I will be coming with you, tonight
You're all that I want, you're all I have, you're all I need

Like a midnight sun you're the only one who can set me free
You will set me free

We need to find a way to live
There's more to take, there's more to give
We try so hard, we try so hard and this time
we're on our way


"I got it." Naomi grinned when she marched into their, well Katie's, store.

Her girlfriend was talking to a customer about an retro stereo system he wanted to have built for his studio. "Excuse me for a second. Feel free to have some tea or coffee, I'll be right back." Then her excited body dashed to the curtain Naomi disappeared behind. The blonde always went there when Katie had customers and couldn't be with her right away. It was a little private space with beanbag chairs and an always sleeping Bay in it.

Smiling at the middle aged man, Katie walked around the curtain and raised both brows in question. She reached for Naomi's hands and kissed her knuckles, almost bouncing on the spot in excitement. "Tell me."

"Here." Naomi thrusted the papers into Katie's trembling hands and grinned when she saw her eyes brighten with every word she read. "I'm finished. Fuck, only did the exams to see if I'll pass next semester but I aced them and they decided to actually let me graduate early with these exams."

Katie squealed and planted her lips with a smacking sound to Naomi's. "I'm sooo proud, baby. You're a genius."

"Know what's best?" Not waiting for an actual answer Naomi continued. "I'll be paid almost twice as much now when I get a perm position. Went to see my chief editor at the desk, and he said my trainee contract will be changed, he's offered me a job, baby. Art editor for his magazine. And the other company I've send my CV to called, since I'm an accredited interpreter now, they wanna hire me as a freelance translator. I'll translate short stories, books, everything they need me to. But the best part? Both, my boss and the other guy offered me a huge bonus if I'll sign. Katie, we're loaded."

The twin was deadly silent, taking in everything Naomi rambled.

"I'll edit books, I'll translate books, fuck I could write a sodding book if I wanted and I'll go work as a proper editor." Naomi stared saucer-eyed at her shell shocked girlfriend. "Katie?"

Shaking her head, Katie beamed at Naomi and kissed her. "Nothing. I'm bursting with pride darling. Will be hard to get used to not having you around all the time any more though."

Kissing Katie's temple Naomi grinned. "Have only three meetings to show up to every week. If I get my stuff done, I can do it from home. Haven't I mentioned that?" And then Katie slung her arms around Naomi and pulled her into a huge hug, placing soft kissed everywhere her mouth could reach. "Now go help that poor man, I'll be upstairs."


"Smells amazing." Naomi commented when she entered the kitchen after her shower. "Naomi I learned something about the brain today." Raising her brow, she walked over and kissed Bence's head, stroking her fingers through his too long hair he refused to get cut. "Did you?"

"Yeah, tell her ma!" The other woman rolled her eyes at her grinning son. "You know I couldn't possibly remember all the stuff you told me. Get your stuff off the table, we're eating in five."

He rushed away with arms full of books, books, and more books.

Naomi kissed Bay's forehead gently, tickling her side absently as she went to grab the plates and set the table. The toddler was shrieking and laughing like a squeaky toy. "Mum Bay play!" "You played today sweety? Who'd you play with?" She mumbled, trying to balance the plates, forks, knives, and glasses in one go.

"Anna, Many (Mandy), Alecks, (Alex)." Katie took the glasses of the huge pile her girlfriend was carrying and placed them on the table so they wouldn't shatter. "Our babysitter should be here by now."

Naomi furrowed her brows, not sure she remembered needing one for the night. "Okay? You've got plans or something?" Pecking Naomi's cheek when she brought the pots to the table, Katie nodded. "Yeah, Ems and Effy are staying for the weekend. Effy got her brother to look after them."

"They are staying here? With us?" Rolling her eyes Katie nodded. "Yes Naomi, with us."

"I didn't know that." "Well, I didn't think I had to ask you if my sister could visit." Naomi groaned while she wiped Bay's face clean. "That's not what I mean. It's just that I wasn't prepared for another unbearable get together."

"You really should give Emily a chance" "Not gonna happen."


"Have you packed your toys, kids?" Naomi asked, walking to the door. Opening it, she forced a friendly smile on her face and let Tony hug her, then Effy, and at the end she had to hug Emily as well. Katie would kill her if she saw that she was being a bitch. "Wow Effy, you're looking sexy." The brunette winked at Naomi's comment and bend down to hug Bence.

