A/N: This is kind of a long and stupid chapter. It is a little convoluted, and could be better but I had to get it down. I swear I am not really this incompetent. I came into this without a plan. I have to go back to outlining things LOL. Anyway. The title of the story tells you a lot about what the story is about. this however goes further into that.

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"Good night," Max said walking to her room after kissing her girlfriend goodnight.

"Maxy…" Caroline whined, "We have been on like twenty dates."

"Coming home dead tired every night after work and making out is not a date." Max said. "We haven't ever had a date."

"Tomorrow is your day off, and I get off early…" Caroline said coming to her running her hands from Max's shoulders to her hands. "Maybe you and I can do something after."

Max tilted her head back so that she could look at Caroline's eyes. "Okay, how are we going to pay for that?"

"I didn't say it had to be expensive, Tomorrow is Tuesday, it's free museum day. Or we could go have a picnic with Chestnut, We could stroll through Central Park then get some coffee…"

"Okay, I can give it a shot." Max said and gave Caroline a peck on the lips and started for the room. Caroline did not let go of her hand. "What?"

"I wanna cuddle." Caroline said a little wanton.

Max looked at her and smirked, "Okay but no funny business."

"Why Max? You scared you can't handle all of this?"

"No, I'm not sure you can handle all of this." Max said pushing her bust up a little.

Caroline laughed and followed her to the room. She stripped out of her uniform and slid into Max's bed. Max changed into a large t-shirt she used as a nightshirt and collapsed into her bed. Caroline moved close to Max and wrapped her arms around her girlfriend.

Max would have made some lewd comment but she was so tired. She hadn't felt this tiered in ages. She was so tired everything hurt. Not only that, but her period was due soon, so poor Caroline wasn't about to get any tomorrow either. She was beginning to feel the cramping and the sore boobs that came along with her period. She took Caroline's hand and interlaced her fingers with hers. And Just as she began to drift off to sleep she heard Caroline whisper. "Max I love you."

"Why?" she whispered back, "why do you love me, when you know I don't believe in love."

"Because I know that you do believe in love. Deep down." Caroline answered. Max turned to face her and went up on her elbows.

"How do you know that?"

"Because you are Max. You love more than you think and you wear your love on your sleeve you just call it being human." Caroline strokes Max's cheek

Max leans forward and kisses Caroline. It became a heated exchange. Their mouths on each other more hungrily than before. "Okay, I'll let you be human all over my body tonight… My period is coming soon to take advantage while you can."

Caroline giggled a little and kissed Max pushing her back on to the bed. She pushed the nightshirt over Max's head and she looked down marveling at the sight. Her Large bosom was perky and swollen. Caroline began to drool. "My god… Is it just me or are they getting bigger?"

Max looked down then covered her breasts self-consciously. Caroline removed Max's hands from her trajectory, and placed them on her bare torso. Max smiled and let her hands roam from her waist back to Caroline's firm rear. "I take it that's a good thing."

"Very good." Caroline purred burying her face in Max's neck. She began to taste her skin. Max ran her hand down Caroline's thighs. And takes a deep breath. Her stomach tied itself in knots.

"Caroline get off…" she said pushing Caroline away gently.

"What's wrong?"

"I don't know," Max sits up and doubles up in pain. "I feel like I am going to puke."

"Well…" Caroline says taking offense. "That's new."

"I don't think it's you, I was into it." Seeing her girlfriend in some real pain, Caroline began to rub max's back. "Are you wearing a new perfume, or a new shampoo?"

"No…" Caroline sits closer

"Caroline!" Max said, standing up and walking across the room. Then she took inventory… sore breast, crampy, sensitive stomach , "Shit."

"Max…" Caroline had caught a glimpse at the calendar next to Max's bed. She flipped to the last month. "Your period should have been over by now."

Max nodded… "Do I smell different to you?"

Caroline looked at Max. "What do you mean?"

Max sighed, she knows she has to talk to Caroline, she has to tell her what she had done. "I slept with Johnny."

"You WHAT?" Caroline screamed and got out of the bed.

