Chapter Three

I know you want me
I made it obvious that I want you too
So put it on me
Let's remove the space between me and you

Enrique Iglesias - Tonight

"You did what?"

I sunk back into the sofa cringing slightly but keeping my head low, avoiding looking at Kate who now stood in front of me looking livid and quite dangerous. So much for full disclosure and open-mindedness between us, she really wasn't taking what I'd just told her well. A conversation which had began as a celebration over finding my apartment quickly turned into this when she found out about Christian.

Suffice to say the near kiss played heavily on my mind upon returning back home. If I was honest I was in two minds about whether or not to tell Kate because one part of me craved advice from my best friend and the other side of me just kept saying it had been nothing. If that were true though then why was it still replaying over and over in my head? And why only last night did I dream that there had been no interruption and we had in fact kissed? Surely if it meant nothing it wouldn't be affecting me this much right? Or was I turning out to be one of those pathetic little girls who swooned over drop dead gorgeous men, men that were amazing to look at but not the kind of men you could be with but still you craved them? If that was the case then I was thoroughly disappointed in myself for being so shallow.

Sure Christian Grey was beautiful in that god like way of his and sure there was a certain something about him I found kind of a turn on but that still didn't explain why he affected me so much. It wasn't right and I didn't like it, I didn't like how much he had invaded my mind after so little time. Maybe I had been single for longer than normal, perhaps that's why this attraction to him felt so intense, because he wasn't my type. Usually I found myself attracted to the more nerdy guys and I'm not talking the stereotypical nerds I'm talking about the guys who were smart, more aloof, funny and extremely easy to be yourself with. Guys like Elliot who were good-looking but someone you immediately felt at ease around. With Christian it was the opposite, around him everything was heightened, he was intoxicating, just his mere presence sent my head awhirl and I'd never experienced that before. It was a little unnerving.

"Please tell me you're kidding. Please tell me you weren't stupid enough to kiss him!" Kate yelled at me, making me once again wince before I looked up at her. Yes, she definitely wasn't taking any of this well at all and it was innocent, well aside from the near kiss but that's all it had been, a near kiss.

"Kate it wasn't like that, we didn't kiss he just tagged along with me to look at my new apartment." I told her, hating the fact I now felt like a child being scolded by her Mother. Kate scoffed and shook her head; turning away from me and walking over to the window before turning back to me, crossing her arms over her chest that stony look still on her face.

"What made you think it'd be a good idea to take him along Jess? Did you not think about how Ana would feel?" she asked, throwing her arm out to the side, indicating to the hallway when she said Ana's name. The other brunette was in her room apparently and more than likely able to hear everything Kate was yelling, subtly really wasn't a strong suit of Kate's. Rolling my eyes I shook my head standing up to look at her, it wasn't my place to say anything about Ana and Christian's relationship or lack thereof so all Kate was seeing was my near kiss with Ana's ex.

"He asked and I didn't see a problem with it..." I started only to be cut off mid sentence when she laughed and shook her head,

"Babe him and Ana have just broken up, you should have ignored him on principle. A near kiss is a big deal and that's exactly how Ana's going to see it." She told me and I bit down on my lip, crossing my arms tightly over my chest. I was completely at a loss of how to defend myself because she was right in a way, even if Ana and Christian weren't together he wasn't someone I should have been allowing myself to get too close to.

"Actually it's not."

Both Kate and I turned quickly in surprise, stunned to find Ana stood in the doorway to the living room dressed in a comfortable pair of light blue jeans and white shirt. Her blue eyes wide and her beautiful brunette hair had been parted into two pig-tails giving her an almost childlike innocence. She smiled at us both as she crossed her arms over her chest, mirroring our stances as her gaze began drifting between us both before landing on Kate.

"You're not the quietest when you're ranting." She said jokingly and I couldn't fight the smile, Ana was right there. Kate scowled and un-crossed her arms before sighing. "Look I overheard everything and well, I figured it was about time I was honest." She stated quietly moving further into the room and I held my breath thinking I was pretty sure I knew what she was going to say.

