Hey I'm back. About the story I've decided to start every chapter with a flashback of Eli and Clare's life before after or during their marriage just to give you more information on when it all went wrong. Enjoy :P
The Perfect Demon
Chapter 3:The things you say, that you love me that you're doing this for my own good,do you expect me to believe you, I hate this.I sound like I'm always in such need, that I'm always in distress and that's not who I am.
I lay on my bed reading a fortnight book,yes even after I got out of high school I still love this book. I heard a knock on my door.I got up and answered it.
"Eli!" I said with a smile spread across my face.
"Hey." He said, he didn't sound happy it was kinda like a he was irritated.
He walked past me, into my dorm and on my bed, his hands were shaking and he was breathing heavy. I don't think I've ever see him like this other than when he told me about me about his hording.
"What's wrong, Eli?" I said sitting next to him and getting nervous.
Eli didn't answer me, he crushed his lips over mine pushing us down on the bed and forcefully plunging his tongue into my mouth,and I uncomfortably moaned. He shoved his hand up my skirt and I tried to push him off but he fought me back. What it going on with him.
"Eli stop I'm not comfortable with this."
He's not listening to me, this isn't like him. He pulled my panties down and I looked at him in fear. What is he doing?
"Eli what are you doing I'm not ready for this yet, STOP." I said tears forming in my eyes.
He looked up me and then down at my cleavage. I squirmed trying to get out of his grip.I love Eli, I do, but my virginity is still very important to me and if I was going to give it to him I wanted it to be my choice, not something I was forced to do.
"Eli I said stop."
"How about I fuck you instead Clare, would you like that?"
I fearfully squeaked in response,and there was no avoiding the unavoidable so I just sat back closed my eyes and fought back the tears. He wasted no time ripping off our clothes and positioning himself at my entrance.
"Eli no I'll do anything but- AHH." He plunged quickly into me without warning my eyes ripped open and I screamed as I felt my barrier break. It wasn't nice sweet and full of love like I had always imaged, hell this was fucking painful. I looked at Eli in pure envy because he looked like he was in heaven and I was in pure hell. I just wanted him to pull out and I never wanted to see him again,but I still love him I don't think I could ever stop loving him.
"Oh God Clare I'm gonna-" I felt my insides fill up with a hot liquid,shortly after Eli pulled out he held my legs open staring at what he has done between them and smirked.
After he got dressed he said "You're welcome." and walked out the door.
That was the day Eli ripped me of my virginity.I've never felt so dirty in my life I felt used like some sort of slut and I never wanted to do this again.
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Clare's POV
My breathing became uneven.
"Kelly go upstairs."
"but I-"
"Now Kelly." She took one last look at me her eyes looked scared and I could tell she was worried about me, the truth is I was too. She reluctantly walked upstairs.
Eli grabbed my hand and pulled me living room couch, I sat down and he was pacing around the room.
"Clare you lied to me." he wasn't yelling he just sounded...hurt?
"What are you talking about?"
"You said you love me you said you didn't ant to leave me but then I find you with a suit case walking out the door?"
"I do love you and I'm sorry but at the time I wasn't lying."
"Yeah that makes it so much better."
I sighed I was happy we weren't yelling at each other right now but,my heart beat was not returned to normal.
"You can't really blame me, I've been dealing with your abusive ways for over 11 years,and this is the first time I've actually come close to leaving. How long do you expect me to hang around this kind of treatment."
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sooo fucking sorry, what do you want me to do? I can't stop don't you think I've tried, I'm sick I can't help it!"
I walked over to him and grabbed his arm to stop him from pacing.He had his eyes clamped shut but tears still managed to roll down.
"Look at me." I softly commanded,and he opened his eyes.
"Clare I'm scared,what if one day I can't stop, what if-"
I silenced him with a soft sweet kiss. "I trust you Eli, I have faith in you, you'll be able to stop I know it." Part of me was telling me that I was lying, that I knew he was right that I'm putting my life as well as Kelly's in danger.I pushed those thoughts aside and pulled Eli in a warm embrace.
