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Warnings: Het, slash, birth, character death, Merthur, Arthur x Gwen, fem/Merlin, gender bender.
The Will of Magic
Merlin POV
Of all the things he has done and sacrificed for the sake of Arthur while trying and to bring about the golden age of Alboin, . nNever before hads he be asked to give something so personal as his own future flashflash and blood. S so that it could Arthur could be safeprompt on the throne.
From the moment he stepped on the soil of Camelot's soil he has done what the great dragon, destiny and even his friends has asked of him, without much question nor fight. Even when his only reward was being seen as 'just the servant' an idiot of no importance to anyone around him. Forced to fulfill a destiny while still trying to keep who he was intact.
He was so use to doing everything in his power, that he couldjust so that the right pathway to peace would be revealed., Bbut this wouldn't be only about making other peoples life better, it will also be about how this wouldill affect his live.
Merlin didn't know if he should blameed this on destiny, or on his bad luck and inability to of not staying out of trouble, but this surly will became a problem. Because even ifas magic hads been accepted back, that wouldn't mean that people wouldn't look at his childkid as anif it is unnatural being, that shouldn't have be born., Aa point of view from others that wouldill bring down trouble down on for the heir for its whole life.
Merlin wasn't sure he could put a child through a should trauma like that, especial his own child. But if it was destiny that was making this happen, then did he even have a choice in what going to happen?
To Merlin eEverything seemedrun tooo run too smoothly together ion connecting him and Arthur in this situation, that Merlin wondered if he was is fated to walk down this path that he would bewas forced to walk down this path until it was on wasn't complete finish yet. For n. Merlin was ow in days Merlin alwaysalway worriess panicked about their future, because t because their destiny was said that they would bring about Albion golden years, and that Arthur will die by Mordred hand because of it. But hHis friend hadn'tdidn't meet his death and theis country still hads its golden years. So Merlin wondered how much is fate was reallystill playing with them, and whatwill theyre be punished will be giving to them for changing the end of their destiny, after all he has suffered by the hand of fate for disobeying its words before.
Merlin didn'toesn't know how to get the answers to that, all he did know was that Gwen was right in that, the kingdom needed an heir. Logically he thoughtinking the plan was one that both Camelot and Merlin could benefit from. That's if, if Merlin was selfish enough tohat he would bring a child into this world for the sake of politics alone. Because politics was the reason why that Gwen, Arthur and Albiooin wanted to have an heir, not because they wanted a cute little person to love in their lives. Now Merlin lovikeds babies, to not argue to have to large family of them, but this sounded too much like a chess move , in on the game of power they all played, rather thenthan a person wantingliking to become a parent.
All this conflict between his reasonreasonsing, his logical and emotion senses was making him spinning question around in circles his mind. What should he do? What could he do? What is the right choice? Merlin felt like he couldn't settleget through a singlecomplete thought before something showed up to argued againstcontrast it and then leaving him with no answer. Merlin decided he neededs a break, he felt like he wasould going to gohis brain was going to make itself insane with all this this jumbledmpy thoughtsinking and emotional trauma clouding inside him.
Merlin stood up and headed to his indoor garden, a place that wasn't only functional throughfor growing herbs, but was a room that he could go into to just think and relax,es when he didn't what to see anybody., but just the calmnessest andof quietness of nature, it just seemed to relaxuncoil Merlin. But when he opened the door his mind was still going overprocessing his the questions and , jumpinged toonto how a child would love playing around the different plants that grow there almost like a jungle like. What, with all the vegetation being that those green lives forms that grow here comingcaome from all over the different parts of the country and him planting. t so tThemy greow a bit disunorganized. With ,as and Merlin didn't exclude trees or bushes that Merlin didn't exclude because of theirthat had great magical properties toin for his collectionng, makingso the place sorely looked very more wild and unmanaged.
He turned back aaround andto escaped from his chambers, and going through the castle hallways , that were mostly unused, to go enteringout into the town. Maybe by doing some shopping or talking to people that weren't part of the castleouncil maybe would be enough of a distraction for him to get a moment offor his mind to rest from his thoughts.
