Okay sorry I haven't updated since earlier today I fell asleep and had a bit of writers block tying to think if I should make L more curious about Light, and what i should do next.

Thank you my three reviewers. XD you make me very happy. And I'll try to work on my spelling . . . I do have spell check but I guess it doesn't work for me all the time. I'll try to do better on that. If I mess up horribly please tell me I really do care and I would like to fix it. (( the people who proof read it for me just say it's fine . . I think they're lying and they just skim it but I can't complain)) Oh yeah and sorry that sometimes I forget to capitalize I'm really bad at that.

Oh yeah and before I forget, I might slip up and make it to past tense but I'll try to keep it in present. Oh and sorry if I don't get the charters right I try, sorry.

umm . . . I guess thats all I have to say besides that I own nothing of death note . . . right, I should get on with it huh? well anyways thanks for reading up to this part. I'm glad that so many people have visited this story so thanks.



The noise from the storm outside seemed to wake me up. The air around me seemed cold from the chilled winter outside. IT is still dark and the lights are still on. The computer was beeping from the owners neglect as if mad at Ryuzaki for falling asleep. The room itself was clean, besides the objects that I had knocked over trying to stop Ryuzaki. It really didn't matter anymore, sometimes I wonder why I still even fight. I sigh and start to clean up the room.

It's raining out side so I open the window, I wanted to feel the cold air, maybe it would make me feel alive again. The city seems dead which is strange I vaguely wonder what time it is. I looked at the window's refection of myself. I know I should eat more and my eyes have those dark circles under them still, as if the few hours of sleep I have mean nothing.

The rain is starting to hit me. It feels nice but I know I'll get sick if I set here with the rain hitting me, but it seem to keep me awake and sane.

Ryuzaki moves a bit and my mask slips a little, I don't know why I fear him, I know he would never hurt me in the morning. But my mask still slips and I can't hide the fear. He sets up and rubs his head then he looks at me with those darn black eyes of his. My eyes widen when I look back at him and I try to look away to regain some composure.

"Light-kun what's the matter?" He asked seeing my mask slip.

I try to act as if nothing was wrong and flash him a fake smile. "Nothing Ryuzaki I just wanted some fresh air"

"Light-kun you're getting wet." He pointed at the open window. I look at him confused, 'what does he mean?' I stare at him until he gets up. My eyes widen again 'why is he getting so close is he still drunk?' he walks past me and closes the window. 'Oh right the rain.'

"Light-kun you've been acting strangely for the past few weeks and I think you need time to relax. I am not going to stop the Kira investigation, but you do need some rest, with the way you have been acting lately your not that much help anyways." I just nod my mind doesn't seem to work at the moment. He looks at me, and his eyes for once widen with fear, or is it concern both maybe. I'm not sure which but he looks scared.

"Light-kun I just said you are no help to the Kira case. Are you not angry?" I blink a few times as if trying to register what he's saying. 'Why can't I think today?' 'Am I angry?' 'Why would I be angry' I'm confused and I can't seem to get things sorted out. This is frustrating.

"Is this a trick Light-kun? Are you trying to fool me. Make me think that you are getting sick so the Kira investigation will be halted. That would raise Light's chances of being Kira by 12%" 'Did he just call me Kira?' I stood there for a moment trying to understand what he was talking about.

"Ryuzaki, I am not Kira" I think that is what he was hinting at but I'm not entirely sure. He sighs in relief. At least I got something right. "Come Light-kun lets get cleaned up and go get some breakfast." I blink a few more times and nod. He looks at me again and his eyes hold that worried look in them. I hate to make him worry, but for some reason I can't think straight.

After I finish taking a shower we go down to eat. We sat down at a table and Watari comes in with a strawberry cake for Ryuzaki and a full breakfast for me. We thank Watari and he walks away with a nod. I look at the food for a while. I know I should eat and I am hungry. But looking at food is making me a bit sick. It's eggs with side dishes. I stir around the egg, I really rather not eat.

When I look up I notice Ryuzaki is staring at me. I wonder how long he has been doing that. "Light-kun is thin." he says I'm not quite sure what he is talking about. But I look down at myself he's right and I have noticed that my clothes are starting to hang loosely on me. I noticed it this morning.