"All right?" Naomi's cold voice asked the shyly looking twin. "Sure. Sure. Katie told us that you've got your dream job. Congratulations, you really deserve it." Smiling in thanks Naomi closed the door and ran her hands through her hair, asking herself how she's supposed to live through the weekend.

"Be good and mind Tony, yeah? If Bay cries, give her the creepy duck. Love you." Katie wanted to wrap her arms around her son but he waved and ran after Tony to the car. Her jaw fell to the ground. "But"

"Think his attention is on someone else now." Effy grinned. To everyone it would seem like a teasing statement, but Naomi saw Effy's disgusted look Emily received. "Anyway. Brats are gone, who wants Tequila?"

"Did you just call my children brats?" Katie's harsh tone made Naomi roll her eyes. This was really getting out of control. Katie was pissed off because she thought Effy was out to hurt her sister, without a reason. So she always tried to put her back in her place, but then Naomi felt the urge to defend Effy, because she knew that the girl was the one suffering.

"Katie, everyone does." Narrowed eyes told Naomi thousand things, but at the moment they were advising her to shut up. "What? Don't give me that look. Come on, Eff, where's the Tequila you were talking about?" Slinging a long arm around the almost invisible girl, Naomi pulled them towards the kitchen. Just out of the horrible atmosphere.

Needing shot glasses, Naomi tried to climb on top of the island and reach for them but when she tried to hoist herself up she hissed in pain and squirmed. "Could you?" She pointed to the top shelve and never letting her eyes leave Naomi Effy jumped up and got the glasses. She didn't come back to the ground right away. Dangling her feet off the island, she sat and her blank expression was wiped away by an appealing look. She reached for Naomi's shirt and with one strong pull, she had her between her legs. Cold hands wrinkled Naomi's shirt upwards and then she was staring at the ugly, too slowly fading bruises. "She hurt you because of me."

Naomi rolled her eyes, it hadn't been such a big deal. "Stop acting like she's almost killed me and don't look at me like that."

"Fine. Then tell me this didn't happen exactly a week ago when we were on the phone and she hung up on me." "Well yeah, but it was an accident. Look, it's fine, stop worrying about me. You should hate my existence."

Sighing, Effy lit two cigarettes with a far away look on her abnormally pretty sad face. "I tried. Doesn't work that way, though. You acted like a fucking saint, you still do. I cant hate you for something you never encouraged or even tolerated." She poured them two shots each.

"Love hurts huh?" Effy nodded, downing her shots. "Burns you when it's hot." She licked her lips and looked at Naomi in deep thought, the same look she used to give her when she was pumped up to her eye-balls with pills and powder, she stared in amazement and wonder. "Why?"

"Pardon?" Naomi frowned, leaning on the counter opposite of the island Effy was sitting on.

It took Effy a couple moment to respond, she tilted her head and seemed to search her brain for the right words. "Why's Emily thinking it's okay?"

The blonde shrugged, she's asked herself that same question over and over after Emily had attacked her with her lips that one time. "I don't know, but it's not. It's not okay to crush on someone else and act like it's perfectly fine. She's your girlfriend for Christ's sake."

"Awe, Effy crushing on you?" Katie's vicious stab made both girls close their eyes for a moment and take a deep breath. It was getting harder everyday not to slam the truth down her throat. "I was getting the weird feeling that something's going on here. You're a huge bitch to my sister, and you act like you never hated Naomi's guts. When did you stop any way, huh? You know, those nightly calls, texts, spontaneous visits are really starting to get on my nerves." She was directly in front of Effy when she said the next words in a sickly sweet voice, a clear warning. "You've got your own girlfriend honey, so if you want to keep your eyes and hands, you better stop throwing yourself at mine."

Naomi had watched the exchange with interest, rooting for Effy to dig her way out of this mess but her whole face paled when she heard Katie's thread. She was thinking that Effy was interested in her? The horribly high-pitched laugh had escaped before Naomi could slam her hand over her mouth. The other women turned their heads towards her in sync, and Effy looked as highly amused by the idea as Naomi was, but Katie wasn't finding anything about this situation funny. Her eyes went through many changes in a couple seconds of time, Naomi gulped.

Seeing them furrow in confusion wasn't bad.

Seeing them narrow in anger wasn't that bad either.

