Warnings: Feelings...

Disclaimer: I do not have any kind of ownership on Kingdom Hearts or any of it's characters.


Roxas P.O.V.

Finally! Is all I can think as I step out of the Destiny Islands Airport and, I'm not exaggerating, my ass hurts like a bitch for sitting for so long in those damn seats.

We have already grabbed our bags and are waiting for Cloud's lover to pick us up. I've met him once when I was younger, but I can't really remember his face.

I'm looking around, searching for someone or something that seemed familiar, when I notice the black Lamborghini pulling up not far from where we are. Cloud notices it too and starts heading towards it smiling softly. His smile soon turns into a full blossomed one when a long silver haired man comes out of the car. He has green cat like eyes and is very tall, like freaking tall, about 6'5. He is quite hot by the way.

"Well Roxas, I don't know if you remember Seph, so I'll just introduce him. Roxas this is Sephiroth, my lover. Sephiroth, this is Roxas."

"Pleasure to see you again, Roxas."

"Pleasure," I say emotionlessly, before turning back to help Ven with the bags. There aren't that many but they are pretty heavy, and he is trying to grab one particularly heavy but failing miserably.

"Here, let me help you," I grab the bag and take it from his hands.

"Thanks, Rox," he says happily before grabbing another bag and taking it to the car.

"Everything ready?" Sephiroth asks, from the front. We nod in response before getting in the car so we can leave.

"We're here boys. Grab your things." Cloud says, breaking the silence that had been going during all the car drive, as he exits the car. I see him entering a house— wow, okay, more like a mansion, the place is massive. I have been so distracted that I haven't even realized that we have entered through a giant metal gate. The mansion is surrounded by a beautiful garden with flowers of different kinds and there is a sakura tree too, I can see a pool on the side of the mansion and a hot tub. It looks amazing.

Soon after, a silver haired boy comes out. He has shoulder length silver hair and green bluish eyes. He kinda looks like a miniature version of Sephiroth, to tell the truth.

"Hi Riku!" my brother calls cheerfully to the other boy.

"Hey, Ven. So, this is your brother," he isn't asking but Ven still answers.

"Yes! Riku, this is Roxas, my little twin brother."

"Only by 3 minutes…" I mumble loud enough for him to hear me, but he just ignores it.

"Roxas, this is Riku, Sephiroth's son."

"Hi Roxas," he smiles.

"Hey," I say before turning to grab a bag.

"Geez, he may be your twin, but your personalities are the complete opposite."

"Don't worry it will get better as you get to know him," he laughs before also grabbing a bag and passing another one to Riku.

"Okay, these way guys," he says before leading us inside. "Ven you'll be staying in the same room you always stay in when you come over, and Roxas you'll stay in the room across from his."

He opens a door and motions me inside. The room is bright and simple. It has a lot of white on the walls, which is the only thing I don't really like about the room. There is a plasma TV right in front of a king sized bed, a desk in the right corner of the room, a connected bathroom and a walk-in wardrobe… Okay, maybe not so simple.

"Cloud said if you don't like something we could change it."

"There's no need for it." I say not wanting to trouble anyone. I'll just cover the walls with my posters.

He shrugs and exits the room followed by my brother. I leave my bags and go after them to what seems to be my brothers' room, right across the hall.

It's bright, but not as much as mine. It has a few posters on the walls and some photos. There is a stereo on a secretary, a few games and books (mostly games) are stocked on a shelf and a video game console connected to a TV on a tiny table to the left. There is also a connected bathroom and a walk-in wardrobe like in mine.

He puts down his things and grabs my arm before taking off to some room that if I remember correctly is Rikus'. He is about to grab the doorknob when Riku appears out of nowhere and stops him.

"What are you doing Ventus?" he asks smiling sweetly.

"I'm going to show Rox your room, why?"

"Why don't you show it later?"

"Why can't I show it now?"

"Because… we should go help Seph and Cloud downstairs with whatever they want."

"They'll call if they need something thought."

"…Please, just please… don't go inside…" he pleaded.

"Why? Do you have a girl in there?"

"Ven. You know I don't swing that way," he says before looking at me.

I stare at him dumb founded until he blushes and I realize what he means.

"You don't have to worry about that. I don't swing that way either," I say calmly.

He nods and turns back to Ven who is frowning at him.

"Why can't we go inside?" he whines.

There is a moment of silence before he finally says something.

"You would probably die if you did…"

Ven looks at him like he is crazy.