"If you want to leave me I can't stop you, but please before you make your decision, please understand I love you and I promise if you stay I WILL get help." He sounded serious and sincere but I really can't trust my judgment right now.
"Stay here I'll be back."
Eli's POV
I watch Clare walk out the room and I smirk. After all these years she's still so gullible.I knew I was in drama club in high school for a reason. I can't believe she actually fell for that though I mean come on she should know me better than this.I don't wanna change I like the way this feels,there's no boundaries I can do what ever I want and I can get whatever I can't really understand unless you've been in my position,I mean have you ever heard Clare scream, I mean really scream against her will. You've never seen her laying on her back completely vulnerable to me. That kinda stuff will send you off the edge,and the thought of her leaving me was bad enough; the thought of her letting someone else see her like that or at the least any man being close to her would make me go ballistic.I see what I do as protecting her. She'll never find somebody who loves her as much as I do so I'm not going to let her waste her time trying. I hope she knows that no one will ever love her but me, I'm the only one, nobody else thinks she's beautiful, or smart, or unique but me and I'm just letting her know that.
"Daddy?"
I don't hate my daughter I'm actually very fond of her because even in some twisted reality Clare does leave me she'll always have Kelly as a reminder that she belongs to me and whenever she looks at Kelly she'll know that,but the problem is Kelly is causing Clare to have more self-esteem and causing her to think she's worth something and that's a bad thing.
"Yes Kelly?" I said picking her up and sitting her on my lap.
"I'm proud of you."
"Why?"
"For letting mommy and I make our own decisions."
Kelly is different, more mature than other children her age,but I guess that's my fault.
"Kelly where is your mother?"
"Upstairs in your room...why your not going to hurt her are you?"
"I don't think so...unless she makes me." I left Kelly sitting on the couch with her mouth hung open. I smirked and thought she's already scarred for life why not embrace it.
I walked up my stairs and found Clare reading our high school year book. She looked happy I forgot what that looked like. The sparkle in her eyes that left years ago returned; for a short moment I forgot all about my other thoughts I wanted to know what was so great about that book and I simply called her name,
"Clare?"
"Oh my God Eli come here you have to see this, do you remember this."
She handed me the book and I looked at the picture she was talking about. We were voted oddest couple that year, in the picture Clare was in my lap placing a kiss on my cheek and I had my arms around her waist and I was smirking.
"It's cute Clare." I stood up and proceeded to the door.
"What changed?" That question stopped me dead in my tracks.
"What are you talking about?"
"Seriously Eli don't play dumb you weren't always like this what happened to the Eli I fell in love with because I want him back."
"I could be that way all the time if you would just behave."
"See, do you see that? The old Eli wouldn't make a fucked up comment like that, he would treat me with respect, not like I'm some damn dog, I've been waiting all these fucking years for him to come back I miss him I want, no I need him back because the jackass I'm married to is not cutting it."
I was taken aback by her sudden out burst "What do you want me to do about it Clare."
"Eli just show me some respect and all the rest will follow."
"Whatever."
"Eli you never answered my question what happened to you."
I didn't answer her I just stood and stared at her.
"Eli I swear to God if you don't say something right now I will get my stuff, Kelly, and walk out that door."
"What happened to you, you used to do whatever I told you and do whatever I wanted you to, Now you question my authority, and today you tried to leave me, I'm losing the Clare I married."
She chucked coldly "So because I've gained common sense you think you're losing me."
"Yes so stop it."
"You know what you haven't lost me yet but you will if you keep this up."
"Yeah right I dare you."
"Okay watch me."She walked out my room
I leaned my head out the door and watched her get Kelly out if her room and walked down the stairs, and I followed her.
"Clare what are you doing?" I asked as she placed her hand in the door nob.
"Something I should have done a long time ago." She pulled the suitcase through the door and shut it behind her.
She's going to come back.I'll give it about five seconds when I get to five she'll be back.
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1...Oh No Clare.
Yes you read it right Clare left. So what ya think did you like it? Reviews are always nice.Thanks.