Seeing them doubt, that was the worst.

Her hands shot forwards and grasped Katie's but the girl snatched them away. Naomi just wriggled her fingers into her belt loops and pulled her to herself with enough strength to have Katie fall into her. When she was close, as close as possible, Naomi narrowed her own eyes with an angry touch. "Dont even think about something like that." She wasn't asking, she was demanding because having her girlfriend suddenly think she'd have an affair with her twin's girlfriend was enough to piss off Naomi. "Dont start searching for problems when there are none. I'm not twelve any more Kay, wont prove my faithfulness or love all the time, no mind fuck games."

Katie tried to avoid Naomi's gaze but the blonde just placed her hand on her cheek and moved her head so she didn't have a chance to escape piercing blue eyes catch and hold her trapped. "No mental cinema, yeah?"

And she didn't answer, no word, no movement of her eyes or lips, nothing.

In that moment a cold shudder ran down Naomi's back, chilling her from the inside as realisation hit her. Katie already had a whole film running through her mind, for quite some time apparently.

Sadness was smothering Naomi and she let go of her girlfriend, her arms falling to her side. It hurt.

She was doing everything she could so Katie's stupid twin wouldn't get any ideas, she fought tooth and claw to make their life perfect, how they'd dreamed, and here Katie was doubting. Her. "I'm gonna tell you one single time that there's never been anything between me and Effy, never, and you really should fucking believe it."

With a shaky breath Naomi took two steps towards Effy and reached for the Spliff she was already offering. Finishing it, she slammed it down into the ashtray on the counter, making Katie flinch. Then, before leaving the kitchen, her hand rested on Katie's neck and with closed eyes, she pressed her lips hard to Katie's forehead. "Love you. And no matter what you think, you are mine too. Get it together."

"Naomi" But it wasn't the time to discuss this, Naomi waved her away and left the kitchen.


"It's really amazing, everything I've dreamed of. Of course we'll see what I'll say when I'm actually working there full time. But it's better than waiting greasy tables and flirt my arse off so the old farts give me a good tip." Emily rambled while Naomi was bouncing in the booth, every cell in her body screamed for her to move, talk, and go dance with Katie and Effy. Her wide eyes roamed everything and everyone while her hand was busy wiping sweat off her forehead and neck. She was clenching her teeth, complete jaw action, and she didn't dare to think how much it'd hurt in the morning.

"Right. Right, Emily why don't you dance? Wait where is the pharmacy you're working then? Thought Bristol was all fucked and you haven't found a proper job there. So where is it? Lets go for a fag, or water, or dance. Emily you wanna dance? Or better not, you'll only grab my arse and tits. I know you want to, you perv. Look at Effy and Katie, they've finally called truce for the night. It's your fault you know, that Katie is a cunt to Effy. You and your stupid crush, you hurt Effy, you know that and then you hurt her more because Katie acts like she hates her. She thinks Effy's hurting you not the other way around Emily. Get your shit together, it's out of control. See how Effy fucking loves you? She's still with you. Even when you work in a pharmacy. Wait, no, that's not right. What was I talking about?"

Emily wasn't blinking, she was moving around on the bench beside Naomi, gulping down shots like they're water. "You said we should dance, and that Katie hates Effy. And where I work, in Stratford. But I cant dance, god, I cant breath. See how I'm sweating? Sweat's gross, innit? But you're not gross, even when you're sweaty. You never are, gross, I know that. Couldn't find anything in Bristol so I had to start looking everywhere and by surprise, Stratford wants me to work for them. Innit awesome? You think Tony's good with the kids? They are soooo precious, Naomi. God, it almost hurts that I never see them as much as I want. Mostly Bay. With Bence I was around to see him grow but now I'm not and he's getting so big and changes so much every time I'm here. Bay doesn't like me much, why not Naomi? I'm nice and kids love me, don't they? But Effy's said that okay because Bay doesn't like anyone but you. I didn't like the idea that you were being signed as her parent when she was born. I didn't like that at all. Why don't we dance?"

Shaking her head as fast as possible Naomi took the bottle of water and almost drank it all away. "You cant breath. You cant breath so we don't dance."