Merlin He goes bywent to his favorite staull, a magic book shop, whose owner's name was Adam, a middle age man with a friendly personality and whose body had grown as tall as two men., Tthey had gotten to known one each another very well over the years, partly because Adam always kepteps his shop filled with the newest of books, and Merlin was always looking forwent there to buy up the next magical discovery. GThat routine hads givingenave them many thrilling conversions, on the mutual topics that were their of mutual interest, and ofof spells which lead them to a make shiftlyshiftily become friendship. Leaving quit the happy place for Merlin to pay from. they had manyat was good for debates and Merlin found it a happy place to buy from.
Findounding the place he was looking for Merlin stood outsidelookeds up at the one room fine wooden one room building with it's one room. Full with mostly of with clean selves of books, staocked neatly stacked together by Adam who categorizeding them by their content. Then there was his in what matter is writing inside them There was and a long table resting in the back of the room where Adam long bodys satsaits watching his thingsstuff. Merlin enteredHe goes into the nice book shop, and lookeds through all the new wares while running his fingers along the spines of the older books as he pass them. , Tto find an interesting novel on life spells, and then taking the novel in hand, to go to Adam wentgoes to have a short talk while paying him is coinsith Adam.
It sounded pleasant looking on the outside, but allAll the time Merlin was thereThrough the whole trip he was reminded that thehis choice of parenthood did not only affect him, but knowing that even this books owner will be touch by this choice in some way. C, causingweaving new questions to come into his already confused brain., Oonly due toby Merlin's ability toof hideing his emotions from plain view was he able to keep composed throughout the visit. But the questions did wouldn't leavedisappear from hism thoughts once their talk was done and Merlin had left the stall.
What would others think about this? He looked at the book he had just bought, wondering if it wWould ithis book help him in some way? Is Adam as worriedy about the kingdoms future as Gwen is? And Tthese thoughtsis continued with everyone he met until he ended up just walking pass people with his eyes down to the dirt, untill he saw the view of people's feet decrease until he saw to none and the stone ground turn into green bright grass., Tthere was only one place Merlin could think of that was in walking distancet that had very few people in it, that was the forest.
Merlin looked up, ready to feeling his body relaxgo limp from the clean fresh breeze that floweding around him, or was it the simply quietnessest of the place that couldwas never be fully achieved when you livedfe in athe castle that calmed him down. Oor perhaps it was just the beauty of the living green forest thatwould did itcalmed his nervesous. Either way the relaxing moment was ruin when he fully He looked up to for a But instead the moment and he looked up he spotted a deer that stoodwas alertly staring at him completelyfully alert fromfrom 20 feet away from where he himself stood., heHe thought suddenly thought that if Arthur wereas here he would have loved to hunted thateat deer, than. thatThis leading him to wonder if Arthur's child would be as great a hunter as hisits father is, and Merlin couldhe can just imagininge how proudideful of that moment Arthur would be is it was so.
There went Merlin chance That thought ruined any chance of Merlin had to calm down, and so defeatednded he sat down in the dirt where he had been standing before, to andood putting his head in his hands trying to think of a way to escape all this., Hso his mind wantedould be free for a little bit, because he knew he wouldn't be able to think straight otherwise was.
There had to be a place for Merlin that didndidn'toesn't remind him of Gwen's idea at every turnsite, it obviously couldn't be Camelot anymore, but there wasn't a lot of other choices to be had, to have because there wereas memories all over Albiooin from either the battles they had foughting or the alliancesyi they had created, whichmadeng covering almost with every piece of land that made up of this country. No, Merlin would just have to settle with searchingsettle with search for an area where he could feel safe, while getting him far away from the distended from this situation and where he could get some muchost need advice.
He would normally go to think of Gaius first, because he was so wise in so manymultiple things, but he was also too connected to Arthur. Now Gaius thought of Merlin as his adopted son but he had also looked after Arthur since he had been born and. Merlinand he don't want advice that would beas be inflection from affected by the needs of the king orand his kingdom, he was already getting enough of that from the others. Besides Gaius lived too close to the castle, and Merlin wanted to be at least outside of the city limits in order to really relax.