"Does it smell that bad?" I ask jokingly. He blushes hard and turns around to hide his face from us, and mine and Ven's eyes widen in realization.

"You… haven't cleaned your room once since we left, have you?" Ven asks with a face of disgust directed to the still closed door.

"…no…" he answers quietly.

Ven is glaring at him ready to say something but is interrupted by my laugh. I can't help but laugh, their display is just funny for some reason. (And I though the room smelt bad for other reasons… if you get what I mean…)

"I'm happy to see you find this, oh so funny Rox."

I stop laughing after a while, and with a smile still in my lips, I start heading downstairs.

"I'm going to see if they need help with anything. Why don't you try and clean the room?"

"You're going to leave me alone with your brother?" I look at him and give him a devious smirk before turning around, smile gone, and jump down the last few stairs.

I enter the kitchen where Cloud is. "Do you need help with anything?"

Cloud jumps a bit before turning around and smiling at me. "I don't think so. You can go get things settled in your room for now. I'll call you if I need anything."

"Okay," I say before starting to exit the room. I don't go far thought, before Cloud talks again.

"Hey, you alright?"

"Yes, why?" I ask cautiously.

After a pause he finally speaks. "Just wondering. You've been through a lot after all."

"Don't worry, I'm fine," I fake a smile and turn around while he says something I don't quite hear.

I go upstairs straight to what will be from now on, my bedroom, and start unpacking and putting away.

It takes me a while but after only thirty minutes I'm done, and the room actually looks like someone lives there now.

I'm lying in my bed when a knock comes from the door.

"Come in."

After the door opens Ven and Riku came up to me and sit down on the bed at my side.

"Did you finish cleaning Rikus' room?"

"It took us about one hour but yeah. We finally cleaned that mess of a room." He pauses for a moment before speaking again. "So, whatcha doin?"

I shrug, "Nothing."

"Well that's no good, so how about we play some games? And Riku could invite his boyfriend to come over." He grins while Riku blushed and mumbles something between the lines 'He's not my boyfriend.'

I look at him for a moment before getting up from my bed. "Sure."

I go through my games until I find what I want.

"I'm gonna call Sora. He shouldn't take long to get here."

Ventus and I start playing Super Mario Party 9. We choose one of the six characters, and as we go around collecting coins and various other items that can help us or hinder others in their quest to collect Stars, while Riku talks to his friend, which takes about twenty minutes actually.

When he comes into the room a brunette boy about my height follows him inside. He has bright blue eyes a lot like ours, just a shade darker, and grin in place.

"Hi! My names Sora. You must be Roxas, right?" He asks happily shaking my hand like crazy.

"…Yeah…" I'm staring at him like he's crazy. Did someone give sugar to this kid?

"It's a pleasure to finally meet you! I'm Ven's friend, and of course Riku's best friend." He sure is one happy-go-lucky guy.

"Pleasure…" I'm completely stunned, this guy is even worse than Ventus.

"Weren't we supposed to be playing games?" Ven suddenly asks. We all sit on my bed and play until Cloud comes into my room saying dinner is ready. So we stop and go to feast on some homemade pizza. It's freaking yummy. Then Riku has to escort Sora back, and Ven and me are left alone in our respective bedrooms.

It's the first time I'm actually alone since I left the hospital, and I finally have time to think about what happened. My mind is still trying to process everything; I still haven't accepted the fact that, indeed, my mother is dead. That she will never give me goodnight kisses, or ask me how my day was. I lost one of the most important persons in my life, and I can't help but feel like it's my fault. Like if only I had been stronger she would still be alive. If only I had called the ambulance sooner she could have been saved.

I feel so worthless… like I shouldn't have survived. She didn't survive, so why me?

I can feel the tears star falling, and a dark feeling growing in my chest, dragging me towards a hell inside myself. There is a voice in my head repeating what I've though before. That I am a worthless person that shouldn't exist.

I lay in my bed for what seems like hours thinking about everything bad I told her when she was alive, everything I've fucked up. I curl in a ball and try to hold the tears inside, I grab my mp3 and put "Can you feel my heart" by BMTH.

And I'm finally able to fall asleep.


Snow: Nope I have not given up on this story, just had a lot of sh*t to do. Sorry about that, I'll try to keep a deadline from now on. TRY. As an apology, have some Riku.

Riku: Please, forgive this poor excuse of a person for being lazy and not being able to deal with her life like a normal person. -.-

Snow: That hurt my feelings Riku. (T^T)

Riku: Like I care. *sigh* Anyways leave a review if you would like and fav/follow if you feel like it.