Selena's P.O.V
I got up to go to school but in all honestly I didn't want to. I've been seeing Demi for 2 months and now it seems like she is so distant. Every time I would talk to her she would just ignore me, act like she didn't hear me, or just walk away. I'm keeping a distance from her now for as I can't be near her anymore. Every time I do she breaks my heart by never wanting to talk. I finished getting ready and went downstairs to go to another day for heart break.
"Good morning Selena" My mom said with a smile.
"Hi mom" I wasn't in the mood to talk so I just grabbed something to eat and went out the door not bothering to answer my mom.
I walked up to the bus stop and I was met by some ones arms go around my waist. I knew it was Demi from the touch. This is how it starts everyday she hugs me and kisses me than when I go to talk she just doesn't want to listen or respond. I turned around and was met by her lips. At first I didn't mind at least I was still getting a kiss but now I just didn't feel the spark anymore. It used to be soft and lovable now it just feels forced. I pulled away and I saw the look of hurt in her eyes. I hated that but I had no choice but too. I love her but I feel like she doesn't and she keeps trying to reassure herself.
"Demi I can't do this anymore" The words finally came out of my mouth that I've wanted to say for a while now. I couldn't look at her I was too afraid. I felt her grab my hands and I had to look at her. She had tears in her eyes and they were threatening to fall but she kept stopping them.
"What are you talking about?" I couldn't take it hearing her voice so sad tears about to fall on her face. I never thought it would be me that made her cry.
"Every time I talk to you, you ignore me like I'm not even there. A kiss is suppose to be loving and inviting ours is different it is like it's forced and not real. Your distant like you're not in love with me and I can't take it anymore Dems. I'm sorry but I'm really done now. I don't need this I can't spend another second with you it breaks my heart. You broke my heart Demi. I can't be with you no more. It hurts too much." I walked away from her holding onto my stomach. It was hurting so badly like there was a hole in it. I heard her sniffle and scream out my name but I couldn't turn around.
I tried to walk home but I stopped when I was pulled back into some ones arms. I took in the scent and new it was Demi. It didn't take me long to just turn around and wrap my arms around her waist and pull her closer to me. I wanted to keep this feeling here for a while. I felt her crying and it didn't take long for me to start crying too. I loved her being this close but I couldn't stay like this. She pulled away and looked at me.
"Selena do you promise me we can at least still be friends? I can't lose you completely" I nodded my head not able to give her an answer. I knew if I opened my mouth I wouldn't be able to speak or I would say something I would later regret. I wanted to pull her in for a hug again but I just saw her walk away. It hurt a lot by watching her just leave. I needed Demi, but now I can't have her.
It was three weeks later since me and Demi broke up. I walked into school feeling no point of even being there. Everyone had friends and everyone was in a group. I used to just hang out with Demi, but now since she got a boyfriend all she seems to do is hang out with him. I'm not hurt because she doesn't hang out with me. I'm hurt because she was able to move on so fast and get a boyfriend. Every time I see her I have a hole in my stomach. I was about to arrive to my first class early when the happy couple came over to me.
"Hey Selena where have you been, I haven't seen you around" I looked over at Demi and Nick. They always looked so happy together and I wanted to see Demi happy but I just wanted to be in that place.
"I've just been busy lately no worries. I have to get to class now see you guys around." I turned around hoping to get away from them, but Demi made me stop.
"Selena homeroom doesn't start for another fifteen minutes, why would you have to go now?" I wanted to keep walking to just ignore the question. I wanted to get away from Demi but I just couldn't. It was like my feet were glued to the ground and the only way they would become move is if I answered Demi.
"I just need to go right now. I can't be here around you Demi and I don't think I ever will be able to." With that I finally got the courage to just walk away. I didn't hear her call my name or her foot steps so I knew she was still in shock. I walked into homeroom and sat down next to Jennel. At least out of all of this stuff I have someone I know who will never leave. Demi walked in and saw as far away from me as possible but she kept looking over at me. I just ignored it and took out my notebook.
Something inside of me is telling me that what I said wasn't the smartest idea in the world. I just kept writing things down in my notebook hoping it would take time away and I could just escape away from Demi for a while.