Then he thoughtinks of his mother, she still liveds in the same place where Merlin was born, just not in the same home, because when Merlin was givening the title court sorcerer one of the first things he changed beside laws on magic, was he rebuiltrebuilding of rebuilding Hunith's home so she cwould live out a more comfortableer life. Then wWhen the druids heardears got wind of who his mother wasis many resettled themselves in his old village, so that they could be as close to their Emrysbry without living with in the city., evenEven with him in Camelot a lot of druids still liked to livfe out their days closer to nature, thaen have the conveniencet of the capital.
When the bane on magic was lifteddestroyed the people whose children had the gift of magic would send them or live with the druids, so that they could be shown how to control their talentsmselves. TSo when he numbers of parents who couldn'tan't handle their children's magical outbursts grew to be too overwhelming for the and when the druids to house where soon overwhelmedover packed, then Merlin's mother decided to use all her extra space and make a sort of temporary shelter for magically gifted baring children.
It wasn't the most ideal place to be to thinking figuring things out, being, what with how the druids wouldwould love there to be magic flowing through the royal line, and to have Emrysmbry offspring in one go. Also , plus Merlin feared that the children would remind him of the offer,. bBut maybe helping out with their care for them would solve the problem of distancing himself from thise situation.
Surprisingly his friends hadn't come back to his birthorn place since thehat one time whenthat they went to go save it from the bandits, so there wasn't a lot of memories of the group resting there. Then there the reason he thought of the village in the first place, which wasSoand Merlin gettingcouldan easily get sound and unbiased advice from his mother.
It would be better than staying there than itting there in Camelot. So in the dirt.
theTheA choice made, Merlin stood up and quickly walked back to the castle to packet for his muchst needed trip.
Now hHe madke sure to packet discretely, as so no one would accidently alarmed the royals so they could stop him.
PSo he packinged enough supplies for thea two day trip. Merlin then wrote down instructionsing for his own advisers, telling that themy to must take care of the kingdom, as he was going to be absentce in an unknown amount of days. He then grabs edgrabbeda a small chest from it resting place underbesides his desk and took from itpulls threesomeout from it palm sizeds stone birds statues. Placing them gently on the desk top, then putting a quick spell on the little figures. To have them they suddenly each started to moveing, rotating their limps around and flapping their now graywhite wings in experiment. After testing out their joints, then they fluttered out the window that Merlin had early opened for them. This was a spell that his research group discovered all ago made, so that letters could be send safely with this the massagers birds who scould magical sense danger and where design to avoid dangers that which would might stop could get in the way of athe letter froms getting to thereitstheiits destinationlocation. It was better than any bird who could do the same, because, they can could and the be instruinctedinstructed to fly into the direct hand of theany person that the letter was writtensigned to, better than any normal bird massager Merlin knew ofthought.
So Merlin chose to use this measure whenwas contactcontactinging his three main advisers that wereare the heads of his magical council. Tthe first group being the doingbeing researcher, as after Uther had ordered the burning of all the books related to of the old religion there was little written knowledge left after his purge. Merlin feltound it important to restore the information that had been destroyed for this new generating and also wanted making new spells to be found so that they could find ways to improve the kingdom. Then there his was his cCcaster patrolS, they being guards and knights who wereare trained in spells, so their forces could that have at least oneand that will at least sent one casterr wouldto go with every group to be able to defend against magic or heal wounds of guards that were patrolling the kingdom to as protecting the welling being of Albion. AsAas well as having them hunting down the Albion magical criminlascriminalsmagical wanted. , so if they couldir defending against a magic user, giving each patrol the necessary skills to stand against such people then they would have someone that could stand against that. And finally the investigation advisors, people who used their powers to findound out the truthe of a situation rather thaen going onff the word of anyonea person..
Merlin feltel bad for a moment, giving themof ordering more responsiblityresponsibilityy then they needed toon them but theen he thought of the choice he was being asked to make and how that would change his Merlin life. AndAand how it would made a change in the game of power the kingdoms fururefuture for magic. They would have to understand his absence and for he need to make the right choice in this., he thought they would understand his absence.
Now withWhen eEverything ready to go he finally prepared his method of travel. So Merlin wentgoes to his garden to pick the necessary herbs., Joan, who had been raised by the a druids, raise girl, who is his assistant would take care of thehis garden with his absent, as she has always done for him in the past. when he was absentSo he went straight toce, tearing aring out acacia, a puffy yellow flower, from the branch of its tree. Then, three leafs from the stems of balm of gilead and then, a whole stem of basil, resting right next to it. andH he then returneds to his fire pit to throw them in a small iron pot with a splash of water to boil down the green plants.
