Chapter 3: New Feelings


We're only friends,
but at times I wish we were more.

No one has ever made me feel as special as you do.
Why can't we be more than friends?

You know what I'm really like and you love me still the same.
Why can't we be more than friends?

You make me laugh when I want to die.
Why can't we be more than friends?

A smile from you is all it takes to make my day.
Why can't we be more than friends?

The sound of your voice makes my heart jump for joy.
Why can't we be more than friends?

The slightest touch from you makes me want you even more.
Why can't we be more than friends?

When you laugh it makes my heart flood with happiness.
Why can't we be more than friends?

You are all I need in life.
Why can't we be more than friends.

I know I love you, and I think you feel the same about me.
Why can't we be more than friends?

By: Julie


As I kept running, I could feel my heart tug in the opposite direction. At the direction of Alex. I just couldn't be around her right now. My heart still ached at her words when she said that she liked Seth.

I could feel someone phase. I growled. I didn't want to talk to anybody right now. I just wanted to be alone.

"Sam I don't want to talk." I thought.

"Its not Sam, Jacob." I couldn't believe how much balls Seth had to phase. I could kick his ass right now. And in a flash, I was standing infront of him. Ready now more than ever to teach him a lesson. I was ready to pounce. I growled with so much anger at Seth and he returned the gesture.

"How dare you try and kiss my imprint" I hissed..

"Oh since you don't want her, nobody can have her.What is she supposed to love you while you love someone else? You said it yourself, you have Bella." I cringed I knew he was right but I wasn't about to give him the satisfaction.

"And what if you imprint Seth? Have you thought about that? How hurt she will be when you two have a relationship and you just leave her for somebody else?" My words dripped with disdain.

I was ready to lounge at Seth when he spoke once again. He no longer sounded pissed but he spoke with adoration. I could see images of Alex flash in his head but he saw her as a lover.

"See, I didn't tell anybody this but I think I imprinted on Alex as well." Every trace of anger was gone and filled with love. He sounded so in love it just didn't make sense. He was to busy thinking about my Alex that he didn't notice my temper rise and rise with every image that passed through his head. And then Seth thought of when he was about to kiss Alex, however in his mind he accomplished his goal. That was the last straw. I couldn't control myself anymore.

I pounced. I slashed and bit any flesh of Seth that I saw. I vented my anger towards him. We fought like hell. I wanted to cause real damage to him. Seth snapped at my neck and with my hind legs, I threw him into a tree. He slammed hard and a whimper escaped his lips. He tried getting up but he fell back down in pain. Seth lied helpless on the floor."That should teach you to never think about Alex again." I stomped towards him and seeing him there withering in pain snapped me back to my senses.

I couldn't even look at Seth anymore, I trudged away. I ran, I just wanted to get away for a while. I wanted to get my thoughts straight. But ofcourse, Alex was draped in every single one of them.

I felt someone else phase and I knew that they would find Seth eventually. I kept running north. I just wanted to leave for a while.

"Jacob, stop." Sam's commanding alpha voice pierced through my head. I had no other choice but to stop.

"Sam what the hell do you want?" I sneered. In an instant, Sam was standing infront of me.

"Jacob, I know how you feel right now. I will talk to Seth later, but you have to know that running away from this is wrong. Think about your dad, how dissappointed he will be with you. And running away from your imprint will only cause immense physical pain to you." I snorted. Sam had no idea what it felt like to see your imprint with another man. He never went through that with Emily. He had no clue what if felt like.

"Don't you dare tell me you know what if feels like. You have no clue." I was fuming.

"Look Jacob, Alex is my cousin and I love her. I want her to be happy and I know that she will only be truely happy with you." Sam was right. We were destined to be together, but I couldn't help but think about Bella. I still loved her but I could feel Alex slowly stealing my heart away from her.

I was already falling for Alex. My affections towards Bella were nothing compared to what I felt for Alex. I couldn't see myself with Bella anymore. When I thought about my future, I pictured Alex standing by me.

"Sam, she doesn't love me. She likes Seth. I don't even know how to approach her, let alone make her fall in love with me." I could hear the desperation in my voice. I hadn't even had a real conversation with her and after tonight, she probably thinks that I'm a jerk or something.

