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Picking up where we left off...How will Damon react to Azkedelia's news? Let's find out.

Chapter 3 - Understandings

The room fell silent as Damon stared into my eyes. I didn't move or speak, I was leaving that to Damon. I coudn't tell what he was thinking or even feeling. It was like trying to read a brick wall, just wasn't going to happen. He hadn't moved a muscle since my confession minutes ago. From what I could tell he was debating on believeing me. He was gazing in my eyes as if they would tell him the truth. Suddenly his expression turned to anger.

"Why didn't you tell me she was alive? Why let me go through all of this?" he clenched through his teeth.

I filled with fury "How the fuck was I supposed to that huh? You cover your tracks! I could never find you and when I finally would, you'd be gone by the time I got there. I tried!" I used all of my strength to push him off of me and jump off the desk.

"We both know you could have tried harder and found me if you really wanted to!" he yelled throwing the bottle causing to smash and whiskey dripped down the wall.

"Why should I have huh? So you could find the Bitch that desroyed you and your brother's lives? She has been alive this entire time and has she tried to find you? No! And you know why? Because she doesn't care! she never has and never will! She's a greedy manipulative bitch! She took Amelia away from you, She tore Stefan and Destiny apart!" I my voice vengeful but he listened to every word. I calmed my tone a bit, but not much. "Katherine made you forget your love for Amelia, made you believe you hated her then Katherine made you watch as she killed Amelia in front of you! Do you still really want to be with her after everything she has done?" I finished.

I was short of breath from all the yelling, but he needed to hear it. I know most people are afraid to stand up to him, but I'm not one of them and I never have been.

"It was all real for me alright? The feelings I have are real for me and I chan't change that, but I might have had a different perspective on things if I had known!" he yelled back, but I saw the pain in his eyes he tried to hide.

I sighed and tried to think of what to say. As much as I hated it it was true, it was all real for him. She twisted his mind so he would be obsessed with her and did the same to Stefan, but Destiny had been there to help Stefan through it though she was only able to because she has been there before and after 1864. I looked at him and was finally able to channel him and it felt like a knife just struck me in my chest and he was utterly confused.

"I know that Damon" I kept my voice soft. "I know all of it was real for you" I grabbed his hand his hand and stroked the top of it with my thumb.

I was sending hormones into his body. If he was human he's be being controlled, but my power worked differently on the supernatural. All Damon felt was bliss, no pain or confusion, just a complete calming sensation. He looked into my eyes.

"Thank you" his voice was soft and his expression became serene.

"Want me to let go?" I gently pulled my hand, but he caught it with his other hand.

"No! no I was feeling too much at once" he replied.

"You know that memory spell is still in my Book Of Shadows" I stated.

"You said you were going to get rid of it after I left" I was a bit surprised he remembered.

"I know I did, but it's a good spell to have" I said casually.

He smirked "Are you saying you want to do the spell on me?"

"No" I lied "I'm just saying it's an option for you, you won't be so confused on what you really feel or what happened in your past"

He grabbed my free wrist and cupped my had to his face holding it firmly in place. He closed his eyes and inhailed my scent and just then I felt hunger. Of course he was hungry, I took a lot out of him from the kiss we shared earlier.

"Go ahead" I said. He opened his eyes and looked at me and furrowed his brow. "Go ahead, my blood replenishes you faster than human blood does" he looked at my wrist then back to me "I'm full, you know I'll heal right up" I gestured my wrist to him. "Come on you know you love the taste!" I teased wiggling my wrist. That caught his attention.

He held my wrist and slowly brought it to his mouth. I saw his fangs protrude and the veins pulse around his eyes, this face never scared me. There was a small sharp pain as his fangs pierced my flesh, but soon was replaced with a pleasurable sensation while he massaged my wrist with his tounge as he took what he needed from me. I'd always gotten a weird attraction when I did this, my sister used to tell me it was our succubus side, supernaturals always being attracted to supernaturals. It was the same feeling Damon got when he fed me. It is a feeling of understanding and knowing what the other needs from you. Sometimes giving someone what they need causes a connection no one understands, not even yourself. I had that connection with Damon and I realized in that moment it would never go away. I would always have that soft spot for him no matter what. When he was done he licked the wound clean as it closed. He looked up to me licking his lips, that was always a turn on.

"I almost forgot just how good you taste" he smiled then laughed a bit. We were silent for a few moments just smirking at each other. "If you cast the spell will I remember everything? Even watching Amelia die and doing nothing to stop it" I could he felt horrible already for that.

"You'll remember everything, you're memories won't be altered and you'll know the difference between what was made up and what is real and if you do have me do the spell, your emotions might be easier to keep in check" I explained. "And I'll be here to help you through it" I added to try to reassure him.

He pulled his hand away and walked over to the window.

"Are you alright?"

"I just want to think about it without you influencing me for a minute" he replied.

I sat down in the desk chair and grabbed anewspaper off the desk opening it. The only sounds you heard in the room were our breathing and my flipping the pages of the newspaper for about ten minutes. Finally Damon moved and I set the paper down. He held his hand out and I took it standing up.

"I've decided I want you to cast the spell Azzie" he sounded broken.

"Are you sure because once I cast it there is no reversing it" I stated.

"I'm positive, I need the truth, I owe it to Amelia and I owe it to you too" he pulled me into a hug. "I really did miss you Azzie" I was surprised as hell because his feeling were sincere.

"Yeah?"

"Yeah and one day I'll explain everything to you. I've done a lot of bad things in my time, but you, well I at least owe you the truth" he held me tight.

"Even why you left?" I asked and he nodded. "Then maybe I'll be honest with you on a few secrets of my own" I stated.

"Like?"

I pulled back and loked at him and smiled "You're just going to have to wait and see"

I know another tiny cliffhanger, but I have to keep you reading. So quite a chapter huh. Things were heated at first but then there were some understandings between Azzie and Damon. I wonder what Azkedelia could be hiding! There will be some real action coming up in future chapters and also someone from Stefan's past also shows up in Mystic Falls. For all you Delena and Stelena Fans this is not a story for you for there will be some Elena bashing in future chapters!