Making theAs the room filled with the smells of strange herbs mixing together to ache at the nose. He left it trusting the pot will boil the plants into a paste, he wentgoes over to his packed itemsstuff and commanded his magic to decrease the size of the bags until they were no smaller than the pbalm of his hand. Then taking a strong thread and weaving it through the handles of the bags to then then tied it off in to make a loop, once he was done he left his small projectaving it on the top of the table.
Checking his pot tohe could seesees that the water had s turned into a misty green color from absorbing the plants like he wanted, taking a spoon his pokeds at the ingredients bubblinge in the iron black pot to check then seeing that they had becomeve softened enough that he could easily he maushed up the parts of the plants that didn't boil them into a chucky paste and then adds dark green a sea weed called bladderwrack to be boil in with the paste for a while longer. With that going he stepts away from the pot again to and grabgrabeds some more dry ingredients from his cupboard that sat next to his fireplace. Then t Taking a jar of saffron and dried yucca flowers petals, from yucca to put them into a mortar to grind them into fine grainy powder with histhe pestle. Once done he dusted a handful ofthe powder into the potion and then the finally step is to pickeds out the now made useless bladderwrack sea weed from the black pot with a spoon. Merlin tookakes a medium sizeds vial from out of one of his cupboards and pouredspills the now dirty green potion into the container adding a lit bit of water so that it would go down easier.
It wasn't in the vial for long because he only needed the container to measure out the right portion forHis potion completed Merlin to shallowedswallow it down and then quickly saidy the words that would begin his transformationing, a a similarto the spell he may mightay have to do in the future. But he ignored that and let hisHis whole body rebirth itself, letting brown and white feathers randomly grow where they will, except for his back which only sprang brown ones. Eeven his clothes started to vanish away so the feathers can grow and helpingspringing white and brown feathers randomly, except for his back which just grow brown ones, hise bones be able shrink into a smaller lighter shapes. His lips yellowed then spread out into a point and then harded so he would be ableto tear his meal into pieces, his feet greow thin and long with sharped claws at the tip so heend can to catch his prey. His arms turn into wings and he moved them around like his statues did earlier did to get usedthe handle toon using them.
He has made himself into a Merlin hawk one of his most favorite forms to takebirds and, for obvious reasons, the body he uses most to take when he has to travel long distancesdistances alone. Merlin founds that birds can fly faster distances, then a horse could run without needing ed to stopping for days on end. He had tested this out when And this form had helpedsaved him a few times when his presence was dangerously needed urgently in another areas of Albion and horse wouldn't be fast enough. So without delay
Merlin hoppeds over to his bags and easily slides through the circle of tread that he made, so he could carrying his stuff along his chest and flyewops out the open window which he had left unlocked earlier. He bBeating his wings hard to get himself higher up into the blue sky, , he foundinginds that patch of ofairthermals air that will let himyou glade on for days without needed much effort from himassistants. With the windair rushing through his feathers and pushing up on his wings to keep him afloat, Merlin set himself of on theto the path toforfor his second home.
Two days later
Once Merlinhe finally settles down uponon the soil of his home village, he finally felt some sense of relief from, of just being back atto his childhood home. Luckily for him he had figured out a way to return back to his original body without having to useing another potion, by just using raw magic and and mentally focusinges on what he looked like to returning to his old self. But first he pulls the string which heldith his bags off of him, usingwith his yellow beak to snap the thread, because they wouldn't grow along with thehis body size of his body. THe then closeeclosesds his black round eyeballss, mentally viewed himself with snow white skin, skinny limbs, night black hair and, as a young male with his clothes on,. Then he and he starteds to feel his magic changinged his form to fit the picture in his mind.
When he looked down at his body he found it to be as he wantedaccurately the same and he pickeds up the mini bags. Untangling the tread keeping them together to and released the bags on to the pbalm of his hand, then he magically wishhedlls them back to their normal sizes. They grow like plants to the sun and he hold them in his palm until they grow big enough that he could grab their ties, then once bloom into their true sizesThen he lifteds them overon his shoulders.
