What I want is Him

Part 3

by Trycee

Time Line: Between Season 6 and Season 7

Disclaimer: I do not own the X-Files, this is written for fun not profit.

Scully handed Mulder his lunch, a club sandwich and an ice tea. He noticed that she seemed weighed down and troubled with her eye brows raised, her face a little pale and her head hanging a low. She sat down at her desk and she could feel his gaze upon her back.

"So? What happened?", he asked.

"About what?"

"You're lunch with your friend...", he said, taking a large bite.

"Nothing we just talked."

He noticed she was quieter than before. "Scully, what's wrong?"

She turned to face him. "I ran into Fowley..."

She watched his face to see his reaction and could see his jaw tightened and his eyes darken. Mulder threw his sandwich down on the Styrofoam platter and sat back in his chair. "Where?"

"The restaurant...up the street," she said, waiting for a reaction she could recognize but he was staring off into space.

Scully turned her back to him and continued with her work. Mulder noticed the tension in her movements. "Scully...I need to tell you something..."

She turned to face him. Part of her wanted to run at that moment and the other part wanted to hear what he had to say about Fowley. He crossed the room and knelt down beside her. "Scully...Fowley was my wife briefly and she left me..."

She tried to swing back towards the wall but he held her seat. "Scully, look at me...I hope you understand that I don't love her anymore."

"Why are you telling me this, Mulder?", she asked, her face red with a few tears threatening to fall but she refused to cry in front of him.

"Scully," he said, grabbing up her small hands, his heavy hands resting in her lap. "I think by now you know I have feelings for you..."

Scully blushed and tried to look off but Mulder turned her back to face him. "I know this isn't the right time..."

"Mulder...", she tried to protest.

"I know that...but when the time is right, Scully...I'm going to show you how I feel...and you're gonna show me."

"What are you talking about, Mulder?", she said, as a tear fell down her left cheek.

"Stop trying to hide your feelings, Scully.", he said, staring into her blue diamond eyes so long she was transfixed. "You and I both know its coming...and eventually we won't be able to stop it...I am not gonna betray you...I'm not gonna run into Diana's arms...I want you and when the time is right, Scully...we will show it."

Scully broke down then, crying into his shoulder. He ran his hand up her back and made circles with his fingers. "Tell me I'm wrong," he continued. "Tell me you don't feel the same way?"

She gripped him around his waist and pulled him in closer, her head laying on his shoulder. "I can't...Mulder, I can't lie..."

"Okay then...", he said, pulling her up so he could face her. "Then stop worrying about Diana. I'm already taken...I've been taken for several years now..."

She gazed into his eyes and could see that he wanted to kiss her, so she leaned into him but there was a knock on the door. They turned to see Skinner standing in the doorway staring at them, his eyes darting down. They broke apart and stood up embarrassed. Skinner looked back at the opened door and then to them, trying his best to look them in the eye.

"I normally don't come down here...I'll be sure to call the next time."

"Sir!", they both said.

"I was...

"She was...

"Crying...", she said, shooting a look at Mulder.

"Crying, sir," he said, glanced back at her and then to Skinner to see if he bought any of their explanation.

"Sure...:", Skinner nodded. "Crying...Look I need your report ASAP, I have to report to my superiors and I need it finished."

"Yes sir, I'll get right on it!", Scully said, turning back to her desk, she glanced at Mulder and he looked nervous still standing in front of Skinner.

"Oh and the next time you two decide to 'cry together', do it outside the office..."

"Yes sir!", Mulder answered.

Scully was flushed from embarrassment and couldn't look at them or answer. Skinner turned, shook his head and went back out the door. Mulder closed it and locked it and walked back to Scully. "That was close..."

"Embarrassing is more like it!", she said, physically shaking.

Mulder walked over to her, he gave a quick glance at the door to make sure he had locked it. He wrapped his arms around her shoulders. "I meant what I said though Scully...When the time is right..."

She turned back to face him. "Okay, Mulder...until then...we'll just be partners...okay?"

"Okay...", he said, letting go and then sitting back down in his seat.

She could feel him continue to stare as she worked hard. She heard him crack open a few sunflower seeds but she kept her eyes on her work, trying not to look at him. But she felt relief. She knew now where she stood with Mulder and he had admitted he had feelings for her and she had basically admitted the same thing. Now she also knew that Diana wouldn't get in the way...He'd said he was taken...and that was music to her ears. But he had known that the timing wasn't right. She had felt it too...they'd have to wait a little longer. She breathed in the stale office air, trying to calm her nerves. A small smile crept upon her lips but she tried to suppress it. She turned to look at Mulder and he too was smiling softly to himself. She looked away before he could see her staring and continued typing her report.

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