"About what?" Kate asked Ana as the other girl sat down on the sofa, curling her legs beneath her. Kate sat beside her and I hovered somewhat awkwardly in the centre of the room before finally sitting down on the chair off to the side.

Ana clasped her hands together, staring at them intently and I had to admit I was more so intrigued now than I had been when Christian had told me they weren't together. Ana looked up and took a breath shooting a small smile at me before glancing over at Kate who was staring at her with a furrowed brow.

"At the interview 2 months ago, Christian and I...well we got to talking as you know him eventually turning the questions onto me. Um, we spoke about what I had planned, for after graduation and I told him that I wanted to go into publishing, I mentioned SID and my interview with them in a week. For some reason my idea about eBooks came up and he seemed really intrigued, agreeing with me that something like that could boost the profit of any publishing company." Ana explained and I had to agree, almost everything was being done online nowadays upgrading your company to include eBooks would no doubt do wonders for profit.

"Then we had the photo shoot with Jose, at which time he came to me as you know with a proposition of sorts. He'd invested in a small yet profitable publishing company in Italy and told me that he wanted me to work there as commissioning editor." She explained, pausing long enough to look at me and Kate. I sat with my mouth hanging open in shock; Kate had pretty much the same expression. Commissioning Editor, at 21 years old, blimey he had that much faith in someone he barely knew? Ana took a breath before continuing, ignoring the goldfish looks she was receiving from her friends.

"Honestly it was completely out of the blue but Christian says the business whilst doing well, it could be doing better and for some insane reason he believes I could help boost its profit, like with creating an eBook side to the business. It's completely insane I know, Italy, me, practically running a publishing business this is what I've always wanted I'm just getting there a lot sooner than I'd expected." She finished lamely, wringing her fingers together as she looked between us, her gaze lingering on the unusually silent Kate. The blonde shook her head and held up a hand, her brow furrowed, still obviously trying to work something out.

"Italy that's insane!" she exclaimed, combing her fingers through her hair as she looked at me and then back to Ana. "I don't get it though, how long have you known?" she asked, Ana smiled sheepishly and shrugged her slim shoulders.

"Well for the last two months pretty much, he asked but I didn't accept till about a month ago after talking with my Dad." Ana replied, chewing down on her lip a habit we both seemed to possess. "Since I said yes we've spent the weekends talking, making arrangements, drawing up plans for the company, expanding and such, I've also been trying to locate with Christian's help an apartment over there." Kate nodded slowly and it was clear to see she was still stunned by the news, as was I but I knew out of the pair of us this would be affecting her more than me considering how close her and Ana had become over the last four years.

"So you're going to Italy?" she asked quietly, her eyes fixed on the brunette beside her. Ana nodded her head smiling softly. "When do you leave?"

"Straight after graduation, you know the sooner I get there the sooner I can get myself settled and familiarize myself with everything." Ana answered, tucking a lock of her hair behind her ear. Kate's eyes watered and she quickly reached forward pulling Ana into a tight hug.

"I can't believe you're leaving and so soon, it's all happening so fast!" Kate said and she was right, it was happening extremely fast and in another way it was completely mind-blowing. I guess to Ana though it wasn't so fast since she'd had a little longer to process all this life changing news.

"It is but it's exciting too you know, being thrown straight in at the deep end." Ana replied with a smile as she and Kate parted, I smiled at the pair and shook my head,

"Italy as well, color me jealous where about are you going?" I asked intrigued, honestly Italy was one of my many dream destinations. Ana looked at me and the excitement in her eyes suddenly burst to life, I suddenly became aware of how hard it must have been for her to hold this in and keep it too herself for so long.

"Florence, I've only seen pictures but it looks incredible." Ana said with a bright smile, one you couldn't help but return, feeling the excitement radiating off her.

