Chapter 3 – Sam's POV
I grabbed something to eat from the kitchen not even caring what it is. I just have to get out of the house. I can't understand what's going on inside of me anymore. It's like when I first met Emily and imprinted on her a bit, but oh so much more confusing.
I was so thrilled when Emily told me that she was pregnant and then when we found out from Dr. Daniel's that we're having twins I thought my heart would explode. And then there are the little things like seeing Emily's stomach start to swell to accommodate our babies, and this morning when she woke me to feel them moving that was just beyond words. But ever since I saw Leah two weeks ago at Charlie and Sue's wedding I haven't been able to stop thinking about her. I don't get it.
When I imprinted on Emily it just about killed Leah, and it killed me to see how badly I was hurting her, but I couldn't help it. Some things are just beyond my control. So why now more than five years later am I dreaming of my life before Emily, no not even just that it's more like my life with Leah.
I guess it wouldn't be so bad if it would just stay to dreams. But the other day when I went to kiss Emily goodbye I started thinking of all the times when I had kissed Leah. I know I startled Emily when I pulled back so suddenly but I didn't know what else to do. I feel almost like I'm in this never ending battle to do what's right. I thought the love I had for Leah was lost once I found Emily. After all that's what imprinting is all about, right? Once you find your imprint you're supposed to live happily ever after, or as close to it as our kind can. If that's the case though and I did everything right then why are these feelings that I thought were dead and buried starting to resurface? I don't even know who I can talk to about this as everyone seems somehow connected.
For now I have to shake it off and stop thinking about it. I have to meet with my pack to hand out patrols for the day as well as meet with Jacob and see if we can reach some sort of agreement to rejoin the two packs. And to top it off this all has to be done before two so that I can get back home for the baby shower.
