Is this wrong?
Hey, welcome to chapter 3 of "Is this wrong?". Seeing that some people actually enjoy reading my story makes me very happy :) I hope yo will enjoy this chapter, too.
Story contains gay love and offensive language.
I do not own Digimom. I do not own the characters. I own this story, fuck yeah!
Chapter 3
Five days later
Matt's view
"Goodbye Dad, see you next week." I said to my father, he goes to work again, which means I'm alone again. He's such a workaholic. Doesn't he get that I hate being alone? Does he think it's okay to leave a 14 year old on his own for days? Of course I love him, but sometimes I wonder if he loves me. No he's my dad, he loves me that's just natural. I'm not sure if my mom loves me, why does she have to seperate me from Takeru? He's my little brother and the last time I saw him was weeks ago. I really miss him.
The last couple of days I've been thinking a lot, about being gay and the friendship between me and Tai. I realised that I'm probably gay and that I have a crush on that beautiful boy. I don't really know if I like the idea of being gay. But the worst thing is that I can't tell Tai about it, I don't want our relationship to be ruined. He said that he's not into me, though maybe he was lying? I hope he was lying. Tai is kind of unattainable for me, and that really bothers me.
All of a sudden the door bell rang. It's 11 PM who could that be? I opened the door to see Tai infront of me, he looks like he was crying. Before I could say anything Tai hugged me.
"What's going on, Tai? What happened?" I asked.
"I had a fight with my mom, can I stay here?" It has to be a bad fight, he looks really messed up.
"Of course, Tai. Come in."
We took seat on the couch. I put my arm around him.
"Now tell me what happened."
"I finally told my mom about me, I mean I told her that I'm gay and she just totally freaked out. I had to leave, I don't want to go back home ever again. I think my mom hates me now." A few tears were running down his face.
"Don't say that, Tai. I'm sure your mom still loves you. It's probably just a big shock for her. She'll get over it and accept the way you are." I always thought that Tai's mom would be more tollerant. What if Dad reacts the same way when I have my coming out?
"Thank you, Matt. But I guess there's a thing I never told you, but now I feel like telling you the truth. It might ruin everything." I know what he's about to say, he's about to tell me that he has a crush on me, I'm so nervous! "Matt, I...I..." Go on, say it! He turned his head and looked away "Nevermind." Are you kidding me? Is it really that hard to say it? Maybe I should make the first move. Okay Matt, just risk it, it's going to be fine.
"I love you, too." He looked at me again. His eyes are full of happines. Suddenly he recoiled. No, Tai! Come back here and say that you love me!
"Woah, sorry but I already told you that I don't love you. I only like you as a friend, a very good friend though." That's it. My life's over. My heart just got destroyed, broken into thousands of pieces. What shall I do now? Just don't cry, Matt. Play it cool like Leonardo DiCaprio does when he didn't win an Oscar award again. Fuck, I can't. I started to cry like I never did before.
"Just leave me alone, Tai." This is the first time I want to be alone, well I don't want to be alone I just don't want Tai around me now. What's that? Is he laughing? Why is that jerk laughing?
"Sorry, it's just too funny!" This is not funny at all! How can he be such an asshole? "I've been joking, little Yamato. I love you, of course I do." I raised my head and looked into his eyes.
"You asshole!" I said with a huge smile in my face and tackeled him. We fell on the ground. After a while of playing fighting we ended up kissing. I looked into his eyes, those sweet chocolate eyes. What are we doing? We're friends and we're both male, that's not how it's supposed to be.
"Tai? Is this wrong?" I asked.
"I don't think so, it doesn't feel wrong. I may be stupid but if I learned one thing in my life it's that if something feels right it is right." Those words really helped me. I didn't know that Tai is able to be serious, maybe my little Taichi is really growing up. He taught me that what we're doing isn't wrong, love isn't just bound to one gender. Our faces were coming closer and our lips met again. I've never experienced a feeling like this before. It's like nothing else matters, nothing else is important.
"Are we together now? I mean are we a couple?" I asked curiously.
"I guess one could say that." He kissed me again, I never knew that Tai could be so passionate.
"It's late, we should go to sleep now."
"As long as you don't do something weird if you know what I mean." There he is, the little kid which will never grow up.
The next day
Tai's view
Who knew that life can be so amazing? I'm laying in bed, cuddling with the boy of my dreams. Everythings perfect. Shit, it's not. My mom probably is still upset. But I don't really care as long as I'm with Matt. She won't seperate us. We'll be together till death drives us apart, and that won't happen soon.
