Discussions and Thoughts
Miroku woke up very early this morning and since they weren't going to leave for another couple of hours, he decided to take a brisk walk to wake up his tired muscles. He began to recall the two nights before and still couldn't believe how Inuyasha didn't tolerate it. Inuyasha surprised everyone with his sudden attack and warning towards them since he didn't have the usual look of anger. It was far beyond that. Shaking his head, he sat down against a tree and folded his arms.
Miroku sat like that for a while and thought he was there long enough so he began to stand. As he emerged from the forest, he saw that Kikyo and Inuyasha were already up and he approached them quietly.
"Inuyasha, in a day or two, you realize I'll be leaving." Kikyo reminded Inuyasha whose ears perked up.
"Yeah…" he replied.
Miroku looked back and forth from the miko to the hanyou, both of them wearing solemn expressions, neither of them aware of his presence. He cleared his throat causing them to look up from the ground and turn their attention to him.
"You have something to say Miroku?" Inuyasha asked with a small sharp edge in his voice, daring the monk to break the warning he gave them.
"No. Just needed to clear my throat." he said to them and left them without a word.
By mid-afternoon, they stopped and made a small picnic with the food that Kagome brought for them, which she refused to share with Inuyasha, but reluctantly gave in when Miroku told her Inuyasha wouldn't be pleased with her grudge. Kagome handed him the food and then turned back to where she was sitting. Inuyasha looked at the ramen and poked it with his chopsticks. Glancing at Kikyo, who had remained more quiet then usual, he put the cup in her face causing her to blink.
"No thank you Inuyasha," she told him politely. "You eat it."
He only set the cup aside and looked up at the moving clouds, gazing at them as though he was in a trance. After a period of silence, he spoke "Kikyo, I'm sorry."
Kikyo turned her head slightly. "What do you mean? You've done nothing wrong."
"It's just, well; I know that it was wrong of me to ask such a thing of you. Joining the group and all, when I knew that everyone was going to be hard on you and start no sort of friendship with you since they like Kagome. Except Miroku though," he stated glancing at him. "He's been the only one who hasn't been giving us a hard time about this."
"So, you regret ever asking me…?" she asked as she looked up at the sky, her eyes filling with sadness as she spoke these words.
"It's a yes and a no. No, because I really enjoy having you near me and yes because you've been getting hurt these past few days." He looked at her and met her eyes.
Kikyo placed a hand on his arm in reassurance. "Don't worry. In a few days, everything will go back to normal for all of us. It's been nice traveling with you. It didn't really matter to me whether your friends hated me or not. All that mattered was that I would be at your side, even if it was for a short time."
Smiling, he began to stand up and reached his hand out to hers to help her up, both of them oblivious to the glares they were receiving.
They set out once again, continuing the search for Naraku. Kikyo was walking once more by Inuyasha, but instead of the front like usual, they covered the rear. Unfortunately, where they walked mattered little since the others in the front, who were a good ten feet away, still occasionally looked over their shoulders to scowl at them. Kikyo could feel herself becoming a bit frustrated with this, even though she said she didn't care about what they thought, she had to admit to herself that it still hurt a bit that they didn't make any small intention of becoming friends. It didn't even have to be that big of a thing; just a sentence or two would be fine. Frowning slightly, she looked up at the rolling clouds and let her mind wonder about other things. She glanced from Inuyasha then absentmindedly to Kagome and a strange question popped into her head.
Is Inuyasha only using me as a way to make Kagome jealous and have her run to him?
She immediately squashed the idea. Why would he do such a thing? Inuyasha was never one to use women in any sort of way. But, Inuyasha and Kagome have grown close. She could see it plainly before her. Kagome loved him, like he loved her so was there a chance, that they've already proven their love for another? A sudden memory flashed into her mind that took place about two months ago. She was walking by the village she once lived in with her sister and decided to check on Inuyasha to see how he was doing. Of course she would do this every once in a while when she passed by there, to see if things were well and that particular day, she saw something that she didn't expect to see.
Kagome was running up to Inuyasha her arms outstretched and she unexpectedly jumped on him, her arms wrapping close around his neck. Inuyasha wrapped his arms around her waist and held her for a while before releasing her. Kagome beamed happily and her eyes shined with pure delight and warmth, as she grasped his hand into hers, entwining her fingers into his. The next moment she knew approached before she could even blink, she witnessed her reincarnation standing on her tiptoes to place a tender kiss upon Inuyasha's lips.
That sudden memory stung her as much as back then. The hurt seemed unbearable, as she felt like huddling into a corner and crying until she could no longer. The idea that Inuyasha enjoyed that kiss was… pain beyond comprehension. An image that she has not seen played into her mind; Inuyasha was kissing Kagome softly, and lovingly. Their bodies wrapping around the other's in bliss. Kikyo destroyed it before it could continue. The thought of Inuyasha in the arms of another, her reincarnation, was something she hoped she would never witness. She had no idea if she could endure that kind of emotional torment. Gripping her bow tightly, she glanced at Inuyasha who remained quiet the whole time. What could he be thinking? Was he thinking about how he would make up with Kagome after she left them? Or was he just thinking about how much he'll miss her? Was she even on his mind? Was he thinking about his other priorities like finding Naraku? These questions whirled in her mind, swirling and raging in her like a storm until she felt dizzy and felt she would pass out.
"Hey," Inuyasha said, bringing her back to reality. "Are you alright? You looked like you would pass out or something."
She blinked and shook her head. "I'm fine, just thinking."
They became silent once more and felt her flustered mind begin to relax a bit before one final question popped into her head then disappeared.
Does Inuyasha still love me?
A/N: Hi. Thanks to all of you who have read this story and those of you that like it and made it a favorite and stuff. But I have to say, I'm sorry I have to delete it. This one review or rather flame (from che lee) made me see that my story is absolutely pointless and there's really no point in continuing it. I'm gonna delete it. Kidding. Like I said flames are welcome, and I acknowledge them, but I don't care. If they insult the story, don't care; if they insult me, don't care; if they diss and insult Kikyo-sama, I might go into a small argument to defend her. I was disgusted with myself a bit about typing that short memory Kikyo recalled but it was part of the chapter, sorry bout that. Also, this might be a long story. If you guys become impatient, I don't blame you if you stop reading it. Well, I'll start chapter four so yeah, that's it… Sorry, I'm a very 'eh' person.
The A/N was a week or two ago because of technical and personal difficulties. It is now the 22. Sorry but something was wrong with the site or the goddamn laptop and you have no idea how long I sometimes stay on just to try and post it. I sincerely apologize for the delay. Also did you guys read the rest of chapter two? I decided to check out my story and the chapter just ended with Kikyo saying 'yes.' If you didn't it's down here.
Inuyasha can be unpredictable.
Short anyway, I know... Criticize, please.