"So you and Christian...?" Kate trailed off, obviously stuck on this revelation, funny; I'd been exactly the same only yesterday. Ana slowly shook her head and I didn't miss the look she gave me almost knowing with a touch of...sympathy?

"We were never together, you just assumed and until I was ready to tell you about all of this I let you believe it. I guess it was easier and before you mention it I didn't spend my weekends there, a couple yes as it was easier but most weekends I was here; alone you were the one away with Elliot so you knew no different." Ana explained, shooting Kate a warm smile. I'll admit for a time there was a definite attraction but that was all, we're completely platonic,"

"Okay...I guess." Kate replied and I was stunned, this was the first time she'd been almost speechless and I found it hilarious, this was definitely a first. Ana smiled and looked around, clapping her hands together.

"Back to the matter that brought me in here though..." Ana started and I felt my face flush a slight pink as Kate shifted on the sofa. I didn't need to look at her to know she wasn't happy with the near kiss, hence why I hid from her the attraction I felt to Christian; worried she'd probably hate me. "Do you like Christian?" Ana asked me bluntly, making me stop and just stare at her in surprise; she was direct and straight to the point that had never happened before where Ana was concerned before.

Tucking my hair back behind my ear I looked from Ana to Kate warily before sighing, "I guess I think he's pretty good looking and he's uh..." I trailed off as an image of Christian popped into my head, an image of the two of us and suddenly I was taken back to that moment in the apartment. I could almost feel the heat from his own body seeping through into my skin as our lips moved ever steadily closer together, so close we almost...

"Oh my god you are attracted to him!" Kate exclaimed and I was roughly dragged from my spontaneous day dream. Flushing scarlet I looked at Ana to see her chuckling, "Damn that man and his good looks." Kate scoffed; shaking her head obviously not happy to find out that just when she'd thought one friend was free of Mr Grey, she finds out the other friend is attracted to him. Biting down on my lip I forced a tight smile suddenly feeling very uncomfortable, which for me was a first, I was usually so at home here. Glancing at my watch I stood.

"Anyway I should get going I still have a tonne of packing to do and I'd rather not have to suffer through it tomorrow when we should be celebrating!" I sang as I stood. As part of tradition the night before graduation on campus, was usually spent with all graduating students piled into bar. One last hoorah so to speak where we all celebrated the night before the rest of our lives I guess, maybe a little dramatic but hey, we were still young and it'd be nice to spend one more night celebrating that.

Kate nodded forcing a smile onto her face and I could see she was worried, or was it angry? Either way she wasn't too thrilled with me but knowing Kate by tomorrow she'd be over it and we'd be having fun, Ana though stood. "I'll see you to the door." She said surprising me, considering this place was almost like my second home, I'd never needed to be walked to the door. Waving in Kate's direction I followed Ana to the now open front door and stepped outside, ready to bid her goodbye only to have the other brunette follow me out, closing the door over behind her.

"Sorry about the dramatics I just wanted to talk to you away from Kate, it's clear to see how she feels about Christian." She chuckled and I nodded my head, considering the blonde was marrying into the family she sure as hell didn't make it a secret she didn't approve of Christian. Ana ran her fingers through her hair before sighing softly. "Look it's none of my business of course but I've gotten to know Christian at least as much as he will allow me to know him and he's different to most guys Jessica."

"I've noticed that." I commented, I didn't get like this with most guys but I knew she was referring to him as a person. Ana chuckled and nodded her head before fixing her wide eyes onto me again.

"I just wanted to tell you to make sure you're careful. I saw it, that day in the kitchen that look you two shared the attraction was obvious from the get go on both sides." She told me and I fought the urge to scoff not believing Christian was attracted to me; he sure hadn't acted like it the other day. "Christian's charming, he's handsome but there's something about him I can't put my finger on, almost dangerous you know?"

