I woke up on this beautiful Sunday morning feeling like myself again. I pushed my covers off of my body and sat up on the side of the bed. The smile on my face was already planted. Maybe I would get through this day just fine. I got up and went to the bathroom and my smile dropped. In plain view on the white tiled floor was a big black shirt. It had all happened. It wasn't just some bad dream I was going to wake up from. This was real.I dropped to my knees and picked the shirt up. I ran my fingers over the material and started to memories from the day before flooded me one again. How could I have slept with a stranger? I lost to my virginity to a man I'd never see again. The man I finally gave in too was supposed to love me for the rest of my life. I was supposed to be so crazy about him that I felt like I would burst if he didn't touch me. The man I would have loved me to the end of the world and back. Instead the man I had actually lost it too wasn't even going to be thinking about me today. My face would never pass through his mind again. I was a one night thing and that was all I would ever be. To make it worse when I get older and my children are old enough to ask me who I lost it too I won't even be able to tell them his name because I never got it. Would it be rude if I went to his hotel room right now and asked him what his name was? Maybe that would make me feel a little better. That way I would at least have his name right? He seemed to know my name which made me feel twice as bad. He knew mine but I didn't know his. My name would be out of his mind in a couple days, so I guess I shouldn't feel as bad. Wait I should feel worse. My face will blend in with the rest of his 'partners' but sadly his face would forever be etched into my mind as a lesson learned and a dream lost. On a positive note he did seem generally nice from what I could tell from before my departure. So at least I didn't sleep with a total jerk. Even drunk I guess I had a little taste. I shook I need to think rationally. It was a drunken mistake. I learned my lesson I'm never going out drinking with Katelynn and Jenny again for one. Hell scratch that I'm never drinking again. Drinking is never the answer. I'll be straight edge from now on, I thought with a smile. The next time I get the urge to celebrate I will go buy wine coolers and chill out in front of my television. I was stronger than this. So now one of my dreams was down the toilet but I refuse to let myself go down the toilet with them. I got off my knees and looked at myself in the mirror. I am still NeCole Whitney Steiner. I am still a beautiful and successful young woman who is not going to let one bad night mess up her whole life. Plus its not like I will ever see his face again as a constant reminder of how stupid I was that night. I would hopefully forget him as he has probably already forgotten me. My stomach fell to my feet and his face popped up into my head. I couldn't get over this nagging feeling that he seemed familiar.I quickly shrugged it off, any one would look familiar after you slept with him. I stared back into the mirror at myself and I smiled. I can do this. I've had some pretty bad things thrown my way but I've handled them and I will handle this. I was starting to feel like my old self. This was just the thing I needed to give myself the perk I was in desperate need of. I'm still me but better because I have learned a life lesson.I looked over at my shower and I sighed. I need to take a shower. I tried to keep my smile permanent on my face despite the turn my thoughts were trying to take. Today is a new day and thats just how I will treat it. I went to the shower and turned the hot water on to let it heat up while I quickly grabbed a cute outfit to wear today. Tomorrow was the biggest day of my life and I need to get myself back on track before that so I have no time for ugly thoughts.

A half hour later I was finally out of the shower and putting my lotion on my legs when the bathroom door opened and both of my best friends were in the doorway staring at me. I sighed and stood up since i had one leg on the toilet doing my lotion. Katelynn ran in and gave me a hug. Her long brown hair was pulled up into a high ponytail. She held me there for a minute I patted her back with a crazy look on my face. What the hell was up with her? She was actually dressed and not in pajamas so she's been up awhile. She was in a white t-shirt and a pair of really tight fitting brown flare jeans. I patted her back twice in an attempt to let me go but she just squeezed me harder and started to cry.

"We are so sorry Nikki, we didn't plan on getting that drunk." I just stared at the ceiling as she held on to me. I kept periodically patting her back. She finally let me go and I saw the make-up had ran down her face. I felt easily just as bad as she did right now. It wasn't her fault that I had gotten smashed, sure she had contributed to it but she didn't force me to drink. I had done that all on my own and it was I that had to deal with all the consequences of my actions. I looked over at Jenny and her arms were crossed over her chest. Her eyes looked sad but her outfit was anything but that. Her tight green shorts showed off a little too much thigh and her tight white shirt hugged her body tight and dipped down into her chest showing off her sun kissed tan skin.

"I don't blame the two of you, we shouldn't have drank as much but that was all me drinking. You guys didn't pour them down my throat. Just for the record I'm fine and I have gotten over my little 'mishap' on friday night." Jenny stared at me with a disbelieving look but I rolled my eyes.

"Now if you guys don't mind I have to get dressed so well get out!" Jenny left the room rather quickly but Katelynn lingered. Maybe she seen the lie I don't know but as soon as she left I shut the door and finished my lotion then got started to get dressed. I quickly put on my bright blue bra and underwear then grabbed my sparkily blue but faded hip hugging jeans. I put on some deodorant then slid on just a regular white shirt that fit rather tightly. I ran a brush through my long auburn hair until it was so straight it looked straight ironed. I then grabbed my make up kit.

It took me a full fifteen minutes but I was completely done, make up and all. I smiled at myself in the mirror. Today was a new day, that was just how I was going to look at it. I walked straight over to my closet and started to pick out my business outfit for tomorrow. I really hate wearing panty hose. They make my legs sweat and it aggravates me. I inwardly groaned. Tomorrow was the biggest day of my life yet it was going to be irritating thanks to the hose. I settled on a black pinstripe blazer with a matching pencil skirt. I groaned at the skirt as well, since my hips were wider it made it extremely hard to walk in that blasted skirt. I took the hanger out of my closet and hung it up on the outside of the closet door. Just preparing for tomorrow was making me nervous. This could change my life. I could be living my dream, both of my friends worked for WWE in different departments so not only would I be living my dream, I wouldn't be alone. I kept breathing in and out slowly trying to calm my nerves, but I knew I would be like this until tomorrow. Great the last thing I needed was to be so nervous that I threw up on Mr. McMahon's desk. I plopped down on my bed...no sense even trying to leave my house. I would be a big ball of nerves until tomorrow...until tomorrow was all I could think about as I lied there in bed. It would be my only thought until I was actually in his office tomorrow with him sitting across from me..until tomorrow.

**A/N: first off sorry it took so long to get this out but my keyboard went out and I just got a new one late sunday night which explains why old obessions chapter was really a filler too also Im sorry this is just a filler chapter I know it kind of drags on but the next chapter she goes for her interview. so please review it makes me happy and due to some of the personal issues I have I could really use a smile. Thanks to all of those who have reviewed if I wasnt in such a hurry id name u all out..btw if you guys are a fan of hip hop music u should go listen to my boy novi novak hes a beat (:*