Chapter 3
"This Is What My Life Gives Me?"
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This is in Edward's point of view and is starting from when he wakes up, the same day Bella leaves Lenny.
I woke up to the high pitched beeping noise of my alarm clock that quickly switched to "Pocket Full of Sunshine". Alice. All night I was talking to Lauren, my girlfriend, who was convinced that I fooled around with Jessica Stanley. I swear she acts like a spoiled bitch most of the time I'm with her. Monday she slapped me. Tuesday and Wednesday she pushed into the lockers. Thursday she ignored me, and on Friday she was complaining that we don't spend time together. She's a bipolar bitch. Man. Who am I kidding; we're in love with each. I never talk about her like this. Damn headache. All of a sudden Alice skipped into my room.
"Good morning sunshine, long night on the phone with the psycho?" Alice sang.
"Alice. How many times have I told you she's not-," She interrupted me.
"I know, I know, but one day or another you're going to get tired of apologizing and actually dump her for a girl that's worth your time. I mean, Edward, you're so talented and sweet. Why waste your time on a girl that has half the brains of leech. Hell, she is a leech. Look at you! You look like you haven't slept in weeks!"
I tuned her out for I have heard this speech a million times. All of them are about how I could do better and have something worth fighting for. She only says that because she has Jasper in her life and that she's always been perfect. I'm the disheveled twin while Alice probably is the one my parents want me to be. Esme did want two twin girls, who she could dress in matching outfits. I just happened to be a boy. It's not that my parents dislike me; it's more that I could do better with my decisions. I'm a good kid. Sometimes fall off the tracks but I'm a good kid.
"Edward?!"
"Yeah?" Damn, she caught me.
"Edward," she went to sit on the foot of my bed, "please realize that I just want the best for you. She doesn't have to be perfect, but at least okay. Lauren is not 'okay'. She's a mess, and I know that she's using you in some way. I don't know what, but I will find out. One day. Now get dressed! We have a full day ahead of us!" And with that she was out of my room. I decided to follow her instruction and get dressed. I wanted to keep it simple, dark wash jeans with a black shirt with angel wings on the back. Of course I made sure I showered and came to the conclusion that my hair was unfixable as always.
I went downstairs to see what my mom made for breakfast only to be surprised that she was sitting down drinking coffee. I guess it's one of those mornings. When my mom and dad have some sort of rift, there's no breakfast. It doesn't happen often, but over the years I caught on to it. I grabbed a bowl of cereal and sat next to her.
"Morning, mom." I didn't look at her and ate my cereal.
"Morning, Edward. Sleep alright?" she looked oddly smug.
"Yes, I guess,"
"Anything I should know?" Why was she asking around like this? Oh. My talk with Lauren.
"No, nothing out of the ordinary. Why?" I wish Alice would hurry up and get ready so we could leave.
"Oh, nothing I just thought I heard you talking to Lauren last night. I mean it's not like I was eavesdropping. You raised your voice a couple times. Now, Edward, I don't want you yelling at her over the phone like that-"
"I know mom, I didn't mean to, it just sort of happened,"
"Just sort of happened? A lot of things 'just sort of happen', Edward. What if you get mad at her and you can't control yourself? Your father and I have raised you better than to ever lay a hand on a woman. We know your temper. You've gotten into a fight before, and that has lead into two other fights Edward. You get hostile when you get into a certain place in your head. You-,"
"Good morning, mom," Alice came in at just the right time. My mom was treating me like I'm Godzilla or something. I'm not a fucking street fighter who stalks people for a living. That shit happened last year. She still holds it over my head like I'm a five year old.
"Come on Alice, we're leaving now," I stood up and put my bowl in the sink.
"But I haven't gotten anything to eat yet,"
"I'll get you something on the way, let's go." I grabbed my bag and key from the counter and headed towards the door.
"Edward, we haven't finished our conversation. Don't let your temper get in the way with Lauren, she's a good girl," Alice snorted.
"Mom. Stop treating me like a ticking time bomb already, that shit happened a year ago. I'm fine so you can stop caring now." When the words left my mouth, they were harsher than intended. I could tell the look of hurt in my mother's eyes.
"You will not talk to me like that ever again, mister, do you hear me?"
I was beyond annoyed by then so I walked out the door. I can honestly admit that I was disappointed in my actions towards my mom. It was completely out of line, but she didn't even know what Lauren was doing to me! I was just defending myself. She automatically thinks that I'm the one that did wrong.
I started the engine, and turned on the radio.
"Edward? Are you sure you're okay? I can get Jasper to come pick me up, it'll be fine,"
"No no, it's fine. I'm fine. I'm already driving us to school. If I stay home, I'm not sure how much I'll be able to take. I'm sorry that you had to hear all of that. I didn't mean for you to be in the middle of that. It's just that mom always nags me about the fights, and after all the police reports that were filed, she still doesn't believe that I was defending myself against Mike's little crew."
"Okay, I was just wondering. I know what happened that day and I believe you. If it wasn't for you I would've been hurt. Jasper's grateful that you protected me, too. I know mom doesn't believe you, but she'll come around. Probably in some sort of shock." Alice always knows when I need her the most. We pulled into the parking lot and got out of the car just in time to hear the infamous duo mouthing off to each other. Alice and I parted ways and I walked closer to where a crowd was forming around them.
"I know the real you. I know the real you, and you're messed up," From the looks of it she was livid. Mike's little possy showed up. That Lenny guy is like their lap dog or something.
