Part 11 Getting to Us Chapter 14
His nose was nuzzled into the nap of her neck. her back pressed against the soft furry hair on his chest and his arm tucked under her breasts, with one hand resting on the smooth skin of her belly.
Will was the first to wake. She rolled over to face him, sleeping soundly. He remembered that it was Saturday and felt relieved. They could sleep in a little and relax over breakfast. No pressure to produce a broadcast, no stress of the newsroom. His thoughts were jumbled. Dr Habib at one o'clock. He must be coming in on a weekend just for us he decided. What was so urgent that they had to see him today? More talk, more dissection, more pain… Why not just let it be? Couldn't they just try and forget, go for a walk, see a movie, or drive up state for the day? They could go to the farmer's markets in the Hudson Valley, have lunch in Woodstock, even stay over at a country Inn.
No more spilling his guts… Not today.
They hadn't made love in three days, too exhausted from the stress of the Erin thing, and the trauma of yesterday. He missed her. He would wait for her if she needed that, but if she wanted him, he was more than ready.
"Watcha thinking about handsome? You've been lost in thought Will."
" I thought you were sleeping." He pulled her close and kissed her hair. He felt an erection starting. God, hope she's ready, he thought.
" I was remembering that it's Saturday and that we could drive up state, go the markets, have a great day in the country, even sleep over, What do you think? Want to?" He was stroking her belly, trying to arouse her.
" We have Dr Habib at one. You forgot."
He stopped stroking and pulled his hand up to scratch his head.
" I know we do but I'll call him and reschedule. We can just use my Monday morning standing appointment instead. Don't you think so?"
"I don't think we should do that Will."
"Why not? Haven't we had enough drama this week Mac? You must feel exhausted after yesterday. I was surprised you could even go back to work yesterday. We need a day off. He'll understand that."
"I don't think he will and I do think we need to go back today"
"Why don't I make us some coffee and call him now. I'll have to get a hold of Lonny and see if he wants to come with us to the country, or send a replacement. You just stay in bed. Does that sound good?"
"Will, you're doing it."
"Doing what? I'm just trying to plan a nice day for us, that's all."
"You're deciding for us when I've told you that I don't think we should miss our appointment. I think we should go back today."
" So YOU deciding for US to go back, is ok, but me deciding that we should postpone and take off from the dissection of our spleens.. for one fucking day is not ok. Is that what you're saying Mac?"
" You're getting upset and it's not called for Will."
" I'm not upset and I don't want to fight. I just want to enjoy this day –together. Can we just do that please?"
Mackenzie looked exasperated. She thought for a minute and then smiled.
" We can compromise! We could go for our session and then drive to the country and stay overnight. Would that work? "
"Well the markets will be over, and we'll arrive in the dark, not exactly "a day in the country", and we'll probably be depressed …but I guess we could do that."
" Good. " She snuggled up to him and kissed him tenderly but he was still grumbling under his breath. It would be so nice for once to hear 'whatever you say Will'
Just for once…"
She jumped out of bed. So much for this boner… he thought.
"Good afternoon you two. How are you both feeling after yesterday's session?
Mac spoke first
"I feel a little tender and sad and just spent- but also relieved"
"And you Will? How are you feeling?"
" So glad that Mac told me. Honestly, I am. I just wish we could take a break from all this and have some alone time."
"Will didn't want to come today. He wanted to cancel."
"Well that's understandable. We all want to avoid painful issues if we can, but he's here. "
"Only because I insisted. We argued about it. He got angry. He wanted to go to the country instead"
"And how did that make you feel Mac?'
" Like…typical Will wants to avoid the emotional work- and pretend we're ok now."
"Oh so now we're not ok?"
" You and me, back together, loving each other is so amazing. But this is the second day we fought just before coming here. We have lot of issues to work through and I can't be the one forcing us to do that. It's too much. I need you to want it too."
"I've been coming here for years Mac. If anyone has tried to work out "issues" it's me! There's a whole fucking file cabinet over there filled with 'issues'! I just want ONE day to not think about things. Is that so terrible? "
"Years of paying and not coming you mean?" Mackenzie's voice was starting to sound hostile.
"Will, you did come and see my father for a long time and you did work through some of what was troubling you at the time. Then Mackenzie left and you stopped coming for several years, and you stopped going to meetings."
"But then I came back, and it was my idea. Can I have some credit for that?"
" We're not keeping score, and yes you did come back. All of that is good Will, but now Mackenzie thinks that the two of you have important issues to work through. Maybe we could start by talking about what they are, from her perspective.
Do you think you want to listen to that?"
" Sure. Let's listen to what Mac thinks is wrong with me, or us, but most probably me."