"It was before we… you know. And I was drunk" Max said

"When? Please tell me when?" Caroline said.

"Landmine day…" Max admitted under her breath.

Caroline really didn't want to stay and listen anymore. She picked up Max's Night shirt because it was the first thing she saw. She pulled it on and inhaled Max's intoxicating smell. Then she remembered why she was angry and walked out of the room.

Max sighed and searched for another. She grabbed a t-shirt and shorts and her handy little weed box. She rolled a spliff and headed outside. After a little while she heard Caroline leave the apartment. She began to smoke. She didn't know how long she was out there, till she heard the apartment door open and a brown paper bag was dropped on her lap.

Max looked at the bag, then looked at Caroline. Her eyes were red, and she still looked pretty angry. "You are going to make sure." Caroline took the spliff away from Max and smoked the rest of it. "And we're gonna figure out what to do about it… Together."

Max took the pregnancy test out of the bag. "I'll go to Planned Parenthood and take care of it like I always do."

"I said together… Always do?" Caroline kneeled in front of Max. "How many times Max?"

Max Shrugged, "It doesn't matter."

"It does matter to me." Caroline said softly. "Let's keep it."

Max looked at Caroline, "You carry it!"

Caroline sighed, "Lets make sure first… and let me go to planned parenthood with you."

"I'd rather go alone." Max answered, but she knew that if Caroline went with her… she would probably never go through with what she had to do.

"Why?"

"It would be like I am betraying…" Max sighs and shakes her head. "Never mind forget it."

"Is whoever you are betraying more important than us?"

"Yes," Max said without hesitation. Caroline stood up. "Now do you understand why I say I am incapable of loving anyone."

"Well you love that person enough… I just don't understand."

"Okay, I will explain, let's just go inside it's cold out here." Max walked inside and headed for her drawer and found her box where she put all of the pictures she had of Skyler. It was time to let Caroline know... "It doesn't feel right for me to have a baby."

She handed Caroline the pictures. "What's this?"

"I kept her with me for six months, I couldn't take care of her so I put her up for adoption."

"Six months?" Caroline began to put things together.

"It's an open adoption, but I still can't see her. It still hurts like hell that I can't have her with me."

"She looks just like you." Caroline said as she looked at the last picture. The date on the invitation was landmine day, it was Skyler's birthday. She looked up at Max she was staring at the picture with a soft smile on her face. "You were probably an awesome mom."

"Breast fed and everything." Max said leaning back into the couch.

"I bet she got a mouthful…" Caroline said, eliciting a chortle from Max.

"Now you choose to use Subtext… gross."

"What can I say, I'm jealous." Caroline said sitting next to Max. "You can't keep getting rid of your children because you feel guilty that you couldn't keep Skyler."

Max stayed silent for a while. "I was a terrible mom."

"How do you know?"

"I couldn't do anything for her. I am a better mom to Brangelina."

"No one knows how to be a mom automatically." Caroline insisted. "thank god those twins got you… Peach is a terrible mom."

Max reached out and ran her fingers through Caroline's hair. "I love you too."

Caroline turned her head and captured Max's lips. When the kiss breaks, she whispers. "I know… Do you have to pee?"

"Okay, I'm going to take the test." Max stands up and heads to the bathroom. Minutes later she comes out of the bathroom and hands Caroline her results. Wordlessly she gets into bed. "Now either get into bed, or go away I'm tired."

Caroline tosses the test and comes back to the room. "I don't understand… You were so sure."

"I was wrong I guess." Max Mumbled.

"Max I'm sorry…" Caroline whispered

Max had a tear drop down her cheek. "Why? It keeps me from going to the clinic tomorrow, and I can just concentrate on our date." She answered softly.

Caroline placed a kiss on Max's cheek. "You won't ever cheat on me again will you?"

"We weren't going out yet." Max said turning her body to lay on her back.

"okay." Caroline lay back beside her girlfriend. Finally they settled and went to sleep. Meanwhile, in the bathroom, the pregnancy test indicator changed from a minus sign to a plus sign.