They were buzzing with MDMA and speed. Their speech was fast, tripping over their own words they tried to say everything they could before forgetting. But their bodies couldn't sit quite properly, they had to move. So while talking, they nodded, shook their heads, bit their lips, tongues, talked with their whole bodies and bounced around. "Yeah I cant. God it is hot in here. Wanna go for a smoke?" Nodding Naomi jumped, properly jumped to her feet, took her bag, Emily's hand, and made a beeline for the dance floor.

Finding Katie, she slung her arms around her from behind and placed kisses all over her sweaty neck. She turned around and with eyes as big as plates and pressed her lips to Naomi's. Without breaking the clumsy kiss Naomi took the scrunchy out of her own hair and gently dragged her nails through Katie's long mane. Gathering all the hair, she made a messy bun out of the wet hair, and with a last kiss she broke free. "Told you to put up your hair. You'll get a heatstroke. God you look fucking amazing in those jeans, and I can see your bra you bitch." She moved her head to Katie's collarbone and nibbed, making the other girl moan, loudly, and run her fingers through Naomi's now open hair. With a grin Naomi emerged and was pulled into a passionate kiss. "Fancy going somewhere quite?"

"Fuck yes please." The blonde groaned with glowing eyes, but after she blinked another Fitch blocked her view, shaking her head. "Lets go for a smoke, you can screw my sister afterwards, yeah?" "But" Naomi protested with a pout, pointing at Katie who had her hands all over her, under her top on her back and hips, arse. "I cant physically remove myself from her when she's doing that."

The silky voice of the blue eyed brunette had a solution when she materialised by Naomi's side. "Lets all go. Wanted to have a fag since we fucking arrived but princess here wouldn't let me leave her dancing."


It was a pushing and pulling but somehow they ended up leaning on a wall outside of the club. Katie was in a squatting position, with her hand holding Naomi's she squeezed, pinched and stroked it while she rhythmically let herself fall back into the wall. Emily was pacing around, gesturing wildly and talking about apes, or something, Naomi wasn't sure. Effy's pretty body was leaning on the wall by Naomi's side, her head was turned so she could see both, Naomi and Katie as well as her girlfriend.

They passed Naomi's pack around and talked over each other. It wasn't a conversation, it was four girls losing their voices because each one wanted to talk while all of them did too.

Katie:"I should call Tony and see if the kids are all right. Maybe they miss us? Do you think they are homesick? We should go and check on them, if it's really that bad, we cant let them go through it until Sunday morning."

Naomi:"Why's that girl staring at us? She's proper staring, look at her eyes, she's got huge crazy eyes. Like Effy's eyes. Eff, you've got really crazy eyes, you know that don't you? Anyone's ever told you that? Maybe they are crazy, because you are, right? But I like your eyes. There's a universe in them, but don't be scared it's beautiful."

Emily: "I didn't do it on purpose Naomi, it wasn't my fault; it's you and I fucking hope you know that. The kids are fine Katie it's not the first time they're away from home, yeah? Relax and fucking stop breaking Naomi's hand. Maybe she wants to move it? God you're so clingy."

Katie: "What's Naomi's fault?"

Everyone's lips closed and they watched each other carefully with huge eyes. "You cant still be pissed off that she's left years ago."

Effy, amazing Effy threw her head back and took two steps forwards. Her arms were stretched out and she was looking up into a star-less Camden town sky while she turned around in circles with a chuckle, a worry less chuckle like her life wasn't breaking apart.

As three different pairs of eyes watched her, slowly loving smiles formed on their lips seeing this beautiful display.

Naomi's chest tightened, Effy's mind's always been a big mystery to her and she's felt the stab in her heart every time she took the time to think about how life was out to bring her to her knees. That was the reason why she wouldn't ever try to understand Emily's position. Effy was dying, from the day she was born she had been slowly dying and the only thing keeping her alive was love she was holding on with an iron grip but it started falling through her fingers like water. And here Effy was, protecting Emily, protecting Naomi, and most importantly protecting Katie from pain she'd never recover from.

Emily was Katie's person, as simple as that. She wouldn't be able to forgive and forget if she were to know about her twin's betrayal. It would break something between them that couldn't be fixed again, never fully.

While the brunette was circling away every worry, pain, and nasty thought gentle hands wrapped around hers. She was pulled into a loving embrace from behind and they shared a meaningful look before looking up in sync and circling together.

"Can we talk Naomi?" Rubbing her face Naomi dragged her nails over her skin, enjoying the feeling. She shrugged and that was enough for Emily to pull her away from the two best friends finally understanding each other again.


