Thanks for all the reviews. I am not sure how long this story will run especially because I do not like angst
Richard Castle went home on Friday night after his encounter with the dirty bomb and how he and Beckett saved the city.
He tried, once again, to say something to Kate to tell her he wanted a relationship with her, but the ever present Dr. Davidson showed up and ended the conversation before it even had a chance to start.
Rick truly feels like it is best if he just licks his wounds and move on from this. He has devoted more time to Kate Beckett than he put into both of his marriages and his one other serious relationship. And based upon Beckett's comment that the doctor's return from Haiti meant that Kate and Josh had a chance just proved how far away Castle really was from having a chance with her. She seems very committed to wanting the relationship with the motorcycle doctor work.
After he arrives home he takes out his cell phone and records a message that he would be out of touch and then turned the unit off. He went into his office and removed a burner phone from his desk that he bought years before. This was used for special conversations and only used it when he needed total security. After getting everything ready for an exit from this life, he went to bed.
Castle lays in his bed staring up at the ceiling but having no luck whatsoever in going to sleep. The thoughts in his mind are keeping him awake. He knows he must somehow remove there things from his head. He also knows that it is high time he removed Kate Beckett not just from his head but from his heart as well
Martha was off doing summer stock somewhere and Alexis is in California with her mother for a month. So he can leave New York and not be concerned about what happens here for at least the next thirty days. He figures that by then any questions on the part of his friends at the 12th should old news and they will have forgotten about him.
Tomorrow morning he will begin a new chapter in his life. A chapter void of one extraordinary KB.
If he could have just been smart enough to read the signs he would not be feeling this way. She posted road blocks all along his path. A path that he had been blindly following for the last three years hoping to see a crossroad where she would grant him acceptance. Acceptance from the woman he could honestly say he fell in love with a very long time ago.
But he couldn't read the signs so he could make his detour long before now. He realizes now that he waited way past the expiration date on this relationship before moving on. Why did he wait so long to see the end was here?
So now he will finally move on.
Saturday morning he rises and he prepares to load the Ferrari to head out.
Even though he does not think she will be trying to call him he goes to his home telephone and enters a few codes to block certain telephone numbers. Those numbers include Beckett's Cell, her home phone and the number on her desk at the station. This way after they return, Martha and Alexis will not be bothered by calls from her ever again.
Rick also sits down with his laptop and composes a letter. After reviewing it several times, he prints it out. He places it into an envelope and seals the flap, writes a name on the front and places it into his desk drawer.
He then composes another document and sends it as an attachment to in e-mail to his agent, Paula. Castle closes his lap top, places it into the lap top case and heads to the lobby where he says goodbye to the man guarding the front doors.
Passing down to the basement garage, he climbs into his red sports car and within minutes he moves out into Saturday morning traffic. He quickly finds himself on the open road traveling towards his home in the Hamptons.
It takes only an hour to reach his estate. His remote get away. That place he finds solace from the hustle and bustle of New York. Once he arrives, he parks the expensive sports car in the garage and trades it for his more conservative and much less noticeable compact hybrid.
He goes into his closet and packs clothes for a two week journey. His actual plan is to be gone for at least a month. He feels that after that amount of time he can return to New York and any fallout from his leaving should be settled. But since he is not important to her, it is not expecting for anything to actually happen. In fact he truly feels she will be relieved that he has finally stopped shadowing her
Before he leaves again to the open road, he connects his laptop to check for messages. He does have three e-mails from Paula. The first two are confirming that he will be at the first of a series of book signings. The first in Boston on Sunday afternoon and the second in Cambridge on Monday. He replies to the message that he will be where he needs to be and on time.
The second message tells him that she has a signing set up for the next Saturday in Miami and she needs to book his airline tickets.
He responds to this message that he is taking a road trip and will drive down there. He just needs for her to reserve his room and he will be there on time. He asks her if she can go ahead and set up more signings after the Miami stop and he will just travel from city to city.
His plan is working better than he thought. Paula is getting him away from the city again and he will use the drive time to think about the character progression
Paula's next message is lengthy. She is questioning Castle's directive concerning the Nikki Heat series of books. Paula wants to know why Castle has requested changes to the future book contracts
He replies that the changes he is asking for do not change the terms of the book deals only distributions of royalty payments and would she just please take care of his directive
Moments later he receives a reply agreeing to the requested changes
Castle responds that he will see her on Sunday afternoon in Boston and that he is only available on his covert telephone for the present time.
Paula quickly answers "Are you going undercover again for a book?"
Castle thinks to himself for a moment then answers "Yes, I am going dark for at least a month. My special phone is to only be used for life and death emergencies. I will keep in touch with you via e-mail"
Paula has seen Rick do this when he was working on Derrick Storm and the CIA. He like to really get into his players and act the part himself. He had to pretend that he was unreachable. So she knew to help him in whatever he was planning for the next book she would not let anyone know how to reach him
Paula responds "Life and death only. Got it"
Castle turns off his laptop, finished putting all of his bags into the car and heads out on the road toward Boston. He plans to spend the night in a hotel there then be at the signing at noon finish in time to grab dinner and go back to the hotel.
The New England countryside is beautiful and the drive is actually a joy for Rick. He has not done this in years. Just get in his car and drive. His most recent times in a car were in the passenger side of a New York police cruiser building theory with one remarkable detective.
He is truly hoping he has enough research to continue the series of books on Nikki heat for many years to come. He is using this time alone to think. But he has found he cannot think without seeing her face in front of him. So he shifts gears in his mind. Instead of thinking about Kate…uh…Nikki he decides that he will be making a change in another character in the book.
He will kill off Jamison Rook. That is perfect. He will have Rook get killed by the suspect while they are apprehending him. That way he removes himself from the story line and can continue the story of Nikki but with a new love interest. He will make the new love interest a doctor that she meets who tries to save rook. The doctor takes a liking to her and feels sorry for her and her pain They become close and… It all fits
So now the new story line for The Nikki Heat books is ready and
Dr Motorcycle boy will be happy when he reads it because Rook is gone he will know it's all about him
Beckett will be happy because Castle is no longer shadowing her and he has her together with the man she said she wanted to have a chance with in the first place
Ryan and Esposito will be happy because they are still being written into the books
Castle thinks "I will be happy because…"
"Because…"
"Because…"
"I'm sure if I think about it for a while I can come up with some reason to be happy"
I don't know if I can find a reason to ever be happy again
