I opened my eyes and yawned. Cole was still fast asleep. I got up and put on my t-shirt, walking out of my room. I walked over to Kevin's door and knocked, "You up?" I heard him reply, "Yeah. Why?" He opened the door and followed me to the game room. We weren't going to venture upstairs until mom called. He asked, "What's wrong?" I sighed, "I think she's pulling away from me since the day at the hospital. It's like she is afraid all of the time." Kevin nodded, "She was abused badly Joe. You'll have to understand it's hard for her to mentally recover." I nodded and we turned on the nintento. I smirked, "Dude. We should wake Nick up and have a video game tournament today." Kevin laughed, "Ok. Go wake him up and I'll get your lazy girlfriend up." I replied quickly, "No! Let her sleep. She hasn't been getting any sleep. Last night I woke up and she wasn't there. She was outside because she is afraid to fall asleep." Kevin nodded and I went to go wake up Nick.
About two hours later Nicole finally came out of my room. She walked over and kissed my neck, my cheek, than my lips, "Morning." I smiled, "Morning." She sat down next to me and I wrapped my arm around her. Nick and Kevin were up against eachother right now. I sighed and asked, "You hungry?" She nodded and we looked at the clock. It was only 9. Our mom finally called down the stairs, "Joe, Nicole, Kevin! You awake? Is Nick down there?" We all replied, "Yes!" We walked upstairs and she smiled, "What would you like for breakfast?" Frankie ran into the room, "Waffles!" My dad walked in laughed, "Calm down Frankie." He smiled and took a seat at the kitchen table.
The guys and I were sitting in the living room with pens, paper, and Kevin and Nick's guitars. I was messing with the keyboard and we were trying to write. We haven't really since the whole thing with Nicole happened. Her and my mom decided to go shopping. It was nice that they're bonding. I looked at Kevin, "You ok? You're usually more talkative." He shrugged, "Yeah. Just tired." I nodded and Nick and I looked at eachother funny. Kevin was acting funny. I shrugged it off and stood up. I jumped up and down for a bit, "I got it." I stopped jumping, "Take my hand tonight. We can run so far. We can change the world to anything we want. We can stop for hours just staring at the stars. they shine down to show us." Kevin nodded, "You know when the sun forgets to shine. I'll be ther to hold you through the night and we'll be running so fast we can fly tonight. Adn even when we're miles and miles apart you're still holding all of my heart. I promise it will never be dark. I know, we're inseperable." Nick chimed in, "We could run forever if you wanted to, and I would not get tired becasue I'd be with you. I keep singing this song, until the very end. We have done all these things." I smiled, "I would give it all. Never let you fall. Cause you know, we're inseperable. I would give it all, just to show you I'm in love. Cause you know we're inseperable." The guys and I high fived and decided to make Kevin's part the chorus. I grinned, "This song is good. For Cole..." The guys rolled their eyes but smiled with me.
Cole
I walked into the house and the guys were sitting in the living room still writing. I smiled, "Hey guys." They nodded and I went to put my bags in Joe and I's room. When I came back up Denise was starting lunch. I sighed and sat at the island in the kitchen. She asked, "Are you ok?" I nodded, "I'm just so confused." She nodded, "About what?" I sighed, "Joe...I don't know why he loves me so much." She smiled, "Because you two grew up together. It was like a match made in heaven. God had it planned. You're all he thinks about and talks about. When someone says your name it brings a smile to his face." I looked down, "I don't deserve Joe." She asked, "Why?" I shrugged, "I'm just...look at my parents." Denise sighed, "That doesn't mean a thing sweetie."