"You're point Ryuzaki?" I tried to sound like my normal self and he smiled. He hasn't done that in a while. "Well Light-kun I just think you should eat more" I keep telling myself to sound normal, and I fight with him a lot normally, so a fight might be good for us. After all I don't hurt that much at the moment.

I put down my eating utensil and smile at him "I can eat how ever much I please Ryuzaki" My voice is starting to crack damn it. He started to smile but the crack bothered him. I sigh "You're right Ryuzaki"

"So Light-kun is sick?"

"I'm not sick just tired" I hate that word 'sick' it applies to those who are weak and those who can't take care of themselves. No I am not sick just, just tired. He shakes his head and looks at me worriedly. "Light-kun there is something wrong and you have said nothing for far to long. I am the world's greatest detective do not think you can hide it from me forever."

'L I will hide it from you until I die, I will not ruin my best friends life and you can't get me to.' I think that myself tempted to say it out loud. "There is nothing that I am hiding Ryuzaki" He shakes his head and continues to eat his cake.

We go down to see the task force already in their chairs. My father look at me, I flash him a smile, but it doesn't work. He gives me the same worried look as Ryuzaki, what is it with every one and that look. I mean I know my eyes have circles and I lost a little weight, but this is going to far. There is really nothing wrong with me.

"Son are you feeling alright?" He was staring at me they all were.

I start to say 'I'm fi-' but Ryuzaki cuts me off, some times I hate that man.

"I believe there is a 64% chance that Light-kun is sick" There is that word again.

'Wait a 64% chance that seems a bit high doesn't it?' "I am fine!" I say with my voice sounding well for once, thank the gods.

"I do not believe so Light-kun but since there is a 36% chance that you are not sick I will let you work." I feel as through I should respond to that but I just give him a angry look and start to work.

Around 11 a.m, I fall asleep. I didn't mean to yet again my eyes just got too heavy. I guess 3 hours of worried sleep isn't enough. I woke up an hour later to someone shaking me, a while ago I fell asleep when Ryuzaki was drunk. He ended up kicking so hard I know it fractured my ribs. So of course I jump out of my chair and yelled "Please Ryuzaki No!"

I looked like a frightened deer and everyone just looked at me with wide eyes. I looked at Ryuzaki, I had to think of a reason why I yelled, but nothing seem to made a good reason. I laughed and smiled "Sorry just a night mare I guess I just fell asleep."

Even Matsuda had the worried look. But Ryuzaki took the truth with some suspicion. He looked at me and said, "We were all going for lunch, but I think it's better if you stay here and get some rest." everyone nodded in agreement.

"Yeah I suppose that's a good ideal." I got up and Ryuzaki followed me before saying that the team should just leave for today.

I fell asleep once more and woke up when Ryuzaki was drunk, he looked at me. He was on his computer, the workaholic. "Light-kun! Matsuda is Kira!! He's secretly a super genius it makes perfect sense, you see he just acts likes complete moron. But he's not, he's been out in the open and Kira hasn't killed him yet, Kira knows who he's i mean its pretty obvious a six year old could figure it out he's a cop, you see that's why he is with Misa so much! She was the second Kira and Matsuda took advantage of her, I have solved the case, now bring me my cake."

I looked at him for a moment then sighed "We are out of cake Ryuzaki why don't you get some sleep." At least I slept. I felt a lot better my head wasn't pounding and I could think clearly. It still hurt to breath, but a least he shouldn't attack tonight.

"Light-kun now we must fine out why you are acting so strangely."

"I don't know what you're talking about Ryuzaki?" L got up, maybe I'm wrong maybe this is the lust Ryuzaki. I back up and cover my face. L grabs my wrist I do not cry out, nor do i really ever, but I close my eyes tightly. I hated the lust Ryuzaki.

"You see what I mean if I did that a few months ago you would have punched me but now you just look like a wounded deer, and your breathing is not normal it is shallow and you have an elevated respiratory rate. I think there maybe something wrong with your ribs."

He grabbed me and lifted up my shirt I stood there frozen.


Thanks I'm sorry that I left you at a cliff hanger but I'll update tomorrow. . . well later today . . . umm lets see if it's 12:09 here so I mean later today but not tonight . . . well maybe tonight if I can't sleep anyways I'm sorry that i messed up somewhere in the story no one caught it ((I know I messed up I just don't know where anyways sorry and thanks for reading.))