Chapter Two - Their life.
'There is so much behind this little smile, you will never know.'
-Unknown.
I could hear the ruffling of pages, as Carlisle read in his study. Hear as Esme tinkered around the house, as Rose combed her hair and Jasper and Emmet arm wrestle outside.
I could hear Edward playing the piano – his music filling the house with a wordless story.
It was all as it should be, life had gone on, gone back to how it as before we had met her. And to me, it all seemed like a lie.
Somehow, somewhere along in the time without her, we had begun to live in a lie.
She had been apart of our family and here we were living out our existences as if she had never existed, never touched out lives the way we all knew she had.
Forced to forget.
And it was all a lie. She was apart of us all and I could still see the scars my Family held from losing her.
It had been hard from them all at first, devastatingly so, we were all broken. Shattered, but time went on, flew by, things started to go back to how they were, before, without her.
Time had healed most of us, made it easier for us to go on. Made it easier to live in a world without her.
Even Edward, so broken at first, had learned to live again.
To go on, to move on.
I, unlike him, hadn't. I wouldn't be able to move on, to go on, I knew that. I would always be broken.
I loved her; had always loved her and still loved her to this very day. The moment I had seen her I had fallen, fallen hard for that girl.
Visions of the future had filled my head. Visions of her, of her and I together - but Edward had destroyed all that when he had fallen in love with her and she with him.
He took her away from me. I had never gotten a chance.
Edward had never seen the visions, never heard the thoughts I'd had about her. It was something I safeguarded with my life, something I kept hidden from both him and my family.
The only one that knew about my true feelings was Jasper. I was unable to mask my emotions from him, hide the thrill I'd gotten when I saw her – thought about her – the elation when I touched her.
The love I felt.
I was unable to hide the fact that I loved her from him.
Our Family knew something had shifted, changed, between Jasper and I. I had never truly loved Jasper as I loved her, but I had always seen him as apart of my future.
But, the moment I had seen her, I knew that Jasper was not apart of my future in the way I had originally thought and he understood that. Accepted that.
But none of that mattered now. She was gone, forever. I would live without her for eternity. My chance was gone and so was she.
I was broken and without her I didn't feel whole, I was incomplete and I missed her. I missed her something awful.
Always missed her.
"Oi, Alice!" Emmet called, "Come play Halo with us." His booming voice echoed up the stairs, demanding that I come play. I let a small smile play on my face.
"Sure, Em." I chuckled, walking down the stairs.
Edward's wordless song continued. He played more now days.
I walked past him, quickly shielding my thoughts of her aside. The two boys, Emmet and Jasper were sitting on the floor waiting for me to join the game.
Emmet was glaring at me, daring me to move any slower.
I threw myself down next to Jasper, picking up the controller. I was now ready to play, ready to kick some ass. Emmet grinned at me, I just smiled back and he saw nothing more to it.
Only Jasper, bless him, could see it was broken. I ignored his sympathetic look as the game started.
He couldn't possibly understand how I was feeling; he couldn't tell what I was thinking. How much it hurt. I would do anything to get another shot, anything to get her back.
Rewind time to take her back and confess everything that I had kept hidden.
We lived our existence this way. This was our life now; we would never be whole again. Not without her.
Isabella Swan.
Our Bella.
"Bella…"
