Remember Me...Chapter 3

(Sonny's POV)

June 15th 2014

"Dear Will, I finally found the courage to get out of bed this morning...Each day without you is like a day without the blue light of the sky. Because each morning, I would wake up to your beautiful blue eyes beaming right at me...Reminding me each day that we have so much to live for...Now, I wake up to darkness...I have nothing left but the memory of you...Your face is still the first thing I see everyday, because I have engraved it in my mind...Because I'm gonna keep my promise to you...I will always love you...No one will ever take that away from me...I will wait forever for you if it means that someday I might get you back...I could never love anyone but you...You are my life...my love...my everything...Sonny."


I walk along the long corridors leading up to your room...I couldn't stop the frightened tears running down my face. Terrified of what I'm about to see...

"Are you ready to go in?", asked Cameron as he laid his hand on my shoulder.

I couldn't answer right away. My mouth was dry and my body was tense. I felt so weak and defenseless...I went numb...

"Sonny, we need to get a grip man, Will needs you now, more than you know."

I could hear him talking to me as I tried so very hard to respond.

"I know," was the only thing I could say in the moment. Because I knew once those doors would open, I would have to face reality. The reality that my Will was hurt and that he was fighting for his life...A life that we once share together...One that I was a part of. And now, he lays there lifeless, in this cold dark room, hooked up to machines to keep him with us, to help him heal so he can come back to me...So we can be us again...I just have to find a way to put up a shield and be strong for him. He needs me...I need him...

Cameron reached his hand out and pushed open the doors, "After you", gesturing me to go inside. And so I did.

Cameron guided to Will's bedside. I wouldn't dare approach him on my own. All I could hear was the blasting, piercing sound of the monitors as I kept my eyes closed because I was afraid to see what he looked like hooked up to all these machines...

Finally, I took a deep breath, and turned to Cameron,

"Can I have a few minutes alone with him?" I asked, hoping he could give me this time alone with him so I can face him on my own without anyone having to see my reaction.

"Sure, I'll be right outside if you need me"

"Thanks", I responded keeping my eyes locked to the floor.

It took me a few moments after Cameron left to get the courage to finally look up at Will. I could feel myself shattering inside at the view of my fiancé laying there, looking so fragile.

His beautiful face was hidden away under the bruises and the cuts caused by the shattering glass from the impact of the accident. His head wrapped up with bandages and gauze, hiding away what was left of his luscious blond hair, protecting his skull from the operation he just went through a few minutes ago to remove the pressure from his brain. His eyes glued shut, he sleeps...He looks peaceful...

I pulled up a chair next to his bed so I could be by his side. I was afraid to touch him, because any thought of me hurting him in any way was just way to much to process at the moment, but I remember Cameron telling me that he wasn't in any pain because of the drugs administered to him. But still, I couldn't stop but worry. After a few minutes of staring at him, I decided to speak...

"Hi there baby, I'm right here with you. I'm not leaving your side, ever...", reaching over and gently holding his hand.

I wanted to let him know I was there. I knew he couldn't hear me, but if there was even a slight chance that he could, I wanted him to know I was there.

"I'm sorry I made you leave tonight...This wouldn't of happened if I just let you stay with me...This is all my fault baby...I'm so sorry...I hope one day you will be able to forgive me. If anything happens to you, I'll never forgive myself", I said crying in between each sentence.

"Will, you promised me that you would never leave me, you need to fight, please, fight for us, I need you to come back to me...I need you..."

Just as I said those words, I felt someone touching my shoulder, a warm calming touch...Just like Will's touch. I turned over to see who it was, it was Marlena standing there next to me.

"Hey, how's he holding up?"

I was trying to wipe the tears away so she wouldn't notice me crying.

"He's stable, but that's all I know", turning my eyes back to Will who was resting calmly like an angel...My angel...

She pulled up a chair and sat down next to me, rubbing circles in my back, trying to comfort me...

"You know this isn't your fault Sonny. Don't even blame yourself for this."

I turned to her, "I should have let him stay, I made his leave, He didn't wanna go," Bursting out in tears once again.

Her arms caught me, held me close to her heart, trying to make me realize that no one's to blame.

"Oh Sonny, This is not your fault. You need to stop blaming yourself for this. No one knew this would happen,"

"But if I just let him stay..."

"Sonny, things happen for a reason, and what ever reason this was, it was meant to be. Will is a strong young man, and he's gonna fight to come back to us, you need to believe that. Can you do that for me?"

