I expected that Edward would lecture me about his lack of unrelenting self-control, but to my great surprise, he gave in to every unwilling plea my hands made against his body. I felt my heart stuttering out of control like a car on black ice. I thought vaguely for a moment of Tyler Crowley's van in comparison to my heart, but at once the thought was put out of my mind when Edward's cool breath blew in my ear. He kissed all over my face and neck. My lips traced his features and my hands memorized every curve of his god-like body.
Eventually, he rolled me off of him and stopped.
"Bella," he pleaded, "how is tonight going to go? I mean, I just, my self control. You know it isn't unwavering."
I giggled, because Edward actually seemed to be nervous for once.
"Edward. I can wait, if you would prefer that. I just, you know, I'm trying to do what you suggested and get all of my human experiences out of the way before you change me." I was a horrible liar. I just wanted him so much closer, and holding myself back from him was so difficult to do.
He saw through my façade immediately and laughed.
"Bella, I know you're aroused. It happens when your species gets too near one of us—"
"But—!" I interjected, trying to argue what he was saying. It wasn't just because he was incredibly beautiful! I love him.
"Bella, I know you love me. Please, I wasn't finished," against my will, I shut my mouth and he continued. "Thank you. As I was saying, I know you're aroused, as I very much am too. I may not be a human anymore, but I am still very much a man where you would expect me to be."
I blushed, misinterpreting what he meant.
"I mean on the inside; in my head. You're very beautiful, and I love you, and now we're married but I still don't know how safe it is for you. I don't know if I can take that kind of risk with you."
"Please, please try."
Edward positioned himself on top of me and slowly lowered himself so as to be careful with me and not cause any pain.
At once, I felt a surge of energy as we were connected by this physical spiritual bond, and I was so overwhelmed just knowing that right then, Edward and I were joined as one.
Afterward, I lay there, feeling serene out of myself.
"Bella…" He whispered, cradling my head in his hands.
"Edward, will you change me now?"
Before I had any sense that the had let me go, he was on the other side of our bed looking at me in horror.
"Bella, certainly not right now!"
I felt hurt, and betrayed. As my eyes started to gloss over with tears, I started murmuring nonsense about how I thought we promised forever.
Edward broke into a smile and was back next to me in bed, his cool stone body against mine.
"You foolish, oversensitive, lovely girl! I would not break my part of the promise on you! I was not expecting you to ask me that, at all. Please Bella, please let me spoil myself for just a little while, while I can keep your warmth with me at all hours of the day. Can I please have that, just for another day or so?"
He chuckled at the grumpy look on my face and kissed the tip of my reddened nose.
"I guess," I said, "but no more than a week."
"Thank you. And after that, I promise you forever."
"Forever?"
"Eternally forever."
I drifted off to sleep in his arms. I was more tired than I had remembered ever being. That was okay though, because I was with Edward for ever.
(Now this chapter wasn't the best, and for that I apologize, because who really does know what's happening between Bella and Edward at this point? But I need your help now. If you'd all like me to continue, then please; let me know. If I have at least ten reviews telling me to go for it, then I will. But other than that, this is where I call it the end. So it's up to you, the reader, now. Thanks!
--Ella)