Even with him flying for two days, he still managed to get has getting here fast enough to findwhere there is still just an enough of a slit of sunlight in the sky to see around thethe area.
Spotting the house he was looking for he walkeds over to what is now the biggest wooden home in Ealdor, and knockeds firmly on the door. His mother She was usually at home by this time, been that it was so late but as as Hunith's house was a place full with contented children, that needed to be taking care of and sometimes Merlin's visit would start with him standing outside the doorway for thea longest period of time. Only bbbecause she was just too busy with the kids or just don't hear his knocking, to let him know it was ok for him to come inside.
But that seem like it wasn't going to be the case same for this time because he heard the door loudly unlock for him, and there appeared his mother's head, peeking out to see who it was on the other side. Hunith squinted into the darknessat the lack of light to seeand probably barely saw his face. But oOand once she realizeds who it was she herded him into her arms toand hugged to give him with aa nice lovingly embrassembarrasssqueezes as they greeted one anothertheir greeting.
As Merlin held on to her tightly he hearedheards the sudden sound of giggling and he looked beyond his mother's shoulder to the youngsterslings standing on the staircase excitedly waving at him excitedly from over his mother frame . They didn't rush at him as they use to do in a happy wave of bubbly excited children who triedying to talk over each other in their own joys of seeing him., Bbecause Hunith had taught the kids it was rude to interrupt someone who was in the middle of a greetinggreeting someone else. Being like a second mother to them the childrenkids followed what his mother had taught themhad to say very much like their own parents..
She pulled him back to saying, "you usually don't come in to visit this late, it's nearly the time to put the kids to sleep." Merlin knewows how getting every child upstairs and tuckedg into bed was like planning a tactfully battle plan. "I'll help you then.", " Merlin saidtated helpfully.
Merlin expected to feel that the last thing he would want iswas to be is around kids, after what Arthur has asked of him, but has he looked into their innocent faces has theythat arewas aso happy to see himthe thatm as heso happy to see him as they always wasere and he didn't think about Arthur. Iinstead his mind was filled with his own happiness of seeing them all once again as well.
Hunith smiled at him, leading him into the house where the children finally were clear of his mother greeting that they raced at him for their own hugs and hellos. Merlin tried to greeted each of themone with one of their own, but with their body tightly trying to get in front of the other so they could have his focus, that must of the time he could only hugs, rubbeds on their heads and even a few tickleds a few on theirsome bellies.
But after that it was a blur of activitye as they went up stair totheyof them putting the youngsterslings to bed, making sure the every kid hads cleaned their teeth and that they were comfortable with toys, blankets or drinks of water for their thirsty throats.
With all the little ones settle in their beds, he and his mother were leaving the room to let them rest their heads. WThen when all little ones were in their beds, one of the older kids of the herd asked in a hopeful voice, "Merlin will you tell us one of your story's."
Merlin turned around as he was about to go through the doorleavingefrom exiting the out the room and said, "Aren't you guys too old to being wanting to listen to one of my stories." It was true, the youngest kid beingwas onlybeing 7 years old., but whenWhen Merlin was that age he was more interested in playing adventure game with his friends outside then lying in bed trying to stay awake so he couldto listing to his mother a someone else adventures tells.
"But we barely got to see you today!" the oldest said cutely tryingy to cutely reason with him again and Merlin let himself fellfeall for it, he just didn't have the cold heart to refuse the kids of of their wanted story. So he give it to them, but it was just one Merlin had already told them about before. But the one one they never seem to be tire of.
And why would they? It was the story of whenwhen Gwen the servant got kidnapedkidnapped because she had beenget mistaken for her mistresses Morgana. There was a maiden to recuserecuerescue, bandits to beat, and even a few funny moments to tell about, like when Merlin rubbed rotten smelling Gaius berriesy on his facee. That was theAa part that always sentd the children into a helpless fits of laugher, but Merlin didn't mind, seeing as how that it seeing that it broughtings enjoyment to him toois heart, in that he could make do this for the kids happy.
The tale ended with a slightly sad sighn from the older kids who had manage to stayedcould keep themselves awake through the whole thing and thea peaceful sleepily silences from the younger ones who could not., So Merlin make sure to walk out as quickly and silently as possible for children who were already playing in their dreams.