"Matt, wake up. I'm hungry" He opened his eyes slowly.
"Are you serious? I want to sleep, Tai. You can make breakfast yourself."
"Come on, Matt. Remember when I made pizza?"
"Okay, but just because you're so damn cute." I had to smile. He was right, I'm cute. Not as cute as he is but yet I'm cute.
"I want pancakes."
"You'll get pancakes, then."
A while later we were sitting in the kitchen, eating some pancakes.
"What are we going to do today?" I asked.
"Tai, I think we should call your mother, tell her to come here. And then we're going to talk to her, explain that nothing's wrong about being gay. She will understand it." I don't know if I want to talk to my mom. What if she doesn't accept me? Can Matt's father adopt me? That would be awesome! Well we should try talking to her first.
"Okay, we can try. But promise me that we'll stick together no matter what. I don't want to loose you."
"Don't worry, Tai. I love you, I will never leave you." He's so sweet! "I think it's better if I would call your mother." He went to the living room, where the phone is. I could hear what he's saying.
"Hello Mrs. Yagami this is Matt ... No, I know he's not home. He's here. We want you to come over and talk ... Okay see you." He came back into the kitchen. "She'll be here in fifteen minutes."
We went into the living room and sat on the couch, not talking at all. Soon the door bell rang. I am so nervous. Matt went to the door and invited my mother inside. They came into the living room. Matt sat on the couch next to me, Mom sat on the chair on the other site of the small table.
"Hi Mom." I said. No answer, she's still mad. "Mom, I'm gay. There's nothing you can change about it, you can't fix me because I'm not broken. Being gay is not wrong. You have to accept me like I am." Her face began to get red, red as hell. She's going to explode.
"No, Tai! You're wrong! I don't want a gay child. Why do you have to do this to me? Why do you hate me so much? I'm out of here!" she yelled and ran out of Matt's apartment. She smashed the door behind her. I never knew my mom is so intollerant. I started to cry. She doesn't love me anymore, she doesn't like what I am. How can someone be so mean? Why did she even came here? Just to tell me that? Matt hugged me, but I couldn't stop crying.
"If she doesn't accept you you don't need her. She may be your mother but that doesn't mean that you need her. It's not your fault, it's hers." I don't know why but he couldn't calm me down. I think I just need some time. It's a good feeling just hugging Matt without anyone talking.
A while later I finally stopped crying.
"Thank you, Matt. Thanks for just being here."
"Do you want anything?" Yes! I know what I really want right now.
"You have a guitar right? Can you play something? Maybe you could sing?" He's a really good guitarist and a pretty good singer, he even is a leader of a pretty cool band.
"I think I know the right song for this situation." He always knows the right song for the right situation. He went to his room and came back with his badass electronic guitar. That guitar for this situation? That doesn't fit. I looked at him with a confused face.
"Trust me, you will like it." He started to play. I wonder what he's going to play.
Masquerading as a man with a reason,
my charade is the event of the season.
And if I claim to be a whise man, well
it surely means that I don't know.
On a stormy sea of moving emotion,
tossed about I'm like a ship on the ocean.
I set a course for winds of fortune,
But I hear the voices say:
Carry on my wayward son,
there'll be peace when you are done.
Lay your weary head to rest,
don't you cry no more.
No!
(Badass guitar solo)
I don't know why but this song really helped me, maybe only because of the way Matt sang it. The song really didn't fit the situation, yet it helped me. I am able to smile again.
"Thank you, Matt I'm so glad to be with you."
"I knew you would like it. Now come over here and kiss me." I did what I was told to do. The feeling of his warm lips pressing against mine was unbelievable. The feeling was soon stopped by the realisation that sometime I have to go back home. But I don't want to go home. I don't want to see mom, well I want to see Kari she's my sister. Everything's so difficult.
"How long can I stay here?" I asked
"I don't know, school starts next week. One day you have to go back home."
"Can't your father adopt me?"
"I think that's not possible, even if my father wanted to your mom would never allow it."
All those stupid rights argh. Everything has to be so freaking difficult. Maybe Kari can calm Mom down. The future is not going to be easy.
A few days later
Tai has to go back home
Okay, calm down. Everythings going to be fine, just knock on that door. *Knock knock*. Kari opens the door.
"Hey Tai! I missed you." She said and hugged me. "But can you tell me why Mom acts so strange in the last few days?"
"I missed you, too. Mom somehow just can't accept the way I am. Is she at home?"
"No, she's shopping. Come in!" I walked into the corridor.
"I'm sorry Kari but I don't really want to talk now." I walked into my room and layed on the bed. How will Mom react? We haven't talked for a couple of days.
