Shadows - 3
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Being in the round room talking with Elaine and some of the other girls, the night before had become a bad dream … but going back to the small dark room all the feelings came back to me and I wanted to cry again.
"Take off your clothes…" the big-headed man ordered and I obeyed with shaking hands. "Come on!" he yelled and grabbing my dress he tore it up to take it off faster.
He pushed me onto the bed and got undressed. I didn't want to see him… He climbed on top of me and forced himself into me roughly, hurting me inside because I was not ready yet and I felt like if he was tearing me up like he did with the dress. I yelled and fought and he gagged me with his large hand almost suffocating me… I wanted to die; I wanted to disappear, to be anywhere else but there…
All of a sudden, I did found myself somewhere else… I was in a small garden and a little boy was on a swing on his own, he didn't know how to make it swing so he got upset, I could feel his anger growing up, at some point, the swing began to move on its own faster and faster until the kid relaxed. Suddenly the scene disappeared and I found myself in a large room with a tall figure standing at the end… "My Lord, since we are clearly winning this war, I thought maybe we could reward the men somehow… if you make them happy, they'll be pleased to keep fighting for the cause…" it was the voice of the big-headed man talking.
"What do you have in mind?" He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named asked.
"I was thinking on giving them permission for a night downtown… You know what I mean… to hire some whores…"
"Of course… but it's dangerous, I wouldn't like a bunch of sluts to discover my Death Eaters real identities…"
"I understand, my Lord, I'll tell them to stay home…"
"Cormack,"
"Yes, my Lord?"
"Tell them they can have as fun as they need as long as the whores never see the sunlight again… They are free to use the dungeons."
"Oh, yes My Lord, thank you, My Lord…"
As his voice became a far whisper, a loudly groan took me back to the smelly bed on the dark little room under the legs of the big-headed man. He had come inside of me… for a moment I felt stupid because the tall man of the night before had done it too…
When he was gone, I didn't cry this time. I got dressed and left the room. I looked for Orna's door and knocked.
"What's the matter, kid?" she asked after I came in. She was sitting on her bed, completely naked, smoking an almost finished cigar. Her room was crowded with a lot of things: sheets, pillows, clothes, shoes, books, cigar boxes… I ignored all that and went directly to the reason that brought me there at that time.
"I don't want to get pregnant," I said simply and directly.
"I knew you weren't a prostitute… I couldn't see it in your eyes." She said, "Sit down, kid."
"I…"
"No, don't tell me anything. You don't want me or anyone in here to know who you are, who you were or how you have ended up in here. It's better this way…"
"Thanks," I said confused while she knelt down to pick something from under her bed. I was uncomfortable with her nudity but I tried to hide it.
"There it is," she said standing up with a vial on her hand, "It's a strong potion, but it's good… drink it at once. If you are already pregnant, you'll miscarry in a few hours and then you'll feel bad… if not, you'll feel nothing, maybe a little dizzy until your body gets used to it… You have to take one vial every two weeks, so count well the days, alright?"
"Thank you," I said, "really…"
"Well, I can't promise I'll have another one in two weeks… but… don't worry about it too much, ok?" she smiled, and somehow I felt better. I stood up to leave and she stopped me before I crossed the door… she had her cigar back on her mouth. "Were you a virgin?"
"No… but I had only been with one man until last night…" I confessed feeling the tears coming to my eyes…
I didn't want to go back into the small dark room so I went to the rest room and sat at the edge of the small swimming pool with my feet into the cold water. I took the vial thinking on Alastor and how I would tell him everything if we could ever see each other again… What if he rejected me after learning what I'd done?
I sunk myself into the water and tried to keep my breath… after a couple of failed tries I just swim enjoying that peace. Then, I don't know how, a memory I couldn't recall came to my mind… it was about a boy and a swing… I then remembered I had seen that while I was with the big-headed man… there had been another scene after that, though… they both looked so real they couldn't be just a dream… Oh Merlin! I realized. But… could it be possible? Could it be possible that I had used legilimency on that man while…?! It hadn't been voluntary… I hadn't casted the spell, I had just wished to leave my body… and I had done it. I guessed that he was so concentrated on his physical performance that he had forgotten to protect his thoughts… but, once again, who would worry about a simple whore? He hadn't even realized I had seen his memories…
I wondered if it would be just that once or if I could be able to do it again… If that would be the case, imagine all the secret I could discover about the Dark Forces…
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TO BE CONTINUED…