"Why don't you try to be friends with her first. I know that she already feels a pull to you but she won't love you if you keep acting like a jack*** to her. She still has a choice."

Sam was right. No girl would ever fall for a jerk and that is what I have been since she got here. I wanted to show her the real me. I wanted her to forget about Seth and fall in love with me. But I knew that our relationship had to start off somewhere. And that is what I am going to do, I had decided to become friends with her. I could pass with her atleast caring about me.


Alex's P.O.V.

I plugged in my ipod to the player and stepped into the well deserved shower. I could already feel the tension slipping away.

"Finally, a place to think." I thought. But I found myself thinking only about Jacob. I couldn't shake away the emptiness I felt when he left the beach.

He looked so angry at me and then he had to ask the stupidest question ever. If I liked Seth, really? Seth means a whole lot to me but I only think of him as a brother. However, the way Jacob asked me, it seemed like he was trying to say how dare I. How dare I like somebody else. So I let him have it. Yea, I know I wasn't honest, ok I totally lyed but he deserved it.

"Ugh, I am such an idiot sometimes." I mentally slapped myself. There was something about Jacob. Yea, he has acted like a total ass, yet I feel like there is something there. A pull towards him like we were supposed to be together.

I guess I was in the shower longer than I thought because the next thing I knew I shrieked like a little girl. The hot water on my body was replaced with ice cold water. "I guess my shower is over." I laughed at myself.

I slipped into my normal jamies. A tank-top with some sweats. I sneaked into my room because Sam and Emily were already asleep. I shivered as I stepped into my room. I know that outside its pretty cold but for god's sake, the rest of the house was a toasty 78 degrees. And in here it could easily be like 30 degrees.

I looked around for the sourse of the new fridge in the house. Ofcourse, the stupid window was open. How could I have left it open? Was I really that stupid? I decided not to answer that one.

I walked over the window sill. You know, La Push isn't a "toursist attraction" but with the moon elluminating the area, it really was a breath taking place. But maybe that was just my opinion. I laughed. I already loved La Push so much. It felt like I belonged here, like it was my one true home and I know I will not be leaving soon.

I placed my hand on the window, ready to close it but something caught my eye. I saw a man standing in my back yard. He seemed to be looking straight at me with a smile plastered on his perfect face. He was very pale with blood red eyes.

My heart raced in my chest. I knew there was something dangerous about him. I instantly shut my window and jumped in my bed. I just wanted to forget I ever saw him. I wanted to fall into a dreamless sleep. I pulled my covers over my head and forced my eyes shut.


Jacob's P.O.V.

I know I should be helping the others out in patrol but I just had to make sure she was safe.

Paul had caught a whif of leech in Sam's very back yard . Ofcouse, Sam wasn't to happy about that and he ordered the whole pack to search the entire area for the vampire. Sam was pretty pissed and I was too. The stupid blood sucker could have done something to my Alex.

And thats how I found myself here, running up the stairs toward Alex's room. Usually I would take the window, but tonight, she had shut it. I swallowed my anger and opened the door slowly. I didn't want to wake her, I just wanted to check on her.

"Wow." I thought to myself as I looked her over. Lex looked so peaceful in her sleep. Her heartbeat was pretty normal, so I guess she was ok. I should have left once I had known she was fine but I just couldn't bring myself to do it. Instead I got closer. She was so breathtaking and absolutely beautiful.

I couldn't help myself. I ran my thumb along her cheek. When I touched her skin, I felt a jolt of electricity ran through my body. I wanted to keep touching her, but she stirred.

"Jacob." She mummbled. She only slightly opened her eyes revealing a gorgeous hazel color. She was still asleep though.

"Shhh, go back to sleep baby."but she was totally passed out before I could say more. I smiled. If she only knew how much I wanted her to wake up and I could see the beautiful color of her eyes again. She was so beautiful and amazing, I just didn't deserve her. Watching her, I knew I deffinately wanted her in my life, even if it meant just as friends.

I smiled before I leaned down and placed a kiss on her forehead. Then I pulled up the covers so she wouldn't be cold and I made my way back outside. I felt better knowing that Alex was ok.

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