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The original creators were Mark McCorkle and Robert Schooley.
I receive nothing for the writing of this story.
This is a Kim and Ron Fanfic.
Previously
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"Yeah. For the most part, that about sums it up." he said. "Except for one thing, two things really but we will start with the one thing. I haven't told you about what s been troubling me. You hinted around and offered many times to help in any way that you could, but you never asked me directly. Thank you for giving me the time to work some of it out."
"Would you mind if we talked about it, now?"
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"Unnh?" said Kim. She was caught a little off balanced by this question. "Aah.. yeah.. ok." She sat on the edge of the bed as he had her full attention now.
"If you are ready Ron." Kim had been waiting and hoping for this moment for sometime. She had know that something had been troubling Ron since the fight with the Lowardians, but as Ron said, she wanted to be supportive and give him the time to work it out. She knew Ron and knew that it wouldn't have helped if she confronted him directly or tried to force the issue. Not this time. He was her best friend, her boy friend and hopefully soon to be, her lover. They would get through this. So she sat, nodded to Ron that when he was ready, to begin.
"Well, Him and Her both said that you would be the best person to talk to and understand. Ya know, it was almost like they knew you."
Ron stood and went to the window and glanced out. He was more nervous than he should be he thought to himself. He'd never felt this way before talking to Kim, except about how he felt about her.
"Before I begin Kim, I want you to know how much I love you and I'll understand if you won't want to be with me after we finish with this talk."
"Ron. I know this must be a serious matter for you. But I am going to help you through it if you let me. I'm not going to go running out the door from whatever it is you're going to tell me. Please stop trying to give me an easy way out of our relationship. In case you hadn't notice, I am made of sterner stuff than some girls."
"I noticed." Ron half smiled and then got a serious look on his face and started looking at the floor.
"Kim, how much do you remember about the end of fight with the Lowardian?"
Uh oh. I think I know where this is going, thought Kim. Best be careful. "I remember waking up and seeing you glowing blue and floating in the air. When you came down, you looked like you were fully charged with a blue electricity. Both Warmonga and Warhok tried to jump you. You grabbed them and were able to throw them into their own crashing spaceship, thus defeating them. No one else in the world could have done what you did that day. You..."
Ron held up his hand and said, "Stop Kim. That's what you saw."
"After the reporters got wind of it, I tried to pass the credit on to you, Dr. Drakken and Shego. You're the one that saves the world. Drakken came up with the plan and Shego helped him carry it out. But Yori had to make that damn home video of the battle. After that was leaked to the news, everybody said that I saved the world." Ron looks at Kim. She notices tears were starting to form in his eyes.
"I didn't save the world that day Kim. I saved you. You were all I cared about. When Warhok held you up by one leg and talked about using you as a wall decoration, I knew what I had to do. Something that I never thought about doing. "Thus defeating them." A very nice way of saying "murdering them."" Tears were running down Ron's cheeks now. His voice was starting to crack with emotion.
Kim's eyes were tearing now. Knowing that Ron had a gentle heart and soul, it must have been terrible to be praised for having done something that goes against everything you believe in. She knew that he had gone through therapy for this very thing.
It didn't worked. That was obvious now.
She started to get up to go to him and try and comfort him. "Ron..."
"Wait Kim. There's more, something I never told anyone. Mom, dad, Rabbi Katz, Sensei, the doctors or you, till now. When I...killed them...I...(sob)... wanted to. When he talked about killing you and hanging your dead body on a wall...all I could think about was beating him to a lifeless pulp. Seeing his blood cover the ground till it couldn't soak it all up, and it ran like streams from his dead carcase. And her too! They both wanted you dead...and I wanted them dead. If I could have, I would have brought them back to life, just so I could killed them again."
Ron fell to his knees in front of Kim crying, "I have become more evil that the worst villain we ever fought, Kim." He is almost screaming now and openly crying."I killed two people ...that...I...wanted dead...and... I don't regret it at all."
Kim fell to her knees and embraced Ron, who's crying was almost uncontrollable. She was crying now too, seeing the total pain that Ron was in and it is because of his love for her. Holding him, she tried to comfort him any way possible. Pulling his head to her shoulder, she rubbed his back and hair. "He's put himself though hell because of me and I don't know if I would have done anything different had I been in his shoes." she thought to herelf.
"Ron...
It's alright baby...
It's going to be ok...
We are going to work this thing out...
and Ron...
I do want to be with you now.
I love you."
Kim held Ron as cried, letting out 5 year of worry, concern and self loathing in the form of tears.
All she could do at this point was hold him. Whispering encouragements when she thought he could hear them. When his sobs started to quieten down a little, she kiss his head and started singing in a very soft and sad tone, only for him.
Say the word,
Make a call and I ll be there,
Anytime, anywhere Have you heard?
That I m all about savin your world
All you have to do is say the word Say the word
In trouble, in it deep
This is a promise that I can keep
Make it right, count on me
To be the best friend I can be
When your life is bending Upside down
I'll be the one to turn it around.
If you find your world is cavin in
You can bet your gonna need a friend
You will fly Or I will take your fears away."
Somewhere in the middle of the song, Ron stop crying. After she finished, Ron said," You still have a beautiful voice Kim."
"I'll let you in on a little secret." she said as she ran her hand through his hair. "My best friend in the world wrote that song for me back in high school. I didn't realize till later that he was telling me how much he loved me. I think it's time I lived up to those words he wrote."
