"Hurry up!"
It's all hazy.
"One, two,three-now!"
It's dark.
"Come on, boy. You'll make it!"
Am I alone?
"Beep…beep…beep…"
Am I dead?
"…lucky…could've been much worse…"
Where am I?
"…hyperthermia…carbon poisoning…"
Where is he?
"HE DID WHAT?!"
Who's shouting?
"Why?! Why you BAKAGAMI!"
Who's crying?
"…saved you!"
Why can't I think?
"…I love you."
Him. Its Kuroko. Kuroko! Listen, think,remember!
"Why did you do that? How am I suppose to play basketball, look at Seirin, HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO LIVE WITHOUT YOU?! You saved me. You saved me and did THIS to yourself. Why Kagami-Kun? What if you never wake up? Please, please. Listen to me. I NEED you, I can't live without you…they tell me to go back to school, to go back to basketball! Hell, I don't even think there's been basketball since… I can't do it, Kagami. I see them in the halls. Riko, Hyuga, Kiyoshi, all of them! They can barely look at me, I can barely look at me. The whole team is dead without you… please Kagami-Kun, if you can hear me, wake up! Please wake up and brighten up this hell that is life without you! I love you, I love you!"
He's crying. He's whispering my name into his hands. Muffling his tears in a blanket. I want to, Kuroko. I want to get up I want to get up and tell you it's alright! But this useless body! It doesn't listen to me anymore…Kuroko I'm here, I can hear you…
Dark.

There's breathing, and noises...
Someone's here?
They're…crying?
Don't cry! Don't cry!
"Stop it! Do you think he'd want this?"
Izuki?
"I can't help it! I miss him!"
Koganei?
"He's probably listening right now and laughing at you, you know."
Kiyoshi-Sempai!
"Yeah, stop crying, Seirin FIGHT!"
Sniffles. Was all the team here? For him…for me…?

"Why did Kuroko not come?"

"He didn't say…"

"…haven't seen him around lately…"
"…he looks sick…"
"WELL WHAT YOU MORONS EXPECT AFTER WHAT HAPPENED?!"
"Hyuga shut up or that nurse will come shout again!"
"I'm just saying we can't loose another team mate. Another friend!"
"Until Kagami wakes up… he's broken."
"DON'T SAY THAT!"

"Riko, come on its time to go, everyone's already gone."
"Kiyoshi, I just want to say…goodbye."
"Yeah I'll uh, go get some sodas…"
"Kagami, I um, I know what you did for Kuroko in there. That was just…you really did good,okay. Better than any of the Generation of Miracles! I know…it may not have seemed like it earlier, but the whole team's devastated by this. You're not here, Kuroko's…dead inside. You can see it in his eyes…"
Why is she crying?
"I'm sorry Kagami! I'm so sorry! It's all my fault if it weren't for me you…you and Kuroko, everyone would be fine! Please I'm so sorry…I,"
She was tugging at my blankets, I could feel it, her tears were falling on my face. I want to hold her. To explain how it wasn't her fault or anyone's fault. If only I could just work my own body again!
"No, Riko…come on, It's not your fault."
Thank you Senpai! I don't want my strong coach to cry!

"I know you've probably heard this a million times by now, but please, you need to wake up."
Captain?
"No! As your captain I demand you wake up! Get up right now or I'll kick you off the team!"
Was he crying to? Or just angry?
"Who am I kidding? There is no team…"
"No one's the same without you, Kagami! Kuroko rarely even comes to school anymore, and when he does he looks like he's on the edge of…"
"Edge of what?"
"Aomine? What are you doing here?"
Aomine? What's Aomine, of all people coming here for?!
"Errr…just passing through, um you know I was there when they found them, so…"
"Look if you're here to suffocate his body or something…!"
"What the?! No! After what he did for Tetsu?"
He was shouting…or was he…?
"I… look I just wanted to say… I'm going! Don't worry!"
"What?"
WHAT?!
Was Aomine CAPABLE OF THIS?! Least of all thanking ME, of all people! Why?
"Please wait! Aomine, why?"
Silence.
"He… he saved Tetsu, and practically killed himself doing it… I, take that into consideration."
There was a slammed door.
"Huh, you even got Aomine's respect Kagami… I don't know whether to congratulate you or run away."

