at my father with fury, daring him to try to touch Yui one more time. He just went to his room and slammed the door. That night I tended Yui's wounds, he was like a zombie, chanting that he was sorry the entire time. I remember crying that night as I embraced him and made him sleep in my bed, asking forgiveness without receiving an answer.
The next morning I woke up and I remember trying to embrace Yui but in my bed there was only empty space, he wasn't in the house, but my breakfast was in the table, I also didn't see my father until several days later when he entered my room. I was very aware of every moment he did, when he out of the blue embraced me and asked me if I could forgive him, that what happened the other night will never repeat again. I was torn between saying yes and no. I couldn't forgive what he did to my twin, but he also was my beloved father. I remember that I resigned returned his embrace and said to him that it was ok, not before making him promise me that he would never hurt Yui again.
The next day I saw my twin entering our room and I embraced him hard, happy to saw him, he returned my embrace and smiled at me, like nothing have happened, his swollen eyes could barely open and I was broken to saw this. He told me he was moving out and no matter what I told him, no matter that I assured him that our father would never hit him again, he was determined to move out.
I hear a thundering sound in the sky and looked at it, as the rain started to fall I could only said to no one… - I hate this rain, it hurts Yui…
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Third chapter up, my inspiration has returned.
Well read & review.