"Isabella, you need to come down. These past few months I've been noticing some changes in you and at first I thought you were pmsing, but now I need to ask you a question. Are you bipolar or on some really messed up shit?" Pathetic. He's the copy of Mike Newton himself. I started to walk into the school, but when I heard laughs I halted. I looked back to see her storm into the woods. This school is full of drama.
I headed to my locker to see Lauren in front of it, waiting. I leaned into to her to give her a kiss, but she turned her head. She wants to play games, huh?
"Lauren, the day just started."
"And? You yelled at me on the phone last night. What was that? I'm sorry that I called you out on your little adventure with Jessica. I am your girlfriend you don't treat me that way. I have shown you nothing but respect and all I get is betrayal and infidelity." Bitch tone. At least she knows a couple of decently sized words.
"Lauren. If you don't remember you were the one who started yelling at me, and the only way to get it through your thick blonde head was if I yelled over you. You're the one who tries to find problems. You're the one who's always upset. Break up with me already. I'm sure I'll be fine." By the end of the day all the girls in my life will hate me.
"I I don't want to break up, Edward. I want us to work things about, but you keep on cheating on me!"
"I have done no shit what so ever with any of the girls in this school. I'll say it even slower for you. I. Did. Not. Cheat. On. You. Bitch." Damn I did not mean to say that, "Lauren, I didn't mean to call you that."
"No. You know what I think you made your point. We're through. I'm breaking up with you. I'll come back later tonight and drop off your stuff and everything. Bye Edward," she hugged me goodbye and walked away. I guess that means I'm single.
The warning bell rang, so I headed off to homeroom. Lucky enough for me Lauren and I had the class together. 15 minutes in, she ran out in tears with her clones right trailing behind her saying she will be alright. Alice was right, Lauren is drama.
When homeroom ended, I was bombarded with Mike and his clan. Fucker wants a fight.
"What'd you do to my girl, Eddie boy?" His girl?
"I didn't do shit, Mikey. Why would you care?"
"Why wouldn't I care? I care about her like if she was my own girlfriend."
"You can have her for all I care; she's not my girlfriends anymore. Hope you like sloppy seconds." I smirked for one second, and he charged at me with his arm against my neck.
"She isn't a fucking thing that you can give away do you hear that? You hurt her by whoring around with bitches. Now I'm going to tell you what you can do. You can go back to your little Betty Crocker mom and you rich daddy at home and tell him that their son was beaten senseless today at school." He was laughing his head off and nearly cutting off all my air, but when he started to talk about my mom that was it. I didn't care if he said my dad was rich because that's true, but my mom. Low blow.
I shoved him off of me and stared at him. He then jumped on me and started to punch my sides. Mike isn't a good fighter, but all those small punches add up. I waited out just until he started getting weaker and that's when I started punching him hard. In his face his shoulder his gut, everywhere. I finally got on top of him and went into all fighting mode. Next thing you know Jasper comes out of nowhere and starts prying me off of him.
"Edward, stop!" Alice is screaming to me at the top of her lungs. I was panting and screaming at Jasper to let me go.
"Yeah, you fucker! Listen to your sister and calm the fuck down!" With his face bleeding like hell, he's still cocky.
"Shut the fuck up, you are intimidated by me. I got the girl you want, I'm fight better than you, and I don't look like hell in front of the whole school! Cocky ass piece of shit," I walked off out the school with Alice running after me.
"Edward?! What was that back there? Look at you! You told me you wouldn't fight anymore! You promised."
"Yeah I did promise, but really Alice. What could I do with I guy that's trying to suffocate. Die? No, all I did was pushing him off of me. Mike is the one who started it all. I didn't do anything!" Alice looked at me with doubt in her eyes. First Esme, now Alice.
"It didn't look like it. His blood is on your shirt, your hands, it's on you Edward. I don't think I can stick up for you like before. You have never punched someone like that. You were fully on him. Punch after punch. I can't say that you didn't do anything because it's obvious you did. I'm sorry, Edward, I am." With that Alice left.
I started towards the woods with a feeling of shame. Ever since Mike has started gaining on me, it's been harder to try and not fight him. All this shit is happening in my life. I basically cussed out my mom, nearly broke a guy's face, and I lost the trust of my only true friend Alice. I don't even know how I became of this. Before Mike and I started butting heads I was a sincerely good kid. I played the piano religiously for my mom and Alice. I cared about the girls that I dated. I was immune from Mike and his degrading slurs. It all went downhill when he advanced on Alice. After that my grades started falling from an A student to a B/C student, I was angrier when people would question me, and I demoted myself morally.
My life has gone out of control. I looked up into the sky to look at the rain falling, when I lowered my head I saw a girl's body behind a couple trees. I jogged to where she was laying and I couldn't believe my eyes.
It was Isabella.
She was unconscious and barley breathing. She was bleeding from the side of her head. I couldn't even think of how long she'd been out here in the cold forest. All I thought was to get her home.
I drove frantically and nervously to get her home. I didn't know how long she'd been outside in the cold damp forest. I stopped the car in the drive way and carried her to the front step. I suddenly wished I didn't get in a fight today, god knows what I look like. Barging into the foyer, I yelled for my mom. My voice sounded thick and almost drowned out. I collapsed with her in my arms onto the tile, choking out sobs of sorry's to my mom.
All I could do was sit there with her in my arms. My life is a mess.
Phew! I finished this in one day. A day!! Good huh? I decided to show whats been happening with Edward to help his personality. Next chapter will be for sure explaining bellas past! It was supposed to be this chap. But then ppl would be all why is Edward this…why is Edward that…
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