Author's Note: I am so sorry! Hope you enjoy this chapter!

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Chapter 3 (In-between)

RPOV (Reneesme's)

I walked towards the main house my hand still being held by Jake.

"Did I do something?" Jake asked breaking the silence.

I turned towards him, shaking my head I couldn't bring myself to speak. Because I wasn't even in the moment; my mind was flickering. Flickering between Jake and Nathual. What are you doing Reneesme? Up until last night you were crazy for Jake, you couldn't stand being away from him. What's going on?

"Come on Ness, I'm freaking out here. Say something, please!" he begged me, stopping us on our voyage to the main house. He turned to me with dark eyes that took my breath away; this must be 'dazzling' my mother always talked about.

"It's nothing Jake I'm just thinking," I told him tugging on his hand; he stumbled slightly but then stood his ground.

"Then speak Nessie. I'm worried, I'm worried your gong to choice him. Please just ease my pain, I can't lose you to him," Jake said his expression turned to one of pain.

I frowned, dropping our hands I looked down. "I don't know who I want." I mumbled looking down; I could feel my words stab him in the heart. It wasn't fair to question who I wanted more, but I had always been told it was Jake, I had never questioned otherwise. But now the idea of someone else thrilled me yet scared me at the same time. It was new and fresh. I had spent my whole life by Jake's side; I knew his scent, his mannerisms, I knew him. However I didn't know Nathual and that thrilled me, not knowing I mean.

"Go with your heart then Nessie but I'm not giving up so easily," Jake said his voice cracked; he was crying. It was the first time I had heard him cry perhaps there was more to him then I realized.

I looked up cradling his left cheek in my hand, with his help of course bending down so I could reach him.

"I want to know that I can be in this a hundred percent. I'm not trying to hurt you Jacob," I told him.

Jake nodded reluncently, leaning against my hand. Stray tears were falling down his cheeks and I felt my heart cringe in pain.

"Let's go," I said tugging on his hand. I dropped my hand that had been pressed to his cheek and tugged him along with me.

"Hi Reneesme!" Alice squealed as we entered the house gripping me in a strong hug.

"Hi Aunty Alice," I said hugging her back.

"Cheer up Ness he's fine," Rosalie said as she came over to give me hug.

I felt Jake stiffen beside me, it had taken Jake a while to warm up to Alice but somehow he still couldn't stand Rosalie.

"Watch it dog!" she warned

Jake bit back his reply another surprise for him; he was usually the one fueling the fights between Rosalie and him.

Rosalie sighed in defeat and motioned for us to enter the living room.

"This is like a bad version of déjà vu," Jake said.

I looked at him strangely then back at Nathual who was on a makeshift hospital bed composed of blankets. He had bandages all over him; his abdomen, forehead, smaller ones along his right arm. His dark eyes turned to mine, but they had lost that glimmer they held last night. All I could see was the pain he was in.

"How are you?" I asked Nathual dropping Jake's hand and walking towards him.

"I've been better," he said giving me a small smile.

I grabbed his hand that was lying above his abdomen. I immediately felt the temperature difference; compared to Jake, Nathual was just luke warm; a in-between of hot and cold; a balance.

"You surprised?" he asked noticing my surprised expression.

"Sort of," I replied; this was the first time I had felt someone like me; someone in between; not human but not vampire.

My mother walked over to us placing a cold hand on my back I shivered. "Sorry," she apologized.

I looked up at her, she must have been through something like this; choosing between fire and ice.

My father walked over to us, bending his head to whisper at me, "did he tell you?"

I nodded; my mother noticed her eyes flashed between us then at Jake. I saw the moment it hit her; realization, she looked down her 'blush' in vampire form.

"It wasn't serious Reneesme." She promised me

"Of course not." I mumbled, still though, the thought of them together bugged me; I didn't like that Jake who might be 'the one' in cliché terms had crushed on my mom before I was born. This was really messed up.

"No use whispering in a house filled with vampires…and a wear-I mean shape shifter," Emmett said glancing towards Jake.

"Let them have their secrets," grandma Esme said.

I smiled at her; I know it was impossible to keep anything secret in this house having a psychic for an aunt and a mind reader for a dad also the fact that my family has really good hearing. Still though, it was nice to know that most of my family didn't need to eavesdrop on everything.

"Fine be that way." Emmett said pouting like a little boy

Nathual laughed, we all turned back to him in surprise "I never had a real family except for my sister its nice," he explained. His smile stayed as his laughter receded, I found myself staring at him and him staring back. I felt so out of my normal self and pushed into a crushing teenage girl. What is happening to me?

Jake walked over gripping my hand tightly in one of his. I turned towards him; he seemed in control just staring back at me with big sad eyes. I turned back to Nathual who too was giving me the same expression.

"Ok enough!" Alice shouted appearing beside me grabbing my other hand and dragging me away from Jake.

"What's going on?" I asked

"Girls slumber party!" Alice said

"Girls slumber party?" I asked stunned

"Yes, when a bunch of girls get together, chatting over boys, watching chick flicks, doing makeovers, eating food, well actually only in your case," Alice explained.

"No, I know what a sleepover is, but why?" I asked

"Well…I seem to remember when another girl I know had boy troubles," she said glancing at my mom.

"I seem to remember that the girl you know had a horrible time at these sleepovers," she said.

"Bella that's just harsh," Alice said pretending to be wounded by the comment.

"Ok anyways, why?" I asked

"Because your having boy troubles too," Rosalie said

"She is?" asked Emmett

I ignored that question, "fine." I said.

"Yeah! We are going to have so much fun!" Alice said jumping up and down, and then she turned towards the guys. "Boys out, girls only!" she ordered.

"Seriously?" asked Jasper who also looked wounded in the emotional sense.

"Yeah Jazz, because if you stay Bella will want Edward and Rosalie will want Emmett and Reneesme will be by herself." Alice explained

"What if I pretend to be a girl?" Emmett asked doing a little ballet turn which was extremely grateful for a guy of his build.

"Out!" Rosalie said shoving him when he refused to move.

"Bye love," my dad said to my mother before leaving; probably worried that he would get attacked by my mother if he didn't leave. I saw a glimmer of a smile spread across his face as he left.

With that Carlisle and Emmett moved Nathual out of the house and Jake relucently followed.

"I love you," he whispered before going, but not giving me a chance to say 'I love you too' and at the moment I wasn't sure I wanted to.

A/N: So? R&R please! Sorry for the grammatical mistakes.