Disclaimer: Unfortunately, it is not I whom is resposible for the masterpiece Bones
A/N: Sorry its taken me so long to add another story! I have half started three others and then lost track of all of them as my last year of school has taken over my LIFE! But thanks for all the reviews, it makes me feel loved...so lots of cyber cookies for all!
He looked down at her, asking himself the same question.
What was that? When he had come down to surprise Bones, it had never been his (main) intention to kiss her; of course he'd wanted to, but they had a great relationship now – despite what Sweets might think – and he didn't want to change that. It was just spur of the moment, not important...ha that was a joke.
'Booth?' Brennan queried, breaking through his thoughts, 'why did you do that?'
'I don't know. But it was something I've wanted to do for a long time now!'
She looked up at him, shocked. In that instant he knew he'd done the worst thing possible. He'd scared Bones away. As if to support this, Temperance pushed at his chest until he lifted off her and she could slide out from underneath him.
'Oh,' was all she said.
The rest of the elevator ride was completely in silence; both of them lost in their own thoughts (and in Booth's case: fantasies). The elevator, after an indeterminable amount of time, pinged open onto Bones' room. She stepped out of the lift, her body language implying to Booth that she wanted to be alone.
'Thanks for a good night,' she said, not even turning around, 'I'll see you tomorrow.' With that parting sentence, she continued into the apartment, leaving Booth, alone, in the elevator, contemplating the damage he had just done to their relationship.
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Brennan sat on the couch, her face in her hands. She couldn't believe what had just happened. Booth had kissed her. It was something that she'd never thought would happen, and yet she had wanted it to. It was natural, normal for a woman to want to be with a man, any man, after a few months without; yet this wasn't just her body; this was her heart.
He was her partner. Her partner. What was she going to do? She couldn't go on with all these pent up sexual feelings, but what if it turned into more than sex; into a relationship. Could she handle this? His intensity, his strong emotions; could she handle them turned towards her? That's why she ran away from him in the lift. The kiss was good, no, the kiss was explosively brilliant, yet she couldn't deal with him wanting her so much, and apparently for so long.
It was a dilemma.
And she didn't know how to solve this. There were no bones to sift through, no bodies to analyse. These were emotions. This was Booth's territory. Not hers.
Ok. It was time to take control. She could do this. She'd watched Booth countless times. All she had to do was tell the truth and...and tell the truth? She couldn't do that! Ok, new plan. Talk to him about...tomorrow? Previous cases? Parker? The elevator ride? Was there anything that wouldn't sound remotely awkward? It's not like she could just stroll down to his apartment acting as if nothing had happened.
She heaved a sigh. This obviously wasn't going to work itself out. And she obviously couldn't talk to him face-to-face. That left doing nothing. And that wasn't a good option at all. She stood up and began pacing, she could do this, she could think this through rationally, just imagine this situation in a case. She snorted, like this was anything to do with a case. Everyone was alive for one…and this personally involved her.
Maybe…Brennan began to think…maybe this was a time when irrationality was better than rationality? She couldn't talk to him face-to-face; she knew that would be too awkward. But perhaps…she glanced towards the phone. Yes, a phone conversation could be okay.
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'What was I thinking?' Booth thought aloud, 'how could I be so stupid. I know what she's like when it comes to committing to relationships, look what she did with Sully…she couldn't totally trust him. And so what do I do? Oh yeah I do the worst thing I can do, I tell her how much I feel about her…good work Seeley!'
He stomped towards his room muttering, earning a few well-deserved glares from the other hotel guests, which of course he ignored. Ripping out his key once he reached his door, opening it, and then slamming it with enough force to knock the Bible off of the bedside table.
'Oh well that's a bloody sign now isn't it?' Booth exclaimed to the silent room which, surprisingly, did not answer back. Heaving a sigh he walked over to the bar fridge, pulled out a beer (because effect of the alcohol from the bar had dissipated with Brennan's lips) and turned on the television, flipping it to a numbingly boring sports channel. Golf of course. And the day just keeps getting better.
He couldn't stop going over what had happened in the lift. And it wasn't just the self-hatred…oh no, there was a good dose of fantasy and hot remembering. Like the feel of Brennan's lips when they'd first met his- so soft yet so warm- and her soft little sighs as he penetrated her mouth with his tongue. He was sure Bones would be a great lover, but even in kissing she surpassed his every expectation, his every fantasy, and his every dream!
Speaking of dreaming…before he could follow that path however, the phone rang.
Its gonna be Hodgins, I knew I shouldn't have told him I was going to surprise Bones, he'll probably tell Angela and then she'll tell Bones about how I told Hodgins and how I planned it and..
"Hello?'
"Umm Booth is that you? Is this room 619? I'm sorry I think I have the wrong number, I better go…"
"Bones hold on,' he interrupted, "it is me. What's with the really fast talking?"
"Well, I…I don't want to waste any more of my money, you know?"
He laughed silently, he knew she was nervous, and he loved to hear her stutter because she was afraid of her feelings towards him, well, at least Booth hoped she had those kind of feelings for him.
"It's okay Bones," he interrupted, "if you're really worried about the money, then I will pay you back for the time we spend on the phone, agreed?"
"Oh no, it's perfectly fine for me to pay the bill. You see, I am actually quite rich. All the books I have sold, and working at the Jeffersonion, plus helping out the FBI has increased my bank amount immensely, so…"
Booth interrupted once again, laughing, "calm down Bones I was just joking with you, I know you are capable of paying that bill, it was just…a silly thing people do."
"Oh, well, alright."
"So why the phone call?" he queried.
"I…wanted…to…well…it…really was…nothing…but…you know…about…nothing?"
"You know I think that even if I was a squint I wouldn't understand that one!"
"Bones, did you ring about what happened in the lift?"
"Yes," she sighed in apparent relief, "I wanted to talk about it, but now I don't, what's happened has happened and I think we need to focus on being work partners, a sexual relationship would just get in the way of that."
After several seconds of speechlessness from Booth, Brennan continued, "And I want to know what you think, but obviously…Booth are you still there?"
He cleared his throat, "yes Bones I'm here. And…and I…agree with you."
No I don't, he thought, I've never wanted to be just work partners.
There was an awkward silence.
"So…what are you doing now?" he broke the ice.
"I'm getting undressed, I'm about to have a shower and then I'm going to go to bed because we stayed at that bar quite late and I'm tired now."
"Sorry Bones, I lost you around the getting undressed, shower bit."
Oh please let me not have said that aloud Booth cursed as another awkward silence came over the phone line. Now she's going to get even more defensive, I can almost see the extra walls go up. Good one Seeley, you've always known what to say around women, what's different with this one? Ha, well you do actually know what's different. But before he could continue with the self-flagellation he was interrupted by Bones clearing her throat.
"I'm so stupid Bones," he began, "I shouldn't have said that, it was reckless and…"
"Booth?" she asked, slightly huskily.
"Umm, yeah?"
"What would you do if I told you I was unbuttoning my shirt?"
Booth gulped; this was definitely going to be a 'hard' conversation.
A/N: hope you all enjoyed that little installment, i should have a few more chapters up by the end of the holidays, and i'm sure the next chapter will be very 'amusing'!