She always knows what to say. Even in the worst situations, she's amazing.

I nodded, "I'll try."

"Good, because we're going to be here every step of the way to help him through this."

"You really think he's gonna make it through this?" I asked her.

Taking both of my hands and placing them into hers "I would bet my life on it. Will loves you so much Sonny. He even told me so."

"He did?" I asked awaiting anxiously her response.

"He sure did. Do you remember the night of the explosion?"

"How could I even forget! That was the night I kissed Will for the first time and he pushed me away," what a disaster that was I though to myself.

"Well, that night, Will came to me. I knew something was bothering him. Without asking directly what was wrong, I tried to get him to open up to me. And to my surprise, he did."

"Really? What did he say to you if you don't mind me asking?"

"Well, he looked upset, and I knew something was bothering him, but I didn't want to pry. So I did what I always do."

"And what was that?"

"I said I loved him." She smiled at me.

I wanted to hear more, but I didn't want he to tell me anything that Will said to her that was confidential. So I just looked at her and smiled back. Hoping she would see my interest about what happened next.

"So you want to hear the rest of the story?"

"Do you think Will would mind?" I said trying not to seem to eager, but I was.

"I'm sure he wouldn't. So after I told him I loved him, he asked me a question..."


Flash back...May 21st 2011

(Marlena's POV)

"Grandma?" he asked me in a low soft voice.

"Yes sweetie?"

"Do you ever feel alone? I don't mean with you, You've always been there for me, but I mean in general...Have you ever felt alone?"

"Are you talking in the love department?" I asked.

He blushed, "Well, kinda. I'm all new at this, and I'm not sure how I should feel."

"Will, you just came out a few weeks ago, you need time to process these feelings you're faced with. But it doesn't mean you're alone sweetie."

"I know, but grandma, some days, I feel so empty, like something is missing from my life. I want that feeling to go away."

I paused for a moment, because I had the feeling that there was more to this than he was letting on, "Can I ask you a question?"

"Of course." he replied.

"Have you met someone Will? Someone you would like to be more than just friends?"

His face turned to a deep shade of red this time, "I...I don't know. All I can say is that when he's around me, I feel complete. I don't feel alone when I'm around him. He makes me feel like I belong, but it too late now, I screwed up big time." turning his eyes away from me.

I reached over and took his hand, "From time to time we all feel alone sweetie. Someday, you're gonna give yourself to someone, who makes those kind of feelings disappear. They way the rest of us just can't do for you."

"Do you think he could be "the one" grandma?" he asked with hope in his eyes.

"He might, but you're the one whose gonna have to figure that out. Does he know how you feel about him?"

"No...He has no idea how much I love him, but it's too late now anyways. I managed to mess it up as I always do."

"Hey, you listen to me William Horton. It's never too late to make things right." I responded trying to encourage him to take a chance at love for the first time in his life.

"You think so?" he questioned.

"I know so..." I said smiling from cheek to cheek, "By the way, did you realize that you just said you loved him?"

"I did not." he said pretending he didn't know what I was talking about.

"Oh, but you did sweetie..."


"So you see Sonny, he loved you before he even told you."

"Wow, I had no clue. Thank you for sharing that with me Marlena, you have no idea what this means to me", I said as she wrapped her arms around me in a warm embrace.

"You're most welcome. I'll leave you two alone," she said as she got up to leave, "Please let me know if there are any changes?"

"I will, I promise."

"I check in on you a little later, I love you sweetie."

"I love you too Marlena." and with that she left turning my attention back to Will.

"Well, that was nice of your grandma to stop by. She really is a great woman", taking his hand again and placing it in mine.

"You know, she just told me a secret? She said you loved me even before you even told me. Well, I have a secret that I want to share with you to." I just hope that I get the chance to tell him...

Brushing the top of hand with my thumb, I pleaded, "But you need to wake so I can tell you", Trying to convince myself that everything was gonna be alright. There's so much I want to tell him, and I knew he couldn't hear me. But still, I wanted him to know how I felt.

"I just want to you know baby, that I'm not leaving your side until you wake up. I'll be here day and night if I have to. I just love you so much Will, and I promise, that I'll never leave your side ever again..."

As much as I knew I wasn't to blame for what happened, I couldn't help but feel guilty for asking Will to leave last night. I know that with time, I'll eventually get over it, but for now, promising to be by his side, is all I can do at this time. Because you never know when you say goodbye to the one person you love, if it's the last time you'll ever see them again...

To be continued...