Naomi was sitting on the steps to an off-license smoking a fag with bright eyes. Her knees were bouncing and she was still moving her jaw from side to side, making it crack. "What Em? You make me feel like a fucking monster, do you have any idea what this is doing to me?"

"I haven't wished for it you know? Why do you think I chose to develop those" "Dont say it!" Sighing Emily turned to the brick wall and rested her head on it, her hands flat across the cold bricks as she stood. "It's not a fucking bed of roses for me either Naomi. Believe it or not, if I could, I would turn it off but I cant. Okay? I cant and I hate it because I'm hurting my girlfriend, I'm hurting her day for day but you cant change your feelings."

Jumping to her feet Naomi turned Emily around violently. Her angry eyes were pinning her to the wall as they threw disgusted daggers. "Stop fucking drowning in your self-pity Fitchy. First of all; I was in love once and she didn't love me back, there was no chance for us to ever be together and you know what? That's fine! I don't lay awake at night, whining, that I cant change my feelings. When feelings are not returned you get over it. That's life. You don't throw away your relationship with a woman you claim to love. So why, and I ask you this one time, why the fuck cant you get over it? There isn't a chance in hell that we'd be together. Never. Even if Katie dumps me one day I'd still refuse to give in and start something with you. For fuck's sake your her twin! She's the love of my life, I could never, never, god that's so stupid and wrong to say, I could never be with someone who's a spitting image of her. Because Emily, it might hurt but frankly I don't care and you need to wake up, I just, I couldn't have a pretend life. With a copy. A booby prize, I couldn't. I'd never see you as Emily, I'd always see you as an almost Katie and that's not enough."

Big brown eyes welled up with tears and Emily gulped, trying to swallow her tears, pride, and stupidity. "Never?"

Letting out a strangled shriek Naomi shook her head vehemently. "Fucking listen to yourself Emily. It's pathetic. I cant believe you're acting like this. This isn't Hollywood, I'm not gonna wake up one day and finally realise how I've always wanted you. And I'm not gonna pretend that it's okay, because it's not. It's not okay that you fucking stalk me, try to kiss me and act like a stupid thirteen year old, Jesus. I'm your twin's kids mother, don't you get that?"

She knew it hurt. She knew that Emily's heart was probably breaking but that was necessary if she wanted her to wake up and live her life like it's supposed to be. If Emily and Effy were to split up, fine, but not because of Naomi, or Emily's feelings for her. No, the blonde wouldn't let that happen. She couldn't allow this to be huge, a huge deal hurting people. "I'm sorry Ems, but that's just how I see it. If you don't love Effy any more, talk it out. But don't throw your life away like that. Fucking fix your head Emily."

"Aren't you a real charmer." A velvet voice asked and Naomi groaned. Turning her head her eyes landed on a crossed armed Effy. Effy who was glaring at her and ready to fight. "Baby? Lets go, come on. I'm hungry." "No Eff, I was talking to Emily and I wasn't finished yet." But cold eyes dared Naomi to continue her talk. "I think you were. Em? Come on baby."

Naomi knew what Effy was doing. She saw that Emily's heart was, in fact, breaking and she couldn't let that happen. Her love for her girlfriend was big enough to want to protect her from the harsh truth Naomi was firing. "I'm sorry but it's only the truth and I had to tell her."

"There's a way, place, and time Naomi, and this weren't either." Coming a step closer Effy tilted her head as she took Emily's hand. "Talk to her like this again and we'll have a problem to fix."


The sun was making the sky turn into beautiful colours, from dark blue to reddish and yellow, purple and when they were stumbling home through Camden's dirty streets after a Friday night, Naomi was almost carrying Katie.

The twin was tired. Not sleepy, hell she wouldn't be able to sleep for at least five, six more hours, but her body was finished for the night. She was shuffling her feet, wearing Naomi's chuck's because she couldn't walk in her stilettos any more, and the blonde was guiding her with a gently arm around her hips. "Almost home honey." "Love you, darling." In response, Naomi's lips pressed to her girlfriend's forehead as she whispered the words back.

Effy and Emily were almost in the same state, surprisingly it was Emily taking care of a too tired to even move Effy.

Every now and then their eyes locked and Naomi wondered if this would turn into a huge deal after all.