I nodded my head, I did know. There was something so dangerously enticing about him, almost like you knew you shouldn't but you couldn't help but want to get closer. Like a moth to a flame, you knew you'd more than likely be burnt but you couldn't fight it, you needed to get closer. "I don't have any plans to get closer to Grey Ana, besides once I'm in Seattle I'll have work, there'll be no time for near kisses with attractive CEO's." I told her, half joking glad my smile didn't falter when I said that. As the words slipped from my lips I felt a nagging sickly feeling in my stomach at the thought of not seeing him again.

Damn this was ridiculous!

Ana smiled at me, almost knowingly and nodded her head before taking a step back. "Whatever you say Jess, I'll see you tomorrow." She said. Quickly bidding her goodnight I made my escape and descended the steps and moved onto the street, inhaling the cool night air. Closing my eyes I forced all thoughts of Christian Grey away, determined to prove Ana and that knowing smile of hers wrong. Blowing out a breath I opened my eyes smiled and began my walk to the next street, hopefully to catch a cab back to campus before the damned rain began again.


Finally the night before Graduation Day was here and I couldn't have felt more relieved or happier. One last night together as a class celebrating the eve of our first step out into the real world. It seemed so daunting getting ready to leave. For four years we'd studied together, partied together and just enjoyed every single part of being young and to think after this we were supposed to grow up and take charge of our lives, well it was scary. It was like leaving high school all over again. On the other hand though I couldn't wait, it was exciting we were finally at the stage high school and college had been prepping us for and I was moving closer to my dream. At least I hoped I was.

Today though was all about getting trashed, waking up tomorrow morning bright and early and regretting the previous night's activities. Hopefully the Graduation Ceremony wouldn't be completely full of hung-over graduates like last year. No, I think we were all sensible enough to know when we'd reached our limits.

"We have more margaritas!" Kate sang as she returned from the bar placing another pitcher of the heavily tequila based drink in the centre of the table. She was dressed similar to me with a dark cami, skinny jeans, heels and her beautiful blonde hair tied up into a messy bun. Me, well I was dressed in a comfortable pair of low-rise dark jeans, a white high-low tank top that I adored simply due to how it fell, a pair of three inch black heels and my chocolate curls hung loose around my shoulders, though tonight they had an added slightly tousled out of bed look to them.

I felt good. Though that was no doubt partly due to the drink, the atmosphere here tonight was incredible, contagious even. Ana who was not only celebrating her last night as a student but her last night here with us at least for a while, tomorrow after graduation she was set to be leaving us and although it was incredibly sad for Kate especially it was terribly exciting and partly what we were drinking to tonight.

"There's no way I can drink any more without needing to be carried out." Ana exclaimed, hiding her glass as Kate tried to top it up. The slightly intoxicated blonde scoffed and shook her head,

"Be reckless Ana!" she told her friend, holding the pitcher out to Ana tempting her. Smirking I nodded my head, taking a sip of my own topped up drink,

"Yeah Ana join us on the dark side it's fun!" I told her teasingly feeling slightly intoxicated myself but not enough to worry about paying for it in the morning. I was lucky to know my limits, didn't mean I didn't at times push those limits. I was still young, getting drunk and dancing the night away was all part of the deal sometimes.

Somewhere between my teasing comment, Levi's arrival, and the role of Ana's eyes Kate had topped up Ana's glass before sitting down and picking up her phone a tell tale smile spreading over her face. It didn't take two guesses to figure out who was texting her, there was only one person who could put a smile like that on her face and she was lucky enough to call that man her fiance. Again I found myself hoping I one day found the guy who could put that same smile on my own face. As if on cue, steely eyes appeared at the forefront of my mind and I had to force away the memory of them.

"That the future Mr Kavanagh?" I asked having to shout over the music. Kate looked up laughing softly as she nodded her head, that smitten look shining brightly in her eyes.

"Yeah, I sent him that group picture of us all, said he wants to come down and join in the fun, should be here any minute." She told me having to shout as equally loud an excited glint in her eyes. Shaking my head I laughed my mind referring back to the group photo we'd taken only half an hour ago, me, Kate, Ana, Jose, Levi, Greg and Derek. The last three worked with Kate on the paper, sweet guys though I'm sure Levi was still sore that Kate was getting married as proven when his smiling face contorted into a scowl at the mention of the lovable guy that was Kate's fiance.