FMerlin founding his mother in the kitchen by the fireplace, spooning some stew into a small bowl that had probably beenwas left overs from their diner earlier. She f Once she filled the bowl with ever scrape of food she could get, then Hunith she walkeds over to the little kitchen table, not the table Hunith uses to feed all the kids that one Merlin had built in her in the dining room to hold a huge groups of people, but this small one that sat in the center of the kitchen in front of the fire pit. ,S then seitting the bowl down in before afront of the chair that was across from where she herself hwads choosing to sitting down, while on she gestured to Merlin to start eating his meal.
Merlin chuckled at the way his mother still silently trieds to take care of him after all this years. HHe sat down and began eating his strew with his mother mother sitting before him, who was patiently glazing at him until he was completlycompletelye finished with his food to begin speakingdone.
"You have always writenwritten ingto me ahead of your trips out here just so I could have a bed and food readyopen for you. What makes this time different?" Hunith asked politely.
He told her everything that Arthur had asked ofinform him of keeping no detail out, he had never felt in his life that there was ever a time need for him to keep his secrets from his mother, after all she kneows most of them anyways. So he let his words runbe free and he felt thatathat little bit of the tension that had built up ion he had stored in his body start to flow away. Letting hHfrom his shouldershoulders slump down and his body relaxed, relieving him but it still left aving the confusion there for Merlin to deal with.
HunithShe folded her hands together under her chin and stared off into collect her thoughts, being that his life was one big strange eventoccasion Hunith hads grown used to dealing with thehis the unusualness of his life, so and this wasn'touldn't be aany new experience for her but it was a complicated one. So Merlin waited patiently for her to get her thoughts into order.
He didn't wait long before sShe looked back at him and said calmly, "Merlin do you remember what you told Arthur when he asked your advice about what to do about this chose? That he has to live with his own actionsng, thatso he muchshcoulds choose his own way in life.?ice for himself." Merlin nodded his head in confirmations, he had a feeling on where she was going with this.
"You should take the advice that you gave to himout and think about if you want to be the parent of this child", "His mother advised. That was one of the problems he wasn't sure off, if he even wanted to raise a childkid right now., letLet alone livedeal with all the rest of Gwen's plan.
But maybe he could save himself from some of the consequence of Gwen's ideasl. For hHe could secretly have the child then just give it to Gwen to have it raise to believe she was as itss second parent, it, that would save him from the embarrassment of having otherr people knowing what he was going to have to do with his body, the kingdom would be secure ity onces again and the childkid would have a normal life. But aasAs soon as he finished that thought he saw the holes in that plan.
What if he got attached to his child? For eEven if he could give away his babykid there still will still be the question of its bloodline, being that the people will know that an offspring couldn't came from a women that couldan no longer give life, and even if he could made a fake pregnancy for Gwen, the child would he looks nothing like her., Sso others would think that it was either adopted, or that it was Arthur secret love child, either both ways others might would argue that the throne wasn't its birth right, which will leave them where they started in this problem.
Plus there the fact that the royals have rebuiltd Albion on the truth, of their words, to lie now would made the people suspiciousions on what other secrets their rulers might would hold back on from them while they stood in front of them with trustworthy faces.
No, that plan wouldn't work. So he couldn't keep it quiet,ed but that still didon'tdidn't mean he had to raise it. After all if no one has has saween him as a young girl before, he could pretend that he was someone else, like when he had beenwas Dragoon. Then the girl who give born to the new heir and could just disappear having finish her duty and having getting paid. N, no one outside of the royal couple needed to know, not even the heir itself , but then could Merlin contrasted himself againthen chose to let a child know that its parent didn't want it compared that with himself and then he sudden remembered what it was like without his father in his life. He assumed for a long time that his dad just didn't love his mother enough to stay with her,, and how sad andly alone he felt because he didn', not knowing the other half that created himself. He didn't want to do that to a child, especially not to his own flesh, even if that child would cause him great amount pain. His thoughts were interrupted by Hunith sudden needing to speak onceut again.
