Jealous Judgement-Chapter 3

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One minute Kathy Stabler wanted to jump out of her bed and rip the damn monitor to shreds, the next minute she counted her breathing and matched it with the beeps. It was fun; it was the most entertainment she could have in this tiny white cell. The fluorescent lights were burning through her bloodshot eyes, so she didn't want to look up, but turning her head hurt too much. Still, she forced herself through the pain and turned her head, wincing as each small degree hurt a little more than the last. It was 9:30, only half an hour after the two rookie detectives had questioned her. She had hoped to see Elliot, maybe, just for a while, if he still had a soul. She wanted to see him again, just not her. Fancy screwing your partner the night your wife is being raped! It's not his fault though, it was probably hers.

Olivia

The stupid bitch that ruins everything! Kathy couldn't count how many times she thought Olivia had ruined her marriage because Elliot preferred to be with her! Always, Olivia would reply with an 'innocent' "No Kathy that's not true! Elliot talks about you all the time!" Yeah, like she was going to believe that!

The beeps were getting faster, and she figured she had to stop herself before she became lost in her own rage. Everything still hurt, there was still nothing she could do but lie there and let her thought process enter the dangerous world of paranoia and irrationality.

She wondered where her kids were. She wondered if they knew she was here. It would be stupid if they didn't know that, right? Her children were old enough and smart enough to be responsible and take care of themselves. They would have been worried when she didn't come home last night; they probably visited her while she was asleep. Everyone was out this morning-Dickie, Lizzie and Kathleen would have been at school, and Maureen would have taken Eli to day-care before going to work. Kathy knew that they knew what to do.

What if they didn't?

What if something went wrong?

What if Maureen didn't take care of Eli and now he's home alone?

What if Dickie and Lizzie forgot to lock the door on the way out?

What if the door is unlocked while Eli's home and somebody breaks in?

They were all very irrational thoughts and situations, right?

Kathy panicked, the heart monitor sped up and she didn't care. She needed to see her children; she needed to see them now! Nothing was going to stop her, not all the pain in the worl-

OW!

She screamed. She had used her heavily bruised left arm to push her up and that was definitely not a good idea. She needed help, but she was way too confident to call a nurse. She needed him now, more than she has ever needed him before…

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"Ka…Kathy?" There was a dry, choked, but familiar voice flowing through the sterile air of the bright white room. It was a voice she neither wanted, nor needed to hear right now, well actually, not ever. That fake innocence ran through her ears, combined with her irrational thoughts, and brought on more fury and rage than she had before.

There she stood, just staring at her like she was a poor helpless victim.

Olivia.

The bitch

Screwing her husband while she was being raped

She had to pay…

Kathy glared at Olivia with all the strength she had. She did not want to be treated like a helpless victim, especially not now. She pressed the green button on the right side of the bed to make it tilt upwards. She winced again at the painful angle she had just inflicted on her back, then glared at Olivia again. This was her fault, she had to know that!

"You…" Kathy murmured, her voice staggering. "I can't look at YOU right now…"

Olivia was slightly confused. She knew Kathy never really liked her because she always assumed Olivia was ruining her marriage. But Olivia saw it, the anger, the fury, burning from the constant stare through Kathy's bloodshot eyes. This couldn't be good. She was awake for a while, she would be paranoid and distressed, she could have made up any odd scenario in her head, so she just had to be careful not to push her buttons in any way.

"Uhh Kathy, why is that exactly?"

Kathy rolled her eyes, bit her lip and tried to clench her fists. This was not good. Whatever Kathy was thinking, it was about Olivia and it was making her paranoid and delusional. She could either try to calm her down, or just leave. Kathy was never a good friend of Olivia's, but she was Elliot's wife. She had to help her.

"Olivia…don't pretend you don't know exactly why this is YOUR fault!" She had a sinister attitude about her voice and that could only mean she fully believed her delusions. Her rational thinking has become warped, and Olivia figured that she had a duty to help her in any way she could.

"Kathy…how is it-"

"YOU were screwing my husband while I was being raped!"

Kathy's comeback had caught Olivia off guard for a while. Elliot? Why the hell would she be with the man she hadn't seen in 3 months! It would only make sense in Kathy's mind. Besides, why wouldn't Elliot be at home if he wasn't at work? Olivia opened her mouth to speak when she had come back to reality, but she was quickly cut off by Kathy again.

"And DON'T tell me that you have no idea what I'm talking about! My husband hasn't been home in 3 months because of you! I knew he was having an affair, I just wished one of you would have the decency to tell me before I ended up here!"

"KATHY! I honestly have no clue-"

"I said don't!"

"Quit cutting me off Kathy! Do you want to know the truth or not?"

"I already know the damn truth, Olivia, I already know what's going on, I-"

"Stop it! Just stop!" Olivia yelled at her, she couldn't take this anymore. She was right up in Kathy's face now, and her original intention of trying to be nice and helpful has gone. She wanted to know where Elliot was, and Olivia was going to tell her.

"Elliot hasn't been in the office for 3 months."

"That's bull!"

"That's the truth!"

"I don't care!"

"Well what do you want me to say, Kathy? Do you want me to tell you that me and Elliot HAVE been together this whole time? Do you want me to lie so you can feel better about yourself? Is that what you want to do?"

Kathy's heart monitor was raised to a dangerous speed, so they both stopped arguing for a while. The silence was killing them, but it gave Kathy time to think: If Elliot wasn't with Olivia this whole time, where the hell was he? Olivia was thinking the same thing, ironically…

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"So…" Kathy finally spoke up, "If he's not with you, where is he?"

Olivia sighed, "I honestly have no idea…"

"I believe you…thankyou for the visit."

Olivia was stunned at Kathy's sudden turn of emothions, but victims were usually mentally unstable, so it was normal for Kathy to be so nice all of a sudden.

Olivia nodded, "If you need anything, please call me." She smiled and walked out of the hospital to her car.

There was always that one question, however, that she was determined to figure out…Where the hell was Elliot?