"Will, please. You're angry and I don't see why? I love you and I want things to be better with us, that's all. "
"When weren't they good with us Mac? When you cheated on me? You stood in my office and you told me that I was perfect. I think your words were " the man of every girl's dreams" if I remember correctly. Isn't that what you said?"
"Yes, I said that, and it was all true."
"And what about the "you were not rejected" speech from the good doctor here?
I thought you said that her cheating had nothing to do with me. But apparently it did. Apparently, now that I have forgiven her and we're back together, I get to find out what was really wrong with me, that drove her to fuck that asshole for FOUR fucking months behind my back!"
Will was shouting now. He stood up and began pacing the room. Mackenzie was staring at him, wide eyed, stunned at his outburst.
"Sit down Will."
Will sat at Dr Habib's desk, as far away from the sofa as he could. He put his feet up on the desk and reached into his pocket for a cigarette.
"Come back over here Will. You can suck on that cigarette all you like but you can't light it in here"
"Fine."
Will stood up and went over to the sofa and sat back at one end, stretched out his legs and put his feet up on Mackenzie's lap. "Ready Doc' he said, sarcastically.
' You got to this place much sooner than I expected. You're feeling threatened probably because you realize that there are more emotions coming to surface, truths you will be facing over the next few weeks.
You're both highly intelligent people. You know that nothing is ever as simple as we want it to be.
Will, you know that Mackenzie went to someone else for a reason. She saw a chance to be unrejected and she took it. But why she needed that confirmation is a mystery to you Will. You thought you were making her happy giving her everything she could possibly want, and yet she went anyway.
You've forgiven her. But maybe Mackenzie hasn't forgiven herself – completely. Clearly she loves you and wants to be with you. But she's worried about something. Some dynamics between you that could trigger that old lack of self- confidence perhaps? She doesn't want to go back to that place where she felt - unworthy. Can you see that?"
" I love Mac. I keeping telling her and trying to show her how much. Maybe if I had some time, when she's not producing me, and I'm not spilling my guts, I could show her even more and maybe we could actually be fucking happy. That's all I want. Sounds pretty simple to me."
" That's a good goal. Unfortunately you can't arrive at "fucking happy" as you so vividly put it, overnight, just because you want to. You need to clear the way for it Will. You both do. "
"Ok" Will say, softly. This was not at all what he wanted to happyHe wanted to coddle her and spoil her…and instead he'd been shouting since they got here.
"You have fatherhood issues you said you want to work on. You still have anger management issues and we want you off the anti depressants as soon as you are able, plus co- dependency issues that affect your drinking.
"And I have some other things too, that I want to talk about". Mackenzie said softly.
She was anxious to tell him about her work with abused women and children. She wanted to get back to it as soon as she could.
"Will rolled his eyes. " It's like a salad bar! We can mix our ' issues' into whatever mess we want to have on our plates!"
" Ok look, I'm SORRY. Mac you ride me at work every time I pander or go soft with someone- and I can take it. It's your job and you're great at it. The best. But when we leave that studio I don't want to be 'produced '. I don't want my entire psyche dissected and repacked into somebody else."
" And I don't want to suddenly be helpless arm candy – so grateful to just do as she's told !"
"Arm candy? That was really very good Mac! " Will bust out laughing in spite of him self. She was so cute and that tongue was wicked!"
"Ok, that's enough for today. I want you both to leave here today, without anger or resentment.
These sessions have been intense. I want you to learn to leave the things you have said to each other- in this room, ready to be continued at our next session. "
Will and Mac searched each other's faces looking for a sign that it was possible to do what Dr Habib wanted them to do.
" I want that Mac. I want to go back to the way we were …before . I'm sorry I got so mad. "
Mackenzie smiled and climbed on to his lap and into his warm embrace.
"I could fill one of those file cabinets over there with how much I love this man. Do you know that Abe? "
" I do. One more question before I let you two go. How are things between you? Is your intimate life satisfying for you both?"
Mackenzie giggled.
"No actually it isn't. I want more. I want to make love to her a 10 times a day and I haven't figured out how to do that. That's my 'issue'. Any advice Abe?"
Dr Habib laughed. "Your blushing Mac. My advice is to go home and help Will with his dilemma. Good- bye you two. See you next week."
Lonny watched at the door to Dr Habib's office opened and Will and Mac emerged, smiling, his arm draped around her shoulder.
"All set guys? Are we going up state now? " That Doc must be really good, he thought.
"No time for that Lonny. We have to get home"
" I'm hungry Will. Can we go for lunch first, please?"
Will rolled his eyes and laughed. She was still directing…but he was hungry too.
"Sure, you pick."
"How about The Oyster Bar?