"Arthur said you don't have to do it. But you won't listen to him, because you're my sweet child, that always wants to help everyone out.", "Hunith said proudly and reached over to rub his arm. Merlin wondered if he could behe like her as a parent, always sweet,, understanding and and gently firm in raising her son to be good and kindright.
"Do you think I would be a good parent?" "Merlin asked her, seeking confirmations from in his role model.
"You are a kind person and you do so well with the little ones, that I couldnan't image you not being a good parent. But having to fully raise ing a child is hard even ifwhen the child is good and you love them. , minded Tthe jobs itself is unthankfulthankless, nerve-racking and there will be no breaks from it. So the only way you can really know if you would be a good parent to your childkid is when you already have one," Hunith said honestly.
Merlin gently slamps his head down toon the table in, because of the frustration, nothing seemedng in to feeling of not being helping himed in coming to a decisionchoice. This wasn't going to be a normal pregnancy and the heir will not have a normal life, because it willould be born from a naturally bornman boy that had turned himself into a women just, so the kingdom could have a future leader. With all that it will have to deal with in its life, if Merlin chose to give it life, the least he could for do for his maybe child is raise it out of love and to do that he has to know if he would be is is a good parent.
"But I may have an ideasomething that can help prove to you what kind of parent you are, " His mother said seeing his stress, Merlin picked his head up again to look at his mother in hope, and waited for her to reveal her plan.
"There is a man that lives in this village whose wife is sick, and he as well as nursing her back to health he also as to also hasve to take care of their one year old baby girl. The druids have helped as much as they can by making a charm against illness for the baby and curing the mother, but they also wanthat her to naturally heal herself some of the way, so she needs a few days to become fully well again. But the poor father is being drivening to exhaustion by taking caringe of the both of them and they have no family to take in the baby. So I had offered my hand in help and the baby will be here by tomorrow. So why don't I let you take care of the little girl for me while I do my duties give you the little girl to take care of?" "His mother finished.
Shocked by his good fortune he didn't respond at first, so his mother must haved thought that he was coming up with a negative answer, because she continued, "ItsIt's best for you not to start out with a baby because they are the hardest to care offor. of and But withnot a toddler because they are a whole different story in being raise thatBbecause they can understand you, they are a whole different story but looking after her it could help you determine if you can handle a childone. So what do you say?"
He shook his head to clear his mind and to get over him of the shock. Then before his mother could began to think he would refuse her solutionbefore she thought to doubt her solution and he smile at her in the brightest way possible as to give her his answer. She returned his smile, it just happy that they could fix the problem and help her child out, for at least a few days, before the next one revealed itself. But they were both satisfied with just just that much for now.
Hunith put out the kitchen fire, and with a goodnight they headed off to sleep. His mother had her own designed designed room and luckily for him there was still a bed leftopen for him to usetake, but it was with the other young ones. If he had time to, usual he wriotenwrittene ahead so his mother would have can moved a bed into another room for him, but he didn't really mind because the kids sleep through the night pretty soundlessly. So to keep it that way Merlin castthrow a soundless spell as he wentcomes into the room, so as he open the door and tucks himself into a peaceful sleep and he wouldn't wake the othersm from their ownss.
He was woaken up the next day bywith the bouncing movementjuggling of the histhe bed under him. As he discover when he open his eyes it was from by a small blond hair girl jumping on the side of his bed, while the others ones stood around his bed with ambushing him all around giggling inat his faces at his being surprise, for those expressions only told him that, theyy must of decided this was the best way forto get him to get up and to get him to play with them. Grinning he grabbed the girl from her midair as she jumped and flatting her down on top of the bed to tickly her bully unmerciunmercifullylessly. The others wanting to join the excitement decided to ambush him join in into with athe tickley battle, by jump on top or climbing all over and all tackled on top of him to try to bring him down with their numbers.
His mother found him covered with little bodies trying to wrestling him into surrounding and interrupted their play fight by telling calling to themthem that breakfasted was ready to be eatening. The excitement over Merlinn then helped her by in taking the boys to get themselves dressed while Hunith didoes the same to the girls, before dressing themselves. Then Merlin got himself dressed., before clothing himself.
The early meal wass just plain with just bread and porridge that had some kind of sweet red berry mix in to make it easier for the little ones to eat.