It seemed as well; as far as Kate and I were concerned her annoyance with me and this attraction to Christian Grey had been forgotten about, much to my immense relief. The longer she lingered on something the longer I ended up thinking about it and aside from graduation tomorrow I knew I'd likely never see Christian again and if I ignored the slight pang in my chest by thinking that I was actually okay. As I made a move to reply to her comment about Elliot a familiar song began blasting from the speakers and my eyes lit up.

Seeing my instant reaction Kate laughed clapping her hands and cheering me on as I stood up, downed the rest of my margarita quickly and hurried out onto the dance floor leaving my friends behind as 'Friday I'm in love' by The Cure kicked off. I easily weaved my way through the crowd, swaying my hips my body moving in time to the incredible music now pulsating through the air. If there was one thing I loved more than baking it was music, music was a passion I adored it. Like Ana loved to lose herself in a good book, I loved to lose myself in music or just dance the night away with people who loved a good beat as much as me.

The music seemed to vibrate through my body as my hips, my arms my entire self moved of its own accord in response to all around it. I was fully aware of one set of eyes on me. Jamie Mitchell, a fellow business classmate who'd asked me out on more than one occasion over the last 2 years and each time I'd shot him down. He was relentless though and if I was honest, I felt happy that after tomorrow I wouldn't see him ever again, something about him made me nervous and not in the same way I found myself nervous around Christian. No, this was different and I couldn't explain why there was simply something off about him.

Chancing a look up I casually glanced towards the bar my eyes skimming over where he stood, leaning back against the bar a bottle in his hand as he watched me. He was handsome of course, wavy black hair that fell to his shoulders, shockingly green eyes, fair skin, broad shoulders, a physique most would crave but he was unsettling.

As the song changed I looked towards the table I'd previously occupied hoping maybe Kate had seen and would mount some sort of 'two's safer than one' rescue dance but no. Kate was still sat at the table but this time Elliot was by her side, his strong arm around her shoulders, holding her close as he kissed her forehead tenderly. I smiled softly again though as my eyes shifted a little to the left I felt my movements tense and my heart skip a beat.

There sat at the table in my seat, watching me with a burning intensity was Christian Grey! Even under the pulsating, ever changing lights I didn't miss the dark look on his face as he took a side long glance in Jamie's direction. Possibly wondering who he was and why he was watching me. Though in my mind the better question would be, 'what the hell he was doing here?' Suddenly the almost kiss flashed to the forefront of my mind as did the memory of how it had felt being so close to him, how his scent had driven my senses in to over-drive and I had to close my eyes and turn my back to him.

My body seemed to scream in protest but I was determined not to let him affect me like this anymore, especially after he'd so rudely ran away. Flashing red lights appeared as admonition whenever I saw him; maybe it was time to start heading that warning. I didn't want complicated and that's exactly what I knew it'd be like with him. Maybe I was over-thinking again; maybe I was reading too deep into something simply in my mind, the point was I wasn't sure I wanted to risk it. Cursing inwardly as I realized I was still thinking on it all I shook my head and swayed my hips more n time to the music, my hands moving up, combing through my hair as I danced trying to get lost in the music again.

As I moved I kept my eyes closed, feeling not only the calming effects of the alcohol but the dancing and found myself beginning to have fun again. Though the moment was immediately dashed when I felt a pair of hands work their way around my waist, gripping my sides as a body moved behind mine. I tensed instinctively and stopped moving as I felt warm breath against my ear. "You look so hot."

Jamie. Swallowing down the bile that began to rise in my throat I made to move out of his grip only to have his hold on me tighten. "Jamie back off." I told him firmly, no matter how many times I told him I wasn't interested he refused to let up, now being no exception. Instead he pressed his hips against mine and a shudder ran through my body, "Jamie..."

