OMG! I HAVEN'T UPDATED IN AGES! I CAN'T BELIEVE IT! I'M SOOOOOO SORRY! BET YOU ALL THOUGHT I WAS DEAD! well, enough of the dramamtics. yeah, i'm so sorry i haven't updated in so long. there are many reasons why;

1. Writer's Block (it's such a pain in the ass...)

2. Social Life (yeah, i have one! amazing isn't it?)

3. My Books. (you may not want to hear this, but they're more important then my fics. i don't get paid for these, but i'll get paid for them, so gotta stick to 'em right? right)

4. Final Fantasy XI (I got it, after wanting it for so long, and it's so coooool! i love it!)

5. I Rebooted My Computer and Aciddentaly Rid Myself Of My Broadband Connection (I know, i'm such a F&ing Genius! Bravo, Riku...)

Anyway, hope ya'll forgive me! I'll try try try my hardestness to get more done, but no promises. seeing as i have my intersnot back, that means i have ffxi back too...heehee...

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Disclaimer: Oooh! I don't own Gravitation itself! but! but! but! i own, all the Anime! and! and! and! i just bought the first four Manga! (even though i've read nerely all of them before...but i forget most of it, i read them that long ago. like two years ago or something! XD) so..um...do they count for anything?

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Warning: Yaoi, Shonen-ai, all the goodstuff, ya know:)

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Not What I Want

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By Riku-chan

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Chapter 3-Temptation Pt2

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Eiri woke up after a restless sleep. if he hadn't been so tired, he doubted he'd have slept at all. All night, his thoughts lingered on Hiro. He just couldn't get the guitarist out of his mind, no matter how hard he tried. even when his arms were wrapped around his lover, and he was breathing in the strawberry scent of his hair ((A/N: is it just me, or does everyone make it strawberry smellin? ah well, strawberry's smell nice :D)), his mind was filled with the memory of his lips on Nakano's. He wasn't looking foreward to having the red-head around, because he didn't know if he could restrain himself, even with Shuichi around. Hiro, he was just too...tempting. Eiri was tired with the small whiney singer, he wanted someone tougher, sexier...unreachable.

eiri blinked.

was that it? the reason he wanted hiro so bad, was because he couldn't have him? Eiri never thought he was one of those people who wanted things only because they couldn't. obviously he was wrong.

the smell of burnt toast reached Eiri's nose, and he hopped out of bed, still groggy. he wanted to prevent a fire. he dressed himself in a pair of old trousers, and a shirt, which he left unbuttoned.

he raced to the kitchen, but halted when he heard hiro's voice.

"so i walked in, the room was dark, and then ayaka tells me she didn't love me, and that she's leaving me," eiri's heart skipped a beat. Ayaka...left him? Hiro's single? he felt angry at ayaka, as he could hear the hurt and bitterness in hiro's voice. 'how could she do that to him...?' eir thought, but then he felt a joyess grin grace his lips 'but that means hiro's up for the taking, and needs a shoulder to cry on...' his thoughts were distracted when he heard hiro continue.

"like, how's that supposed to make me feel?" Hiro asked his pink-haired best friend, who was fussing over the toast he just burnt.

"i'm sure your taking it very hard hiro. i can't believe ayaka said that to you!" the vocalist exclaimed.

"nor can i, shu-chan..." Hiro sighed. Eiri heard shuichi's padded footsteps, as his lover walked over to the new object of his desires, and comforted him. oh how eiri wished he was in shuichi's place right now. eiri shook his head furiously. 'stop thinking about hiro!' he told himself angrily. he really had to stop this, he may not love shuichi, he truely so that now, but it didn't mean he wanted to preak the brat's heart, no matter how annoying he was, and if he broke up with shuichi, hiro would definitly not go out with him. Hiro would never be interested in him...with that, Eiri sighed, and before the younger men could say anymore, Eiri walked in,pretending to be shocked that hiro was there, in boxer shorts and an old t-shirt.

"what's he doing here?" he grummbled, going over to pour himself some coffee. Hiro stiffened, before shifting uncomfortably in his chair.

"hiro's staying here for a few days, okay, yuki? ayaka broke up with him, and i don't want him to be alone," Shuichi explained, flashing his best-friend i wide bright smile. Hiro returned it, appreiciativly.

"fine whatever, just make sure neither of you disturb me," Eiri grunted, sipping at his coffee.

"okay, yuki! you've got a deadline coming up, right?" shuichi asked, and eiri nodded.

"a few more chapters," eiri informed him.

"okay, well Ryu-chan invited me to go shopping with him later, hiro, would you like to join us?" Shuichis asked.

"i don't think so shu-chan, i'd like to just hang out here if you don't mind," Hiro turned to Eiri, with obvious difficulty. "and if you don't mind either, yuki-san," Eiri noticed a small blush on hiro's cheeks, excluding the flushed look due to the heat, despite the air-conditioner on at a high level.

"do whatever yyou want," eiri forced himself to look away, and walked out of the kitchen and into his office.

hiro watched him leave, and when he was out of sight, turned back to shuichi.

"so when are you leaving?" hiro asked him.

"once Ryu-chan gets here actually, so i better get ready," Shuichi said, standing up, and leaving hiro alone in the kitchen. "are you sure you don't want to come, hiro?" shuichi asked again, poking his head in the door.

"yes, i'm sure shu," Hiro said with a smile.