It's been a three months and Joe and I are still happy. We're falling further in love. We were leaving on tour in two months. Kevin and I have tried to forget what we had done to Joe. I wasn't feeling too good and Joe went to a party with Nick. Kevin stayed home to have his dad help him with something. It had been two hours and I was missing Joe. I walked over to Kevin's room, "Can you take me to get Joe? He probably isn't ready to come home but he said he would if I needed him...I need him Kev." He nodded and grabbed his keys. We got into the car and Kevin said, "I'm still sorry." I nodded, "I guess I am too." He nodded too and started the car. When we got to the party it was crazy. I was having trouble. I was holding on to Kevin's arm as we made our way through the crowd. I wasn't feeling good and to be honest I wanted to throw up, "Kev! I need to puke." We quickly made our way to the bathroom and I pushed the door open. Joe was sitting on the toilet with a girl sitting in his lap and they were kissing. In his hand was a bottle of Jack. They were unclothed from the waist down and it stung my heart a way I had never felt. I gasped, "Joe...Danger...JJ..." He pushed the girl off of his lap, "Cole. Baby...Oh my god." I turned and ran out of the house. I got into Kevin's car and he got in right after me. I sobbed, "Take me home please." Kevin nodded. As we drove off I could see Joe stumbling out of the house, tears rolling down his cheeks.
Kevin and I got home and I had a text: "It's Joe. I'm sleeping at Matt's. I love you. I'm so sorry. Maybe a night apart will give you room to think. I love you so much. Please forgive me." We walked downstairs and Kevin walked into his room. I walked in after him and he was sitting on his bed. I walked over to him, "Kev..." He looked up and I kissed him. He kissed back than pushed away, "Nicole. Don't do this...you cheated on Joe too." I sighed, "But he fucked her and he doesn't know that." Kevin sighed and I turned, walking out of the room.
I was sitting in pool. My purse was on the lawn chair, my clothes and a towel next to it. I was swimming in my bathing suit. My clothes were out here because I was going to leave. It was midnight and I was going to go over Sj's and see if she had something for me. I heard someone get into the pool, "Cole I'm sorry." I turned to see Kevin walking towards me. I sighed, "What do you want?" He sighed, "I know that you love Joe. It hurts that you're using me to get back at him...if that makes sense. But I know I'll never have you. So I changed my mind." I shrugged and turned back around. He wrapped his arms around me and kissed my neck. Chills ran down my spine. I turned and he kissed me. I put my arms around his neck and kissed back. He pushed me against the wall and kissed my neck, along my jaw, and my lips. I moaned a little and he smiled. I pushed myself onto the ledge, "Come here." I walked over to my purse and grabbed my wallet. I grabbed a condom out of my wallet and tossed it to him." He raised an eyebrow and I seductively undid my top, dropping it onto the pavement. His mouth dropped. I climbed into the pool and took my bottoms off, placing them with my top. He turned and I saw the wrapper drop. He climbed into the pool and pushed me back against the wall. I smirked, "Boxers?" He started sucking on my neck. I pushed him and he took his boxers off, throwing them onto my bikini pile. He pushed his body against mine and I couldn't stop what was going on. My body wanted it. My body needed to feel comfort. I wrapped my legs around his waist and whispered, "You take the lead." He nodded and positioned himself, "You sure?" I asked the same question, "Are you?" I pointed to his ring and he nodded, pushing in.
Kevin and I grabbed everything from outside and ended up inside. I put my stuff in Joe's room and brought my pj's into Kevin's room. He locked his door and we were laying on his bed, still clothless. My head was laying on his chest and he was breathing steadily. He had fallen asleep with me in his arms. I felt tears rolling down my cheeks. I'm a whore! I got up without waking Kevin. I put on my pj's and somehow got boxers on Kevin without him waking up. I walked out of his room, closing his door, and went into the game room. I layed on the couch and closed my eyes.
I could hear yelling, "Joe! I can't believe you didn't come home last night! Were you drinking young man?!" I opened my eyes and sat up. I got up and walked upstairs to see Joe looking horrible, getting yelled at by his parents. Usually I called them mom and dad too. But when Denise asked if I was ok I looked down, "No Mrs. Jonas. I'm not ok. I'm going to call my mom." They all knew that if I called my real mom I wouldn't live here anymore and I would live with her. Which meant no more sleeping over at their house. Denise sighed, "Please don't. Joe not coming home is something stupid." I felt tears, "Should I tell them or will you? You won't? Ok. I saw him making out with another girl!" Joe got up, "I'm sorry! Forgive me! How many times do I have to say it Nicole?!" I turned and walked back downstairs. I could hear his parents yelling at him. When he came down I was sitting on his bed in normal clothes with my bags packed. He had tears in his eyes, "Don't leave me. Please. I need you..." I sobbed, "Joe. I'm so sorry." I walked over to him and held him tight. He hugged me tightly and kissed my forehead, "I love you so much."