Suddenly I felt him back off rather abruptly and I turned only to see Christian stood between Jamie and I, his body tensed and poised scowling at Jamie. "It's in your best interest to leave. Now," he said coldly not once taking his eyes off Jamie and despite the situation I couldn't fight the small smile. Jamie however looked livid and hesitated almost like he was going to protest but seemed to think better of it and took a step back.

"Whatever man." He said, obviously trying to recapture some of his dignity before turning on his heel and stalking out the bar. Blowing out a breath I hadn't realized I'd been holding I looked up at Christian to see him looking down at me, looking down at me with an unreadable expression. Shooting him a wary smile I nervously tucked my back behind my ears, why the hell did I become such a nervous little school girl around him?

"Thank you. He's never been one to take a hint." I said lamely with a shrug of my shoulders. Me on the other hand, I could take a hint, as evidenced by the 'almost kiss' and his hasty departure. Now, stood in front of him I was beginning to realize just how sore I was about that. He hadn't even given me a goodbye, he just took off.

"I suppose it didn't help with the way you were moving." He commented, his tone almost sounded disapproving with a hint of something else. Bristling slightly I crossed my arms over my chest, I wasn't moving in a way that was wrong, I was dancing, I was having fun. Jamie was a letch.

"It's called dancing; it isn't my fault if he can't keep his hands to himself." I pointed out. I wasn't about to be judge dancing the way I did if that's what he was in fact doing. Though the way his steely grey eyes seemed to sweep over me said different and I shifted under his gaze once again. Damn how did he do that? One look and all I felt like doing was melting against him.

"This is true. Though you were mesmerizing to watch," he said, throwing me completely off balance. He'd found me mesmerizing to watch? The same man who'd ran out on me only days previous, he was definitely confusing. Opening my mouth to reply and tell him as such just how confusing he was being a body collided with mine from behind and I was knocked forward, and quicker than possible Christian's hands were on my hips steadying me, our bodies touching and closer than ever.

I inhale sharply, his intoxicating scent invading my senses once more consuming them. Nothing was said; Christian seemed surprised too by the sudden proximity of our bodies. I was in his arms and I was sure he'd be able to feel the pounding of my heart against his chest; it was beating so erratically I was sure any second now it'd burst out of my chest. For what felt like the longest time we stared into each other's eyes and I found myself sinking into those blazing eyes of his, wanting nothing more than to simply get lost in them, lost in all of him.

My eyes flickered down to his lips and I found I wanted to kiss. I wanted to feel those perfectly sculptured lips moving against my own. I can feel his breathing quicken as his chest moves against mine and I look up into his eyes again, his gaze darkening as he focuses on my lips. This is it! A voice in my head screams as we seem to move forward a fraction, my head tilting slightly to meet his when the moment is very suddenly and abruptly shattered by none other than Christian himself. He closes his eyes and shakes his head, his steadying hands on my waist slipping away as he puts some space between us.

When his eyes open I can see resolve there and I fight down the urge to scream. Not again! My body seems to vibrate in frustration as I look back at him and I feel like such a fool for getting so close again. "Jessica I'm sorry, you should stay away from me." He says his eyes searching mine; no doubt he can see the frustration there flare up even more from his words. Stay away from him? He came to me...twice!

Humiliation seems to wash over me. Again I imagined something that wasn't there, or did I? Surely if he hadn't have wanted to we wouldn't have gotten that close. Still it was the second time and as well as feeling humiliated I felt frustrated and annoyed. Twice he'd brushed me off and twice I'd allowed him to, what the hell was wrong with me lately? Shaking my head I glanced towards the table then back to Christian. "If that's how you want it. Excuse me." I said and before I can say anything else or begin to ramble as I so often do when nervous I brushed past him, beyond happy I stayed steady on my heels as I approached the table. "Guys I'm off, I'll see you tomorrow." I say, not waiting for a reply before I grab my bag, throw a half hearted wave at them and make a quick beeline for the exit. Kate had been locked around Elliot and Ana was nowhere to be seen so it was doubtful anyone had realized I'd gone anyway.

