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Chapter 3: Never Let Go
I've been here in my room ever since the accident. It has been a couple of hours but I was still shaking. I could still feel his cold hands on my skin. Tracing the purple bruises with his fingers.
The memory just wouldn't go away. It kept playing in my head. My mind was getting confused. I started shaking more, tears began to fall on the bed.
Why is this happing to me? Why? I punched the pillow hard. What did I do to deserve this crap? Am I really that worthless?
My mind began spinning. The confusion grew more and more. "Fuck I can't do this shit anymore!" I threw the closest thing that was near me at the wall. "Why is this fucking happing to me!"
I got up and smashed the mirror. I was sick of looking at myself I'm just shit. Blood started dripping from my hand onto the carpet. The pain was quiet enjoyable. I smiled as I licked the blood off my hands. Pain, I just can't get enough.
I bent over to grab a piece of glass. I held it in my palm letting it cut through my skin. The thrill felt good. Finally I stared at my refection threw the broken glass, I looked like some psychopath wanting to kill someone.
After a moment of staring I placed the glass just a little above my arm. Then pressed down on it letting the blood gush out. My smile grew wider. I never knew pain could feel this good. I repeated this a few times till my arm was covered in blood.
"Hey Mello you here?", Matt was home and if he caught me I was screwed.
"Yeah I'll be out right now.", I yelled from my bedroom.
Quickly grabbed the blanket and wrapped my arm in it, trying to get rid of the blood. Crap the mirror. Oh well make up some stupid story.
I walked out of my room to were Matt was. He looked at me frightened.
"What the fuck happened to you?", Matt stared at me.
"Nothing."
"Mello tell me what's wrong with you. Your covered in blood and your face is fucking bruised how can you tell me nothings wrong.!"
I looked at him, with a evil face. "Matt shut up quiet lying to me I'm worthless let me go die!" I pushed him out of the way an ran to my room..
"Mello!" He said following me. I slammed the door shut and sat on my bed.
"Mello open this fucking door. Tell me what the fuck is wrong with you!"
I stayed quiet. I felt my eyes get all water, my arm still burned from the cuts.
"Fuck! Mello!" Suddenly the door flew open. Matt's face looked shocked when he saw my room. It was tore up. His eyes finally looked at my arm covered in the blanket. He looked at me with tears streaming down his face.
"Mello….", his voice trailed off. "I'm sorry I couldn't help you." He started walking away.
"Matt, no don't go." I stood up to stop him. "it's not your fault it's mine. I just don't want you hurt." He turned around and stared at me.
"I want to protect you Mello, you're my best friend, I don't want to see you like this." He pushed me gently into the door frame. His arms created a shield around me. His face came close to mine.
His eyes stared deep into mine, while his fingered traced the bruises on my face. "Who has been doing this to you." His voice was in a whisper.
"I can't tell your not going to die because of me." His eyes dropped to the floor.
"When will you tell me."
"When I know were both safe." I whispered softly. He looked back at me. His face turned soft. He lifted y face to his, and then he pressed his lips to mine.
Matt's kiss was unlike anything I ever expected. It was to perfect for words. Suddenly his lips parted from mine. His eyes were watching mine, as his lips turned into a smirk.
"You don't know how long I waited for that." He admitted. I felt my face turn red.
"Well I could say the same." Matt gave a chuckle, and dropped his arms around me. He just stood there.
"What are you doing?" I asked.
"I'm just thinking." He said in a low voice. "Mello, I think I love you?"
My eyes flew open at the word. I have feeling for Matt but I never expected for him to have feelings for me. "You think?"
"Yup." He nodded still looking at me through his goggles. My face was burning up. I looked away trying to hide my face expression. He just chuckled.
"Matt?" I came closer to his face. "Do you love me?" I asked looking into his eyes. He smiled at me and took my hand.
"Yes I think I do." I smiled back and brought my lips back to his. This time I kissed him harder, nearly pushing him on the floor. He kissed back with more force than expected. I smiled and pushed on the floor.
" Matt, I think I love you too." I kissed him again forcing my tongue down his throat. He let out a soft moan. As soon as the kiss parted, we both stared at each other. Our eyes were watching each others trying to see what the other was thinking.
Suddenly the doorbell rang. "Talk about a mood killer.", Matt said under his breath. He gently pushed me off of him and got up to answer the door. I quickly stood up and sat on the couch like nothing was wrong. I smiled to myself finally knowing Matt loved me and was on my side.
"Umm Mello?" Matt looked at me while he was grabbing his smokes. I looked back at him curiously. "I need to go do something . If you want I could stay."
I looked at him hiding my sadness. "You can go if you want to." He looked at me then look at his other friend, and whispered something to him. Then he left.
"Matt, aren't you going?", I asked confused.
"Nah, I go out to much, and besides I want to spend sometime with you." He put his cigarettes down on the counter and sat next to me on the couch, wrapping his arms around me. I laid my head on his shoulder and closed my eyes.
"Matt." I whispered in a low voice.
"Yeah."
"Never let me go."
He stroked my hair and kissed my forehead. "I'll never let you go, I promise."
With that said I was finally slipped into peaceful sleep with Matt right next to me.
