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Chapter 3- Why I Lie
We were all frozen in shock.
"Bloody Hell," Sirius whispered, eyes glazed.
I quickly ran over to where Snape was convulsing on the ground, unsure of what to do. Placing my two fingers in his wrist, I could feel a pulse, but barely. Soon a circular crowd was formed around where I was crouched by Severus. Andrew Worek, the Sytherin Head Boy, was telling others to move away, though no one did. I realized that Snape was probably choking, unable to breathe.
I had lots of medical experience from after the full moon, when my mother would heal me. I closed my eyes, trying to remember everything. I placed the tip of my wand on Severus's chest, and muttered under my breath. It was a spell used to clear air passageways. As I continued the spell, I watched as his features relaxed, and he was no longer convulsing. He was breathing, but barely.
"Please be alive, please be okay, please be aliveā¦." I muttered under my breath, praying to some god out there. Lily was now holding Severus's hand, every now and then glaring at the three other boys, who were still frozen in their chairs. There were tears streaming down her eyes. James and Sirius looked horrified, Peter aghast. By the time Severus was breathing normally, but still unconscious, Professor McGonagall had hurried over with Madam Pomfrey, a stretcher floating in between them. After Snape was shipped off to the Hospital Wing, Lily following right behind, McGonagall summoned all four of us to her office. She already knew it was us, how, I had no idea. Her face was pale with rage; I would give anything to leave right now.
"You three should be expelled right now. If it were not for Mr. Lupin, you would be charged with murder. I can't, by law, expel you because you haven't been at Hogwarts for over a month yet. I will not warn you again. Mr. Black, Mr. Potter, and Mr. Pettigrew, you will receive detention for a month, and only because I feel forgiving today, and you are minors."
I shifted in my chair, why wasn't I getting detention? I know I helped save Snape, but I helped poison him too, well not really. I guess I didn't, but it felt wrong for my friends to get detention when I didn't.
"Professor, if I might say something?" I asked, hoping to not be snapped at.
"Of course."
" I deserve detention too. This is my entire fault. The whole thing was my idea, and they just helped." I could feel the other's wide eyes on me.
"Well then, your honesty is quite remarkable, but you shall receive detention as well. Be at my office every night at seven, no exceptions. The others are dismissed, Mr. Lupin, I'd like a word." Oh, no, here it comes. With my eyes I begged at least one of the boys to stay, but they all gave me a sympathetic look, then left.
"Mr. Lupin, you are very brave."
I looked at her quizzically, what was she talking about?
"You are very brave. Why? Because you are a terrible liar, and out of all the staff, you just lied to me. There is no way this mayhem was your idea. Why would you accept getting detention, when you did nothing but help?"
I pondered my answer for a bit, biting the inside of my cheek. She wouldn't accept another lie, and the truth was, I just felt bad. On the inside, I was rather happy; I just got off the hook.
"Well, you see, I kind of did agree, when even on the inside I didn't, if that makes sense. I'm not used to having friends, so when we all became friends, I was relieved. I don't ever want to be friendless again. I'm kinda desperate at this point. It's not like I'm bowing down to them or anything, but I just follow what they do. Whenever they're around, I get this feeling- it's the best feeling in the world. I feel accepted, which is something I never get from anyone else. They make me laugh; they make me see the point of living, not that I've ever tried to end my life, but life gets boring.
My parents mostly accept me, but there are times where I'm no so sure. I hear them fighting quite as bit, when my father gets all mad because he turned his son into a werewolf because of his stupidity. Then they both end up crying because they feel sorry for me, and then I feel like an idiot. So if your asking why I lie, it's because I hate feeling like an idiot, I just want people to like me. My friends really are nice; they didn't mean any harm, just a little prank. They really don't deserve all the blame without me. So that's why I lie." I felt my face get really hot, I hadn't told anyone that before. I hadn't told anyone about my parents fighting all the time.
"You are more brave than I imagined. I just hope that your lies are enough to keep your friends oblivious during the full moons." I froze, then relaxed- all of the teachers knew about my problem, they agreed to let me skip class when needed, most likely in when I'm in recovery. "You are dismissed."
I nearly sprinted out of the room, and back to Gryffindor Tower. The others were waiting in the Common Room, anxious looks on their faces.
"Did she eat you alive?"
"Are you expelled?"
"How was it?"
"Guys, I'm fine," I said, and looks of relief passed over their faces.
"Why would you do that Remy?" James asked.
I shrugged "Well, Sirius said we were a team, even if we don't have a name. That's what teammates do right? They make the sacrifice play; lay their own life down for others. Beside's, she would kill you guys, she likes me best." I gave a little smirk, while Sirius pretended to cry.
"You are so poetic Remus, you'll be a hit with the romantic ladies." Sirius waggled his eyebrows at me, then imitated me reciting a poem to a girl.
While we all laughed, on the inside though, I was aching. Remembering what McGonagall said about lying to my friends on the full moon made me shiver with fear.
"Guys, we are going to be late for Transfiguration, then we'll really be eaten alive!" Peter exclaimed, grabbing his books with the rest of us while we sprinted down the corridors, only imagining Professor McGonagall's expression.
Panting, we reached the classroom. We could already hear her lecturing. We were dead. As Sirius and I walked in, I could hear him whisper, "Ready to test if she really likes you best oh late one?"
Sorry so short! I don't really like this chapter, oh well. Please review! This story will get somewhere, I promise.