Stepping out into the cool air I finally allow myself to breathe, taking a moment to gather my bearings and assess if I'm okay to walk back to the dorms. Realizing I'm okay and disappointedly rather sober compared to the drunks around me I begin my walk. Running my fingers through my hair I shake my head, frustrated with myself and the man currently plaguing my thoughts. Stay away from him? Why was he in my bar then or at least why had he come with Elliot? It didn't make sense and at the risk of sounding like a child, I didn't think it was fair. I was confused all the time since we'd met and I didn't like it one bit.

"Jessica. Stop,"

I hesitated upon hearing him calling out my name, thinking I was imagining things I glanced over my shoulder and rolled my eyes as I stepped onto the pavement, continuing walking despite his commanding tone when he'd told me to stop. "Not now Christian." I sighed, applauding myself my steps stayed steady, unwavering as I moved. Then again a hand on my arm tugs me back sharply and I gasp as I'm spun around, pushed backwards, my back hitting the cool stone wall behind me.

With wide eyes I looked up to see Christian and the intensity in his gaze seared right through me. As he moved closer still, I felt his hips press against mine, I had no room to breathe as his body curved over mine trapping me. "Never walk away from me." There was a dangerous edge to his voice and whilst I'd normally throw back at him the double standards of that command, I couldn't deny the surge of arousal that coursed through me from his words. Desire surged, encouraged by the heat and powerful presence of the man now pressed against me. My tongue flicked out against my suddenly dry lips and Christian growled.

Quicker than a flash his fingers flexed around my waist, his others threading through my hair, pulling at the silky strands as he tilted my head and his mouth crashed against mine bruising them with the intensity of the intensity of the action. I was stunned, pleasantly so as the desire I'd felt seemed to explode within me and without hesitation I'm kissing him back. His lips were firm and demanding though at the same time gentle, passionate and I sighed against him as his tongue dipped inside my mouth. I'd been kissed before but this was different, this was something louder and more explosive than I'd felt before.

I dropped my bag to the pavement, not caring as my hands moved to his hair, my fingers combing through the silky strands tugging him closer still. Christian growled against my lips, deepening the kiss. My heart pounded against my chest as he moved against me and I became aware of every hard inch of his what I could only assume was an incredible body. Heat pooled to the apex of my thighs as his hand slipped down my jean clad thigh in a possessive glide, igniting the fire within me. I wanted this man more than I had wanted anything else before and I wanted him here and now.

Abruptly though the kiss ended quicker than it had began when Christian tore his lips from mine. I gasp my head spinning as I stare back at Christian. His chest was heaving, his face hard and his gaze heated, determined as he ran his fingers through his hair. My eyes closed, severing our connection as I took a breath swallowing a lung full of air to try and regain some of the composure I'd lost. I bit down on my lip, opened my eyes and began straightening my clothes. "You seem to enjoy screwing around with my head." I commented, happy I'd found my voice.

"Believe me that's not my intention." He murmured and I finally found the courage to look back at him, my face flushed a light pink. Still the arousal I felt pulsated through my body and I couldn't deny that even now with space between us, I still wanted him. Badly. "But that cannot happen again, not like that."

I frowned, looking back at him. Seriously? My head was spinning, what the hell was he doing? Shaking my head I crouched low to pick up my bag. "And there you go again." I replied standing up, beginning to feel frustrated by this confusing man. He wanted me I know he did; I could feel his want when we'd kissed, when he'd been so tightly pressed against me. "You tell me to stay away from you then kiss me like that Christian, that's not fair..."

Christian's finger pressed against my lips shutting me up instantly. "Don't. I only meant to say it can't happen like this again. Jessica I wasn't lying when I said you should stay away from me but it's me who can't stay away from you even knowing once you find out the truth you may run." He sighed shaking his head making me frown again as I looked back at him.