"Lonny please tell our driver that Madame wants the Oyster Bar!"
They ordered Bloody Caesars and two dozen oysters…and then she started.
"Will, do you ever think about fucking me when we're in the newsroom, because I think about fucking you. Sometimes when you're sitting behind that anchor desk
I look at your blue eyes and I get wet thinking about you touching me. Do you ever do that?"
'Mac…What are you doing? He felt himself getting hard..
"Really Will? Are you getting hard now?"
She had placed her hand on his leg, under the table where no one could see what she was doing. She ran her hand close to his groin and felt his erection straining against the zipper on his fly.
"Yes, you're definitely hard. " Want to know what I'm thinking about?"
"Tell me " he growled
He was staring intently at her. His eyes were blazing and his cock was throbbing. What was she doing to him?
He watched her pick up a raw oyster and suck it clean from it's shell.
" I'm thinking about sucking you. I'm thinking about licking the head of your cock and running my tongue underneath and flicking the skin right beneath it. "
"Jesus Mac…" He was squirming in his seat
" And I'm thinking about that swollen head of your cock, grazing the opening to my pussy Will. Look at me Will." She held an oyster up for him to suck it from its shell. Then she did the same."
"We should get out of here Mac."
"And do what Will?"
"We should go home so I can make love to you. Come on!"
"Eat your oysters Will. She lifted another one to his mouth"
"When we get home…"
"Yes?"
"Remember the first time? When you pushed me against the wall inside the front door?" She was staring at him- signaling for him to finish his oysters, but he couldn't take his eyes off of her mouth."
" Remember how you got down on your knees and licked me. I'm pretending that you're doing that to me now, and my panties are soaked."
"THAT'S IT. We're getting out of here NOW."
Will called for the waiter to bring the cheque. He cased the room for Lonny
who, thank god was sitting too far away to hear what she had been doing to him.,,
He slid on his leather jacket, and willed his erection down and grabbed her hand to pull her out of her chair.
" No arguments- I'm taking you home and fucking you until you scream" he whispered in her ear.
"Fine Will, whatever you say" she said sweetly. How is that for obedient?
" In the car they necked and groped just a little, conscious of the driver and Lonny upfront"
"Horny teenagers…Lonny thought, laughing to himself"
He pushed her inside the door and closed it quickly. He took off her coat and his jacket and threw them on the floor and pulled her to him and kissed her deeply. He lifted her skirt, pulled down her pantyhose and then had to stop and pull off her boots so he could get all of it off her as fast as possible.
"Boots, boots, forgot…" he was panting now.
She was busy undoing his belt and then his pants. She shoved his trousers off his hips and pulled down his boxers to his ankles. He stepped out of them. He hoisted her up so she could wrap her legs around his waist.
"Oh God Mac, I want you. You were killing me in that restaurant." He growled between kisses.
"Fuck me Billy. Come inside me please she cried"
He pushed her up against the wall and reached down to touch her. She was dripping wet. He massaged her clit until she started to groan and plead. He took his cock in his hand and placed it at the opening to her pussy and plunged up and into her.
"Oh God Will"
"Oh Mac!"
He pumped madly as she groaned and then he slowed down and started to carry her away from the wall towards the living room. Her arms were wrapped around his head and she was kissing him deeply, her hips grinding into him as he held her bum tightly against his groin. He threw her down on the sofa and laid down on top of her.
"Me on top" please she begged"
He flipped them over so she could mount his cock. She rode the head, careful not to slide too far down, which drove him wild.
"Mac, oh baby that's so good"
She arched her back and thrust her hips forward then pulled her hips back, One, two, three, four..
"Too close Mac…"
She stopped so he could roll them over. He liked to be on top when he came and she loved the feeling of being consumed by him.
He slid into her, and she clung to him hanging on his thrusts until finally she teetered on the edge and feeling her- he stopped and looked into her eyes. "I love you baby"….and then he thrust up and hard, turning her hips so the walls of her pussy would rub hard against the sides of his cock with intense pleasure. and then finally she broke around him into spasms that gripped his cock and sent him into orgasm for what felt to him like an exquisite, unending release.
"Oh God that was good Kenz. The restaurant porn got me so pumped" Come on; let's sleep for an hour. I'm not moving. This is exactly how I want you. "
" Docile, right? Ok, I'll give you an hour, then we'll see who's docile"
" Jesus Mac, you're going to kill me"
He wrapped himself around her and fell asleep.
Later that afternoon she woke to the sound of her Blackberry vibrating beside her on the coffee table. It was a text message.
"Will wake up! My Parents are coming to New York next week! "
" Have you told them anything about…. anything?"
"Not a word"
"Well….Will groaned "This will be interesting"