After everyone was filled up, the kids demanded hehim to teach them a new spell. He was always happy to teach others more about magic, andbut he truly enjoyed seeingwhen he looked at the children's's amazed faces when he did something magically, and to see how excited they got whenknow they know they could copy him.
MerlinHe decided to only to teach them a simple spell, since he had other plans today. But , how to on makeing a ball of light appear in their hands would be useful, so that if they were stuck in a dark place and of darkest they couldn'tan see their way outthrough to a safe place.
Merlin started his lesson by making the children's sit in a neat circle and slowly pronounce the words, so the kids could repeat it, while also displayinged to them what they were going to do, then slowly preannouncingpronouncing the words again that formed the spell so the kids could repeat it. The older ones released the glowing yellow ball from their pbalms with only a few words of correction from him, but the younger kids could only getbest effected was a flashflaush of light to appear before it that quickly burnt out. Merlin make sure to encourage them to keep at it so they could getbe stronger at using the spell, and not feel bad about not getting it right the first time.
He was doing so by Merlin was rubbing the head of a dark brown hair little boy who, he was crying because the bright light had popped in his face which had scar scarreding him into tears. When afterSo while Merlin had finally got the boy to bewas calmeding down enough that he be fine on his own,the boy he heard a knock on the fronthe door., heHe kneows who it was and what it would mean for him, but he stayed with the childkids until they were good enough to use the spell without him until the boy had gotetting over his fright.
That was whenhen he ended the lesson, but told them to keep practicing atat their own pacetime and they run off through the door to probably go out to outside the back door way to go outside and play their games. Only tThen he slowly walked into the front room and founds Hunith holding a baby cover in rag blankets with a thigh height basket full of stuff resting beside her. Hunith was cooing at the baby, when and his mother looked up at him from the sound he made when stepping into the room when she heard him stepping into the room., sheShe nodded her head towards the little girl as a signal that was wrapped in brown blankets to take so he could take the babethe baby from her arms.
He didn't right away because he know tThis small person could change his life, for a second he was scared of that change and of if he could takeing care of this helpless little person properly. He had some experience with babies from when Hunith had looked after them. But that was wW and when Merlin iswas there to help out and his usual job was, but usually his mother just needed him to mind the older kids so they wouldn't bother the baby. O, only when Hunith was too busy with chores around the house did he get to watch the babieschild, but he has never been the main caregiver for a baby before.
Of course he trusted his mother to tell him how to do something if he was clueless, so the little girl wouldn't be miserable, but that don't stopdefeat the fear. But he neededs to do this, not only for the kingdom, Gwen and Arthur but for most importantly himself. His mother was right in this will be the only time he will get the answer he seek in this deal.
So holding down the fear hHe stepedsteppeds over to them and tookakes the girl into his arms. She was very light in weight, but wasn't unhealthily thin, with wisp of light brown hair on the top of her head and pretty green eyes looking back at him surrounded by in a cutie chubby face. Merlin first thought was he got quite a cutie baby to look after.
"What her name?" Merlin asked.
"Cass." Said his mother.
Info: If you go to google to type in magical herbs you get websites on which herbs is mean to do what magical and you guy can see why I picked those plants to make the potion or use it for your own stories. I chose the name Cass because I found out that it was used in the middle ages.
Loulou2a: I'm glad you like the second chapter. Yeah Merlin will have to do a lot to make his child and the choice of having one won't come easy. I agree that Merlin would try to do anything to help his friends out but that doesn't make it any easier to do. You'll have to wait and see how their lemon goes.
shelisa68: Thank you for liking my story and here your update, hope you like it.
FanfictionHopper: I kind of write that part to be taking as either funny or serious and I laugh when I thought it up so I'm right alongside you. I'm glad you like my gender bender idea.
ProcrastinationIsMyCrime: Yeah Merlin got a bomb last chapter but now he working it out.
Kweandee: happy to hear my story interesting to you and here's your update!
Kyothefallenkit: Merlin got into a really tough position last chapter, but enjoy the update.
LadyFromPoland: Thanks for loving my story. That what I wanted to get across in the last chapter and hope I didn't keep you waiting too long. You are right in my misspelling, so thank you for that.
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Luka Knight: Glad you like it so most and chapter three here to quench your ach.