"What does that mean?" I asked, fighting against the urge to smile brightly over the fact he had admitted he couldn't stay away from me. Why would he think I'd run though? Christian smiled slightly, his index finger running over my bottom lip before he pulled back his hand.

"You'll find out tomorrow when you join me in Seattle." He said, more a fact than him asking me and I wasn't sure how I felt about him not even bothering to ask me. I couldn't go with him though, tomorrow was Graduation and then I'd be moving to Seattle the next day. "Until I get your written consent to do so I won't touch you again, I'm sorry I lost control like I did just now."

"I'm not." I felt my face flush, surprising myself with my words. Christian inhaled sharply and I watched his eyes darken slightly. He steps forward invading my personal space again and making my heart race dangerously, his scent once again invading my senses. Was he going to kiss me again? I wanted him to, more than anything.

"I want you as mine Jessica and I'm a man who always gets what he wants." He said and I had no doubt he was telling the truth but he had me. Or he could have me all he had to do was say, why did he seem to think I'd walk away? I was pulled from my musings when he lifted his hand again, his thumb brushing against my bottom lip a fire blazing in his eyes as he did so. "We'll leave straight after the ceremony. Until then."

With that he leaves, he just leaves me standing here against the wall feeling more aroused than ever before and from only one kiss? I watch him leave, striding across the car park his steps full of purpose, with a confidence I actually envied. Lifting my hand I touched my lips lightly and shook my head, squirming slightly from the ache I felt in the lower part of my body. "You are so screwed Watson." I muttered, watching Christian till he climbed into his car, the door being closed by his driver. Still flushed I closed my eyes and turned away, trying to maintain the composure he'd completely shaken as I began walking once more, eagerly counting down the hours till I saw him again.

I was definitely in trouble!


Internet went down so I've been completely cut off for the last week, suffice to say I've had nothing else to do but write. Only thing I couldn't do was post sadly but here it is finally, Chapter Three and I hope you guys like it, it was certainly fun to write.

Some may think they got to the kiss quick but look at it this way, they met a week ago. So in reality, they're relationship is still moving a hell of a lot slower than AS + CG's lol

Anyways as always let me know what you think! Now onto review replies!

monie34 – Thanks for the review hun I do hope you enjoyed this chapter as well. I appreciate your feedback.

qtowngirl – Thank you for the review hun! Glad to see you like the storyline so far, hope you enjoyed this chapter.

Shellbean – Thanks for the review! Yes they do have that in common but in Jessica's case she doesn't have the same kind of ambition Christian had to get where he is, she just wants to do what she loves. Bake. She is a take charge kind of girl; she has her own mind and idea of how things should be. I love her character I truly do I'm here learning new things about her every single day and I love that. The near kiss did freak him out but as you can see...he couldn't resist. Hope you liked this chapter.

MrsLeona – Thanks for reviewing hun! Your reviews always make me smile. I'm glad to hear you love them like I do, I'm so excited to see their story unfold, it's going to be different and still very complicated I think. Christian is Christian. In my mind the connection between him and Jessica is instant and that's the thing freaking him out, like with Ana he can't resist but is trying so hard to do so, for her sake more than anything. He's a very self-destructive kind of guy I think and we'll see some of that. Jessica is my favourite character; I love everything I'm learning about her so happy to know you love her to. She does have backbone; she knows what she wants and won't be pushed about. Hope Ana and Christian's relationship explanation was okay, how did you find it? Kate is going to hit the roof soon I think. As for Elena...can we really have a story without that woman in it? So yes we'll see her soon. Let me know what you think!

pammathews1 – Thank you for the review. I won't be scared away from the story I'm too involved in it now and adore Jess and Christian's unfolding journey. Glad you like this story so far hope you enjoy this chapter as well!

Guest –Thank you for the review hun and I understand I do and I appreciate your honesty. Thank you for reading anyway and thanks for your kind words.