"okay hiro!" Shuichi said, smiling back, before gliding ((A/N: heehee, he glided...i don't know why i find that so funny, but i do...like the word squint...lmao...squint))) off. Hiro sat there in the kitchen thinking. all last night, after Yuki had woken him up by the simplist thing as a kiss, all hiro could do was think. was yuki just tired, and thought he was shuichi? did yuki really have feelings for him? did he, hiro, possibly have feelings for the cold-hearted novelist? Hiro never thought he did, but ever since that kiss, all he could think about was the blonde and nothing else. he was hoping he could get a chance to talk to yuki about what happened last night with shuichi gone, and, despite himself, couldn't wait until his best friend left. 'does that make me a bad friend? that a have a crush on the love of my best friend's life?' that was all hiro thought about now, until he heard the doorbell ring, and ryuichi sakuma's voice ring out through the apartment as he shouted 'SHU-CHAN! LET'S GO SHOPPING!'. Hiro heard the agrivated novelist tell them to shut up before slamming his office door. he listened slosely to what was happening in the other room, making sure both shuichi and ryuichi were gone, before standing up and leaving the kitchen.

he walked over to eiri's office door, but paused when he reached it.

'i can't do this,' was all he could think. their were butterflies in his stomach and his vocal-cords seemed unable to function. eventually, he perked up the courage to knock.

"what is it?" Eiri growled from the otherside. Hiro took that as an invitation to enter. Hiro opened the door, walked in, and closed it behind him. it wasn't very bright in the office, the only light being the faint glow from eiri's laptop. said glow seemed to cast the perfect amount of light and shadow on the novelist's face, and hiro had to shake his head out of his thoughts so he could say,

"um, Yuki-san, we, uh, need to talk," Hiro cursed himself silenetly for stuttering and saying it so nervously. Eiri removed his glasses, and sighed. he turned away from the screen, and faced Hiro.

"about what?" Yuki asked.

"huh?" hiro said, confused. "you know what! you kissed me! last night! while i was sleeping!" Hiro couldn't keep the anger out of his voice.

"did i?" Yuki asked. Hiro blinked, uterliy conflustered. 'what the hell...?' Eiri stood up off the chair, and walked over to Hiro. Hiro instinctivly took one step back, which left him almost pressed into the wall.

"are you sure i kissed you?" yuki asked, taking one step foreward. "or do you just want to believe i did?" he one more step closer. and another, and another. soon Hiro was indeed pressed against the wall, inbetween that and eiri yuki. Hiro's eyes kept flickering between Eiri's eyes, and his lips, debating whether to wait for yuki to kiss him first, or to hell with it, and kiss him. instead, he unconsiously muttered the word, 'both', which made eiri smile deviously, before he leaned in and kissed Hiro on the lips, if possible, sweeter than before. but soon passion swept over them both, and neither could hold back. Hiro snaked his arms around Eiri's neck and held the blonde close, deepening the kiss in the process. eiri's tongue flicked at hiro's bottem lip, asking for enterence. he didn't have to wait long for a response, as Hiro hastily complied. Hiro moaned into the kiss, and moved one of his hands to play with Eiri's hair, as the blonde's tongue explored his mouth with relish.

Eiri let his hands fall to the guitarist's hips, remembering what little clothing the younger man was wearing. he could already feel the growing erection under the small amount of material that the boxers held pressing against his thigh as he pulled him closer.

seeming to semi-come to his senses, Hiro pulled back slightly. Ignoring it, Eiri just worked on kissing Hiro's neck, enticing moans and shivers of pleasure from the other.

"eiri," Hiro moaned, unable to control the desire washing over him as eiri sucked on the skin of his colourbone. that'd leave a mark. 'pollor-necks for you for awhile, hiro, even in this heat. at least no going shirt-less,' he thought to himself.

"yes?" eiri inquired once he finished leaving his mark on Hiro. he kissed it once, before yanking off the t-shirt Hiro was wearing, and trailing kisses on his chest.

"this-this is, wrong," Hiro panted, as eiri's thumb swept past his left nipple.

"that's what," eiri kissed his chest. "makes it," another kiss. "so," and another, "tempting," he finished, pressing his hips against Hiro's. Hiro agreed with a hearty moan. Eiri also moaned, craving more of this...temptation.

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omg! bit of a cliffy, eh? bet ya all just HATE me now! i know i do...i wanna write more, but beddy-times for riku now! i'll write more tomorrow or somthing, if i have time...then, by the time i get my internet back, you all will have less time to wait for the update:) good, ne?

if this fanfic was called 'Temptation' i could just end it there, but it's not, it's called 'Not What I Want' and there's a semi-good enough reason for that. it's because of people not knowing what they want. silly people. they should know! well, i know what they want...my story...i can make them want what i want them to want...heehee, i'm mad with the powa! i'm a fairy princess! (sowwy, gots a t-shirt that says that on it, heehee)

so yeah, review okay? or no lurvly continuation. who knows, maybe shuichi will come home early and spot his lover and best friend doing naughty things. maybe he'll want to join in, and they all live smuttily ever after. maybe tohma calls, and everthing spirals out of control. or maybe, just maybe, they have mindless sex, realize it was the heat that did it to them, and they forget about. either that or it just makes the whole plot ALOT more complicatededified. but that's good sometimes right? either way, only way you'll find out, is if you R&R!

see ya in the next chapter!

toodlesies:)