"MIDORIMACHI! Stop pulling!"
"Just sit down, Kise."
"I want to lie with him!"
"You can't, just…"
"He saved my little Kurokochi! He's a hero!"
"That's why we're here. But you can't fiddle around with those tubes, KISE!"
"Fine, okay…"
He was complaining.
"MURASAKIBARICHI! DON'T HOLD ME UP LIKE THAT!"
All the shouting hurts my ears.
"Here I'll leave the candy next to his bed."
"You know it'll go off, just eat it Murasakibara"
"Okay"
No! I'll wake up soon! Eh, I'd prefer Maji burger anyway…
"Kise, why isn't Aomine here? Shouldn't he be at your place?"
Did Aomine live with Kise? Didn't see that coming…
"I don't think you'd want him too, he came home at 4am drunk again and…"
"Kise! Can't you get a handle on this?!"
"I try but he won't listen to me Midorimacchi!"
" I think I'll have to call Akashi if this doesn't end…"
"NO! He doesn't…he doesn't know, about, us… he'll not like it…"
"It's been over 3 month. Kise, he can't go on like this, according to my calculations, if he continues drinking so recklessly like this he'll only…"
"Stop, Midorimachi! I don't want to hear your horrible figures!"
"It's been 3 months already?"
"Murasakibarichi! Don't encourage him!"
"Yes, by the way, have any of you seen Kuroko around?"
"I went by his apartment a few days ago, but he wasn't there…he's not himself lately…"

"Kagami-Kun. Im sorry, I haven't been visiting you regularly. I find it hard, to get out of bed, never mind leave the apartment. Every time I go down the stairs I expect to see you waiting for me like before. Telling me to hurry up. But your not. Its because of me you're never there. I'm sorry! I'm so sorry! They held a mass for you today. It's been 3 months now. I heard a nurse saying after what happened, you might never wake up. I heard a doctor say you've made little to no progress. I don't want to be there if…they take out your life support. Even if it's in ten years. I can't live without you any more. There's no point…"
Kuroko? What are you saying? What's happening?
"I still love you. I'll always love you. I'm sorry, I'm sorry for giving up! You would hate me, you hate quitters, but we were suppose to do it together. And I'm all alone."
I can feel him on me again, on my legs like before…
His touch, so similar, his hand warmer now…
Not freezing cold.
Little droplets slide down my neck, just like before, little wet ice particles that melt as our bodies meet…
Wait, why is there droplets sliding down me from his hand?
Why are they so warm?
This isn't water.
It's blood.
An sharp intake of breath comes from above me.
"I love you, Kagami."
He whispers as I hear soft slicing sounds as more blood trickles onto my neck from his hands.
He kisses me softly and I can smell the blood on him.
"I'm so sorry, Kagami! I did not deserve your love! I did this! It's my fault!'
NO.
NO.
NO.
KUROKO. KUROKO DON'T DO THIS KUROKO STOP.
I've never been filled with more will power in my life.
STOP. I internally scream with every droplet of his blood I smell, I feel, I hear.
Crying inside myself, I thrash around, desperate to escape this dark prison. My body.
LET ME FREE! KUROKO WAIT! I scream and is it possible? Did I move?
KUROKO, PLEASE DON'T DO THIS! IM HERE I'VE ALWAYS BEEN HERE!
Beep…beep beep beep beep…
I thrash around, and suddenly, I can see. My vision is hazed, but I'm free. I can save him.
"Kurroookkooo..?" I mumble barely audible, my throat scratchy from tubes running down it and a lack of use.
"Kurrrookkooo?" I try again, slowly moving my head, trying not to faint.
The room is dark. Why isn't he responding? Why can't he hear me?
There is a loud bang that rings throughout my ears and makes my vision blur. I feel some of the sheets covering my legs fall of and I reach out to find a light switch beside me, hoping I won't have to get up so soon. Still attempting to call for Kuroko, my hand falls on a button on the bedside table. Clicking it, the room is thrown into a blaze of overpowering, unnaturally yellow light. I squint looking for him around my small room. Then I look down.
Kuroko. My Kuroko. He lies on the floor at the foot of my bed, his skin white, lying in a pool of red blood. He is not breathing.

Screaming. I am sitting up but all around me, male and females dressed in medical uniforms are making inhuman noises. My vision is hazy with red stains. My mind is foggy and distant. I reach up to my neck. Some dried blood-Kuroko's blood- still lies here.

I fall back on the new pillow they gave me. I'm in a new room. On a new bed. But it's all the same. Kuroko is dead. He killed himself. When will they tell them? In the morning? Tonight? I did not save him.

I turn over stiffly and stare at the little locker on the right. On it is a box of lots of little pills with little labels. There is quite a few in there. I pull out all of the uncomfortable little tubes going in and out of my body. All of them. I don't care what they do.

Then I look at the little box again.