"Rufus helped write it. To bad you didn't know what a monster I was going to become." Ron started to pull away from Kim.
"Oh no. Sorry Ron, but you are not pulling away from me till you hear me out. Okay?"
(pause)
"Okay. But it won't change anything."
"Let me try. First, you are not a monster. If you were, you would have done those things to 'Make them bleed.' You had the power, but you didn't. You did what had to be done. If a mad dog was in a school yard full of children, what would you do?"
"Ron, they were mad dogs. They would have killed anyone they wanted and felt nothing. They just wanted to start with me. No one could stop them. Not the Army, Air Force, Global Justice or Team Go. There was only you."
"I'm sorry Ron, but that stuff about "not regretting it," is crap. If you didn't regret it then why have you put yourself through this hell for 5 years? We all have dark thoughts sometimes in our lives. I've had them. All those times I fought Shego. Did you think we were just dancing? Remember, those glowing green hands of her's are able to cut through Lowardian steel. Every time we fought, I was trying to hurt her as much as I could. We were just to evenly matched for either of us to do much damage. Am I a monster?"
"Remember that gardening tip Sensei told you, about the flower needing darkness as well as light to grow? It's what makes us human. Good and bad. We all have it. It's how we act or don't act that matters. Do you think Sensei would have helped you if he thought you were going to become Zorpox again or another, Monkey Fist or The Yono? And didn't you tell me he said something about your heart remaining pure in order to be able to call the Lotus Blade?"
Ron sat on the floor in front of the bed staring off into a space only he could see. Kim moved close and putting her arms around him to anchor him to her, she rested her head on his shoulder and waited for him to understand what she said to him and knowing that she was there for him.
Finally he whispered to her, "Kim?"
"Yeah baby?"
"Do you believe all that? You don't think I'm a monster?"
"No Ron, I don't think you're a monster. I do think you are a man, with very deep and hurt feelings. Mom knows a lot of doctors and we can find one that can help you through this if I can't."
"We, Ron. Both of us. Together. I wish you would have told me this a long time ago. We might have been able to save you some pain."
(Pause)
"Maybe I needed to go through it. "
"Well, I guess then if I am a monster, I'm the luckiest monster in world to have you wanting to be with me and help me." He backed up enough to wipe his nose and rub his eyes. Then he smiled at Kim.
Kim wasn't sure if she cried or laughed as she hugged him. He hugged her back making the same sounds.
After a few minutes, Ron said, "Kim?...I think I have to use the bathroom."
Kim chuckled and looked him straight in the eyes. "Are you alright Ron... for now?"
"Yeah. (pause) Funny. I actually feel better than I have in a long time. "
With that he went down to the bathroom.
Kim heard water running. He must be washing his face.
"Kim Possible, one of these day you are not going to be able to live up to your hype. But at least this wasn't one of those days." she thought to herself. Looking around, she saw that she still had some of her dessert left and was getting hungry.
When Ron came back he was looking more like himself. Seeing Kim, sitting on the floor with her back propped up against the bed eating, reminded Ron that he hadn't eaten for a while and was starting to get hungery himself.
"Hey. How does it feel to save another drowning man's life?" he said as he sat down across from her on the floor.
"I just had to hold his head above water long enough for him to catch his breath and remind him that he knew how to swim."
"Ron, tell me more about "her."
"Well, let's see. When she fought, her style was almost like your's, with a lot of Yori thrown in. She taught me several exercises, like for stamina and body control. We talked a great deal about you and how I feel about you.
"She taught me the Dance of the Crazied Monkey. I'll tell you about that later.
She also taught me about botany which I later learned was anatomy." Ron's face deepened a shade of red.
"Huh? What was that?" asked Kim.
"Weeell, she brought in a lot of drawings of flowers, at least I thought they were flowers. Anyway, she show me drawings of flowers in various stages of blooming. She traced the petals to show how touch or stimulation, would allow them to bloom and open up more fully. Further touch seemed to make the bloom vibrate with it's own harmony." Ron's face took on a deeper reddish color. "It wasn't till she brought in some colored paintings that I realized what she had really been talking about."
Then he smiled. "Maybe it will come in handy sometime."
"You know Ron, technically we are out of college." she said softly and to see if she got a response, as she moved her foot over to rub his leg. "So we have lived up to the terms of our agreement."
"What agreement?" He asked her sounding a little confused about what she meant, and then the light came on as he blushed a little and said. "Oh. he he That agreement."
"Un huh." she said slowly.
"Kim, I may be a lot of things, man, monster or murderer, but I am male. I don't want to force you into doing anything because of an agreement we made four years ago or you think it's something to help me."
She leaned over quickly and held his lips together to shut him up so she could talk. "Ron, you have no idea how many times in the last 4 years I've regretted making that agreement." Ron's face started to fall, but she continued. "I didn't want to wait this long to move on with our lives "together," and I'm looking forward to it. Maybe I'm a little nervious, but definitly looking forward to it."
"I really want to Kim, but there are two big obstacles in the way right now."
"What ever they are Ron, we'll find a way to work around them." Kim replied with a hint of fear that the obstacles were related to his problem.
"Well," said Ron, "It ten minutes till eight o'clock and you said my rents and Hanna would be back then, and we're both hungry!" he smiled.
She gave hm a smile tinged with frustration but when she saw his smile she saw something that she realized that she has missed over the past year. Something that she missed very much.
Ron shine.
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TBC
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