Authors Note: I'm finally done with finals so I should be able to post much more frequently. I'm going to be trying a different POV for this chapter so let me know if you guys like it or not.

Cartman's POV

"Hi poopsiekins! How was your first day?" I hear mom call from the kitchen. She has always been so great and supportive of me. I can't believe how shitty I used to treat her. I guess I used to treat everyone like shit.

"It was alright. I'll be upstairs if you need me." I yell back at her while running up the stairs. I run into my room and shut the door behind me before laying down on my bed. My eyes are barely closed before I hear tapping on my window. My hand grasps the silver locket around my neck as I get up and walk to the window. I open the window and a tall, skinny, blond boy climbs in.

"What are you doing here and why are you coming through my window?" I ask Kenny as he fell onto my bed.

"It looks like you never moved out of this room" Kenny muses, completely ignoring my question.

I sigh and drop my hand as I realize that it is still grasping my locket. I walk over to my desk and sit in the chair, waiting for my friend to speak.

"So what was that this morning?" Kenny asks as he sits up and turns his piercing gaze on me. Those eyes always looked as if they could read your very soul.

I blush and look down before replying. "I have absolutely no idea what you are talking about." I look up at him and see the look of a man unconvinced.

"Now you don't really expect me to believe that load of bullshit, do you?" He says with a smirk

"I really don't know what you're talking about, Kenneh." Wincing as I hear my voice slip back into its old whining style.

"How about I remind you then. When Kyle was tearing into your ass about how you were a piece of shit, you damn near broke into tears. Does that ring a bell?" He spits at me.

"I was just thinking about Mr. Kitty dying." I lie badly.

"Wow. The Eric Cartman I used to know would never come up with such a terrible lie and he would most definitely never cry after being insulted by Kyle Broflovski." Kenny says with a look of genuine surprise.

"Well maybe I'm not the Eric Cartman you used to know!" I blurt out before turning around in my chair and grasping my locket. The room was silent for about five minutes before I hear my bed creak as Kenny's weight lifts off of it.

I sigh slightly as I hear Kenny walk towards me. I feel his hand on my shoulder before he speaks.

"Aright Cartman, I won't ask about this morning anymore." He says softly

"I do have one more question before I leave though." He says as his grip tightens slightly.

I take in a deep breath before speaking. "What is it?"

He leaned down and spoke into my ear softly. "Why don't you stop being a pussy and admit you like Kyle?"

I feel my blood run cold as my hand falls from my locket. A million things are running through my head. "How did he find out? Was I too obvious? Did he read my journal?"

"I knew it!" Kenny voice snaps me out of my frozen state.

"How did you figure it out?" I sputter out.

"I had my suspicions after that fight you and Kyle had in 6th grade. I heard you crying in the locker room after you stormed off but I just wrote it off as you being a pussy. I was pretty sure after today but I wasn't 100 percent positive until you confirmed it right now." Kenny explains.

I sigh as I collect myself before turning to Kenny. "Yeah, I love that little jew bastard. Something about the way his eyes shine that brilliant emerald green just turns my insides to goo. That's really the reason I always picked fights with him. He is the only one who calls me out on my shit."

"So what happened in 6th grade?" Kenny asks as he leans against my wall.

My face falls as Kyle's words ring through my head. "It hit me hard when he said no one would ever love me. It was him saying I had no chance with him. That I would never be able to win his love." I say as my eyes begin to fill with tears. "I went home that day and told my mom that I wanted to move with my uncle in Texas. She agreed and we left that night. I spent those three years trying to reinvent my personality."

The tears are streaming down my face now. "I thought that if I could change how I acted to people that maybe I could change how Kyle thinks of me." I finish as I break down crying.

"So what Kyle said this morning brought back those memories?" Kenny asks as he wraps me up in his arms.

I can't stop crying long enough to speak so I just nod before putting my face into my hands.

We sit there together until I stop sobbing. I thank Kenny before pulling away and heading to the bathroom. I look at myself in the mirror. I look like a mess. My hair is strewn all about my face and my eyes are red and swollen from crying. I splash my face with water and clean myself up before I return to Kenny.

"You do know it's going to take more than just acting nice to make Kyle believe you've changed, right?" Kenny asks as I sit down on my bed.

"Yeah, I realize that I've done a lot of fucked up shit in the past but I really have changed Kenny. I have no desire to do any of the shit I used to love. I will do anything to prove to Kyle that I'm worthy of his love." I say as I feel my face get hot.

Kenny stares at me for a moment before smiling and nodding at me. "Well, I can most definitely see some change in you." He says as he walks towards my window, preparing to leave. "I'll see you at the bus stop tomorrow."

"Alright, Kenny. Thanks for coming over." I call out to him as he disappears down the street.

I open my locket and lay back on bed to admire the bright green eyes that I desire so much.

"I will earn your trust Kyle. I promise" I say softly as I feel myself fall asleep.

I realize it was a little OOC for Cartman to break down crying but it will get better as the story goes on. I'm going to start releasing these on a weekly schedule so expect a new chapter every Wednesday. The next chapter will be from Kyle's POV and it might be up a little early since I've already started on it. Thanks for continuing to read my story and please continue to rate!