Joe
I woke up the next morning and Nicole wasn't in my arms. I sighed and felt tears. I looked at a note on my nightstand and read it, "Joe. I'm so sorry. But I cheated on you because I was so hurt. But I used someone who you will never forgive and it's all my fault. I made out with Kevin, Joe. I am SO sorry. Please find it in your heart to forgive me and if you can find it in your heart I'll come back. Until that day, I'm taking myself out of your life for good. God I hate myself. I'm so sorry Joe. I'm so sorry. Love, Nicole." I sobbed. I would forgive her. It would take time to trust her. But I would forgive her. I grabbed a pen and paper and began to write. I titled the song, 'Still In Love With You.'
I had continuously called her for the past three days and she hasn't returned my calls. Kevin sighed, "She told you?" I nodded, "Yeah. You to made out." He sighed, "Joe...we...she took my...I'm sorry." My heart broke. A girl answered, "Hello? Who is this?" I hung up and threw my phone, "I hate you! Don't ever fucking talk to me!" I stormed out of the basement and out of the house. I didn't know what to do. Nicole had sex with Kevin. But I had sex with that girl. Technically that made us even. But I did it with someone she didn't even know. She took my older brother's virginity! I groaned as I made my way to the park. I sat on the swingset and it began to storm. I sobbed. I hated eveything right now. A car pulled up ten minutes later and Nick got out with bloodshot eyes, "We're losing her Joe! She's dying!" My heart broke more than it was. My body was numb. I followed Nick to the car and my parents took us all to the hospital. It was explained to me that Cole's mom called saying that she tried to kill herself and slit her wrists badly. This was my fault.
I was sitting in the waiting room with Ms. Barton, Kevin, Nick, Frankie, and my parents. I was numb. I couldn't hear anything and I couldn't imagine life without her. The doctor came out and sighed, "Ms. Barton...we're having difficulties stabilizing your daughter. She seems to have completely given up on life. She is stabile right now. One person can go see her." She looked at me, "Joe. You can go sweetie. I know you love her. Don't ask..." I got up and walked to her room. Her lips looked blue and she looked so pale. I sighed and sat next to her bed, grabbing her hand. She was so cold. I was still crying, "Why baby? Please wake up." Her eyes fluttered open and her voice was hoarse, "Danger..." I gasped, "Yes Precious?" She had tears rolling down her cheeks, "I'm so sorry. I love you so much." I sobbed, "I love you too. Please don't leave me." She nodded, "I swear I'll try. Please take me back. I want you. I wanna marry you and have kids and grow old with you..." I nodded, "I will baby. I can't trust you and I know you feel the same. But I love you too so much. God. Don't leave me Nicole." She coughed and I could see large bandaging on her arms, from her wrist to below the elbow area. I cried harder and noticed blood coming through her blue gown. I asked, "Why is blood on your chest?" She lifted her gown and the gauze to reveal stiches in the shape of a big x over her hear, "I tried to cut it out." She put everything back and I got up and kissed her.
Nicole had been moved to Shepphed Pratt Mental Institue for a while. As long as her mental conditions improved she could be released, still being medicated for depression though. I sighed as I got out of Kevin's car. It's been a month and we started to talk. Kevin rolled down the window, "Call when you want me to come get you." I nodded and ran a hand through my hair, clinging the roses I got her with the other hand. I walked through the multiple gates and check points until I reached her room. I knocked on the door and she sighed, "Come in." I walked in and closed the door, "Hi baby." She looked pale still and her lips had a light blue tint. She nodded, "Hi baby." I walked over and put the flowers in the empty vase before giving her a kiss. She was laying in bed watching tv. The windows had bars and everything in here was suicidal proof. There wasn't any sharp objects. The vase was even plastic. I sighed and crawled into the bed with her, "I love you." She smiled weakly, "I love you too." She layed her head on my chest, "I hate it here." I felt sad, "You tried to kill yourself over me..." She looked into my eyes, "I know you were done with me. I knew Kevin would tell you." I nodded and kissed her forehead, wrapping my arms around her.
