– AARON & JACKSON –
– BORN AGAIN–
"From The Heart"
This fanfic continues the next day on from Guilty
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Jackson walked back into Aaron's room with a coffee and sat beside him again. "You know...I haven't been here long but I think that coffee machines gunna get a lot of my money so to save me from debt how about you wake up eh?" he asked as he looked intently at him. Jackson sighed. "Later then" he said as he still watched his boyfriend and smiled.
Jackson took a sip of his coffee and placed it down beside him then watched Aaron some more and went into deep thought for several minutes, with only the machines for noise in the room.
Ten minutes had passed and Jackson came out of his daze and looked down at his hands and slowly rubbed them together and he frowned as he struggled with his thoughts. "You scare me Aaron" he said quietly. "I don't know what kind of mood I'm gunna get when I see you, or how you'll react when I say something you might not like to hear, I'm sick of it I just want you to relax a bit. It's like you've got this huge chip on your shoulder, I know Mickey did wrong by setting his dog on Clyde he did; it was horrible and I was there trying to pick up the pieces but you push away people that matter, like me. I moved out cause of it all Aaron you focus on what really doesn't matter rather than the things that do" Jackson reached for Aaron's hand and held it – it was warm and soft.
Jackson smirked. "You always got tetchy when I teased that you moisturised and all you said was it must be the engine oil and pull that scowl that you do...quite often I might add" he scoffed and smirked. "But nah...they're really soft...you so do moisturise...can you tell I'm loving this right now? Yeah I 'am cause you can't argue back...wow...never thought that'd happen...but then again I never thought I'd see you lying like this in hospital cut and bruised and in a coma..." he sighed and looked around the room, fighting back his tears, he didn't want to cry. "A coma..." he mumbled in disbelief and he shook his head slightly.
"I shouldn't have left you the other night, I should have been more patient with you and made you see sense, things could have been a whole lot different if you'd have just listened to me...but" he frowned again as he attempted to figure out his words. "But I guess that's why I love you...for you, your attitude, your stubbornness and moods despite how trying they can be I really do love you and I know you haven't said it back but maybe we can have a talk when you get out and your all better again, I'm not gunna push you into saying it but it would be nice to hear someday" Jackson smiled at the thought of Aaron saying he loved him back.
"I know you're only eighteen and I know how it feels to come out, it feels like a weight has been lifted from you but at the same time there's a fear inside constantly and you feel on edge about stuff and you don't know what to do with it or what it is for that matter but it'll always be there and you just have to get on with it, every gay person sits and thinks and has their moments I know I do but I know who I' am and I'm fine with him and you're getting there, yeah you're still a bit uncomfortable at times but you can be entirely comfortable with me, I've seen it when we're alone when we're in bed, you can do it all the time, if people don't like it they can in your words do one or jog on..." Jackson smirked. "What I would give for you to say either of those to me right now"
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"Do you remember the first time we kissed outside bar west?" Jackson smiled. "You didn't know what to do but the look on your face when I pulled away it was so adorable it was like a light had been switched on and that little smirk you had on your face...ahh I could love you forever Aaron...and I want too, I want that so much so you have to wake up soon...and then our first time...you were getting yourself in a flap about everything because I was experienced with men and you weren't but eventually..." Jackson smiled as he remembered their first night. "It was amazing...I never told you this but it was my best, you're the best..." Jackson began to chuckle slightly. "You really are" he then began nodding quickly as he crumbled into pieces again and put his head in his hands as he sobbed.
A few minutes later he calmed himself and wiped his eyes. "I meant what I said the other night, you are my boyfriend, what I said outside after that I want you to ignore because we are nowhere near done, in face we're just beginning." Jackson stood up. "I won't be long...don't go anywhere...waking ups ok though you can do that" he told him as he walked to the door.
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Jackson walked back to Aaron's room after visiting the toilet and panicked when a nurse was inside tending to Aaron, he frowned. "What's the matter? What's happened?"
"No need to panic it seems your boyfriend can breathe by himself now" she smiled. "I came in to do my checks and the ventilator stopped, I've removed the mouth pieces." She told him.
"What does it mean?" he asked.
"That he's close to waking up soon hopefully but it still maybe some time, other cases it's quick, just depends on the patient, but he's a fighter, I'd be proud" she told him as she walked to him and left by the door.
Jackson smiled, he knew he should have immediately left to call Chas but he didn't want to leave and risk missing him wake up; instead he took out his mobile and sent a text, ignoring the 'turn mobile devices off' signs.
Moments later Jackson was shocked as Chas walked in. "That was quick" he commented.
"Yeah I was in the canteen...stayed and sat a while just thinking"
"Ahh I didn't know, glad you're here now though" he told her with a smile.
"So my boys breathing on his own eh?" she said with a smile as she leaned over and looked at his face and ran the back of her hand over his cheek gently.
Jackson smiled as Chas took the chair on the opposite side. "You been talking to him?" she asked.
Jackson chuckled. "None stop for about an hour"
"What did you boys talk about then?" she was genuinely interested, she may not have showed it in the past but she was happy for them.
"Oh you know this and that..."
"This and that makes you cry does it?" she gave him a look and then turned back to Aaron. "You're eyes are a bit red, dead giveaway"
"I had a lot to say...even if he didn't hear me...I got it out...and I'll keep the important bits and repeat them when he's better" he smiled.
"Good" Chas nodded and looked back at Jackson. "I'm glad you did that Jackson"
Jackson smiled and nodded to her.
Chas' eyes widened. "Jackson! Did you see that?" she asked quickly.
He then looked at Aaron quickly then back at her. "What?"
"His eyes flickered"
Jackson stood up and leaned over him. "Aaron? Aaron come on mate wake up"
Aaron's eyes flickered again, more this time. "Did you see it?" Chas asked again.
"Course I saw it I'm looking right at him" he told her with a laugh, he was so happy. "Come on mate it's Jackson, open your eyes...I know it's hard you've been asleep a while" he comforted him as he rubbed the back of his head gently.
Aaron frowned and groaned slightly then his eyes slowly opened, he didn't register the two people beside him, he just looked straight ahead until he'd adjusted slightly, although still dazed. He turned to Jackson then quickly shot his head back deep into the pillow.
Jackson frowned and looked at Chas.
"It's alright Aaron; you had an accident...just take it easy" Jackson told him.
Aaron's frown deepened and he struggled to speak but he swallowed a few times and then the words came, although slurred and stuttered. "I-I-I don't know who you are...either of you"
Chas moved closer while Jackson stepped back, his mouth open in dismay; shock was not the word, he felt the tears burn his eyes as they resurfaced.
I'm never gunna hear it back that was Jackson's first thought. Aaron didn't know who either of them were.
"It's alright love it's Chas you're mum...come on you've gotta remember me?" she spoke while trying to hold it together.
Aaron shook his head. "No, No..." he became quite agitated. "Get away I don't know who you are!"
Chas stepped away to give him space. It had begun.
Why couldn't they be one of the lucky ones?
She wiped her eyes quickly. "Jackson go and get the doctor..."
TBC...
