Chapter 3: Shock Under The Deep Caring Behavior


The next day, I asked Shinichi's phone number. He gave me and I greet him, "Konnichiwa." He replied, "Konnichiwa mo..." It was just a test actually, we never continued that short message that day, and keep mentioning on Tuiter. It's the day where I miraculously lent him my favorite manga. It's not like I could refuse his cute face telling me, "Please, please... let me borrow it. I can't concentrate reading it at school, so many disturbance." so I DID say yes, but I have and angst for the whole day until tomorrow where he give the book back. He give the book back just like that, no long talk like always, nothing. I figured he must've lost his interest in me. But this time I was wrong.

The next week, it was ceremony. I lined up in the 1st place in front, while Shinichi's class is next to me, and Shinichi's lined up in the 2nd place in front. Yet, he's near me! To be honest, I'm more nervous to be watched by someone behind me (Shinichi what I meant) rather than the teachers in front of me. Somehow... I realized sometimes, he was actually stealing some view to my face, right after I stealing his. And no, stealing in this matter is not a crime. When I was scolded by my friend, Shinichi is defending me by telling my friend "Let her be." it was kinda cool. And today was the day where students that didn't come to the student council's practice (The thing I let myself holiday before) getting some detention. When the teacher mentioned the names, my name was mentioned too. And Shinichi was like, "What did you do?" It seems he forgot that I let myself holiday when the student council's practice day come. He's so care about me that he even asked about it, I'm glad. After the ceremony is over, he secretly near to me and said, "Be careful Haika." He told me to be careful of the teacher's detention, it usually are deadly. He called me Haika, it was my pen name on Tuiter, that's why he sometimes called me so. He so care about me that much? I don't understand why...

When the certain lesson came, and we were in the same class, he realized that my uniform's logo is not Teitan's, it's my old Junior Highschool's logo. He realized it by calling my name and pointed at the logo, I only can smile and said "I haven't bought the Teitan's logo yet." Because I planned not to buy the Teitan's uniform, instead buy its logo and stick it to my old uniform's logo. And there we have it, just small difference, so why bother spend more money? But it's not what I want to tell about, I want to tell about love not money.

On the same day, I somewhat can't focus on every lessons taught by the teachers. Keep day dreaming about him thinking so high and getting crushed when it actually didn't happen, is what my brain love to do. I can't help it, and also wonder whatever was scribbled on the white board. Every time I spaced out, I found myself staring at the white board, have no idea whatever the teacher's saying. Due of that, I tried to not be obsessive to Shinichi. I tried to not meet him. But it always failed, because he always makes his appearance in surprise. If I have detected his appearance first, I'm saved. But if I didn't and I don't know where he is, I always ended up looked at each other's eyes with him. And therefore, he started to call my name and getting nearer to me.

In this case, I got out from my class to avoid him, because he usually comes to my class. And once I have ensured he's there, I quickly asked friends to go somewhere, anywhere, except my class, because I'm bored. And so, my friend ask to accompany her to the canteen. At that day, I was wearing a hood, and long sleeves, when I usually didn't. Other students some are wearing hood and long sleeves too, so it's kinda hard to detect each other identity from the back. At the canteen, I found Shinichi's friends there. There are two of them, chatting and waiting in the line for food. While my friend and I go for the other stall.

The next time I realized Shinichi's actually at the canteen too beside both his friends. I see his back, he's chatting with both of his friends. When I know, I took a wall to hide and told my friend "You-Know-Who is in the canteen! Let's just go after we done and don't look back or go back a single degree ok? Because he might notice it's me or something..." When my friend's done, and we're walking to the canteen exit, at that time, I pretend not to know Shinichi's behind me in the canteen about 3 meters or so. I just keep walking forward and then... "Minori!" I know DAMN well about that voice. The voice which makes my heartmelt, and therefore it's freezing because he called my name, with some kind of relaxing tune.

I have no choice but to look back and search the source of the voice, I was right, Shinichi called me. He was asking me if I brought my cellular phone or not, because he wants to have Bluetooth with me, about some songs. And that was it, after that, I run away with my friend. What I was so happy about and I told my friends over and over is... "What the hell... He's a different guy in my life, he cares about me and YET he can detect me from behind even if I wear hood and long sleeve which is hard to detect the person's identity. Even my old friends which are boys, they will act like they don't see me, or don't know me. But this guy, Shinichi... is a different person."

But then that day... I stalk his statuses. Found out he's interested in some girls. Saying beautiful, cute and all. If I'm still normal, of course jealousy come along. Because he never said that to me. But I think he's saying that because he's seducing those girl like playing them, not exactly serious, so I let it slide. BUT again, that day I found out... he have someone he loves. The name's Ran Mouri. She's away from Teitan now, so they're not close anymore, but still contact each other. Somewhat like romance their statuses were. I only can stare, stalk, and shock. It's really heartbreaking to know that...

Is there any hope for me? Any at all?

To be continued...