"Are you hungry?" Chad looked at his girlfriend as he closed the door to his house, walking towards the kitchen,

"No, I ate loads at lunch and mum will probably make me eat loads when I get home tonight!" She grinned at him, following him into the kitchen and sitting down as he made himself a sandwich.

"Do you promise?" He whispered to her, kissing her on the cheek, smiling a little as he carried on making his own food, Sonny nodded – suddenly scared that he knew something was wrong.

"Yeah.. why?"

"I don't know, you just lost a little weight recently." Chad tried to shrug it off, despite the bad feeling he had about her sudden weight loss lately.

"Really? I have been so busy I haven't really noticed." She shifted uncomfortably in her seat and bit her lip, hoping he would believe her. She noticed the concern in his eyes and she grinned widely, standing up to wrap her arms around his neck as she looked into his eyes,

"I promise you I am eating Chad, you can even ask my mum, or the 'So Random!' lot." Chad seemed satisfied with the answer and grinned back at her,

"As long as you're okay then." Sonny nodded and looked around, wondering what they were going to do.

"Do you want to watch a DVD?" He finally said, as though he read her mind, she nodded as he grabbed her hand, leading her to the large TV in the sitting room, she rolled her eyes once she saw the many 'McKenzie Falls' DVD's.

"So, season one? Or two?" He noticed the look on her face before he laughed at her and walked over to the large collection of films he had,

"I was only joking, come here and choose whatever you want." Sonny nodded and laughed with him as she picked up a romance 'Along Came Polly.'

"Should have known you were a romance type of girl." It was his turn to roll his eyes as he gave into her and pushed it into the DVD player. Chad wrapped both his arms around her as they both sat down, pushing her back on the sofa, he kissed her gently on the lips before she could tell him to get off her. She giggled at the gesture and pulled away,

"As romantic as that was Chad, your parents could walk in and catch us." Chad just laughed, kissing her again before sitting back up smiling,

"Fine."

Halfway through the film Sonny realized that Chad was staring at her instead of watching the screen, she felt herself become increasingly uncomfortable before turning to him,

"What are you staring at?" She whispered, wondering if he was looking at her and realizing he was too good for someone like her,

"You." Chad simply answered, he had started to notice something different about her lately, the way she always seemed to wear baggy clothing as though she was trying to cover herself up despite the hot weather.

"Oh.. can I ask why?" She took a deep breath, preparing herself for the blow she was convinced was about to come, Chad realized how uncomfortable she was starting to get, her arms suddenly wrapped around herself, looking down at her legs as she waited for his answer,

"You're so beautiful. Never forget that Sonny, okay?" Chad shook his head, pulling her arms from around herself and lifting her head up to meet his eyes, kissing her gently,

"Thank you." She whispered as he pulled away,

Ignore him, he doesn't mean it, he will never mean it. You are not beautiful, you are ugly. You will never be good enough for him, you are not like the other girls he has dated, you're the one he feels sorry for. You have to change if you want him to stay with you, if you want him to love you. You have to be beautiful and thin. You have to be everything you're not right now. Change Sonny, don't you want to be just like them?

Sonny broke away the kiss as she heard the voice she had been hearing for almost a week now, she had no idea who it was or why it was speaking to her lately. She had been able to push it to the back of her mind before, but now it seemed to be the only thing she could think of. Sonny didn't want to tell anyone about the voice – they all thought she was crazy already, this would only confirm that.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing, nothing is wrong. Why would anything be wrong?" She looked like she was going to cry and she knew Chad had already realized that.

"Did I do anything wrong?" For the first time since she had known him she saw uncertainty in his eyes, and heard it in his voice. He looked so offended,

"No! Why does everything have to be about you?!" Sonny shouted at him, seeing the hurt in his eyes as soon as the words came out,

"I'm sorry..." She whispered,

"I'm so sorry..." She started to cry, feeling his arms around her as she put her head in her hands, trying to stop herself as she heard the voice once more,

No, don't cry, not in front of him. Wait till nobody is around, do you want him to stop you? Do you want to get caught? Do you?! Are you stupid? Do you know what will happen to you? What will happen to us? They will stop us! They will ruin everything we have made for ourselves. They will break all the control and they will make you eat loads all over again. They will want you to be fat, to gain all the weight back that we have lost together! Do you want to achieve perfection Sonny? They are all so jealous of you and your control. Do you want me to go away Sonny? Because that's what will happen when they find out, they will take me away and you will be all alone again.

Sonny quickly wiped away her tears and smiled,

"Sorry. I am fine really. I am so sorry." She tried to laugh it off but knew he wasn't fooled by the change of mood,

"I am so worried about you." He carried on holding her until she pulled away and then she shook her head,

"Don't just.. don't... Why can't you leave me alone? I am fine.. nothing is wrong with me!" She ran as quickly as she could from him and his unwanted sympathy. She didn't need him anyway, she didn't need anyone.

Nothing, nothing is wrong. And asking is against the rules, crying is against the rules. You're strong, don't let them break you. They're trying to destroy you.