I heard the door opening, I'm sure it's Mom. She opened the door to my room.
"Don't you think I will let you do what you want! Tomorrow after school you will come here directly, no playing football or stuff like that! And stop hanging out with Matt, that boy got a bad influence on you!" She yelled.
"Mom, it's not Matt's fault! Neither it's mine! I can't change it!"
"Well I will make you change, trust me!" She smashed the door again, and yes, I started to cry.
A few moments later I heard the door opening again, what does she want now?
"Tai? Are you okay?" That was Kari's voice. I turned around and saw her closing the door behind her.
"Yes, leave me alone." My voice trembled.
"Just tell me what happened, okay?" She sat on the bed and put her arms around me.
I sighed "I told her about me, I'm gay, Kari. She can't accept me and tries to change me."
"That's terrible! There's nothing wrong about being gay. I will talk to her."
"No please do-" She already left the room.
I could hear them talking, then Mom freaked out. I ran out of my room and couldn't believe what I'm seeing. Mom hits Kari! Kari just stands there crying.
"What the fuck are you doing?! Stop it! How dare you hit her?! She has nothing to do with it!" I screamed full of anger.
"Go back into your room, Tai! This is none of your businnes!" Mom yelled back.
"Oh hell it is!" I walked a few steps towards them and picked up Kari. "I'll bring Kari out of here! Don't expect us to come back ever again! You're a horrible person!"
"You two won't leave! I am your mother and you will do what I tell you!"
"No! You used to be our mother, but that ended only a few minutes ago. Go to hell, I don't care."
I walked out of the apartment carrying Kari. I could hear her crying, oh my god for her it's even harder than for me. Where should we go? Our relatives live too far away. There's only one place we can go, Matt's apartment.
Only a few minutes later I stood infront of the door to Matt's, still carrying Kari. I rang the door bell and Matt's Dad opened the door. He looks confused.
"Can we come in?" I asked, trying hard not to cry out loud.
"S-sure. Matt? You got company!" We took a seat in the living room, Matt joined us.
"What's going on? And why's Kari crying?" He asked.
"Because of Mom, I had to get Kari away from her. Do you want to know what she did? She hit Kari! Can we stay the night?"
"Of course, that's horrible. Why would she hit her?" Matt's dad asked.
"I had a fight with her, Kari tried to calm her down and Mom totally freaked out without a reason."
"And what are you planning to do about it?" Matt asked.
"I don't know, I think we should live at our grandma's, though that's pretty far away."
"I know your grandma, Tai. She's pretty old she won't be able to take care of you two." Matt said.
"If your Mom really hit her you should never go back there. You can stay here as long as you want." Matt's dad is pretty kind, I don't meet him very often.
"But she's our mom, she got the right to bring us back home."
"There's a way we could deal with it. You guys wait here, I have to make a phone call."
An eternity later Matt's dad came back into the living room.
"I said there would be a way, and there is one. If you are okay with it I could adopt you, well my apartment isn't that big I could only adopt one of you. I called my ex-wife, I know Kari and Takeru are close, she said she would adopt Kari. I know it's pretty drastic and you have to think about it but that's the only way. And don't worry, every judge would accept the adoption because your mom hit her." Is he serious? That's a pretty big offer, but I feel like accepting it. There's only one thing he should know.
"I'm okay with that, but you should know that Matt and I .. we are a couple, you understand me?"
"I know, Matt told me, that's why you'll get an own room, but if you really want to you are allowed to sleep in the same bed, just don't do anything weird."
"Kari? How are you feeling about this?" I asked her, she finally stopped crying but still looks sad.
"I like Takeru, I'm okay with it, too. I don't want to go back to my mother." I didn't expect that, I thought that she would be against it, because she still loves Mom, well I still love Mom, too.
I really like the idea of being around Matt all the time. Waking up with him in my arms every day. That's kind of like heaven on earth. I hope everything will work out. This decision will really change my life, but not all changes are bad and I got the feeling that this one is a good change. Who could've guessed that Matt's dad is so cool? I mean it will change everything for him, too. I wonder why he does that.
Matt's view
I'm so happy right now, Tai will live here, with me! Thank you so much, Dad! I wonder why he does this. Maybe he realised how often I'm alone and this seemed to be the best solution for him. He killed two birds with one stone. I love him so much for doing this! I've got the best father in the world!
You didn't expect that, did you? How can Tai's mom be such a jerk? Will everything work out with the adoption? You'll find out in the next chapter!
Song: Carry on my wayward son; Kansas
