Chapter 3 and 1 month later
Olivia woke up to hear someone crying. She looked at the alarm clock behind her and it read two-thirty in the morning. She quickly got out of bed and followed the muffled cries to find Casey in the bathroom. She was standing up over the sink sobbing. Olivia noticed Casey's legs were about to give in as she was terribly weak from crying. Olivia rushed in and threw her arms around the red-head as they slowly sank to the floor, wrapping Casey in a much-needed, comforting hug.
Olivia asked her lover what was wrong, but all Casey could manage was "I-I...I'm sorry," over and over again. "Sweetheart, what's wrong?" Olivia asked worried. "I never told you why I worked so hard to be a ADA for the SVU squad. It's so hard for me to tell anyone this. I worked my ass off to join SVU for a reason," Casey finally admitted to her lover, in fact to anyone ever since it happened. Casey looked down, nervous of Liv's reaction. Olivia raised her lover's downcast face up gently with her index finger and placed a kiss on her trembling lips. Olivia gazed lovingly into her lover's green eyes and whispered, "I love you no matter what happened long ago." Casey had been looking into Olivia's brown eyes and had gotten lost in them. She was brought back to reality when Olivia had kissed her sweetly. "Baby, no one knows this, but...I was raped by my mother's boyfriend. He repeatedly raped me...it went on for a month until I ran away to my father's house in New York, hence why I live in New York still," Casey admitted to Liv, expecting her to walk out the door and leave her forever.
Olivia looked at Casey with tears brimming her eyes, now knowing why Casey had a hard time when they get cases similiar to Casey's past predicament.
Casey looked up at her lover's tear-streaked face and clung to her, pulling her closer to her own body, desperately trying to keep Olivia from running away and leaving her. Olivia sensed Casey's emotions and feelings when she clung to her and assured her, "I will never leave you. I love you way too much, Sweetheart." With that, Olivia began to sob into her lover's neck. Casey sensed something else was bothering Olivia, so she asked, "Honey, are you alright?" Olivia just shook her head and whispered, "The only people that know this is Cragen and Elliot. I-I..I couldn't bear to tell anyone this, but now I know I have to tell you, you deserve to know how I was brought into this world. When my mother was in college, she was walking to her dorm room one night and a man grabbed her and raped her. Nine months later I was born. The rape made her resort to drinking years later, especially when she saw me. Everyday she told me she hated me because I reminded her too much of him and that she wish I had been stillborn, but she only said that when she was drunk. When she was sober, which hardly ever happened, she was the best mother a girl could ask for." Casey was shocked to hear this but she stayed strong for Olivia. She hugged Olivia as close as she could get and gently rubbed her back comforting. Finally, about ten minutes later Olivia had fallen asleep.
It hurt her to know her girlfriend cried herself to sleep, and that there was nothing she could do to help her. Olivia was a little heavier than Casey, but she managed to put Olivia in bed with her covering her up without Olivia even waking up. She spooned Olivia; ready to be there for her if she woke up during the rest of the morning and to be there when she woke up to go to work.
She gently wrapped her arms around her lover's body and brought her hand up to Olivia's heart. She prayed Olivia would take the news a little better when she walked back into the squad. "I love you more than life, Baby. Please know that. I'd do anything for you. I want to marry you and have little Bensons running around the house; the house I looked at a couple of days ago. I know you'd love it and Baby, remember this: I love you and nothing is going to change that," Casey whispered to Olivia thinking she was asleep, but Olivia had waken up when she felt Casey's warm, soothing arms wrap around her.
Olivia heard every word Casey said, and felt the exact same way. She was going to tell Casey that she felt the same but when she turned her head over she saw the most precious sight ever; Casey sound asleep with a content smile playing on her full, soft, luscious lips. Olivia kissed her forehead and went back to sleep. 'She is going to be surprised. I know my life will be happy, very happy after I surprise her. I just hope she says 'Yes' which I doubt she'll say 'No' but she might think it's too soon. But hell, she just admitted to me she was already thinking of marrying me and having babies together. Casey Danielle Benson', Olivia thought happily, 'I can't wait.'
Olivia fell asleep a few minutes later. She fell asleep too soon to hear Casey sigh contently and tell her "I love you Olivia Jayne Novak" in her sleep, referring to Jayne as Olivia's middle name.
The two women had the same dream; marrying each other and having babies together. Wonderful, precious, beautiful babies.
